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Chapter 3.
*TESSA'S P.O.V.*
"William." I whisper, unable to believe my eyes.
"Hello Tessa."He says, his British accent mixed with Welsh, just like I've always remembered. I don't know what to feel, how to feel.
"W-What are you doing here?" I ask. He smiles softly and says
"I hope I didn't frighten you. I just wanted to congratulate you on your pregnancy, I am very happy for you, Tess. You're little girl is blessed with you and James as parents." He tells me. I feel tears stream down my face, as I press both my hands to my belly. Though I am glad to know that Will is happy for Jem and me.
"Thank you." I whisper, wiping my tears away.
"I want you to know, that I'll be looking over your little one, and any other child you and Jem have. I'll protect them in every way I can." He tells me. I'm so glad to know my little Esther has someone looking over her, along with Jem and I.
"Her name is Esther." I quietly tell Will.
"Esther Carstairs, its beautiful Tessa. I'm glad this finally happened for you. I can't stay long, and you don't want to get a kidney infection from being out here in this cold, for too long." He says. No that, I do not.
"No, I don't. Thank you for looking over Esther; you know how much a child means to their parents." I say.
"Of course I do, Lucie and Jamie are still my babies, and yours."He says. At the mention of James and Lucie, I break down into sobs.
"Oh Tessa, don't cry, I know you miss them, they miss you too. But right now, you should focus on little Esther." He says. He's right, I do need to focus on my pregnancy, planning the wedding and preparing for Esther's arrival, which really isn't that far away. Six months is nothing, especially when you're immortal. But I will never stop grieving for James and Lucie, no matter how much time passes.
"I'll never stop grieving for them, or you, it always hurts, deep down." I say. I wish Jem had stayed, I wish he was here now to wrap his arms around me and comfort me.
"I know Tess, but you have to keeping living, you have many, many, happy years ahead of you with Jem and Esther, and any other children you have." He says. He's right; I can't let myself fall back into the horrible depression I was in right after William died. I have to stay as healthy as possible, now I'm pregnant.
"Okay." I whisper.
"Good, now I really have to go, I love you Tessa, and I love your daughter, I love her so much because she's a part of the two people I love most. Please, don't tell Jem I visited you, I will visit him alone, at a different time." He tells me.
I smile softly at him and say
"I won't William, I love you too." And with that, I step back inside, and let out a shaky breath.
"Are you okay Tess? You don't look good at all." Jem says.
"I-I... I don't feel good." I say, as a wave of nausea washes over me, as well as horrible heartburn.
"Does your stomach hurt?" Jem asks, concern lacing his silky tone. Thankfully I'm not in pain, and I don't feel concerned about Esther's well being.
"No, I just have nausea and heartburn." I say, placing my hand on my chest.
"Well, why don't you go get ready for bed, I'll go buy some milk for your heartburn and you can relax." Jem says. That sounds perfect right now.
"That sounds perfect, thank you." I say. Jem smiles softly and kisses me.
"Anything for you."He whispers.
*The next day*
When I answer the door, after hearing a knock on it, I see Magnus and Alec, with little Will hiding behind Alec's leg-being shy as usual- and Sophie holding onto Magnus' hand, bouncing up and down on the balls of her feet and smiling broadly.
"Aunty Tessa!" Sophie squeals, upon seeing me. She runs to me, arms outstretched. I get down to her level and hug her tightly.
"Hi sweetheart, what are you doing here?" I ask.
"I miss you, and papa miss you too, so we come see you!" She says. I'm amazed at her pronunciation, not many 2 year olds can talk like Sophie, but then again she seems to have a knack for languages.
"Well I'm so glad you came." I say. She runs inside, dragging Will behind her. And once he's by his sister's side again, his shyness fades away and he and Sophie happily play.
Magnus embraces me tightly, and quirks a perfectly-shaped eyebrow at me, after pulling back.
"Is that an engagement ring, I see, Tessa?" He asks. I smile as I look down at my ring, thinking of Jem.
"It certainly is." I say.
"Well I'm delighted for you! And I better be your male maid of honour."He says, causing me to laugh at his choice of words.
"Of course you are, who better for the job, than my Magnus? Just no glitter." I say, as we take a seat on the 4-seater, brown, leather couch.
"But that's taking out all the fun, right Soph?" Magnus asks. Not only is Sophie a huge papa's girl, she also adores glitter.
"Yeah! Papa aways wight!" She says. She's adorable.
"Who else is always right?" Magnus asks, lifting his daughter onto his lap.
"Aunty Alli and Uncle Eric." She says. Since Alli and Eric are so close, he's quiet involved in Sophie and Will's lives. Sophie adores him; so she -and only she- calls him Uncle Eric. Which both he and Alli adore.
"You certainly love your aunty Alli, don't you?" I ask.
"Yeah! She the bestest!" Sophie says. She and Will have a very special bond with Alli.
Before I can say anything else, Sophie looks at Will, who is again hiding behind Alec's leg, and Sophie jumps off Magnus' lap and runs over to her brother.
"Are you alright Tess?" Magnus asks, a few moments later. I was lost in my thoughts.
"Um... no... Not really."I say.
"Why? What's wrong?"Magnus asks, concern lacing his tone.
"I love Esther; I really do, with all my heart and soul. But I'm scared Magnus, I'm scared she's going to look like Jamie or Lucie, or be born on Jamie's birthday -which is around the time she's due-. If she looks like them, or shares a birthday with Jamie, how will I be able to look at her everyday and not have my heart shatter?"I ask.
"Oh Tessa."Magnus says, hugging me tightly. "Darling, this is a very natural thing to feel. I understand why you are so frightened of all this. But think of it this way. If Esther does look like her siblings, or share a birthday with James, it may be a little painful at first, but then you'll be able to see your two oldest babies, in your youngest baby, you'll get to see glimpse of Lucie and James again, isn't that wonderful?" Magnus asks. Oh it really is, when you think of it that way, it's so wonderful!
"Yeah... yeah it is." I quietly say, feeling my fear subside, for now.
*MAIA'S P.O.V.*
"God Maia, you've been sick for two weeks now, maybe you should go to a doctor."John says, whilst handing me a glass of water, after I threw up. For the last two weeks I've been sick every morning, I've had stomach pains, fatigue and I'm always bloated, my stomach always protrudes a little bit. I thought it was the flu, but now I'm beginning to think it may be more serious than that. John's right, I need to go to a doctor.
"Yeah, I should, it could be something serious, and I'm tired of being sick all the time."I say, reaching up and flushing the toilet.
"Imagine you were pregnant." John says, laughing lightly. He finds it funny because it's highly unlikely I'm pregnant. We always use protection, and we don't even have sex that much, 2 months ago was probably the last time.
"God that would be awful." I say.
"I know, I definitely don't want a kid right now, I'm only 24, I want a few more years to enjoy myself, after that I wouldn't mind having a kid. But right now, no way, I'm not ready to be a dad."He says. I completely understand, I'm only 22, I too want a few more years to enjoy myself, and I'm in no way ready to be a mom.
"Having a kid would be the worst thing that could happen to us right now."I say. John nods his agreement.
"It would, it would probably ruin our lives. Anyway, I better go make that doctor's appointment, for as soon as possible?"He asks. I nod, and he leaves.
John returns a few minutes later and says "I got you an appointment for 4:00p.m., today." It's already 3:30, I better get ready.
*The doctor's*
"I wonder what the hell's wrong with you." John says, as we wait for the doctor to come back with some test results.
"Me too." I say, swinging my legs from my position on the medical table.
The doctor comes back in a few minutes later. Turns out I got the same doctor as Clary, Doctor Malone. She's nice.
"Maia, I would like to do an ultrasound." She says. An ultrasound? Why? Maybe there's something wrong with my stomach, ultrasounds aren't only used for pregnancy.
"Why, what's wrong with me?"I ask.
"Maia, I recall from our earlier conversation that you most certainly don't want children, but Maia I'm afraid you're 2 months pregnant."
I really hope you enjoyed. Over the next few chapters you'll see Maia and John deciding whether they're going to keep the baby or not, and if they don't, are they going to give it up for adoption or have an abortion. This story will mainly switch between Tessa and Maia.
Please let me know what you want to see in other chapters, because I am really running out of ideas. I'll accept any idea whatsoever, so please tell me what you would like to see, and please review.
