CHAPTER 4-

AT HOME:

"finally im home, I wonder if theres anything to eat"

I took the sausages outta the sink and fryed them up. It took awhile but it still tasted alrite with some bread n tomatoe sauce. Even the most simple mean can keep you full for awhile.

After eating, I took a shower n got changed into my pj's. they weren't really pjs's, well I don't really believe in pj's. i just wear a pair of shorts n a tank top, normally beach clothes I guess.

There was nothing on tele, n we have cable to. 900 channels n not one worth watching or barely interesting, except channel [v, a music channel. This normally fills up the whole house until my brother gets home cuz it gets really quit in this place. i normally let my emotions show but when im alone im really vunerable and scared shitless, but the music keeps me company.

I stole a piece of chocolate from Tommys secret collection, well he doesn't do a good job at hiding stuff, it was pretty easy to find. i was playing with my footy around the house n I "accidentally" lolz kicked it on top of his cupboard. When I went to get my ball I fell ova n all the chocos fell on top of me, so I ended up finding it all. :D

The first time I found the stop I ate all his chocolates straight away, so I had to buy another packet n hide them in the same spot otherwise he would be suspicious of me cuz im the only one that lives with him.

It was now 9.45pm so i went to my room turned on the comp on pressed the msn button. i logged in and had a look if anyone was one. i had a lot of people even though I had no friends . That's cuz when ppl were passing around there dairys to get signed I got them off some people in the skool. I asked if it was okaii with them first so I didn't end up being on there bad side.

"beep beep"

"I wonder whos wants to talk to me this time"

I headed back to comp to see who it was…… there was no nickname so I just hello and started the 20 questions game lolz.

Jamie: "heya, how r ya?"

"oi memba me"

Jamie: "ummm, I have noe idea who u r"

"okaii lets play a game"

Jamie: "kool, that's fine wit me, but who r ya seriously"

"okaii you'll just have to wait n see then"

Jamie: "wateva, but I hope ur not noe petifilest or something dude"

"howd u noe it was a dude"

Jamie: "that's cuz u talk like one mate"

"oooooo u going into ur mate talking again ,JAMIE"

Jamie: "oi, howd u noe my name"

"well its all apart of the game"

"okaii lets start, ill give u some clues, and u guess n see if u can guess who I am"

Jamie: "fine go already"

"jeez liouse don't get ur knickers in a knot lolz. Okaii now I have brown hair, I go to ur school….."

Jamie: "I still have noe clue who u are"

seriously I wonder who this guy is, if I meet this dude im gonna bash him to pieces cuz his really pissin me off, I have no patience with things like this

"okaii heres a biggy then… I talked to u 2day at the beach and u bashed into me :P……"

oooooohhhhh myyyyy goddd I hadnt noticed that it was Nate, he was talking to me AGAIN!, well not literally but u get the picture, I was soo embarresed n schocked that I turned my comp off straight away without saying goodbye to anyone, just with the press of a button.

I quickly ran to my mirror, after tripping ova my skateboard n checked myself n the mirror. My eyes were bloodshot and I was going all red. I cant believe I did it again. Twice in one day, what the hells happenin to me. im not normally like this. Ive had a bf before but I never felt like this when I met him. I had given up on love ages ago, I stopped believe when I found out he cheated on me with my best friend.

JAMIE U HAVE TO STOP

i knew I couldn't anymore so, I just turned off the light, took of my top (I sleep in a bra, inoe that sounds weird but its soo comfy) and went to sleep, and dreamt about Nate all night, even though I said I wouldn't.