"Screw this."
Chuck says with a sardonic smile before he grabs Serena's legs again. She giggles so light and carefree. Chuck closes his eyes for a millisecond blinking. (Savoring her laugh) He grabs her again and throws her against his bed; He kisses her again and as they lose themselves in each other (The bed shaking trembling) they can't help think of the night before.
"We haven't left this room all day Chuck" Serena says after (They both can't believe she hasn't lost her voice). She stretches her legs against his lap and takes another sip of Good ol' Jack. She leans her head against the mahogoney wood head board that at the moment seems like it's on fire. She thinks about what the color means to her as Chuck strokes her legs and kisses her neck. She thinks about the anger in Blair's eyes almost a burgandy as the wine glass she was holding.
"How could you do this to me S?" Blair says drunkenly falling over as she sits in the lobby.
"B what are you talking about?"
"You took Chuck when he loved me me me!!! I hate you" Blair's in tears and Serena just stands by and turns unable to watch the fallen queen and unable to imagine it was her that did this. And she feels so guilty she doesn't think she can look at herself or Chuck ever again. (Though she has no trouble touching him until they're both screaming)
"Let's go out" She says excitedly and smiles nibbling on his neck. Chuck shakes unable to resist Serena in any form he can have her. He throws her down on the bed and kisses her neck. She giggles and he rips his own blue shirt off her. (Baby Blue the color of Nate's eyes when he looks at Serena but he can't have her or the color of her eyes when she's just secure in of to trust him) Serena continues giggling uncontrollably until she lets out a sweet sweet scream. I win are the only words Chuck can think of.
After Serena falls asleep from exhaustion Chuck closes his eyes and thinks. He thinks about how he hates to share her and why he would hate to go out with her. He thinks about how other guys stare and suddenly he feels that anger and he recalls one of his few conversations with Nate before his father's wedding when everything was simpler and different. (Or perhaps just the same)
Nate drunkenly slurs "Chuck I'm an idiot man I'm an idiot."
Chuck holds Nate up as he falls almost crying (Nate was never a good drunk) Chuck wants to stab him for a moment for inconviencing him like this (For being with Serena like this) "Why? You have Brooklyn." Chuck laughs snidely.
"I Still love Serena and now she's with Humphrey that unlucky bastard; I would give anything to be him right now" Nate says as he falls against the wall.
Chuck straightens his tie and prepares to toast for his love (responsibilty) for Blair. He sighs at Nate's foolishness for some girl (Never some girl the only girl worth giving everything for)
"You'll be fine Nathaniel" Chuck says before walking away (Not mentioning that he had seen her and Cabbage patch break up during the ceremony) He goes to make his toast and takes another shot.
Just as he takes a drink there he sees her (he refuses to say her name) looking beautiful even in those hideous bridesmaids dresses. He just stares for a moment and he thinks of her as his Lolita for just a moment; He thinks of the innocence she holds and the vulgarity with which she holds it and he thinks of how forbidden it would be for just one more touch.
Before he knows it they're both drunk and his lips touch hers (She tastes like peppermint on a christmas morning) He composes himself and makes a speech that even his father could be proud of.
Chuck notices Serena's bare neck and kisses it slowly. He thinks of what jewel she would be. Blair would be a diamond (pure flawless but in the end just very expensive glass that's been corrupted). Vanessa would be a black stone ( a chaotic storm in his life.) Jenny would be Cubic Zercoium (trying to be another diamond in the bunch)
Serena. Georgina would be a black Diamond (Steals all the light from the room.)Serena she would be his pearl (Hard to find, beautiful, unique, innocent, Sultry but not at all corrupted).
"I'll never let them hurt you" He says to her quietly even though he knows she can't hear him. He lays back and wonders how and why this took so long and if it can even last. They were both so broken could they fix each other or where they lost forever? He takes a swig and closes his eyes falling a sleep and holds Serena tight.
Leaving the gentlest of kisses on her temple before giving in to everything he needs and just as he does Serena smiles and mumbles "Chuck don't worry about me. You're here" just like she did when she was younger.
Blair Waldrof has never been more ashamed of herself. Nate has left the night before but she still wants to scream. She still wants blood but she can't have it. She wonders would she rather lose Chuck to a stranger or to Serena?
And Stranger sounds better. She hates that S is never perfect but always prefered. How she can always drink more than Blair and how when Chuck looks at her he looks at her like she's everything and Blair like she's anything.
She takes another glass of champagne and calls her father because he will let her cry and than he'll tell her that everything will be alright though she knows it never will.
And when they all sleep that night they recall the same dream
"Chuck It hurts" Serena cries under the tree her knee scratched and her yellow sun flower dress ruined. Chuck follows her and sees the bleeding and a single tear fall from her eye.
Blair wants to scream for Chuck to see her but she's with Nate and it shouldn't matter (but it does because all he sees is Serena and all Nate can do is stare with concern)
Blair goes and scolds S but she cant help but envy her. Serena gets up and runs with Chuck back to the sand before he chases her and they disappear into the horizon and though they are not as beautiful as she and nate or well organized. They look happier than any of them have ever been (or will be).
Secretly we all envy the free. We envy the rare and We envy the happy. But when one is all three hold them tight or resent them with all your might because if you dont they'll burn away.
