i think this chapter is inspired by the fanfiction 'Cold rain, Warm hearts' by Embracing-Shadows, i like that story.. anyway, here's the next chapter.


"Sirius," James mumbled, his face hidden in the pillow. "I gotta tell you something."

Sirius propped himself up on his elbow and looked down at James who was face forward on the bed with an arm hanging over the side.

"Yeah?"

"Evans...she said yes..." Sirius nearly fell off the bed.

"And..?"

"Well...I said I had something to sort...but we're going out I guess." Padfoot's mind was whurring.

"But...what about us?"

"Well obviously we can't do things now can we? I just wanted to give you something nice before I dated her.." Sirius couldn't quite believe what he was hearing, was this really his James? He slid off the bed and threw on a t-shirt and jeans and walked out the door, stopping briefly to grab their Map. He could hear James calling after him but strode off down the stairs. Sirius wasn't quite sure where he was going but found himself heading for the old tapestry room he and Regulus used to hide out in. Looking a the map he was surprised to see Regulus already in the room, he wasn't sure whether to proceed or not, but something told him he had to.

Slipping through into the room he heard something fall to the floor with a thump. Looking up Sirius saw it was a book Regulus had been reading. His little brother got up quickly and made to leave the room. Sirius reached to hold his arm.

"Reg..wait." Not looking at him, his brother stopped. Sirius took this as a good sign. "I'm sorry. I shouldn't have left you, it wasn't brotherly of me." Regulus sighed.

"But if you'd stayed... it wasn't your fault. Staying wouldn't have done you any good." Regulus turned to face his brother with a sad smile. "I've been so mad at you.. for leaving..but I'm not anymore." Sirius sighed with relief.

"I missed you." Sirius said. Next thing he knew his little brother had his arms tight around his middle and was hugging him as if his life depended on it. "And you're still my brother, Deatheater or no.." Regulus sniffled.

"I wish I could be something else."

"Me too." Regulus let go of him and sat down. Sirius did the same. Regulus felt a bit thinner than he remembered and his face looked slightly strained.

"How have you been?" Sirius asked worriedly.

"Not bad.. getting to grips with this Deatheater business..how about you?" He sighed.

"Dating James, and getting into trouble." His brother raised an eyebrow at him.

"Dating James? And how did that go?"

"Fine, until Evans accepted his date request."

"What? He asked out Evans when he was dating you?"

"Well, to him I think it was just a thing.. I don't know, I don't think he realises what he means to me.." Sirius trailed off and gazed at the wall.

"You should talk to him, tell him how you feel."

"No..that would make him feel torn, he's been after Lily since the start." Sirius got up. "It's good to see you again, properly."

"You too Sirius..you too." Regulus reached for his book again.

"I'll see you soon." They waved at each other and Sirius left for the dorms.

He pushed the dormitory door open with the intention of going straight to bed. But on entering he saw Remus and James on James' bed. Both of them looked up as Sirius came in. James looked very guilty and Remus looked a bit weary.

"Sirius, I'm sorry, I thought.." James started.

"Thought what James?" Sirius so wasn't in the mood for this, he was tired and wanted bed.

"That it was the same ...as all the others..."

"What? You thought I was such a slut I wouldn't have any feelings? Even for you?"

"Sirius..."

"Just leave it James. I'll get over it. I usually do" He flung himself on his bed and curled up as Padfoot so no on could talk to him, he heard Remus sigh and tell James to get some sleep and things would be ok in the morning. Screwing his eyes closed he tried his best for sleep. He dreamt of Lily and James. It wasn't a nightmare, but one filled with jealousy. They would taunt him and kiss and he would shout at James but James would just brush him off.

He woke up sweating and feeling something he hadn't felt for a long time. It was the urge to cut. Sirius wondered if he wasn't good enough for James, was he just someone James had used to pass the time? Had he thought Sirius wouldn't mind? Cos he sure as hell did. He must have transformed back in his sleep. Getting out of bed, he was still dressed so went downstairs. It was early morning. Someone was already awake and doing work by the fire. It was Evans. Sirius sighed and tried to creep past her.

"Sirius." He winced and turned around to face her.

"Yes?" He tried to keep his voice steady.

"I heard you last night, talking to James." She got up and came over to him, she looked concerned.

"Really? Didn't think eves dropping was really your thing Evans." Lily rolled her eyes.

"Was what James wanted to sort out to do with you?" Sirius stiffened.

"I suppose."

"I'm sorry Sirius, I didn't know."

"Don't apologise, it's nothing to do with you, you can have him." Sirius made to walk out of the portrait hole.

"I.."

"Evans. Drop it, I'm fine." Lily sighed but let him go. Sirius strode out of the portrait hole. It was raining outside and as he walked through the corridors he could hear the patter of it on the castle windows. Looking down at his feet he realised he had forgotten to put on his shoes. Oops. As he reached the Entrance Hall he considered going for breakfast but wasn't really in the mood. So he pushed the doors open and stepped out in to the rain. This had to be a stupid idea but he need the air. Turning into Padfoot he trotted through the grounds, enjoying the smells of wet nature. Upon reaching the lake, he splashed into it and started to doggy paddle. This was usually more fun when someone was throwing him a stick, trudging out onto the sand, he lay on his belly and lapped the water. He transformed back to himself and sat up, spotting a small bank he squelched over and leaned against it. Sirius stared up at the sky, blinking past the rain he spotted a patch of blue between the clouds. A bit of hope. He thought to himself. What was he hoping for? It wasn't like Lily and James would break up, they were one of those meant-to-be couples. Sighing, he closed his eyes and let the rain wash over him. It wasn't long before he felt pretty cold. Getting unsteadily to his feet, Sirius made to go inside. His bones felt like they'd seized up but he managed to stumble from tree to bolder and trip over tussocks of grass. It felt like an eternity until Sirius reached the Entrance to Hogwarts. The doors were so heavy though...could he push them open? Leaning against them and feeling like he could just curl up and go to sleep right there, the doors opened and he fell inside.

"Padfoot?!" Sirius groaned and rolled over on the floor. He looked up to see Jamess walking towards him with a worried expression on his face.

"Sirius are you stupid? How long have you been out there?" His friend bent down to heave Sirius to his feet.

"No...don't want.." Sirius tried to say, he was in no mood for James.

"Sirius stop it, come on." The dog animagus gave in and leaned heavily on James to keep from falling over. He was so cold, tired, he wanted to sleep.


I need to make my chapters longer lol, hope you enjoyed..