4. WAKING UP

Edward's POV

Carlisle and Esme convinced me that it would be good to start school again. They thought that that would be a distraction, something to keep my mind busy for a few hours. Of course this was all in vain, but I couldn't deny this to Esme. She's been suffering for me all these years and I had no right to make her more unhappy than she already was with me.

So, here we were, driving towards Franklin High. And, since I refused to drive, we were in Rosalie's new BMW.

My last car had been that silver Volvo, the one I destroyed twelve years ago. Ever since, I never got another car. It's not like I needed one, anyway. I could run wherever was necessary.

Ignoring my silence, the others seemed very excited about this new vampire girl that was coming to study with us. Carlisle had made a thousand of recommendations, like, stand by her side at all time and be ready to help with anything.

Alice was especially excited, wondering when they could go shopping. Trying to picture how she looked like and if they would, whether or not, become good friends. At first, I thought she'd be frustrated being friends with someone whose future she can't see, but, clearly, I was wrong.

I didn't care about any of that. My hell was already bad enough, I didn't need to hear her name in the minds of all the male population at school. For sure this would happen, we were beautiful for them, our prey. With her, things wouldn't be different.

I really didn't know if I'd be able to hear that name every single day. The name that would never leave my mind, the name I've never spoken aloud again, the name of my angel.

Emmett decided to cut the silence. "Jasper, how about a bet?"

He chuckled. "Always." Whatever it is, he's going to lose.

"How many boys are going to ask the new girl out? I'll bet high," Emmett suggested.

I doubt that would be a lot. For sure, she is not prettier than me. Rosalie's shallow mind would never change.

Alice was the one to answer. "I think you're wrong, her behavior will be the same as ours. She won't mix with the humans and soon they'll realize the limits between them and us."

"Hey," Emmet grimaced. "That's not fair, you saw this happening in the future and now you're helping him!"

"No, I didn't! Have you forgotten what Peter and Charlotte told Carlisle? She is immune to all of our talents. I can't see anything about her. Everything is empty when I try."

"Okay, kids, we're here!" Rosalie was always trying to be the one not involved in this kind of argument. She was already jealous of the new girl.

Edward, you're going to be fine. I know you're worried about attacking any human, after all these years away of them. But I don't see you doing anything wrong.

"Thanks, Alice But it's still early and I think it would be easier if I remain inside of the car for now. As soon as I hear the bell ring, I'll go inside."

If you want me to stay with you...

I shook my head and she gave me a sympathetic smile. Then, they were gone.

I couldn't care less about my thirst, the only reason that kept me from going inside now was that I wouldn't bear to hear that name in the minds of all theschool children.

As my siblings were walking towards their classes I heard the minds of the other kids in the parking lot...

I'm so glad we're back from summer, I couldn't wait to see Rosalie Hale again.

There go the Cullens, I can't believe they're all together, that's so not fair.

Oh my Gosh, Jasper is SO perfect. I wish he w

ould notice me.

I heard they have a brother that would come to study here also. If he looks like the rest, I hope he doesn't have a girlfriend.

I decided it was time to block the thoughts of everybody and picture the most beautiful face in the whole universe, the one that would never leave my mind.

I heard the bell.

Again, Alice and me were juniors while the others were playing senior roles. So I walked to the first period, English.

When I was inside the building, I felt it. It hit me with all strength. The scent I'd recognize even one hundred miles away, the one I thought I'd never inhale again. But this couldn't be possible. First, because the scent wasn't exactly the same, something was different, and second, because she was...

No, I must be going crazy!

I stopped breathing and kept walking. Fighting against the urge to run to Italy and do the only thing I promised Esme that I'd never do.

The aisle to the English class was empty. I was late by now and was already thinking about the excuse I'd have to give the teacher. That was when I realized I wasn't alone. Some girl was also late and almost getting to the door when she turned to look at me.

Suddenly...the world had colors, the universe was spinning again, life started to make sense, and I saw the most important thing of my world, I saw the face I thought I had lost forever...

Bella! My Bella...

I felt a strange heat spreading all over my body. And there she was, prettier than ever. Dressed with the same style of cloths she used to wear, with the same chocolate hair, the same pale skin and...golden eyes?

Is she a...a...vampire?!

How could this be possible? I'd left so she could have a human life...Yet, here she stands, damned forever. How did this happen? Who the hell took her precious soul?

My sweet Bella...I'd never be able to watch her sleep again...

Wait, what am I saying? She is here, after twelve years, in front of me and I'm thinking about how she became a vampire. At this point, it doesn't matter anymore. Now, there's no reason stopping us from being together.

Without even noticing, I was running towards her. I wanted to take her in my arms and never let go. But, before I get any closer, I was on the floor. Deep in pain. My whole body completely still.

And there she was, looking at me with the most beautiful golden eyes I've ever seen. Eyes filled with a lot of emotions: fear, surprise, anger, sorrow...Why was she feeling sorry?

I wanted to talk, to scream for the whole universe how much I loved her, how I wanted to spend the eternity with her...but I was still unable to move. And then, as fast as a human could blink, I was free and she, gone.

I don't know how much time I spent sitting there on the floor, trying to organize my thoughts. How could I be so selfish in my actions, of course she was scared. Peter and Charlotte told Jasper her history...She doesn't remember anything, she doesn't know who I am.

But I didn't care, because all of a sudden, I woke up, I felt whole...

I was 'alive' again.

A/N: Next chapter will be up soon, maybe tomorrow, so please review and let me know if the fic is better now : )