A/N, warning, disclaimer are all in the first chapter. If you are interested in reading it. Please go there.
Summary: Kaname and Zero have a huge fight and Zero leave Kaname. Later Kaname is missing and the only one who could find him is Zero.
Beta-Reader: bluerose-28. Thank you sooo much for going over this story and giving me some great ideas for improvement (Bows to wonderful bluerose-28 Sensei).
Thanks to all who reviewed: ZeamagiriZyenn, Zero176085, ben4kevin, and bluerose-28.
The Missing Pureblood ch. 4
Weeks had passed and Zero still hasn't woken up. Kaname still hasn't left Zero's side never wanting to leave the other in fear that he would die while he was gone, or that he would wake and be alone in a strange place. The doctors and nurses that had been coming to check up on Zero had been trying to get Kaname to go get something to eat and get some rest, but he stubbornly refused.
Kaname was sitting on the chair next to Zero's bed, hoping and praying that Zero would wake up soon. President Cross and Vice-President Yagari came in for one of their visits. "Kaname-kun, how is he doing?" Cross asked while looking at the sleeping figure on the bed. Kaname shook his head as he answered. "Nothing yet, there's been no change in his condition." "Kaname-kun, he will wake up. He loves you…that hasn't changed. He'll want to wake up to get the bastard that kidnapped you and caused all of this to happen. Don't worry, he will wake up." Cross finished saying as confidently as he could, but not really feeling all that confident.
Yagari didn't say anything. He just stood by the door, leaning up against the wall, but he wasn't paying attention to what was being said. No, his attention was on the boy in the bed. He was just so very angry because it's just so wrong that he is in a hospital bed and in a coma. He was unnaturally still when he knew his pupil can't stay still for long. This was just so very wrong. He was going to kill the bastard responsible for this, no matter who it was, they were going to die. The more he thought about it, his blood boiled with anger and mentally swore for being too careless.
Cross and Kaname had stopped talking when they heard a growl coming from Yagari. They noticed he was looking towards the bed. "It's just not right." That was all he said and glared at the bed before walking back out the door. Cross hurriedly said goodbye to Kaname and rushed off after Yagari. Kaname could hear Cross yelling his name, trying to get Yagari to stop; but it seems as if he wasn't being very successful.
Kaname turned towards the bed and sat back down in the chair next to the bed. Yagari was right, it wasn't right for Zero to be stuck in bed, so unnaturally still. He grabbed a hold of Zero's hand. "Please Zero, please hurry up and open your beautiful eyes. You need to wake up." Kaname said as a tear started running down his cheek. He was starting to lose hope of Zero ever waking up. "And you need to stop the tears from falling Kaname." said a frogged voice and Kaname looked up. He was speechless for a few seconds, not yet ready to believe that maybe Zero had woken up. Only when he saw Zero's beautiful amethyst eyes open and looking at him was he able to believe. "Zero? Oh god Zero, you're awake!" Kaname said as he jumped up out of his chair, to the bed and started kissing Zero all over his face. Kaname was so excited and so happy that he now had tears of extreme joy free falling down his cheeks. "Kaname…Kaname, hold on. I love you too, but I really am tired and need to get back to sleep. I'm sorry to have worried you, but I will be ok." He took a closer look at Kaname. He became very concerned at the state that Kaname was in. He looked into Kaname's eyes and glared at the other. "I can tell you haven't been taking good care of yourself. Please, go get something to eat and get some rest. When I wake up again, I want to see you taking better care of yourself." Zero said as he closed his eyes and went back to sleep again. Kaname smiled at him, "Yes of course I will. I promise, I will return having been fed and well rested." He walked out the room to the nurses' station. "Please notify me if he wakes up again asking for me. Here is my number. Thank you." He said before walking out of the hospital.
Kaname went to his hotel room that was just across the street from the hospital, showered, dressed in his black silk pajama bottoms, and dropped a couple of blood tablet into his glass of wine. Things were starting to look better. He was safe, Zero was out of his coma and they were going to work on their relationship to hopefully get back together. Kaname knew that no matter what Zero said, he was the reason for Zero leaving him to begin with. It's true that Zero might have eventually resigned sooner or later, but Kaname had driven him away. The fact that Zero had gone after him to try to save him meant everything to him.
Kaname saw that the sun was starting to rise into the early morning sky and he knew that he needed to get some good sleep. He drank his blood tablet wine, climbed into bed, and closed his eyes. Five minutes later, Kaname realized that sleep would be eluding him because he was just so excited and he was having a difficult time just relaxing. He needs to exercise some control over his own mind and calm down. Once that was done, he was asleep in seconds.
The following evening, just after the sun had set, Kaname was already showered, ate breakfast, drank another glass of blood tablet wine, and was heading towards the hospital to see Zero again. He couldn't wait to see his lover's beautiful eyes opened and looking at him with love once again. When he got there, the doctor was in the room checking Zero over. Kaname waited over in a corner by the window. "Kaname-Sama, he seems to be doing so much better. You will be able to take him home tonight after we get the paper work done and signed." "Thank you." was all he said before the doctor walked out. He's relieved, but surprised all the same that Zero was recovering faster than expected. With the wounds he received, it should have been longer, but he wouldn't complain and was thankful.
Kaname looked over to the bed and saw that Zero was sitting up in bed, looking right at him. Zero was watching him intently for a few seconds. "I seem to remember that you didn't look too good last night when I woke up. It looked like you were in old and dirty clothes; your hair was disheveled, and pale and unhealthy skin like it had been weeks since you had any blood. Please tell me that was either a bad dream or that I was hallucinating. Because I swear that if it was real, I will have to shoot you for not taking care of yourself." Zero said looking pointedly at the pureblood. Kaname's eye opened wide before looking away. "Kaname…I had better hear it was just a dream." Zero said with a growl in his voice. It was quickly becoming apparent that Zero was already very annoyed by Kaname's behavior. "I...it was…just a dream?" Kaname said weakly knowing that his answer was nowhere near close to being convincing. The growl coming from the bed told him he was in real big trouble just as soon as Zero was released from the hospital.
"Why Kaname, why wouldn't you take care of yourself? You know I hate it when you don't take care of yourself, when you neglect yourself, when you're busy with business or other matters with the council. Didn't you stop to think how I would react to the state I would find you in? I know you were worried about me. The doctors told me I had been in a coma for weeks and that you haven't left my side in all of that time. They told me they were worried you might collapse and end up in the bed next to mine if something didn't change soon. Why would you do that to yourself?! Why would you…?!" Zero yelled, but couldn't finish his rant as the tears started free falling down his cheeks.
Kaname was there, holding him, before the next heartbeat. "Sshhh, sorry Zero. I'm so sorry for everything. I'm sorry for the way I treated you when we were together. I know I apologized to you before, but I treated you so horribly Zero. I feel like I don't deserve your forgiveness yet and that I need to prove my love for you. No matter what you told me earlier, it doesn't excuse my treatment towards you. I promise you that I will strive to do better. I will trust you; I will believe what you tell me. I know you love me so very much, that you would scold me for not taking proper care of myself; though that was not my intention. Sshhh, please stop crying. I can't stand to see you crying." Kaname said as tears started running down his face, though he did try to hide it.
Kaname continued to rub Zero's back while whispering for him to calm down. Zero soon calmed down, and the waterfall of tears came to an end. Zero opened his mouth only to hic-up when he was trying to speak. Zero was so embarrassed that he blushed. He tried again. "Kaname, what you said means a lot to me, but I don't want your trust freely given. I want to earn your trust; just I want you to earn mine. Trust is never meant to be freely given, but to be earned. Earn my trust as I earn yours. Can you do that Kaname?" Zero asked, hoping that Kaname would agree.
Kaname wasn't sure what 'earning' Zero's trust would mean and he didn't want to mess this second chance up with Zero. "I agree, but what do I do to earn your trust?" This was uncharted waters for him. He was unsure of what to do and the unsurety of the whole thing had him feeling nauseous.
Zero looked at Kaname as if he had turned into some weird creature, until he realized why Kaname was unsure. He then smiled at him and answered, "It's ok to ask questions of where I have been, or who I was seeing, or what I was doing. These questions are ok. It's the accusations that I had problems with combined in the angry tone you used to use on me. Check to make sure that I was telling you the truth. This I will expect for a while until you begin to trust me. I will keep you informed of what I am doing so you don't have to worry. As you begin to trust me you will know when I am telling you the truth or if I am lying to you. At some point the trust will be there and there won't be a need to check to find a lie in what I tell you.
For me to trust you, the accusations must stop. Let me show you that I really do love you and don't doubt my love. If for any reason, you find out that I am lying, get your proof and confront me. In that case it won't be accusations, which are baseless, but fact demanding an answer. This is what I'm asking for. Do you think you can do that; for you, for me, for us and our future?" This time Kaname smiled. "Yes, I can do that, I promise."
It was at this time that President Cross and Vice-President Yagari came into the room. "Zero-kun, my beautiful, adorable, wonderful son has woken up!" Cross said in that annoying, high pitched voice that always manages to piss Zero off. Sure enough Zero started wrestling with Kaname to get to Cross. "Zero you're so energetic for someone who just woke up from a coma." Cross said nervously as he began to walk backwards towards the door and sweat drops every step of the way. Yagari gave one of his extremely rare chuckles and then says, "It's good to see you up and about kid. When are they going to send you home?" "Actually, Sir, we are in the process of sending him home now. I have his paper work ready for his signature." said a voice behind him. He almost drew his weapon out when Cross grabbed his arm and stopped him as he spoke up. "Thank you Doctor." Then he turned to Zero and Kaname. "We will see you both later. There are things we need to discuss." and then they left.
Kaname and Zero nodded in understanding before focusing on the doctor. "We just need to do one more look over before we can release you. Please lay back down on the bed." the doctor said as calmly as he could. The other man in the room was staring at him in such a way that it was making him very nervous. Zero did as the doctor asked. Once the doctor was done, the doctor handed him the paper work for him to sign. Once signed, Kaname picked Zero up, much to the silverete's embarrassment, and carried him out to the waiting limo; all the while with Zero yelling to be put down. The doctor took a sigh of relief now that that was over.
The ride back to Kaname's mansion was a long one, or so it seemed. They were able to speak freely up until this point to reconcile their relationship before Zero was seriously injured and hospitalized for weeks, but now it comes down to practicality. How are they supposed to act? That was the question that was plaguing both of them. Neither of them knew the answer to this question and doubts were lingering like a bad song that just won't go away. Zero couldn't take it anymore. He needed to say something because the tension that was filling up the back of the limo was starting to choke him. He knew that Kaname was nervous, he could feel it, but something had to be done. It was then that Zero spoke up. "Kaname?" Kaname didn't turn to look at him right away. "Kaname, please look at me?" Zero asked. Eventually, he did turn to look at him, and what he saw surprised him. "Kaname, I'm feeling just as uneasy as you are, but I'm still willing to work past this awkward stage of our relationship if you still want to. As I mentioned before, trust is going to take some time and work to build trust for each other. We are going to be entering uncharted waters and it leaves me feeling uneasy. Is that how you are feeling; uneasy because the situation between us is different now? Because how we are with each other is going to be different? This is a good thing, but still nerve wracking, I know this."
Kaname was left dumb founded that Zero was able to pick up on what was going on with him, but then again, he realized he should have felt so dumbfounded once he thought about it. Zero was feeling exactly the same way as he was. That eased some of the tension he was feeling. He then smiled a small, but a genuine one. Zero smiled back feeling the same tension easing from the back of the limo as Kaname relaxed. Zero wasn't relaxed by far, but this awkward tension needed to be eased. Kaname was thankful for what Zero said as he understood that Zero was trying to make things smoother for their relationship. That alone meant so much to him. It was all more important for him to keep Zero in his life now. Zero was just too precious to him. He reached over to take hold of Zero's hand that was closest to him and held it for the rest of the ride back to Kaname's home.
The next morning, Zero had gone to the Association after having breakfast with Kaname. They had talked about the day's plans and of other things that had needed to be discussed. Now he sits here at his desk, typing away in his ever rising frustration, trying to get his resignation done to turn in. His typing skills are that of beginners. His frustration made worse when the old paper trail system that he was familiar with had been made obsolete with the arrival of the new 'electrical devils' known as computers. How the hell did one operate these damn things from hell? He was about to punch the blasted damn thing through the screen when his cell phone went off, and the ring tone was telling him that it was Kaname calling him.
"Hi Zero, I was getting ready to go to lunch and I was hoping you could join me?" Kaname asked, hoping that Zero wouldn't be too busy to join him. "I would love that, where should I meet you?" Zero asked. Kaname could hear the frustration in his tone, but there was also relief there too. "There's this French restaurant that's new in town that I was hoping to try. Does that sound okay?" Kaname asked. Zero wasn't sure about that. The only French dish that he knew was French was escargot, and that didn't sound appetizing in the least. He knew there had to be other dishes on the menu. "That sounds good. I have never been to a French restaurant before, so it should be interesting. I know the one you're talking about. I could meet you there in fifteen minutes?" he said. "Okay Zero, see you there." Kaname said before hanging up. He wasn't too sure where Zero's frustrations were coming from, but he hoped it wasn't because of him, but a work related issue. He would have to be sure to ask Zero when they meet.
They meet for lunch, talk about their day, and discuss Zero's plans for the future. Zero also talked about his problems with the new computer system change at work and how he didn't know how to operate one. As it was, it took him ten minutes to even try to figure out how to turn the damn blasted thing on. Much to his embarrassment, he had to ask for help. Kaname couldn't believe that Zero didn't know anything about computers and chuckled at his lover. Zero's face was beat red and he wanted desperately to hide himself in a corner. Kaname took pity for teasing Zero so he offers to help him write up his resignation to the Association as well as to teach him how to work a computer. Much to Zero's embarrassment about his situation, he then agrees with Kaname's proposal. They part and Zero heads back to the Association. Kaname on the other hand, heads to a high end electronic store to buy everything that Zero would need. As he grabbed the best things for Zero he was mentally checking items off his list. 'Laptop, check. Fan base stand, check. Printer, check. How-to-books for the programs on his computer as well as a few extra books for other programs he would need, check. Thumb drive, check. Printer paper, blank CD disks, and an anti-virus program, check. Next are a computer desk, chair, and other necessary supplies for the desk. Pens and pencils, files, phone, and clock. I'll send Serein out for those.' Kaname thought to himself. He gave Serein the task of going back to the mansion and setting up Zero's office next to his and getting it ready. Pleased with himself, Kaname left to head back to the office.
A few months later, and Zero was in his office at the mansion. The Association had received his resignation and they reluctantly accepted it leaving the possibility for Zero's return should he decided that he wanted to. Zero was thankful for that. At the moment, Zero was going over his lesson plan that Kaname had given him. His 'homework' as Kaname called it before he left for the office, but compared to the rest of time learning his new computer, this Excel crap was driving him crazy. He had to learn formulas, and on top of everything else he's expected to remember these formulas?! Kaname is crazy!
Zero stops trying to figure this out to get the kinks in his neck out when he notices the time on his clock. Kaname would normally have been home two hours ago or would have called if he was delayed for some reason. Figuring that Kaname was too engrossed in the paper work at the office to even notice the time, he would just call him and ask him to come home. He picked up the hand set and dialed Kaname's direct line, only there was no answer. With that attempt failed, he called Serein, only she didn't answer either. Zero knew right then that something was wrong. He jumped up out of the chair, ran to the front hallway, grabbed his keys, his bike gear, and ran out the front door. He sped his way down the empty streets heading towards Kaname's office hoping that what he feared had not come true.
Once he reaches the heart of the city where Kuran corp. is located, he slams on the brakes when the building comes into view. It looks like the building has been turned to Swiss cheese. It was at this moment that what remained of the standing building couldn't take the stress anymore and collapsed down to the ground. He screamed Kaname's name.
TBC: Don't shoot me, but I love my evil cliffie's. When I started writing this story, I honestly didn't know what I was going to do with this story, but whatever was coming, needed to come out as my evil plot bunnies just wouldn't leave me alone, and they wouldn't tell me what the whole story was either. Now I know and I hope you enjoyed this chapter. Please post a review for me as I get excited about the reviews I get as a kid Christmas morning. Thank you.
