Sealed Lips
Chapter Four: PROMIES AND BEGINNINGS
It was dinner time and Mercedes found herself hiding out in her room, which was clearly a first for her. She could the smell the scent of food wafting up to her room it was dizzying and intoxicating all at once.
She had been avoiding eating today at breakfast and had only a salad for lunch she was proud of herself the old the Mercedes would have stuffed her face by now.
Putting down her book for the moment she closed her laptop, Mercedes made her way down stairs for a glass of water she had been extremely thirsty all day I'll have to start carrying a water bottle with me now on she thought to herself, grabbing a glass Mercedes let the tap run for a while before putting her glass under the cold stream.
"Perfect" her mom said coming up behind her she got down four plates "You're just in time for dinner"
A fizzle of panic shoot through Mercedes "I'll eat later" she said "I was just in the middle of something"
"Oh no, you don't" Mercedes mother grabbed her by the shoulders and led her to the dining table "You study so hard baby, time for a break, you'll need the energy"
Mercedes bit her and quietly took a seat at the table, there was no way she could get out of it without making her parents suspicious and the last thing she wanted from her father was another 'weight talk'.
Her mother had made pasta and sauce for dinner, with baked bread and salad. Picking up the salad bowl she gave herself a large helping.
"Glad to see your starting with the salad Mer" Mercedes father commented. Mercedes cringed, it's none of your business what I eat it's my body. She nodded silently.
"I hope you're finally taking your weight into consideration, and setting healthy goals" Mercedes father continues. Shut up, shut, shut up Mercedes thought, but she didn't voice any of this out loud instead her hand stretched out and pulled the bowl of noodles toward herself and she scooped on to a her plate, the pasta sauce came next she ladled two helping on top of it. She grabbed the bread basket next took out a roll and slipped it into her mouth then grabbed another one ad stared to butter it. Her fork twisted the noodles into the sauce and straight into the cave of her mouth, one bite, two bites, three bites, four. Her jaws chewed tasted and swallowed, her empty aching belly welcomed the food and filled her up. Her plate sparkled with a drop of left over sauce which she picked up with a lick of her finger.
Walking up the stairs she closed the door and looked in the mirror, what had she done?
All today, she had been good and had eaten healthy and now she was a fat stinking mess. How could she have done this?
She wrapped her arms around her aching stomach and cringed at how full she felt. Full and fat. She was disgusting; tears ran down Mercedes face, she had no will power or control. She was going to be a fat and ugly for the rest of her life.
Looking away from her pitiful reflection she slowly opened her bedroom door and made her into her parents' bedroom, she stole into their bathroom. She had remembered that her mother had once kept a scale in it looking around she couldn't find one. She bended over and looked under the sink, moving around a few cleaning bottles her fingers wrapped around there prize, she pulled out a dusty scale. She carried it back into her own bedroom.
Setting it lightly on the floor and switching the on button. It was the moment of truth; she backed away from the scale not sure if she wanted to see the answer she would get.
Breathing in deep she stepped on the scale 86, the number flashed twice before settling on it. Stepping off she rushes to her still open laptop and quickly finds the conversion for kg to lbs. 190 pounds.
Mercedes hands slipped, no, no, no. she wasn't.
But she was.
She had heard Santana complaining about being 117 and here she was 190 lbs.
One hundred and ninety fat fucking pounds. Standing up she looked in the mirror and at that moment Mercedes hated herself. This was it, it was final, she wasn't going to eat again.
A/N: Sorry for the delay, I will try not to be gone without posting for so long again.
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