Ethan's POV

Three months. Three months since my Sarah left. I felt like someone came and took my heart right out of my body.

I couldn't believe she was actually gone. The love of my life was gone. She told me that she doesn't love me. I get it but I love her.

Since Sarah left, I've become a lifeless zombie. Everyday I would sit in my desk chair and stare at the window of my bedroom all day.

Ethan, I thought. Get over it! She doesn't love you! You're so pathetic to think Sarah would come back to you!

My head's screaming me to forget her, but my heart telling me to not let go.

Ever since Sarah left, I haven't talked to Rory, Benny, or Erica that much. Both Rory and Erica reminded me too much of Sarah. You know? Flying, abilities, flashing their fangs, etc.

How come I can't let her go? It's just that I'm going insane. Every single thing reminds me of her.

Seeing the woods reminds me of her. Watching a vampire movie reminds me of her. Even a random movie reminds me of Sarah because she always wanted to be a movie star.

Every night I would always have dreams about her. Like right now.

I was in the woods. Sarah was there.

"Ethan, let me go!" She hissed.

"I did!" I yelled.

"Whatever. If you really did let me go, then you wouldn't be dreaming about me now."

"I moved on, Sarah."

"No, you didn't."

"I did! I did, Sarah!"

My eyes shot open. I covered in goosebumps and sweat. I hate it when I get hot during the winter.

Today was January 6th. I was already going back to school.

It was 7:48 AM. I was heading outside until my mom stopped me.

"Ethan, are you okay?" She asked.

"Fine, Mom," I said.

"Ethan, I'm sorry but…ever since Sarah left, you've been a different person. You don't talk to Benny anymore and for the past three months, you were just sitting and staring at your windows. I'm worried."

"I'm alright, Mom. I'm not a zombie. I'm not an alien. I'm not suicidal. I'm still Ethan."

"Okay. Bye, honey."

"Bye, Mom."

I drove to school. When I got to the parking lot, I stopped my truck and slammed the door.

When lunch, I saw Benny siting alone at a table.

We haven't talked in awhile. I walked over and sat across from him.

"Holy crap," he said. "You're alive?"

"I talked to you for the first time in a month and that's all you got?" I said.

"Pretty much yeah."

"Sorry for not talking to you that much."

"Well, I didn't think breaking up with Sarah would hurt that much."

"It killed me."

"Yeah. I haven't seen Erica or Rory that much anymore."

"After they told me that they would be there for us no matter what."

"Okay. Well, I think you've gone suicidal. You know? Like an adrenaline freak."

"I'm not like that."

"Oh, yeah. Prove it to me."

"How?"

"Come with me and my cousin, Dakota to her house so we teach you how to ride a motorcycle."

"What's that gonna prove?"

"I just wanna see if you would try."

"Fine, I will."

Once I got to Dakota's house, Benny helped me take my new motorcycle out of my truck.

When we got it out, coming out of the house was Benny's cousin, Dakota.

She had sandy blonde ringlets that flowed gently down the middle of her back. Her eyes were brown and she had freckles that had already faded into her beige skin. Dakota was our age and she was pretty.

"Hey, Ethan," she said. She ran over and hugged me. She let me go and said, "Alright. Lets try out your new bike."

Suddenly, I saw a mind illusion of Sarah in frot of me.

"Ethan, I know you," she said. "You don't know what you're doing."

"I'm doing what you always kept me from," I said.

"Ethan, please."

"You're here so you can't stop me."

I walked away and got on my bike. I started it.

"Ready, Ethan?" said Benny.

"I was born to," I said.

"Go!" said Dakota.

I drove off. It was great.

Suddenly, Sarah's illusion came back to me.

"Ethan, stop."

I ignored it.

"I'm warning you, Ethan."

"Hey, Ethan!" yelled Dakota. "Slow down a bit."

I didn't want to slow down. I kept going faster and faster.

"E, slow down!" yelled Benny.

My hand made the bike go more faster. I couldn't control it.

"Stop!"

Suddenly, my bike hit something. I flew off it.

Not long before my body hit the ground. I rolled onto my back in pain.

Dakota and Benny ran to my side. "E, are you okay?" asked Benny.

"Oh, god," gasped Dakota. "Your head's bleeding!"

My hand touched the side of my head. I felt blooding running down it.

Dakota quickly took her scarf off and held it against my head where it was bleeding.

"Are you crazy, E?" asked Benny. "We're you trying to get yourself killed or something?"

"I don't know," I murmured. "I lost control."

"No more of that, Ethan. Alright?"

"Fine."