No Turning Back Chapt. 4

AU Samcedes

AN: I don't own Glee or any of the characters

Mercedes woke up the next day just going through the motions because she was so consumed by thoughts of Sam and his invite. She walked through the grocery store aimlessly throwing things from her list into the cart. She paid for her food and loaded it into her car. When she got home she got her grocery bags and took them up to her apartment. When she'd brought all her bags in and put away the food she decided to make herself a banana and nutella panini. When she finished she grabbed a bottle of apple juice and headed to her office to send a few emails and enter grades from a recent test for her freshman English class. She was fully focused and on her last test when her phone rang. She glared at her phone as it rang incessantly. She threw down her pen and snatched up the phone. "Hello?" "Hey, it's Sam. I was wondering if you wanted to go to the beach for a little while with me?" Mercedes' breath caught in her throat as she thought back to her conversation with Quinn. You need to end it. I will. I'll just go with him to explain that. "OK. Fine" she looked across the room to the wall mirror. Her reflection judged her. She looked away. "Cool, I'll send the address" they said their goodbyes and Mercedes hung up. She wrote down the address and sat for a while deciding if she wanted to do this or not. Quinn's words rang in her ear as she grabbed her purse, phone, and keys. She forced the words of warning out of her head as she drove to the address. Her phone rang as she entered into traffic. Quinn's name flashed across the screen. "Shit" Mercedes groaned. She pressed accept. "Hey Mercy, I was just sitting at home and was thinking about how it's the weekend and you're most likely thinking about going to see Sam at his cabin, well I have a better idea. Why don't you come over and we can have a girls night." Mercedes kicked herself mentally. Fuck my life Mercedes groaned internally. As the traffic inched along she got closer to a turnaround exit. Turn around, make the right choice. She drove right past the exit. "Quinn, you know I would love to, but I have a lot of papers and test to grade for my classes. That's what I'll be doing all weekend" she hated lying to her friend. When Quinn found out she would be incredibly upset. Mercedes hoped that when she told her three years from now they would be able to laugh about this.

On the other end of the call Quinn side eyed her phone. "Come on Mercy, you can take a couple hours to have fun" Mercedes really did feel bad. What kind of friend am I? "I'm sorry Quinn. Maybe next weekend?" she offered. On the other end Quinn rolled her eyes. "Sure, just let me know" "Yeah, I will. Love you Quinnie" "Love you too" Mercedes hung up and shook her head ashamed. Girl, you know you wrong for lying to Quinn like that her conscience chastised her. "I'm just going to tell him to stop contacting me, nothing is going to happen" Mercedes found herself on one hand hoping they could have a conversation without clothes being removed but on the other hand she wanted to feel his hands on her, his lips all over her body. "Stop" She said to herself. She gripped the steering wheel in an attempt to stop the raging war of emotions and thoughts in her mind. She decided to distract herself so she turned on the radio and sang along to songs she knew. An hour later she arrived at the beach. She sat in her car for a few minutes with her eyes closed. Before the war started again in her head she got out and began walking along the beach. It took a few minutes before she found Sam sitting on a blanket on a secluded area of the beach. She looked around at her surroundings. This isn't good. She stopped a few feet away to admire the young man in a light blue tank and tan cargo shorts. The setting sun reflected on his blonde hair. He sat next to a picnic basket rolling a small stick between his fingers. Mercedes walked to him and he stood up when she got close. They hugged and stepped away from each other and stood awkwardly. "You look beautiful" Sam said. Mercedes smiled shyly. She had on a peach colored sundress and silver sandals. "Thank you, you don't look so bad yourself" Sam waved away her compliment but winked at her. Stay strong Mercedes.

"So, what's all this?" Mercedes gestured to the picnic basket and flowers. "It's a Beach Front picnic" Sam tapped his temple. He bent and picked up the bouquet of Lilies. "These are for you" he handed her the flowers. Mercedes accepted the flowers smiling as she bent to smell them. "They're beautiful, thank you" Sam smiled and invited her to have a seat on the blanket. He opened the basket and pulled out the wrapped food, some glasses and a bottle of sparkling apple juice. He also placed two candles between them and lit them. He took the lids and wrappers off the food. He'd prepared both ham and cheese and turkey and cheese cut into squares. There were also Cool Ranch Doritos and regular Doritos and chocolate covered strawberries with whipped cream. "You did all this for me?" Mercedes asked. Sam shrugged and looked toward the water. "Yeah, I wanted this to be special" he looked Mercedes right in her eyes. Mercedes smiled slightly and looked down at the glass of sparkling apple juice. They sat in silence for a while watching the water and the sunset. "This sunset is beautiful" Mercedes said softly. She took a sip of the apple juice and fiddled with the edge of her shirt. "Yeah but it's not as beautiful as you" Sam said as he reached over and tucked a fallen strand of hair behind her ear. Mercedes felt a tingle run down her spine when he did that. Focus Mercedes. She cleared her throat and set her apple juice aside. "Sam we need to talk" she said as calmly as she could. Her heart was beating so hard she was sure Sam could hear it. She looked into his eyes and took a deep breath. "Sam, you know I think you're an amazing person. You're so passionate and caring. This situation we're in is unfortunate. We have to end it. It should have never began, it shouldn't have continued. I'm a teacher. I see situations like this happening on the news and I say I'd never do that. Jeopardize my job, no not me. But then it did happen. Now I'm confused because I've come to care about you Sam. I care about you enough to put an end to this before I lose my job and we both end up with ruined lives." Mercedes looked up at Sam to find him still twirling the stick around in his fingers. Mercedes wanted to reach out to him but decided touching him wouldn't be a good idea.

Sam took a deep breath and set the stick aside. He looked into Mercedes' brown eyes and sighed. "I understand what you're saying Mercedes, I do but I've been thinking these past couple of days and I've come to realize that I love you. I try to forget about you, but you are always on my mind. I'm always thinking of the times we were together. I can't just walk away from you when I feel this strongly about you. I can't let you go…" he trailed off. He grabbed her hands, tightening his grip when she tried to pull away. He moved closer to her. "Sam. Let me go" she said softly. "I'm not your student anymore. Why can't we just give it a try?" Mercedes bit her lip shaking her head. "I can't Sam" Sam let out a frustrated growl. "Are you just afraid to admit that you want to try? To see if it will work?" Sam asked. He put his hands on both sides of her face and leaned his forehead against hers. "Tell me we can try" he whispered against her lips. He pressed a soft kiss to her lips. Mercedes moved her head when he tried to kiss her again. "No Sam" She struggled against him but he just kept kissing her. Sam leaned her back onto the blanket and kissed her neck. "Sam…" his fingers found their way under her shirt and bra. Mercedes stopped struggling and wrapped her arms around his neck and her legs around his waist. Sam grinded himself into her smiling into her neck when she moaned softly. Sam leaned up quickly to remove his tank before he went back to sucking on her breast. Mercedes bit her lip and ran her hands up and down Sam's arms when he removed her jeans and panties. She played with her nipples while he had fun with her pussy. She arched her back when he sucked hard on her clit. "Fuuuck!" she moaned loudly. Sam licked her faster and moaned when she started grinding her pussy on his mouth. He came up for air and stuck two fingers inside of her while massaging her clit with his thumb. Mercedes moaned again watching Sam bite his lip. He reattached his lips to her clit swirling his tongue around the sensitive nub. "Sam… fuck! I'm coming!" she gasped. Sam flicked his tongue and pumped his fingers until she came screaming his name. He continued to lick her until her orgasm subsided. "Fuck" she panted. Sam moved beside her and ran his hand up and down her thigh. They lay beside each other silently. That wasn't you ending things. Her conscience said. Mercedes looked at Sam and pulled him to her kissing him roughly. She straddled him facing the ocean. She stroked him until he was hard. She aligned him at her center and sank down on him.

Sam gripped her waist to still her once he was all the way in. He breathed deeply as she began to move up and down on him. He enjoyed the view of him sliding in and out of her while her cream coats him. Mercedes bounced on him harder trying to drive away the thoughts that she was only making the situation worse. Sam squeezed a handful of her ass as he watched her ride him. Sam moaned softly as Mercedes rolled and twisted her hips. Sam grabbed her hips to still her and lifted her off of him. He gently laid her on her back and hovered above her. Looking into her as he entered her there was so much he wanted to say but he chose not to so he wouldn't ruin the moment. Once he was all the way inside he placed her legs on his arms and began thrusting slowly. Mercedes bit her lip and moved her hips to match him thrust for thrust. Mercedes rolled her nipples between her fingers and slipped her other hand between her legs and began to rub her clit. Sam leaned forward and kissed her with so much passion it took her breath away. He wrapped his arms around her waist and held her closer to him as he pumped in and out of her. Mercedes wrapped her arms around his neck and moved her hips in time with Sam's. Mercedes panted and clawed at Sam's back as she flew into her release. Sam kissed and sucked on her neck as he slid his hand between her legs and rapidly flicked her clit to make her come. Mercedes held onto Sam tightly as she trembled through her orgasm. 'Come for me Sam" Mercedes whispered softly in his ear. Sam pumped into her a few more times until his muscles tensed and he shook as he shot stream after stream of hot cum into her tight, wet pussy. When he stopped shaking and they had both calmed down and had regular breathing Mercedes shook her head. Sam watched as she straightened her clothes and ran her fingers through her hair. Sam fixed his clothing and stood up. "Mercedes, are you ok?" he asked as she ran his hands up and down her arms. Mercedes nodded but said nothing as she gathered her things and looked at Sam. "We can't see each other again Sam. This happens everytime we're around each other alone. Don't call, don't come by, don't send gifts. ok?" Sam looked at her confused. He took a step toward her but she held up her hand. "Don't" she said before she turned around and headed to her car.

Sam stood rooted to the spot very confused. One minute they were wrapped around each other making love and now she was telling him that he couldn't see her anymore. Maybe it's time you actually listen to her and give her some breathing room like she asked. his conscience scolded him. Sam sat on the sand and ran his fingers through his hair tugging roughly on the ends. Meanwhile in her car headed home Mercedes was seriously mad at herself. She knew better but yet a young guy made her lose control and make bad decisions. Come on Mercedes, it wasn't all him. You had a choice in the matter "Fuck My Life!" She screamed frustrated in the car. She laid her head back against her head rest and closed her eyes. When she opened them again the sun was just beginning to rise. She wiped the sleep from her eyes and looked around her. the beach was basically deserted except for a few people snapping pictures of the sunset or playing with their dogs. She smiled at the happy scene as she cranked her car and put it into drive. As she headed onto the highway she reflected on the events of the previous night. It was hard for her to do but it needed to be done. She needed things to do that would keep her busy. She quickly punched in Quinn's number and waited for her friend to answer. "Hello?" came Quinn's groggy voice. "Wake up, Get dressed cuz we are goin to an early morning breakfast" Mercedes said cheerfully. Quinn grunted on the other end. "A sunrise breakfast huh? Is this to make up for ditching me yesterday for god knows what but I already know?" Quinn said with annoyance in her tone. Mercedes cringed but she knew she deserved it. "I will be honest and tell the truth I did ditch you but not for what you think. I just needed time to think and reflect on my life and the choices I've been making lately."

Quinn was silent on the other line. "Quinn?" Mercedes checked to see if the call was still connected seeing as how she'd just entered a tunnel. "Yeah, I'm here… I'm glad you finally see what I was telling you. everyone has their moments when they do things that could lead to trouble but finding your way back from it shows your true strength. I'm proud of you Mercedes" Mercedes smiled and headed down her street. "Thanks, I'll see you in about 10 minutes ok?" Mercedes got out of her car and headed up to her apartment. When she got inside she got in the shower. While in the shower she came up with some ways to keep busy, one way was to attend lamaze classes with Quinn when Quinn's husband Joe couldn't make it. Another way was to workout or join a Zumba class. When she got out of the shower she felt refreshed as it the weight of the world was no longer on her shoulders. She got ready in a better mood than she'd been in a while. She was liking how she was feeling now, she wasn't going to go back… If she could help it.

A/N: Before you all start yelling at me, there are some things I need to explain! But first I would like to thank everyone who has read this story and left a review, even if you didn't leave a review and you only Favorited/ Followed the story or myself, I really really appreciate so much Thank You. Now as for this long ass break I took… I just couldn't seem to get my creative juices flowing. Trust me I feel bad that for three months you all had nothing from me and I'm truly sorry for that. I will continue to write as I get inspiration. I've been away at Job Corp for the last month or so trying to get used to it. I've been writing here and there when i'm not busy with classes and things. Only thing is that they don't have wifi. I'll have to find a way to get the stories posted. They wont be coming at normal times because of that. To be honest it may be a few more months before I can post another story. Thanks to everyone who has been patiently waiting for this to update. Reviews are my motivation to keep writing :)