Totally Screwed
I didn't sleep that night. Instead I laid there staring at the ceiling listening for when Alex came home smelling like alcohol. He stumbled to his bedroom like an idiot, if mom caught him he was so dead. I flung myself off the bed with a groan and ran for the door. Swinging it open there was a immensely drunk Alex in the corridor holding himself up with a sign post. Oh dear god.
"Alex what the hell have you been doing?" I frowned as I slung his arm over my shoulder.
"Me and Steven went out with these girls from our year." He slurred. Amanda was in his year. "Then I can't really remember much. I think I have sand up my ass crack."
"Urghhh Alex I don't want to know about your ass crack antics."
"Man…I kissed a girl."
"Really you…thought you liked men."
"Nu uh. She was reeeeaaaallllll nice. Amanda." I froze instantly. Amanda kissed Alex, really? I mean why do I care? What's this sharp stabbing pain in my chest, urghhh man that sucks. Alex was starting to way me down and I realized he had fallen asleep on me. Aww man. I dragged him to his room at the end of the hall and dropped him on his bed. I looked at him a moment and found the lipstick mark on his shirt. He wasn't lying then.
My head was over come with all these strange feelings and emotions, one's I couldn't understand and some that even scared me. Screw this imprinting shit. I made my way downstairs and decided like Alex I was going to get thoroughly rat arsed and drink myself to mere happiness. I pulled out the scotch from the top shelf of the kitchen cupboard and took five straight gulps. The happiness never came. It didn't even numb over that un ease I had in my chest but it did knock me out.
"Collin." Some one was pushing my shoulder. "Collin!" The voice was stronger now.
"Leave me alone." I grumbled, ducking my head back into my arms.
"Collin Willis wake up this instant." My head throbbed at the invasion of the loud noise.
"Mom." I groaned.
"Don't you mom me. Get up, shower and get your ass out of this house." She yanked at my top. "You reek of alcohol."
"Urghhh be a bit quieter."
"You better not have just told me what to do." My mom was literally pulling me up the stairs by my collar. How strong can she be? I was forced into the shower with my clothes on as the water pelted down on me. "Sort your self out Collin." She shouted as she slammed the bathroom door. That has too be the worst wake up call I have ever had. I pulled off my now soaked t-shirt, jeans and boxers and actually relaxed a bit under the warm water. But I can't ever be happy can I, the bangs on the door proved that.
"Collin, hurry up I need a piss."
"Hold on." I shouted to Alex. He kissed my imprint the had no right to tell me what to do. Surely there is some kind of punishment to that.
"Hurrrrryyyy, I'm gonna peeeee." Maybe I will let him pee, let mom be mad at him for a bit. "COLLLLLIN!" I let out a low growl and grabbed a towel wrapping it round my waist.
"There you go gay boy. Hope you had a fucking good night." I shouted as I made my way to my room. God I'm so angry at the moment. My body was shuddering and I was just waiting for myself to phase but I couldn't do that not in my amazing room which I share with Brady, and if I so much as dent that drum kit he will kill me. Oh well I am on duty anyway just as well get there early. I ran for my open window and jumped out bare ass naked forming into a wolf as I did so. I took a look back to see my mom's shocked face through the window turn into shouts.
"COLLIN WILLIS YOU DARE JUMP OUT OF A WINDOW LKE THAT AGAIN!" She still doesn't really get that when you are a wolf you can do quite a few things without getting hurt. She'll freak about me jumping out a window but fighting vampires it's off you go sonny boy, do your duty.
"Jesus Collin early for patrol, what is the world coming to." Jared sang in my head.
"Yeah yeah what ever. Where abouts are you?"
"Just passed Emily's Diner."
"Alright."
"If this is you making it up to Sam and Brady you know it's not gonna be enough right." Jarred said.
"Yes I am well aware of that."
"Well, I'll leave you to it. Embry's phasing now."
"Right see you later." Soon I was left on my own in the silence, that was hard work keeping from them that I had imprinted.
"WOAH when did you imprint?" Embry basically shouted in my head. Well that fucking went well didn't it. "Dude seriously you imprinted."
"Yes Embry I imprinted." he started laughing at me, loud howls and woots. "Oh yeah so funny this is."
"First Brady now you. You anti- imprinters are dwindling."
"Fuck off Embry. If you must no I'm not going to even acknowledge she exists." He stopped laughing at me completely and it went silent once more. Peace at last.
"You can't do that Collin." Embry had taken on a serious tone of voice. "you can't just ignore the pull you have."
"Why? I've done well so far." But I hadn't had I. As soon as I found out Alex had kissed her I had already started falling apart. I remembered the empty the bottle in my hand when I woke up and the sharp pain in my chest that I was getting now.
"Seem's to me you haven't."
"Don't give me sympathy."
"I'm not, I think you are an idiot." When you imprint the natural thing to do is try and get close to the one in question, find out about her, try and understand. You've done the opposite though haven't you Col. You pushed her away." More images of last night with Laura and seeing Amanda's hurt face as I walked away. "You hurt her Collin."
"Great make me feel better."
"How stupid can you be? You can't play with things like this it's serious."
"I don't see why we depend on it so much."
"It makes us live. If we are not with our imprints and they are hurting it kills you inside. Sometimes them as well. You have to sort this out Collin you need to talk to someone."
"I'm talking to you aren't I."
"Not me. Sam or Emily, hell even Jacob or Paul." Yeah Paul's a great one he's just obsessed with sex. "He may be, but he knows."
"Look there's no point." I stated. Embry let out a loud growl and let rip.
"WHY ARE YOU SO AGAINST IT COLLIN? IT WILL KILL YOU!" My heartbeat picked up in my ears.
"I'm a monster aren't I. What if I hurt her?" Embry let out a sigh.
"Is this what it is all about."
"Hell my dad hurt my mom and he wasn't even one of us."
"Collin. You wont hurt her and if you do it happens to everyone. I've hurt Liz a couple of times with little arguments but it all gets resolved. You can't be afraid of this okay you just have to move on."
"But Emily."
"Emily was a complication and Sam lives with what he has done every day. You know how he tries his hardest to get over that. Over what he did to Leah as well. He can't forgive himself but he has found that happiness in Emily now. You have to try Collin. You have to."
"But Alex. She kissed Alex." Embry just smiled.
"Didn't mean anything if he's gay." He winked at me. I can't believe I am even contemplating having and imprint now.
"You are all going to laugh at me aren't you?"
"Only fair we did it to your brother. Hell we even danced around him." I let out a sigh. Well maybe I can give this a shot? "You go Col. Be a man."
Authors Note: Well here's the next chapter. A lot of you have been adding this story and my others to your alerts lately and I thank you for that and the support. Sorry the chapter is late and I've been cruddy at posting them all. I will tell you now though that it may be one chapter every two weeks now or something with the odd freak one in the middle. It all depends on my mood. Thanks for sticking with me.
