I slowly pried open my eyes as I felt a small pair of hands shaking me. I jumped a bit as I saw a large pair of magnified eyes staring me in the face. The old lady just shook her head and grinned. She backed up and checked my heart rate among a few other things before asking what I wanted for breakfast. I shrugged and told her I didn't want anything. The elderly nurse bitterly frowned and shuffled out of my room. I laid my head on my chalk white pillow and glanced at the clock. Eight in the morning was far too early for me to be up, but I didn't bother trying to fall asleep again. I reached over to my bedside table for my phone. A new text from Jake had appeared on my screen, so I opened it. It read:

Hey, Andy. Text me when you're up. We gotta talk. No fair CC got to go first!

-Jakeeeeee

I smiled at his childishness and slowly yawned and stretched. I replied with a simple text saying he could come in now. I rubbed the crusty substance from my eyes and just rested on my side for what seemed like half an hour. Finally, I heard the eerie creak of my door swinging open. I turned onto my back to watch a solemn Jake tiptoe into my room. I smiled shyly at him and he returned the gesture. I had hoped he wouldn't look at me like everyone else had. There was this awful piteous look in everyone's eyes that sent shivers down my spine. I hated being pitied, especially over something as simple as this. I cleared my throat and began to greet him, but he quickly cut me off.

"I'm sorry!" he blurted out and soon sank onto the edge of my bed in a fit of shaky sobs. Shocked by his sudden outburst, I awkwardly patted his back and hushed him. Seeing anyone cry made me feel a bit sad inside, but when Jake cried, the whole world cried with him. It was heartbreaking, and I immediately felt a terrible sense of guilt hanging over my head. Eventually, Jake quieted enough for me to speak. I used the calmest tone I possibly could, as to not upset him any further.

"Sorry for what?" I remained calm but the confusion was evident on my face and in my voice. He looked up to my eyes and wiped a few tears from his face. He smiled very slightly, but just noticeable enough for me to catch it.

"Well, for one, for getting your bed all wet with… tears… and for not seeing this before. For not being there for you when you needed me the most. For being an asshole and just not helping you." His eyes plead for forgiveness and I just looked down and nodded, searching for the right words. I wanted to tell him that it was okay, but it wasn't. Nothing was okay.

"Jake, I forgive you. You couldn't have known. It's… It's all over now. It can only get better from here." I was suddenly attacked in a tight bear hug from Jake, and though I could feel my ribcage being crushed and I could hardly breathe, it somehow brought us both a sense of comfort. After just sitting there for a few seconds, Jake released me and just sat on the edge of the bed, smiling. He wiped away his tears and stood slowly. He went about midway to the door and turned around to me. He grinned.

"Thank you, Andy. Just for being you, I guess. And I will help you. If it kills me in the process, I'll find a way to help you." I went to object to needing 'help' but he had already turned away from me and left me to myself in my lonely pale room. I simply sat in my bed for what seemed like hours, just contemplating the eventful past week.

My thoughts were interrupted by another text, this time from Jinxx. He said that he was close by because he had taken Sammi out for lunch, and asked if he could stop by the room with her quickly. I agreed, though highly debated whether or not I wanted Sammi to come to my room. I loved her like a sister, of course, but she was my friend's wife, and I never talked to her much anymore. Granted, I had never talked to anyone anymore. So I decided that she might as well come. I waited for about five minutes until they showed up. Sammi, with record-breaking speed, hurried over and engulfed me in a hug equally as tight as Jake's had been. I stiffened under her intense grasp, but soon relaxed and melted into her hug. I looked over to Jinxx anxiously. He was one of the single most jealous people I had ever known, but instead of the death glare I had anticipated, his mind seemed drifting, wandering elsewhere to something obviously more important. Sammi released me and backed up to Jinxx, where she wrapped her arm around his waist, instantly waking him from his daze. He smiled at me, though still distracted. I wondered why he was so distant, but I didn't question him.

"Hey, Andy. We brought you a few things from lunch because we figured you wouldn't want any hospital food." He lifted up a small bag from some Italian restaurant I hadn't heard of and set a few items on my bedside table. I thanked him and took a small bite of some Italian dish that I couldn't pronounce. It was good, and I honestly missed food. I hadn't eaten much but the bland bagels and coffee from the hospital cafeteria, and I was eternally grateful that they brought me real food. I felt extremely guilty for eating, but I promised myself I'd throw it up later. Sammi and Jinxx chatted amongst each other quietly as I ate. They constantly grinned and looked at me, reminding me of teenage school girls with a secret they couldn't tell. I shot a suspicious glance at them both, and Sammi giggled. She finally stood and smirked at me.

"Andy, we need to tell you something. We thought we'd tell you first because of the other something I have to say to you that'll make sense later when you hear the first thing I say about what I said originally." In unison, Jinxx and I just looked at each other in confusion, and returned our attention to Sammi. "I'm…" she paused dramatically and I rolled my eyes playfully at her.

"You're what?" I questioned. Jinxx smirked at me, obviously catching on to where Sammi was going. She finally squealed and grinned.

"I'm pregnant!" She jumped up and down for a few seconds. Though I was confused on why she decided to tell me this, I congratulated her anyways and watched as Jinxx kissed her on the cheek. He returned his attention to me, a more serious though joyful look spread on his face.

"And the second thing we wanted to tell you was that we want you to be the godfather of him or her." I grinned widely, honored that someone would choose me for that. It was a moment of pure joy that I hadn't had in an extremely long amount of time. I accepted, and Sammi squealed again. She hugged me tightly, and laughed. Jinxx checked the clock on the wall and jumped up, grabbing his coat. He declared that they needed to leave right away, or they would be late to their first doctor's appointment. They said their goodbyes as they rushed out the door. I smiled, but a wave of guilt and sadness rushed over me. I remembered the food I had just eaten.

I ran into the bathroom to the right of my bed, shoving my fingers forcefully down my throat and throwing up into the toilet. I repeated the process until I felt that my stomach was empty, and sank against the wall. Who would ever want someone like me around their kids? Who would ever want me around them at all?

A/N: I know, this isn't that great of a chapter. I'm trying to update whenever I can! Next chapter should be really good, I hope. Keep reviewing! Thanks for reading!