Author A/N: Sorry it took me so long to post I have been held up with school, but I hope to make more updates more frequently.

Disclamer; I do not own Evangelion or it's characters.

Light streamed in through the closed blinds of Shinji Ikari's window. The birds were chirping , and sounds of traffic bustling nearby filled the boy's room as the city's occupants made their morning commute to work.

The boy in question was sound asleep, blissfully ignorant of his environment. Half of his body was draped over the side of the bed wildly, and covers where strewn everywhere.

Suddenly the loud noise of a jackhammer filled the air as construction was being done on the street adjacent to Shinji's complex. The boy fell off of his bed as he jerked out of reflex , making him awake from his peaceful slumber.

"The fuck?" He said sleepily as he righted himself by leaning up against the frame of his bed , rubbing his head as he did so. The noise continues as it was joined by the beeping of a truck that was backing up.

His brain started firing it's cylinders slowly , as Shinji looked at his clock; it was only 8:30am. He was about to panic as he realized how late he had slept in when he remembered it was Saturday.

"Phew , that was close. I wonder if Misato is home." He said as he stood up, popping his back as he did so. He ran a hand through his ever-growing mane of hair. He had wanted to get it cut before , but now he thought it added a wild edge to his character.

He plodded through the apartment, his bare feet making light thumping sounds on the floor as he did so. It was completely silent despite the construction outside.

The coast was indeed clear as he walked through the apartment. He knew Auska was staying with Hikari , thank god, and Misato had already left for work and wouldn't be back till later on tonight. His face broke out into a wide grin as the facts were laid out before him.

It was Saturday.

No one was home.

And he had plenty of weed.

He almost laughed out loud but managed to hold it in. He then turned on his heel and made it back to his room. He went to his desk where his laptop was stationed. He disconnected the cord from the side and picked it up.

Next, he went to his night stand, and opened the drawer. He grabbed his joints , lighter and his switch blade.

'Never can be too safe.' He thought to himself. He had been trained in hand to hand combat and short ranged weapons such as knives to increase his ability to use the prog knife, so he could wield a blade fairly well.

He then exited his room and made his way to the balcony, stopping to feed Pen-Pen .He walked through the glass sliding door that led to the balcony dropped his cargo down on the patio table that was placed outside.

He moved a chair that was on the far side of the balcony parallel to the patio table. The floor that Misato lived on was fairly high up , giving Shinji an ample view of Tokyo 3. He saw early morning commuters, the lush green hills that framed the sun as it rose, and finally a wide set view of the deep blue sky above.

Shinji gazed at the sight with a small heat in his chest.

With his sentimental moment of the day over, Shinji plopped down into his chair and opened his laptop.

He opened his Music player with a few deft moves of his hand and started scrolling through his library, looking for a song suitable for his smoking pleasure.(You know the drill. MGMT-Weekend Wars).

Shinji then reached over and grabbed his lighter and his joint with his right hand. He brought his hand near his mouth and grabbed it with his lips. He then flicked his zippo open and lit the joint, creating a red hit cherry.

He took deep hits , smoke drafting around him as the sunlight's rays hit his being. Shinji nestled himself into his chair, ready to enjoy his trip.

That was until he felt his pocket vibrate...

"What in the hell? "Shinji said as he reached into his shorts pockets. He pulled his hand out revealing his phone.

"Hmmmm must have went to sleep with it in there." He said thoughtfully. He vaguely remembered texting Ritsuko for a while as he smoked in his bed before he went to sleep.

He turned the volume down on his laptop and flipped his phone open.

"Hello." He answered as he took another toke.

"Baka Shinji!" An irate voice yelled out of the phones small speaker, despite its size. "You need to learn to answer your phone faster." She said as if he was a pet that had disobeyed his master.

"And you need to learn how to not be a bitch all the time." He replied as he blew a plume of smoke from his nose.

Auska almost crushed the phone to small, cheap plastic bits. There it was again..Shinji had yet again defied her, and bluntly so.

"Oh you are so dead when I get home 3rd." She said in a low growl.

Shinji dabbed his ash onto the concrete below with a careless flick of his finger. "Whatever, you seem to fail to forget the simple fact that I don not care. Now if you'll excuse me I have a weekend to enjoy with out that gaping hole that seems to have the ability to spew an immense amount of bullshit that you just so happen to call a mouth. Ta ta now." He then clapped the phone shut.

Auska was flabbergasted as she stared at the phone.

"Are you ok Auska?" Hikari asked as she walked next to her gaping friend. Little did Shinji know that Auska and Hikari were both on their way to his current location , and were just down the street.

Auska answered by quickening her pace.

'uh oh Shinji must have pissed her off.' Hikari thought to herself. She hoped Shinji was ready to fend for himself if the occasion called for it.

She then remembered how casually he handled himself yesterday and the rooftop incident from yesterday entered her mind. She enjoyed it far more than she thought she would, which was strange because she mostly heard negative things about the plant. She figured she'd ask Shinji about it later.

"If Auska doesent kill him first that is." She muttered to herself as she quickened her pace to catch up with Auska.

DOD...

Shinji was still toking away. He had just finished his first joint and had just lit his second. Smoking leisurely as he saw a flock of birds fly by.

He then heard the familiar sound of a door being brutally slammed. He knew who had done it by the sound alone. He sighed as he knew what was about to happen.

"SHINJI!" Auska bellowed.

"It is to early in the morning for this shit." He said as he got up from his perch and put out his joint on the concrete under his feet. He grabbed everything on the table and put the items into his pockets, leaving only his laptop.

Once again a look of indifference was plastered on his face as he picked up his laptop and went inside. He was greeted with the sight of Hikari sitting at the kitchen table. She was wearing sandals with a white skirt as well as a blue shirt. It looked nice on her in Shinji's opinion

"Hey Hikari." He said as he walked by making his way to his room.

"Hey Shinji, I would be careful about going in there if I were you." She said. She knew he had been smoking outside from the loud scent, but she didn't know how much of a secret he wanted to keep it. So she just gave him a heads up so he could at least be able to have the option of covering his ass.

"Please, I have to live with this." He said stressing the word 'live'. "I think I can handle her." He replied as he opened his door.

"Fuck!" He said as he almost bent back to a 90 degree angle to avoid the hand that had lashed out of his room.

He bent himself up to a straight position and looked at the owner of said offending hand.

"Damn I didn't know you missed me that bad." He said with a smirk.

"Get over here so I can wipe that smirk off you face." She replied.

"How about no, actually make that hell no. I've got better things to do than to screw around with you all day." He shot back as he walked around her. He placed his laptop on his desk and went into his closet.

As he had walked around her a scent had made it's way into Auska's nostrils. It was loud and almost citrus like? Shinji came out of his closet in black cargo shorts and black sneakers with no shirt. He walked over to his dresser and started to look for a shirt.

The sun filtered in through his blinds, she looked at his toned physique. Tracing the lines of his biceps, to his pectoral muscles...

She was broken out of her trance when the smell hit her once again. "What the hell is that smell?" She sniffing in the air. It smelled slightly like smoke , but again the smell and intensity of it was different.

"It's my new cologne, it's called the green beast." He said without looking up at the girl.

Shinji showed no fear of Auska figuring it out. He was too high to care , and he liked it that way. He liked the feeling of not having to worry about anything and everything constantly .He knew if she found out all she would do is tell Misato, which would be bad if he didn't have both Ritsuko and Kaji supporting him.

He knew Ritsuko was her voice of reason , and Kaji...well he was her something that was for sure.

"Green beast? Sounds cheap." She replied

He slipped on a white T shirt, and turned around to look at Auska. "Ok what the hell are you still doing in my room?" He asked.

"I can be wherever I please third." She said stomping her foot and sticking her nose high into the air in her famous I am better than you pose.

"Ok then well I'll just go outside then." He said with a grunt as he pushed his way past the red head.

"And for the last god damned time my name is Shinji, try not to wear it out will you." He shot over his shoulder as he walked out of earshot as the girl screamed in frustration at the boys new tenacity.

"Well that's one annoyance out of the day right Hikari?" He said as he walked into the kitchen.

"Wow , I'm not sure ive seen her that angry before." Hikari said in awe as she heard the scream.

"Meh it's usual around here. I wish that girl came with an off switch sometimes or some batteries." He said in a pondering tone of voice.

"Anyway , im going outside. Would you like to join me?" He said with a wiggle of his eyebrows.

Hikari was confused at first , but quickly caught on as she figured out what he was referring to.

"Wouldn't it be bad if Auska caught us?"

"Naw, she's probably in her room brooding , or going on about how great of a pilot she is." He said without missing a beat, clearly the effect of his smoke session.

"On top of that remember I do have a prescription for the stuff." He said trying to ease the girls apprehension. He wasn't pressuring her to smoke, he was simply making her more comfortable with the idea. The decision was hers alone to make.

"But what if Auska tells Misato? She is your guardian after all."

Shinji had thought about that possibility as well and again replied without hesitation. "Prior to popular belief , she's my guardian not my mom. I have put up with so much shit since I came to this city and started piloting, and it's taken it's toll.

I'm not smoking to just get high Hikari. I do it so I don't have to worry about waking up in the middle of the night from a nightmare, or wanting to dive for cover when I hear a loud noise. If Misato can't understand that then I can get a transfer and live on my own." He said baring a bit of himself to the young woman before him.

Hikari felt her heart go out to the boy. She could clearly see the difference between sober Shinji and high Shinji. High Shinji seemed to speak his mind with steel laced in his words. He didn't look as if he had the weight of the world on his shoulders, rather he looked like he could handle it.

She got up from her chair and walked over to Shinji. "Lead the way." She said with a smile and gesture of her hand.

Shinji stepped through the sliding glass door and onto the patio. He reached over and pulled another chair from the side, and placed it near his own. He sat down and pulled out his pill bottle of joints as Hikari sat down next to him.

He pulled out the one he had previously been smoking and deftly lit it, passing it to Hikari when it had a nice enough cherry.

The girl took the offered narcotic and hesitantly took a small toke, still trying to test her limits so she didn't cough.

After a few experimental tokes, she passed it back to Shinji as she felt a slight buzz flow through her body.

"It's a nice day out." She said as she breathed the smoke out, coughing only slightly.

"You know I was thinking the exact same thing earlier." He said as he put the joint to his lips.

"So how did your doctor think it would be a good idea to give you pot as medication?" She asked, the pot loosening her tongue slightly.

Shinji took another hit before answering. "Well I guess she's had personal experience with herself , so I guess she thought it would I don't know loosen me up a bit." He said not sure how to speak for someone else. He figured he'd ask Ritsuko...if he remembered.

"Makes sense."She said as she passed the joint back to Shinji.

At that exact moment the sliding glass door slid open with a thunk. Revealing Auska who had a very pissed look still plastered on her face.

Thinking quickly, Shinji calmly dropped his joint and snuffed it by stepping on it. "Can I help you ?" He said turning around in his seat.

"What are you two doing out here?" She said accusingly. She didn't like the look Shinji had in his eye. That glossed twinkle he had in his eye that radiated calm despite her uncomfortable presence.

"Hikari was just talking to me about some of her single friends that she'd like to introduce me to." He said knowing it would rile Auska up.

Her face scrunched together , making it hard for Hikari to keep her composure. "Ha as if anyone would be interested in a baka hentai like you." She said as if it were a fact.

Shinji scoffed loudly. He was sick of her attitude. He stood up and with a grim look pressed on his face as high was officially fucked up. He knew he wasn't undesirable to women , Auska was just annoying him to the point where he couldn't enjoy himself due to the fact he had to keep defending himself from her bitching.

Hikari ,even though she was slightly inebriated , could see Shinji's shift in posture, and instantly knew he was upset. "Hikari I'm sorry but we'll have to talk later." He said in a low voice. He then made his way out, pushing Auska out of his way with his shoulder as he passed her.

They heard the door slam as they looked at each other.

"Whats up his ass." She said as if she was oblivious to what she said.

"Maybe because you were basically a bitch that just emasculated him?" Hikari said carelessly. The pot had definitely gotten to her as she let her true thoughts rang in the air.

"What?" She screeched. First Shinji now Hikari?

"Look all im saying is that Shinji already doesn't think much of himself despite the fact he's a great person, but when people like you put him down ,your making it that much harder for him to see that." She said shocking her self from the sage tone she had spoken with.

"Look I have to go, you can figure this out for yourself can't you?" She said as she got up and exited as well without giving her the chance to answer. She was beginning to get the munchies anyway.

Auska was confused. She had just gotten blown off by two people who never showed any resistance to her authority, or any in Shinji's case. She knew it was no mere coincidence they were acting the way they were at the exact time. They were hiding something.

She looked around the patio for evidence that would give her the answer she was looking for. She scanned the patio table finding nothing, so she turned her gaze to the cold concrete floor. She almost missed the small white stick like object that almost blended in with the floor had it not been for the gracious gift of perfect eye sight.

She picked it up pinched in between her pointer finger and thumb. It looked like a cigarette, but it had a more unrefined look to it , as if it had been hand made. She brought it under her nose and took a sniff.

She began to feel a bit dizzy from the intensity of the smell, but it didn't smell like cigarette smoke. But then an idea popped into her head; why not ask Misato, better yet why not tell her.

She would leave Hikari out of it, she was not her target, and it would be hard to convince her parents seeing as they don't like her either.

Maybe it would bring the boy down a peg or two. She smiled maliciously as she envisioned it.

DOD...

Shinji had exited his apartment building and was walking down the parallel street to it, not going to any particular destination. 'Glad to get the fuck out of there?' He thought to himself. He had been fed up with Auska's attitude as of late.

His eyes seemed opened now as he saw what she was. Really just a child acting as an adult. He didn't feel the need to take anything off of her anymore, or anyone for that matter.

His thoughts were interrupted as he heard his name being yelled.

"Shinji! Wait up!." Hikari said as she ran to catch up to Shinji, 'Man he must have really wanted to get out of there. Can't really blame him though.' Hikari thought as she approached Shinji. She knew the red head could be volatile , but not to such a degree.

She finally caught up to Shinji, catching her breath as she did so.

"You ok?" He said raising an eyebrow.

"Yeah I'm fine, but I was wondering about you." She said with concern laced in her voice.

"Yeah i'm fine, she just really can get under my skin sometimes." Shinji said as he felt his left hand clench into a fist. With his right hand he retrieved his joints from his pocket. He took one out and put it to his lips, replacing the bottle to the confines of his pocket.

He lit the joint and started taking long deep hits, as he started walking.

"Where are we going?" Hikari said as she followed along.

Shinji thought as he held his breath to get the maximum effect of the herb. He did hear there was a carnival in town. 'Why not.' He thought to himself.

He offered the joint to Hikari and blew out his smoke. "The Carnival." He said as smoke exited his mouth in small gusts as he spoke.

Hikari couldn't help the smile that appeared on her face. She took the offered joint and took a hit, making the cherry burn bright red for a substantial amount of time. She held it in for 5 seconds and blew it out, sending a torrent of smoke around her.

"Damn, I give that 3 points." Shinji said surprised.

She shot a smile at Shinji as they walked down the side walk. It was early afternoon, and the street as dotted with few people to watch the duo enjoy their toke session as they made their way to the carnival .

They soon made it to the carnival. The area was fenced off, and littered with food vendors, games, and various rides and roller coasters.

The two pot heads gazed at the sight before them. Their eyes lit up with a childish glint ,as they saw all the possibilities for fun.

Shinji made his way to the admission booth with Hikari in tow. After a relatively short line, he bought two all access passes for Hikari and himself.

"So what would you like to do first?" Shinji asked.

"Well it looks like they have all the basic carnival stands. Want to go to the bumper cars?" She said pointing to the large platform in front of them.

"Oh hell the fuck yes." Shinji said as a wide grin sprang itself onto his face.

But before Hikari could take a step towards the platform, Shinji had shot off like a bullet towards one of the empty cars. He leapt over the railing using his hand to propel himself over the edge, somehow skipping in front of the line without anyone noticing. He then picked out a purple car and sat ready to cause absolute mayhem as mischief burned in his eyes.

"Damn that boy runs fast." Hikari said as she made her way to the platform, actually waiting in line like a normal human being. She quickly found an empty orange car and sat down in it. She strapped herself in as other people around her began to seat themselves.

Soon everyone was situated and ready to have harmless fun. Oh they were in for a treat.

The start buzzer rang and the cars were granted movement.

DOD

The sound of four ambulances' sirens filled the air around the bumper car platform. Shinji and Hikari were walking side by side down the exit ramp, the latter stumbling.

"Well that was fun." Shinji said with a smirk.

"Not for the 6 people you just ran over!" Hikari yelled.

"They should have moved out the way." He retorted. "Besides they'll be fine." He continued waving a hand at her.

Hikari huffed. He was right, and carnival attractions weren't always the safest. She un tensed her stance and smirked at him. "So what's next?" She asked.

Shinji then waved his arm across the horizon in a gesture like motion. "Everything." He said with a wide grin.

That day Hikari and Shinji did just that. They rode roller coasters of all shapes and levels of danger, played games, with Shinji winning Hikari a panda in a shooting duck game. But they soon grew hungry so they made their way over to the food court area.

The food court offered a variety of choices, all from different nations.

For himself , Shinji had gotten a burger with a side of fries, while Hikari had went with pork ramen.

Shinji chomped into the burger before taking another swig of his coke, before he went back to eating his burger.

Hikari was fairing no better against her own battle with the munchies, as she slurped the noodles in a goku- like manner.

"So what do you want to do next Hikari?" Shinji asked as he wiped his face with a napkin.

Hikari had finished the last of her meal and was sitting back comfortably in the chair. "Well we've done just about everything in this place except the Ferris wheel." Hikari said.

Shinji's eyes widened as an idea entered his skull. "Yeah lets go, are you ready?" He asked as he got up.

"Yeah let's go."

The duo then made their way to the ferris wheel. They showed their wristbands and got into their own pod. The wheel was very large, a little more than half the height of an evangelion. The pods were circular and had open windows for the fresh breeze to come in.

The Pod was lined with a single row of comfortable cushion that served as the pod's seating.

Hikari was looking at the hills, and skyscrapers of Tokyo 3. Enjoying the scenery really. She had to admit that she enjoyed spending time with Shinji. Today she saw a side of him she didn't even know existed. 'The wonder of weed I suppose.' She thought to herself.

Then, out of the corner of her eye she saw Shinji reaching into his pocket to retrieve a joint. They were now at the top of the wheel, the operator having stopped the ride, so the patrons could enjoy the sunset that was occurring.

Shinji lit the joint and took slow drags off of the herb. He then took a long drag and passed it to Hikari. The two passed the joint back and forth as they looked at the landscape. "So Shinji what do you want to do when you get older." Hikari asked.

Shinji turned his head to the side in confusion. Ever since he came to Tokyo 3 he had literally living by the skin of his ass. He had been to busy to even think of what he wanted to actually do with his life.

"I really couldn't answer that to tell you the truth. I guess I just want to be content, that's the main goal I want to work on. Whats a life worth living if you leave it filled with regret?" He said.

Hikari was once again a bit surprised by Shinji's words. The two finished the joint as the ride started back up again.

After finishing their ferris wheel ride, they made their way to the exit as the sun finally set, leaving them in darkness as the street lights came on.

"Well Shinji It's been great but I have to get home, we'll have to do this again sometime ok?" She said with a smile.

"Of course, call me when you get home though so I know you get home safe." He said as they parted ways.

"Ok!" She yelled over her shoulders as she was going the opposite direction.

Shinji then made his own way home.

D.O.D

Shinji closed the door behind him. He then undid his sneakers and put them in their usual place. He looked up to see Auska staring at him from the couch.

Shinji was unnerved by her stare as he saw the devious smirk on her face as a frown was on his own.

"What?" He said gesturing with his hands. Auska was about to speak when he cut her off.

"As in what the fuck are you staring at."

Auska's jaw dropped, but before she could retort Misato's voice rang out.

"Shinji!Get in here!" She yelled harshly.

At that point Auska's smirk turned into a shit eating grin.

"Aw damn." He said as he knew that he had about a snowball's chance in hell of this being good news.

He trudged to the kitchen , restraining himself from slapping the shit out of Auska as he did so. He made it into the kitchen to see Misato sitting at the table facing him with her arms crossed. Shinji then looked at the table to see a small white object placed in front of Misato, which happened to be his left over joint.

He then looked at the hard face of Misato. He met her eye to eye, his gaze unwavering.

"You want to explain this Shinji?" She said breaking the tension.

"Well since it's a yes or no question...no." He then walked to the cabinet to get a glass.

Misato almost fell out of her chair from his response, but quickly recovered. "So you don't want to explain how you brought drugs into my home." She said. She had gotten home about an hour before Shinji when Auska had come to her with what she had found.

She had been confused as to what it was. It smelled like smoke , but yet again much stronger. Also it didn't look like a cigarette. So with no other choice she had torn open the joint revealing;weed. To say she was shell shocked was an understatement, so much so that her brain refused to believe it without confronting Shinji himself about it first.

She knew Shinji wouldn't do anything bad, but lately he had seemed more distant. So she really didn't know anymore.

Shinji walked over to the refrigerator and filled his glass with orange juice and sat down in front of her.

At this time Auska showed up and decided she wanted in on Shinji's seeming demise as well.

Shinji looked at Misato to see her awaiting an answer. He was about to speak when Auska cut him off, similar to how he did to her before.

"He's probably too high to understand , or even respond for that matter." Auska snidely added.

Shinji had a good day and now he had to come home to a cluster fuck comprised of two females. He felt the emotions that he usual repressed, mainly anger, rise up within him. They churned within in him, trying to find their way out. The end result you ask?

Shinji reached into his pocket and pulled out a joint and put it to his lips , surprising Misato and Auska. To their horror he revealed his zippo. He flicked it open and put the lighter to the joint. Breathing in the smoke and blowing it out of his nose. He tossed his zippo on the table in front of him.

Blue smoked wafted around the room as Auska and Misato were completely flabbergasted. "Now does this answer your question?" He said with a stone faced expression.

Shinji was taking a stand , a risky one at that. But he was tired, tired of being ignored. So he wanted to make sure that above all else he would be heard.

Misato's brain was struggling to process what she was seeing. At first she thought the red head may have been up to something , but this was proof in the flesh. She had to do something.

She didn't think of pot as a hobby or medication, but rather a vice, a vice that could harm her Shinji if she did not act.

"Shinji put that out, and give me the lighter and whatever you have left." She said.

"Why?" He asked as he took another toke and blew it out.

"I'm flushing it, you don't need to be doing that stuff Shinji." she said in a gruff tone.

Shinji quirked an eye brow at her and spoke before he could stop himself. "The fuck you are. I don't want to hear shit about me smoking .I don't do anything else but clean up after you and this cunt over here." He said pointing his thumb at Auska." And I don't say shit about it." He said firing off on Misato.

Misato was about to reply when Auska beat her to it. "Who the hell are you calling a cunt you bastard."

She was about to attack when Shinji pulled out the familiar black handle and flicked out his switchblade and stabbed it into the table with his right hand .

He removed his hand leaving the blade stuck upright in the table as a sign. Almost like a border that if crossed will resort in the deportation of Shinji's fist to Auska's jaw.

"I'm not finished. Auska I am tired of your shit. I am literally up to here with your piss poor attitude. I'm not putting up with it any more. If you push my button one more god damn time I swear to kami , I will stick my foot so far up your ass you'll be shitting socks.

Shinji said with acid in his voice. He stared her down with a fiery gaze she did not know he could cast. She fumed, but silently.

Misato meanwhile had was staring at the knife. She'd know that knife from anywhere. She then put the pieces together.

"Kaji gave you weed?" She accused.

Shinji dabbed his joint in an empty beer can. " No It was Ritsuko actually, she wrote a prescription and everything." He replied. The cat was out of the bag, so he might as well tell her.

Misato on the other hand was still confused. Shinji was a pot head, that she understood, but what she didn't understand why her friend would write Shinji a prescription for weed. She would deal with that later.

Right now she needed to deal with Shinji. She looked across the table to see him with his joint still burning in his now bridged hands, mirroring Gendo almost perfectly. His blue eyes boring into Misato like a drill.

She knew it was going to be tough to do, but she had to do it for his own good.

"Shinji you are not old enough to be doing this , it's bad for you. Do you know how much damage you could unknowingly be doing to yourself?" She tried.

Shinji felt his face tighten at that. She was trying to lecture him? Her of all people. Once again Shinji let his nuts drop, verbally speaking of course.

"Says the woman who drinks 6 cases of beer a day, im surprised your liver hasn't filed assault charges on you." He replied.

Misato bristled at the jab. "Im an adult, your still a child Shinji." She replied tersely.

"And that means that I can't make decisions for myself? Just because I'm younger I can't form rational thought? I was younger than this when I chose to pilot evangelion." He paused to take a drag on his joint. " And yes I admit I bitched about it at first, but Misato you know my past , you know what I've been through, but despite all of this I still did it." He said grinding his teeth at the last part.

The pot had made his tongue loose , and allowed his emotions to leak free and take verbal form, the gloves had been removed

Misato felt a jab at her heart as he continued.

"I could go on and on about how you've neglected me , or just outright ignored me , or how your completely wrong, but I wont and you wanna know why?" He asked his voice growing in volume.

Misato was a blank slate, prompting him to continue.

"I don't care anymore. It's only now that my eyes are open and I see how things are done around here,and I can't stand it anymore." He said with finality.

Misato felt her heart break at his words. But before she could add in a response he got up, joint hanging from his mouth.

He grabbed his knife then turned to walk into his room.

Shinji knew he wasn't thinking rationally, but he knew he needed to feel more than think in a situation like this.

He entered his room ,and went straight for his closet. He pulled out a black duffel bag and started throwing clothes into it. Literally ripping shirts, shorts , etc. off the hangers. He was leaving , he had had it with being under appreciated. He didn't care if he had to be on his own , at this point any where was better than there.

He was so caught up in his task he didn't hear Misato walk up behind him. He turned around to see tears at the corner of her eyes, making him falter slightly.

"You're leaving?" She said in pitiful tone. Misato had always thought of herself and her 2 way ward charges as a dysfunctional family of sorts. But now that Shinji was leaving, she knew things would never be the same.

Shinji took another toke and regained his nerve. "Yup." , he said simply. He had finished filling the bag with all the clothes he could, leaving what he couldn't. With what he had made during the angel wars he could buy all the clothes he needed if he wanted.

He hefted the bag's strap onto his shoulder, and walked over to his bed. He put the bag down and started to pack up his personal effects.

"You can't." She said. She was still his guardian and had some power over him.

"I can , and im going to." He said as he zipped up his backpack that contained his laptop.

"So youre going to run away just because I wont let you smoke weed!" She said unable to control her emotions.

Shinji stopped packing his backpack. The air was deathly still as no sound passed to Misato's ears with the exception of Shinji's calm breathing. He turned around to face her , his eyes glassy yet sharp, and focused.

He crushed the joint turned roach in his palm , snuffing it..Not even flinching from the small burn. He then threw the remains in the trashcan.

" I don't run away anymore Misato, if I did I wouldn't even be here. Like I said before I know I wasn't worth much in the beginning , but after all I have done, all that we have been through, I would think that I would have gained even a small amount of respect from you." He said in a calm tired tone. As if he had been repeating it in his head silently for years, or even months.

Misato was silent as her gaze had drifted to the floor. She knew she wasn't a perfect guardian , but had her actions really pushed him this far? Had she pushed his own ideas and opinions aside? These were the questions going through Misato's head.

Her thoughts were interrupted as she heard Shinji zip his bag closed. Her mind rushed to think of a way to keep him, to hold on to him so she could repair what little of a family she had left.

Her desperation caused her military training to kick in. She straightened her back and her eyes gained a cold look in them.

"Shinji as your commanding officer you are not to leave without my permission." In her mind she sighed. She knew if she played this card, although a dirty one, Shinji wouldn't be able to resist her.

Shinji scoffed . "There's one little loop hole to that. You see you only have control over me in two places, and that's NERV and here, but what if I decide to move out?" He replied.

He couldn't resist smiling. He knew that unless Gendo said other wise, which in this case he wouldn't because he is the bastard king and all, he could live where ever he wanted.

Misato's pupils shrunk to peas as what he had said was true. Shinji slipped on his back pack and shouldered his duffel bag. He then walked right up to the prone woman who was slightly hunched over.

He reached into his pocket and retrieved his keys, and then dropped them in front of Misato. He walked out of the room, then the door. Slamming it as he went.

D.O.D

Wow didn't see that one coming now did you? Where will Shinji live now, will Misato recover from the loss of one of her adoptive family members? Find out next time on Days of Daze.