Author's Note: Ch. 4!

I do not own Twilight.

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(When this began)
I had nothing to say
And I get lost in the nothingness inside of me
And I let it all out to find
That I'm not the only person with these things in mind
But all that they can see the words revealed
Is the only real thing that I've got left to feel
(Nothing to lose)
Just stuck, hollow and alone
And the fault is my own, and the fault is my own

I wanna heal, I wanna feel what I thought was never real
I wanna let go of the pain I've felt so long
(Erase all the pain till it's gone)
I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I'm close to something real
I wanna find something I've wanted all along
Somewhere I belong
~Somewhere I Belong- Linkin Park


Ch. 4
Leah's POV

"That was too weird," I say to Embry later.

"Definitely. What did he want anyway?"

"No clue. He never exactly got to his point."

"Well, whatever. If it was something important-"

"I think he just wanted to annoy me," I interrupt. Embry's great at pep talks and therapy, but he doesn't realize that Marcus asked me about my crappy past. And did he tell me anything about his?

Nope.

"Leah!"

"Oh my God, Embry kill me now."

"Why?"

"Aro alert."

"You mean freakishly happy vampire?"

"Ya."

"Joy."

"Pretty much."

I look around quickly, but there aren't any windows in this particular hallway, and Aro has already seen me, so…

"I've been looking for you."

Idiot, I think. I wish that I could say that, but I can't. So I settle for making him look like an idiot.

"You just saw me." I roll my eyes and turn to leave, annoyed with his idiocy.

"Yes, but you ran away as soon as I walked into the room."

"Maybe I don't want to see you," I suggest. I almost regret it until he starts laughing.

"Um…" Embry says, clearly wondering rather to stay or run away.

"Save yourself, Embry."

I almost wish that I had to tell him twice. He's down the hall as soon as I finish telling him to go. I wish that I were that lucky. Do I get to flee Aro's dangerous stupidity? No. Funny how that works.

"What do you want, Aro?" I sigh. Maybe if I play along he'll leave me alone. Watch: if I want to find him I won't be able to. I guarantee it.

When he walks away, I realize that I didn't here a word he said. Oops. I wasn't paying attention.

I trudge back to my room and pull out my crappy, beat-up old cell phone. I figure I should probably call home and let them know that the vampires didn't decide to have wolf for dinner. I really don't need to add their stupidity to my growing-by-the-day list of problems. I actually wonder if life would be easier if I went back.

It probably would, if the pain of being separated from an imprint doesn't count as a problem.

"Leah!" Seth practically shouts when I finally manage to get him to pick up one of the many phones he has access to.

"Hey, Seth. I'm alive. They haven't eaten me. Yet." Not the most supportive thing to say, but I'm still tired, hungry, depressed annoyed, etc., so you have no right to judge me.

"That's a good thing." I roll my eyes.

"Jacob, you idiot, put Seth back on the phone!"

I can just picture his wolfish smile when he replies to that. "Good to know that Volterra hasn't changed you, Leah."

"Jake, seriously. Give Seth his damn phone back. You have no idea of the day I've had."

"Fine. Jeez, Leah. Relax. Seriously. I hear that helps with problems."

Now I really wish that I were back in La Push with them. That way I could break his face for that comment.

"I'm back," Seth says.

"Good." Awkward silence. "So, how are things at home?"

"Decent. No killer vampires since you left."

"Uh huh."

"So…yeah. How's Italy?"

"Worse than home. I seriously think about going back home with Embry sometimes."

"No. You can't. First you have to break the vampiric mafia."

I can't stop a smile from coming across my face at that.

"You know, you're right. Thanks, Seth."

"Everyone says hi. And they want to know why you couldn't bust your ass to call us sooner."

"Tell them that I've been busy."

Well, not a total lie.

"Alright."

Silence.

"Bye."

"Bye, Seth."

Why was that such an awkward conversation? I can't figure it out. It just doesn't make any sense. Seth and I have always been close.

I pull open the door to my room and pace around for a while, needing to move. When I finally do sit down, I can't stay seated for long.

"Embry!" I call through the wall. I here a muffled bump, probably Embry's head on the ceiling, and then he responds.

"What now, Leah?"

"We need to phase."

So together we walk out of the castle, until we reach a secluded area full of trees and other appealing natural stuff. Everything in the castle is so…artificial. Even the vampires. Maybe that's what I was missing.

Anyway, we phase and run a little bit, coming back sooner than either one of us would have liked.

The walk back to the castle is a slow one. I think that we're both weighted down by our dread. The castle is not a good place for us. The least Aro could have done is bought us some apartments near by. It's not like it would have killed him to help someone beside himself for once.

When we walk back into the castle, it's quiet.

Too quiet.

As corny and idiotic as that sounds, it's true. We can't make out a sound.

I decide that I might as well check out the library. It's not like there aren't books that I like. I do read. When I can.

I push open the door, and immediately stop. How the hell am I going to find anything in here? There are so many books that it seems impossible.

Luckily, there are a couple classics that I like, so I find them easily. I decide to read Pride & Prejudice again.

I'm about two hundred pages in before I hear the door close softly. I decide to ignore it and keep reading.

I get to my favorite part when I hear the soft thud of a book hitting the ground. I whirl around, prepared to use my book as a weapon before I see who it is.

Then I want to leave. I don't need this right now.


Author's Note: I'm surprised at how easily this chapter came to me. I thought that it would be a hard one to write, but it turns out that I was wrong.

The last of my three majorly inspiring songs. The last Linkin Park song for a while. I'm starting to get sick of their lyrics.

So how was it? Review please!

Oh, and if you have any ideas, let me know. I know how the next chapter starts, but not how it ends, and I have no clue what comes after that.