Disclaimer: I do not own Daiya no A.

Warning: Shounen-Ai, OOC, abusive languages

(MAJOR) SPOILERS from the Manga chapters that are not yet English translated and released

Pairing: Miyuki Kazuya X Sawamura Eijun

A/N: Once again, thanks for all the patience for waiting for this chapter. Sorry was late because I started watching Haikyuu! and got hooked up on it (XD) (^.^|||)

And most importantly, thank you very much for all the reviews for the previous chapter; I didn't think it deserves the positive response received; but hopefully this chapter will make up for it =)

Without further ado, enjoy~!

Note: 'Miyuki' here will be referring to Miyuki Kazuya. Any mention of his father I'll at least state him as 'Miyuki's father'. Hopefully there will be no confusion =)

It's Okay

Chapter 4

"You don't mean…"

"It means no more baseball for the rest of your life."

Upon hearing those words, he widened his eyes and froze, absorbing in the information the doctor just shared. He stood there in shock, his breathing and heartbeat stopped and his lungs seemed to decide to shrink at that moment. His hands had stopped opening the door of the ward.

No more baseball… for Sawamura?

No… It can't be…

As those thoughts lingered in his mind, he felt the world spinning, and nothing mattered anymore. He removed his hand from the doorknob and stepped back, finding himself unable to breathe even though he wanted to. It was then he could feel his stomach beginning to do somersaults with his lunch and he quickly covered his mouth and stomach, hoping it would make him feel better.

"Nooooooooooooo! I don't wanna stop playing baseballllllllllllllll!"

Only Sawamura's voice mattered now. He looked through the opening of the door, and saw the pitcher crying. For some reason, the sight of him crying pained his heart more than it should be. He clenched his fist at his chest, feeling the quickening heartbeat. But in contrast, he seemed to have stopped breathing. So how could his heart beat in inverse proportion to his breathing rate?

"And that's, the consequence of your blunder and oversight."

He gasped upon hearing those words. Just when he thought only Sawamura's voice mattered, another voice suddenly just infiltrated his inner world.

"If you had come for treatment earlier there was a chance there was no need for an operation and you would have recovered faster."

Why? Why didn't you seek for help faster?

"Hoh? It seems that the kid is recovering. But, the situation could have been a lot better if you had noticed and done something about it. For everything to become like this, this is entirely your fault."

Why? Why didn't you say anything when it happened?

"That means, I can't make it for Senbatsu…"

Why? Why didn't anyone notice that something was wrong?

"And now the poor kid and the team are going to suffer for it. Shouldn't you have been able to prevent this, as the team's main catcher and captain?"

Why? Why didn't he notice it?

"I told you before when you decided to become a catcher, didn't I?"

Why? Why didn't he do anything? Just like last time in the finals of the summer tournament?

"A catcher that can't see the pains of his pitcher, has no right to play baseball at all."

No… That's… He didn't want this to happen… So why…

"As always, you have failed me again, Kazuya."

Please, for someone like you who didn't know anything.

"…SHUT UP!"

Why? Why did he fail Sawamura? Again?

**Line Break**

If looks could kill, how many times would you be dead already?

If looks could kill, there was no doubt about the death of Miyuki Tatsunori by his own son, Miyuki Kazuya.

"M-Miyuki?" Sawamura stuttered as he saw his boyfriend standing beside him, tightly grabbing on to his father wrist whose hand was above Sawamura's head, while glaring hard on his father.

And he couldn't help but gulped in fear and nervousness upon seeing the glaring contest between the father and son. For the first time in life, he really hated silence.

"Hoh?" Miyuki's father suddenly spoke after several seconds of silence, facing his son with a smirk which sent a chilling sensation down Sawamura's spine. But Miyuki seemed to be unmoved by it. "You're pretty protective of this boy, aren't you?"

Sawamura was pretty glad that Miyuki didn't respond back; his gut feeling was telling him the situation would grow worse if he did.

But he was definitely not prepared for Miyuki to suddenly release the hold he had on his father's wrist, before changing his grip onto his boyfriend's instead and started pulling him away.

"Hey, wait, Miyuki!" Sawamura could only follow his captain's lead as he was being pulled away. However, Miyuki seems to have no intention of stopping and answering him. The pitcher could only look and follow, silenced by the anger and anxiety aura from the catcher.

"So, Kazuya," Miyuki's father suddenly said as the couple began to walk away quickly. "How have you been doing?"

But his son did not seem to have any intention of answering him as he continued dragging Sawamura away. The professional manager twitched in annoyance on the rudeness received. "Oi, oi. Don't ignore me-"

"I've got nothing to say to a liar," Miyuki quickly said as he continued walking in increasing acceleration towards the exit of the training center, refusing to meet the eyes of his father. Sawamura, on the other hand, quickly took a glance behind to see Miyuki's father making no attempt to chase his son but only looking at them quietly with a neutral face, before finding himself outside the training center with his boyfriend. But Miyuki still made no attempt to stop or slow down at all even when the training center seemed to be out of their sight.

"H-Hey, Miyuki," Sawamura tried to call out to the catcher when they reached a bridge where cars are passing by them every few minutes. They had walked for quite a while. "Miyuki? Hey, are you listening?"

But Miyuki didn't seem to hear his voice. Either that, or he was ignoring him on purpose.

"Hey, Miyuki," Sawamura tried again. He was beginning to get annoyed with Miyuki's ignorance to his calling. "Miyuki! Will you stop and listen to me? I don't see the need to get this angry."

And those words seemed to finally reach Miyuki; either that or Miyuki finally decided to respond to his boyfriend. But Sawamura couldn't help but still cower under the intense stare he received when the catcher finally stopped and turned to face him.

"M-Miyuki?"

"… Don't believe him," Miyuki said softly, earning a confused response from Sawamura. "I said, DON'T believe in whatever that man said."

Unable to control his emotions, Miyuki suddenly tightened his hold on Sawamura wrist even further, ignoring his boyfriend's cries of hurt and protest and roughly pulled him closer to stare directly into Sawamura's eyes again. The pitcher gasped and felt an unwelcoming sensation chilling down his spine when he realized the closeness between their faces and sensed the anger and intensity behind those eyes of his boyfriend.

"Don't EVER believe whatever that man said," Miyuki growled with an extreme warning tone. "You must NEVER believe whatever he said from now on; whatever he told you just now was nothing but lies. So don't you dare believe him."

"Lies?" Sawamura blinked upon taking in the words from Miyuki. Are you serious?

"Whatever he said just now are all lies!" Miyuki began to unknowingly shout; it didn't really matter since there was no one else walking on the bridge and no car would just stop there to check what two teenagers were doing there. "He said something about my mother abandoning us, didn't he? Wrong! My mother didn't abandon us! He's the one that abandoned my mother and me! He was the one that refused to come and meet us when my mother had given him the last chance to stop us before we left to live with my maternal grandparents in Osaka! He's the one that decided to divorce my mother and the only reason why I am here with him is because the stupid law put me into his custody!

"And his top pitcher was hit by a dead ball because of a case of bribery? Bullshit! If he's such a capable professional manager like he said he was, he probably should have prevented that from happening! He thinks he's as clean as a whistle! Wrong! He's just as dirty as his cheating geezers players of his! He probably was involved in that dead ball too!

"And since when I've played catch with him? He NEVER plays with me! To him, even playing with his own kid is a waste of time to him!

"So, right now, I am telling you this very clearly," Miyuki this time used both hands to grab the upper arms of Sawamura as he said with eyes full of anger and determination. "Don't you ever, EVER listen and believe in his words! That man was just toying with you, right from the beginning! So forget about everything he said just now, do you understand?" Miyuki pulled Sawamura even closer as he said the last sentence, growling in a menacing tone that no one could refuse him.

And Sawamura could do nothing but nodded at Miyuki's words as the catcher began catching his breathe after releasing all his pent up frustrations and anger behind those words of his.

But still, Sawamura still wondered to himself. Is EVERYTHING he said really a lie?

After getting the nod he needed from Sawamura, Miyuki began to calm down and release Sawamura once he caught up his breath.

"… Let's go back," Miyuki declared, satisfied and relieved with the venting of all his frustrations and his boyfriend's confirmation.

"Yeah…" Sawamura softly agreed as he saw Miyuki began to turn around and started walking. Sawamura, with the intention of following, began to step forward.

But he realized that he couldn't.

Miyuki, who already had taken several steps ahead, heard a sound behind him and turned to check what had happened.

But only to be horrified by the sight before him. His eyes widened in horror as his worse nightmare appeared in front of him.

Because Sawamura had fallen and was lying on the ground.

"…Eijun?"

And the sight immediately reminded him of the sight he had seen, on that day, on that field, an unconscious Sawamura lying on the mound, unmoved.

"Eijun!" Miyuki gasped and quickly ran over to his boyfriend. But Sawamura had already begun to slowly pick himself up when Miyuki was running over. "Eijun! What happened? Are you alright?"

"Argh… yeah, I think so," Sawamura quickly answered, one hand on the ground and the other on Miyuki's arm when the catcher quickly helped him get up.

"You sure? You're not hurt anywhere, aren't you?" Miyuki began bombarding the pitcher with questions, and Sawamura looked at him while he tried to stand up but failed miserably. He could only sit up with his boyfriend's help and support.

And Miyuki seemed to be panicking even more when he saw that Sawamura's left leg was shivering.

"Shit," Miyuki cursed as he realized that no matter how he tried, he couldn't make his boyfriend stand up. "What happened? Is it your knee? Has it got worse? But why? Haven't you been going for your checkups and rehabilitation regularly? Why does it seem that you knee is not getting better? Why-"

And the next thing he knew, a pair of hands was on his cheeks, interrupting his words and thoughts.

"Calm down," Sawamura said as he quickly grabbed his captain's face when he saw that he obviously was panicking. "I'm fine, really. Just felt a little numb on my leg. The doctor said before it will happen from time to time during the rehabilitation period if I unintentionally overwork my muscles, so this is normal." The pitcher calmly said to his boyfriend as he watched Miyuki finally slowing down his pants, and his widened eyes and stiffened face began to relax as he looked at the pitcher's calm eyes and registered the words from his mouth.

"…Really?" Miyuki softly whispered; he couldn't help but ask.

"Yeah…" Sawamura confirmed again, knowing that if he didn't, his boyfriend would panic unnecessarily again. Miyuki, upon hearing the confirmation, took a big sigh of relief before falling and landing his head on Sawamura's shoulder.

"Idiot… don't scare me like that," Miyuki whispered as he slowly took in the sweet smell of honey coming from his boyfriend, feeling himself being slowly drained from all the anger and panic as relief began taking over.

But still, the image was still stuck in his head. He didn't think he could withstand remembering that image again. That image that still sometimes haunted him at night when he slept. The image that still refused to leave him when he closed his eyes. The image that would forever stayed with him as long as he was with Sawamura.

The image of a fallen Sawamura on the mound.

Miyuki then hugged his boyfriend tightly, which cause Sawamura to flinch in surprise and nervousness. It was as if he was afraid that Sawamura would run away if he didn't hold him tight enough. But the truth was, he was afraid. Even he himself had no idea how scared he was. He sometimes had imagined that if Sawamura hadn't make it, if Sawamura's injuries had worsened to the point he would be disabled for the rest of his life, if Sawamura was unable to play the baseball he loved anymore, what would he do? How would he overcome all these?

At that period of time when Sawamura was recovering, he couldn't do anything but watch and pray for his recovery. He couldn't do anything but watch Sawamura still trying his best to support the team in whatever ways he could during the Senbatsu despite still being wheelchair-bounded or relying on clutches for support. He couldn't do anything to bring Sawamura back to the mound he loved so much. He couldn't do anything but to make sure the team would continue to play and win their matches, for his sake. He couldn't do anything but to tell himself the same thing over and over again whenever the team had to play a match without their idiotic moving ball pitcher supporting and playing with them.

We will play and win all the games in your stead. For the team, and for you.

And there was nothing he could do but watch, pray and blame himself for all of these happenings. It was at moments like this, he began to ask himself the very same question again.

Why? Why didn't I notice?

"Miyuki?" Sawamura whispered when he noticed the tensed aura from his silent boyfriend. It was not like Miyuki at all to be silent and frozen like this, in the middle of the road. He was beginning to get worried when Miyuki didn't respond to him at all. "Miyuki? Are you alright?"

This time, Miyuki finally responded by tightening his hold even further. Miyuki then slowly released the pitcher and pulled back, but Sawamura was confused even further when he felt that Miyuki refused to meet into his eyes as he had his head facing downwards the whole time.

"…Miyuki?"

"…I'll call Rei-chan and coach to pick us up," Miyuki said as he took out his cellphone and began to click on some numbers.

"There will be no need for that," another voice entered, surprising the couple. Sawamura immediately looked towards the source, while Miyuki remained frozen, refusing to turn back to confirm the voice, because he had immediately recognized the voice belonging to the person he had wished to see the least at the moment. On the other hand, Sawamura gasped when he saw the person who called them, in a car that had stopped in front of them.

And Sawamura mentally cursed. Just when he thought that they had avoided the worse, that person just had to appear once again.

"… What do you want?" Miyuki growled, still refusing to turn back and face the driver.

"I just thought that you guys might need a ride," the driver replied back with a slightly mocking tone. "And it wouldn't hurt you to stop being so rude. I'm your father, after all."

"We don't need a ride from you," Miyuki quickly replied back, finally standing up and turning to face his father with anger and annoyance. Miyuki Tatsunori sighed at his son's stubbornness, wondering whom he inherited that trait from.

"Sure, you don't," Miyuki's father said as he pointed towards not his son, but surprisingly Sawamura instead. "But I can tell that pitcher of yours need it. I got someone else to pick up at the training center later and I don't want to cause a jam here so stop being stubborn and hurry up and get in the car."

Despite knowing what his father said makes sense, a glaring contest still followed after that between the father and son, with Miyuki stubbornly refusing his father's kindness. Sawamura could only watch the exchange between his boyfriend and his father in silence and nervousness, not knowing whether or what he should say at a time like this.

So both father and son are equally stubborn… And he couldn't help but sighed at the unnecessary tension between the two.

"E-Excuse me," Sawamura said as he tried to stand up, using the wall behind as a support. He spoke louder, hoping to catch both of their attention. To his relief, it did and Miyuki and his father were slightly surprised to hear the voice of the second year.

As usual, he's surprisingly insensitive when it comes to situations like this. Miyuki mentally slapped himself in his face; unable to comprehend how did his boyfriend manage to come in between him and his father as if it was the easiest thing to do in the world.

"I appreciate the thought, Daimyo-sama, but I'm fine with walking back to the dorm. My leg is just a little tired and I'll be fine after resting for a while."

"… You sure?" Miyuki's father gave a hesitant and skeptical look at the pitcher. It was pretty obvious that he had difficulty standing up on his own. But he twitched in annoyance when he noticed something else. "And stop calling me Daimyo-sama."

"Yeah I am sure," Sawamura replied, honesty apparent in his eyes that made the manager sighed.

"Alright," Miyuki's father said as he turned to face his steering wheel. "Suit yourself then." He was getting ready to leave when suddenly a hand was on his opened window.

"Wait," And Miyuki's father was shocked when he saw his own son stopping him, but was looking down as if he was contemplating hard on something. Sawamura was also surprised and confused on the actions of his boyfriend, and even more so when Miyuki suddenly turned after several seconds and walked towards him.

"Miyuki?" Sawamura looked up and gave a confused expression at Miyuki when he stopped and stood in front of him. But his confused expression soon changed to a surprised one when Miyuki suddenly scooped him up in his arms. "W-Wait a minute! What do you think you're doing! Put me down!"

Not again!

And Sawamura could only shout and struggle in vain and extreme embarrassment as Miyuki brought him closer to the car. Unlike this afternoon, they were in public this time after all. Ignoring his boyfriend's protest, he stared at his father several seconds before saying something that made the pitcher and his father gaped in astonishment.

"…We'll take that ride of yours."

**Line Break**

Awkward was an understatement.

For Sawamura, even he could sense the tension in the silence on the journey back to their dorms. From the moment they entered the car, Miyuki had been watching silently the changing sceneries outside through the window while his father had been watching the changing road in front, concentrating on his driving. The two had seemed to refuse to meet each other's eyes and couldn't even say a single word to each other. Feeling restless due to the atmosphere surrounding him, Sawamura fidgeted, looking at his own hands resting on his knees that were closed together.

Stay calm; you just had to bear with this situation for a few more minutes… I hope… And Sawamura took a deep breath, trying to calm his racing heart and shivering hands.

"So, Sawamura-kun," the pitcher jumped and froze in shock when he heard his name from the manager. "Is your leg alright already?"

"Ah… Yeah. I guess so," Sawamura said as he tried moving and lifting his left leg, testing the feeling on his knee. He was relieved to see that he was able to bend his knee normally and the feelings on his legs were back.

"That's a relief. I don't think you would want to have Kazuya carrying you back to your room in that way again, do you?"

Upon hearing those words, the pitcher blushed in embarrassment and began to stutter, unable to find the correct words needed to explain the situation to Miyuki's father. In response, Miyuki's father smirked and began to laugh upon seeing the pitcher getting flustered through his rear mirror.

But his laughter stopped immediately when a loud thud was heard from the side of Miyuki.

"Oi, are you trying to break my window?"

But Miyuki only silently glared at his father, who was ignoring him as he continued driving. To Sawamura, an angry Miyuki was one of his worse nightmare so you couldn't really blame him when he flinched and moved himself closer to the door and away from his boyfriend when said person suddenly changed the direction of his glare from the driver to him. But Miyuki, who then saw that he had accidentally scared his boyfriend, took a deep breath to calm himself down before giving an apologetic look to Sawamura.

"Sorry," Miyuki silently mouthed his words to Sawamura, who blinked upon noticing it. The catcher then turned to once again stare at the outside view silently while Sawamura looked at him, contemplating on what had just happened.

Unknowing to them, the driver was watching the scene through his rear mirror when suddenly he realized he had to stop the car.

"We're here," Miyuki's father declared, causing Sawamura to look out and realized that indeed they had reached the dorm gate. Miyuki on the other hand immediately had opened the door and alighted the car as quickly as he could. But instead of walking towards the dorm, Sawamura was surprised to find Miyuki walking to the other side of the car, opening the door for him.

"Are you alright?" Miyuki asked, giving Sawamura the usual gentle expression which Sawamura was still not used to it. "Is your leg alright already? Can you walk?"

"Yeah," Sawamura answered, but nevertheless took the offered hand from his boyfriend and stood up. To his relief, he found himself able to stand up and walk perfectly now.

"I would suggest going for a checkup tomorrow," Miyuki's father suddenly said as the two Seidou players began to walk away from the car. "Just in case."

"Ah, thank you very much for the ride! Daimyo-sama!" Sawamura quickly turned and bowed lightly to greet Miyuki's father politely.

"… Oh please, stop calling me that," Miyuki's father said as he pinched the area between his eyebrows in annoyance. "In any case, take care of yourself. I'm looking forward to seeing you play again, kid."

Sawamura immediately brightened up upon hearing those words. He was really excited in playing again after all.

"Yes! Daimyo-sama!" Sawamura bowed again, this time with a fling of his arms. The manager wanted to berate the pitcher for the nickname called, but decided against it. It seemed to be a waste of his energy after all.

"And you, idiot son," Miyuki's father said, finally decided to stop playing the silence game. "Stop ignoring me already. Playing a cold war against me is not going to change my opinions or take back my words about you, you know that right?"

But his son seemed to still decide to ignore him despite the warning. His father could only sighed seeing his son's stubbornness.

"…Thank you," but a whisper that no one had expected came, surprising everyone present.

Sawamura blinked and turned to look at his boyfriend.

Miyuki Tatsunori widened his eyes as he faced his steering wheel, unable to believe the words that came from his son.

"Thank you, for the ride. But don't think I'm going to change my opinions about you just because of this," Miyuki said as he finally looked up and stare hard at his father, who had turned his eyes to look back at the eyes of his son. "As for those words you've said about me, I'll make you take them all back in this summer, because Seidou is definitely going to the nationals. And this time, I'll make sure I'll do it in a way that you have no chance to berate me on any blunder or mistakes I've made."

Miyuki's father may have remained unmoved by those words, but Sawamura was sure he was able to see it just as he was able to see it too.

The determination behind the eyes and words of the captain of Seidou baseball team.

And this time, the professional manager gave a small smile, not doubting the determination at all. Sawamura blinked in surprise when he noticed that.

"Hah! I doubt you can do that," Miyuki's father said in a mocking tone, causing Sawamura to flinch upon hearing those words. "There's no way you will be able to play a game perfectly. There's no such thing, even in professional baseball."

Oi. As a father shouldn't you be encouraging him instead of saying those words to discourage him? Sawamura couldn't believe how dampening Miyuki's father could be. Are those words supposed to be said by a father?

"But still," the manager said as he shifted his gear, getting ready to take off. "If you think you can do it, then show me." And Sawamura blinked in surprise again when he heard those words, not expecting the encouraging words from the driver.

"Though I still think it's impossible," were the final words before Miyuki's father finally left before Sawamura had a chance to say anything in protest to the negative words while Miyuki silently watched his father drive off.

This time, I'll make you acknowledge me.

**Line Break**

"Gosh, what the hell was that!?" Sawamura shouted as soon as the car went out of his sight. "Are those supposed to be words coming out from a father? Aren't you going to say anything back?" Sawamura asked as he quickly turned to face Miyuki, who looked at him back with a seemingly neutral face.

"That's not necessary," and the neutral expression suddenly changed to a determined one as Miyuki said those words. "I'll prove it to him with my play instead of words."

"Yeah! I'll help you with that!" Sawamura said, also with determination when he heard his captain's resolve. However, Miyuki suddenly looked at him skeptically.

"You sure about that?"

"What?! Of course I can!" Sawamura shouted, feeling slightly shocked when he realized his boyfriend did not believe him.

"Oh, sure you can," Miyuki said as he ruffled his boyfriend's hair, hoping to give some encouragement and maybe comfort. "Just make sure you recover and get back your old strength before the summer tournament okay? You're going to miss the Kanto tournament after all."

"Urgh… I know that. You don't have to remind me." Anyone could tell that Sawamura was really frustrated with the fact that he couldn't play with the team for the Kanto tournament; as if not playing in the Senbatsu was not bad enough already. "Don't you worry, Miyuki! Be prepared to be blown away this time during summer! Because this time, I'll bring the team to the summer Koshien! And I'll make sure you'll acknowledge my pitching before you graduate! Baka-Miyuki!"

As if those words flipped a switch inside of Miyuki, the catcher suddenly remembered the words he overheard in the training center, said by the very same pitcher in front of him.

"He's always been trying hard to get stronger together with the whole team and everyone acknowledges him as a captain whole heartedly because they know how much effort Miyuki has put in for the team!"

"It's because Miyuki has always been helping me all these times that I was able to achieve what I had today!"

"To me Miyuki has always been one of the most awesome players I've seen in my entire life and it has always been my goal to be acknowledged by him as a pitcher and as one of his team members and partner!"

"I've NEVER once regretted knowing him and forming a battery with him in my entire life!"

The next thing Sawamura knew, he was suddenly pulled into his boyfriend's chest to be hugged tightly.

And as he attempted to protest for the sudden movement, Sawamura's eyes widened in shock as he was suddenly kissed on the lips by his boyfriend.

To be continued…

Oops! Sorry for stopping the kiss! Bet you all are going to start cursing me, aren't you? I'm a sadist just like Miyuki after all. (lol)

Anyway, it would be great if you all could review and comment regarding my story. Let me know how you feel about it! Thanks a lot! =D

I'll try to get the next chapter up as soon as I could! But warning, I'm still trying to catch up on Haikyuu! XD

Regards,
Ink-chan

P.S. Just thought that I better clarify. The scene that happened in the ward 5 months ago happened before Miyuki and Sawamura started dating.