I'm quite sorry for the long wait. I had to do stuff… and it's summer so I went places. Enjoy… Chapter five might have an even longer wait… Because it's kinda hard writing the next part. But trust me, after I get through that. It's going to be crazy upside down world.
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Bella's POV
Wedding Day
The days passed, and then the weeks came. Soon it was the day I was dreading since the beginning of last month.
Edward Masen was going to get married today. Normally, I wouldn't care, I wouldn't pay attention. I wouldn't know. But faith had a different decision for me.
Not only did I know today was his wedding day – the day where he is going to be married away by another woman – I have to go and see the ceremony itself.
It was my own personal hell.
I've hated this day of the month ever since I found out that I had to go. I didn't want to go, no doubt. Why would I want to go?
I let out a frustration groan as I snatched a deep navy blue dress with a V neckline. It hung tight below my chest and flow smoothly downwards. The dress was shorter than I'd like, but it wasn't too short, just about two inches above the knee.
I wasn't really original with my hair. I just curled it.
Shoes, something I used to have a problem with. If you've met me in the past, I couldn't even walk on bare ground with tennis shoes. Sometimes… it's a problem, but not a lot anymore. I rarely trip or anything. I can actually walk smoothly and gracefully. The only time when I'm not able to do so is when I'm not paying attention, in shock, or just have no control.
So here I am, wearing heels. I wasn't up for stilettos, because it was just too painful to go on that. And I'm not much of a fan on stilettos anyways.
I walked out of the house, grabbing my keys and purse. I wasted no time to rev up the engine of my car and drove away to the wedding. I wanted it to be over as fast as possible. I won't linger there anymore than I need to.
The drive was quick, or was it because of my insane drive today? I don't know. I didn't arrive early, but I didn't arrive late either.
I wonder if they started the ceremony already…? Of course I could care less. I didn't want to see the damned ceremony at all.
I got to the church and cracked open the door, just a tiny bit, enough for me to go through. No one noticed me coming in. I just stood there near the door, so if anyone does notice me or recognized me, I'll have an easy escape.
The church was beautiful, an Alice's design for sure. Everything was perfectly done and shaped well. The colors matched so perfectly. The smells of the flowers fix nicely together. A dream wedding for anyone whom marries here.
I took recognition that it seemed the ceremony already began. The bride and groom were already there, everyone was in the position. It was all very quiet for some reason, shouldn't they be saying something? I'm sure that's how wedding ceremony go.
I look around and made eye contact with Aro. He narrowed his eyes at me, possibly because I came in late. But then look back at the groom, ignoring me.
Wait… why is everyone staring at the groom?
The pressure was fully on him now. The moment of silent, during ones saying… it never a good sign.
I suddenly took noticed that he was shaking lightly. And his bride was giving him a skeptical look at him.
His brothers and sister seemed to have fear in their eyes.
Alice was nervously playing with her fingers – the most obvious sign on all.
He took a closed his eyes and took a deep breath and opened his eyes to meet the gaze of his soon- to-be wife.
A smile started to form around his lips as he looked at her, and it grew.
It was like he went through his midlife crisis right in front of everyone here. He seems like he was making an important decision of some sort.
The bride seems to understand, because she too, did form a smile on her lips.
"I do," He answered triumphantly.
Then, cheers erupted in the audience of the long wait of the 'I do'.
"You may now kiss the bride," the preacher said.
As they kissed I clawed my palm, I could feel very much pain but ignored it. My knuckles were tight. And I narrowed my eyes as if it was stung by something.
I walked out to of the ceremony stiffly and was hit by a strong wind. I paused and finally let the wind relaxed my position as I walked over to my car, which was parked very far away for an obvious reason.
I'm planning to also arrive late to the reception party. I wanted all of them to be inside, serving their guest and greeting so they'd pay no attention to me.
God, I just hope Aro, Caius and Marcus wouldn't tell them anything about me.
I got in my car and sighed.
Everything seemed so real. Even I couldn't have imagined our wedding like that. Surely, I never given a wedding as a thought before when we were dating… but that's because of my mother, whom is strongly opposed to marrying at an early age.
Is that one of the reason why he didn't stay as long with me?
I quickly stopped that train of thinking before it could get any farther.
But in the back of my mind, I was purely jealous… not only because she had Edward. But also that she had the family's love.
Of course, they liked me. But they didn't like me enough to think as a family member… no matter how much they said it…
If they really thought that way, then why did Carlisle move for his job? Why didn't anyone stop him?
This obviously showed that they don't really care. They just say it, but their feelings are fake.
I wish I can hate them, but life would not let me….
It was late evening when I arrived at the reception. No one noticed when I walked in. It was actually during the time where the Maid of Honor and the Best Man to give their speech with the groom's and bride's parents.
And Alice was up….
"…All of my life. My whole entire life. Edward was never happy with anything. He was never in love. He didn't love anyone. I've never seen him fall in love ever before. There was a time in my life where I thought he would never get marry again. Boy was I wrong. And I couldn't be more glad!
"These two met by me – all credits to me," She joked and continued, "I met Rafaela Linz here in my class. It was when Edward, Rafaela, and I were in freshmen year in college. Of course, she became my best friend! I swear, I never had a best friend close as her and Rosie! All three of us connected."
I began shaking, tears were threatening to spill. And yet, I couldn't believe my ears to what Alice was saying. We were best friend. Edward said he was in love with me. He fell in love with me… All of this was a lie the whole time to keep me going on and on? To make me a fool? All my questions are mostly answered. Now I'm missing the why's.
Alice continued her speech as I bit the inside of my mouth so hard to keep from crying.
Soon, almost everyone that needed to say a speech said a speech.
While everyone was clapping… I was holding my tears in. These words cut me in so deep, they'll possibly leave permanent wounds in the future.
Esme was the last one, "I'm so glad to be able to be here today. Even though I'm not Edward's non-biological mother, I still love him to pieces. Seeing him grow up is one of the best things. But I've never seen him in love. I couldn't even think of a better wife for him. If I had to remember all the girls that been in his life, short or long, she wouldn't have been a good enough wife as Rafaela is."
I broke right then. My tears streamed down my face. I was sure that the person she mentioned was me. One of the girls in his life. I've always thought Esme was a gentle, kind, sweet person. But what she said today clawed me. I don't think I can ever even feel the same as I felt for her again. All those caring words and action she did to me… was it all a lie? Fake? It hurts me so bad. I'm sure she didn't mean it to hurt me. Because she didn't know that I was going to be a guest here.
I quickly walked to the girls' bathroom and started sobbing. I splashed water on my face as I cried out all the tears I've been holding inside of me ever since I saw that proposal.
Yes, I cried after seeing the proposal, but it was nothing. I kept it inside of me. But now, everything just came rushing out of me like a spring. Crying, sobbing, tears streaming everywhere and ruining my makeup.
"Yeah, I just need to go in here for a while. I'll be back to see all of it!" A voice said from the outside of the bathroom.
I didn't care. I just kept crying and splashing water on my face.
The door opened and I turned the sink off while wiping my face with my hand I heard a gasp.
I turned to the person that gasped and stayed frozen still, staring into her eyes. I did not expect to see her and for her to see me like this, right now.
