Chapter 4
After my full heart pouring confession and left for my cell, I sat there trying my best to compose myself and stop this rain shower of tears. I didn't like crying in front of people. And it just made it more awkward if they can hear me from downstairs. I pray they couldn't.
No one came to comfort me which was a good thing I guess. They were giving me privacy and respecting me hopefully, maybe telling Glenn 'way to go man, making a girl cry'. I doesn't matter whose fault it was, even if it was Glenn's. I would forgive him by tomorrow and probably thank him for pushing it because if he didn't, I would have never said a thing.
I bent over to pick up my backpack and put it on the bed. I opened it up to a little compartment where a held my old pictures. When the outbreak started I told everyone to carry around a couple photos to help you keep moving on and so you can remember the faces you loved. I always told myself that if ever anything happened where you cannot see the people you love, at least carry some photos around.
I took out the photos and shuffled through them until I found a photo of my group. We took it the day we got to our cottage. We were all posing with our guns and making silly faces, obviously not taking this epidemic seriously.
It was amazing how a great group of 6 strong, astonishing people could shrink down to one lonely girl. It was hard to believe that they were all gone. It was weird to think that because we had so many plans, so many other ideas of what to do with our lives. I keep imagining that one day they would all walk through some door and yell "Surprise!" and that everything was a joke. But I wasn't, everything now was reality and they were never coming back, ever.
I looked down at the photo and smiled a bit. I grabbed another photo of when we were all at the beach that was by the cottage. Looking at it now, we were really stupid not to notice the danger we putted ourselves in, which made me smile bigger and laugh. We didn't give a damn about anything; we were all care free people who did what they wanted. Now with them gone, I feel completely not myself anymore. I still have the same attitude I had before, upbeat and always smiling, but inside it was like a black whole.
I whipped away the rest of the tears; put my photos safely away in my bag and lay down. Tonight I'm going to sleep well and tomorrow act like nothing happened.
Rick's POV
After Macy told her heart wrenching story and walked away, we all knew that we may have pushed her a bit too far. Even though we only knew her for a day, I'm sure everyone respected her already, and if they didn't they would learn to.
"Alright guys, let's call it a night. And don't bother Macy either; I think she's got enough of us for today." I said.
The group slowly got up and left for their cells. Carol, I saw was still sitting there.
"You alright?" I asked walking up to her.
"Yah, poor girl's been through a lot. That's all. She so young but so strong, it's amazing to see." She said with a slight smile.
"Yah she is. I'm glad she found us." I said
Carol nodded and headed off to her cell.
"I'll talk to her tomorrow." I said back to her. I tried to look up to see if I can see her in her cell but I couldn't so I left for my cell too.
Macy's POV
The Next Morning
I could feel myself slowly waking up but I didn't want to. I squeezed my eyes so I could fall back asleep because I knew I didn't want to face the group today. Not after last night anyways. But of course I couldn't hide in this cell forever so I sat up and sat there. I didn't feel at the moment ready to go down so I sat there. I tried to whip my face of the possible tear streaks that may have dried on my face.
Then I remembered the camp I was staying at with my 2 friends. The ones I abandoned. Then I remembered my car and all the possible stuff I left behind when my car broke down. I really wanted to go back to my car and possibly bring back some supplies for myself. The group wouldn't notice if I disappeared for a few hours, would they? Yah they would, I bet they would be watching me like a hawk for the next few days, possibly waiting for another break down.
I stood up and took a breath and stepped out of the cell. I walked pass the other cells seeing if anyone was in there, then I saw the baby. It was sleeping in a crib with a t-shirt as a blanket. Carol was in the same cell sleeping too and I didn't want to wake her so I continued down the stairs.
That poor baby, having to grow up in this world not having a proper childhood, all she'll know is to run and hide and to defend herself.
"Hey,"
I looked up to see Carl; I didn't even notice he was there.
"Hey, morning cowboy." I said with a nod
"I'm sorry about your friend and what you had to do." He said
"Oh thanks, but you gotta do what you gotta do right?" I said back then thinking if that was the right thing to say to a kid his age.
"Yah, I know how you feel. I had to do the same thing to my mom, when she was giving birth to my sister." He said.
Wow, did he just tell me he killed his mom. Wow.
"Well, I'm sorry you had to do that. I bet it was hard." I said looking down at his face.
"Thanks."
"Have you seen your dad anywhere?" I asked
"Yah, he's outside with Daryl." I pointed to the door.
"Alright, thanks buddy." I said and left.
When I got outside the sun was already up, it looked about 8am approximately.
I walked around for a while until I found Rick talking with Daryl by the fence. He saw me and nodded. He said something to Daryl; he turned around and starred at me. I looked away.
A moment later Rick waked over to me.
"Everything alright Macy?" He asked.
"Yah," I said back.
"Umm I have something to ask you?" I said back
"What is it?" he said curiously
"Is it okay if I leave the prison for a bit?" I asked
"How long?"
"Couple hours, maybe a day."
"Where you headed?" he asked
"I wanted to go check out the camp that my friends and I were staying at. When I left that night, I'm for sure that I left a lot of stuff behind. I never went back to get it though so now I think would be a good time."
"You wanna go back there along?" he asked with concern. It was nice to see that.
"Yah, I'm fine going along, I was along for almost 2 months. I can take care of myself." I said with a smile
"I know you can but still, I would like you to come back in one piece. I think it would be a tragedy if the group found out you died because I didn't let someone go with you." He said back defensively or maybe he didn't want me to see the remains of my friends and go crazy.
I nodded in agreement. It would suck if I didn't come back, I would like to.
"Ok fine, one person." I said.
"Perfect," he said with a smile.
"Daryl!" he called out.
Oh crap, please don't tell me he was sending Daryl with me out of all the people.
"You know, I think Daryl would be better staying here, you know just in case of an attack. Maggie or Andrea could come with me." I quickly came said before before Daryl was in hearing distance.
Rick turned around at me and laughed.
"I'm sure there's going to be no attack. Besides, Maggie and Andrea are still asleep, don't wanna wake 'em. Daryl's nothing to be afraid off, just don't get on his bad side, which I'm for sure you won't." he reassured me.
Daryl waked over to us.
"Hey I need you to drive Macy down to her camp. She wants to go check it out and see if there are any supplies left." Rick said to him.
"Sure, anyone else coming?" Daryl asked
"No, don't wanna bother too much right now. Just go and get what you need and come back quickly." Rick said.
"Where is it?" Daryl asked looking over at him.
"Couple miles north of here. Half a day's drive maybe. If you don't mind." I said looking away.
I heard him took a breath, from that I knew he didn't want to do this.
"Fine, let's go now and get back early." He said and walked away.
I nodded and ran inside to get my stuff.
Ok, i know not much happened but it will come soon.
I don't really upload much during the weekdays so you usually have to wait till the weekend when i have time.
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