Author Note: Sorry guys this is really short but I am going through pure HELL right now. Let's just say I can relate to this story so much right now it's scary.
I just sank down and cried. Just sobed for I don't know how long. I held the letter, my letter close to my chest. I was far too upset to move or speak but inside I was in pure agony. My thoughts screamed and whirled. 'FAITH HOW COULD YOU DO THIS TO ME? What have I done? She loved me! God, I killed her.'
I greived for my fallen slayer. I wept for I knew I would never see her again. I felt her words, some of the last words she had ever said, sink in. Sink through that now crumpled peice of paper on my chest and into my hear and soul. My heart ached and my soul had morned uncontrolably.
I had began to calm finally after a few hours. My voice came back to me. "Oh, Faith. Faith, my love," I opened my eyes and looked up at the ceiling, "Faith, if only you had told me!" I closed my eyes again. If she had told me I would return the favor. I wouldn't have been afraid to admit the deep feelings that I had developed for the young slayer. I would tell her how much I loved her and how much I had longed for the touch of those soft hands. How I had longed to stare into those deep chocolate eyes and see happiness not sorrow. And how I had longed to brush my hands through that beautiful brunette hair. Just to be with Faith. That was all I wanted. But now she's gone.
Now she's gone.
I choked back another sob. Weakly, I managed to get to my feet and lay myself on my bed. The same bed that when I slept in she was there with me. Now though, she never will actually be there. I had dreams in this bed of being with her. Of kissing and cuddling and making love and just being with her. But now she's gone. Now she's gone and it's all my fault.
All my fault! I deserve to be the one dead! But no. I should live. I should suffer. Like I always have. Like I am now. This is my fate. Because I'm a fucking bitch. I'm the bad one. Faith wasn't.
Eventually I began to drift off into my own world of sleep. She had left my dreams as well as this hellish world.
A/N: A VERY big thanks to each and everyone who has reviewed so far and a HUGE thanks to those who have done several times. This story will cease to continue if you don't review and tell me to. Besides, I need something to smile about. Oh, and happy holidays to all!
