Disclaimer: I do not own Gundam Seed / Destiny or any of the characters. I only own this confusing plot.

Well, I was lying in my bed and I'm not sure...Just staring at the ceiling when this idea came up I guess? D: I still am not really sure where I'm going with this story, but I hope I will soon. :) For your sakes. Well, here's chapter 4 for you. :) Enjoy.


Summary

She was mine. Yes, she was mine. She was all I ever needed, but that bastard took her away. He took everything away from me. There's only one thing to do now isn't there? Revenge has never sounded so sweet.


She Was Mine

Chapter 4: Wants

I do not need much from this world, of course I don't. I have everything I could want, the wealth, the fame, the health and of course; the women. Not that I care much for the women though, most just cling to me knowing that if they were able to charm me enough to wed them, then they would gain everything I have and be in the spotlight as well. And yet...none of the women I have been with have been able to catch my eye with their charm. Until I met you.

I will admit, I have not treated women well in my past. They were just...objects to me...There to amuse, entertain, and sometimes pleasure me. I could care less however, what happened to them, whether or not they cried when I told them to leave my house in the middle of the night, or when they begged for me to love them, to wed them. Hah, they may have fooled any other man, but not me. Not I who truly knows what women can do to a man. They pretend to love, pretend that they only care about you when all they want is your money. Once they have it, they'll leave you without a word, without a second thought or glance. You're different.

You already have what most women want and need. You have the fame, wealth, the angelic looks, and most importantly, the personality. That day I laid my eyes on you while you were with your father at that banquet my father held, I knew you were different. The way you carried yourself so elegantly with your charming words and innocent smiles. You claimed my heart without even speaking a word to me.

So when you approached me, politely introduced yourself and asked for my name as well...I stumbled over my own words and ended up looking like a complete idiot. You surprised me again however, rather than laughing in my face and walking off you merely smiled and said you were having trouble speaking to me as well. Being so experienced with the business and knowing the difference from a lie and the truth, I could tell you were honest by the way you smiled so genuinely and laughed. I wonder if it is possible to fall in love with the same person more than once.

At the time when you were with me, when we were officially a 'couple' was the happiest time of my life. Your melodious laughter ringing through my ears was enough to make me smile, and your words so elegantly laced together always calmed me down even when the bastard toyed with my sister. The feel of your lips upon mine was much more than enough to silence me and keep my rage to a minimum. I curse you sometimes for making me so weak and vulnerable but I cannot help but to love you all the same.

You've proven to me, time and time again that you are not like those other women, who only want power and greed. You would not leave me if a better man came along, you would not ask me for help. Independent. And yet, once your father agreed that you would be wed to Athrun Zala, that bastard, you couldn't do anything. You were completely powerless against your father's words, and I do not blame you. I blame that bastard for agreeing. I blame him for taking you away from me. I blame him for bringing me to the brink of my sanity.

So I swear on my life that I will save you from his grasps, and if I find out that he has laid one finger on you...So help me God, I will bring him to the depths of hell with my own bloodied hands. All for your sake.


Now wasn't that nice.

What was? The part where I wrote that I would bring him to the depths of hell? Why yes, I think that was a nice touch.

That as well, but I meant you writing it all. Men would never write their feelings on paper you know.

Like I give a damn what men do. If they all decided to have a suiciding pact it doesn't mean i touch join them.

Still, it seems you really love her...

Of course I do. I was going to ask for her hand in marriage the day her father announced publicly about their wedding. I think you know how that idea turned out.

If you ask me. It seems that she was the only one keeping you sane.

No one asked you anyways. Besides, who said I'm not sane?

Your father and Gilbert Dullindal it seems.

Gee, thanks for pointing that out again. God, I need to get my mind on something else. That boy wont contact me until tomorrow or so, and talking with you will only do to test my sanity.

I shall take that as a compliment.

That's enough, I shall take a nap to pass the time. Now quiet down so I can rest in peace.

You're avoiding it again.

There's nothing to avoid.

Sure there is. The fact that you're unstable and insane is one of them.

Will you shut up?

I might if you weren't thinking the exact same thing. I am you after all.

I. Am. Not. Insane. Dammit, I know they're planning something alright?! That boy even told me so. I will handle it all, and prove to you once and for all.

Why not now? Are you afraid?

Why would I be afraid? I'll risk anything to get Lacus and Cagalli back. My life means nothing with Lacus anyways...and Cagalli is the only real family I have.

Then do it. Save them now. Why wait for that boy when the job can be done now.

Because...I don't have any information on Cagalli. I must wait for that boy.

That may be true, but what about Lacus? You know where she is, you know who she's with. You can save her. Just. Like. That.

...Don't be ridiculous. Waiting for that boy won't take long.

You were never the patient time. Can it be...that you like yourself this way? Do you enjoy being unstable and insane? Is that why you don't want to save Lacus now, because she keeps you in place?

I've told you time and time again; I am not insane. I am perfectly stable.

Then save her now. What if he's laid a finger on her? You'll bring him to the depths of hell correct?

Or could it be, you don't care about her?

WILL YOU SHUT UP WITH THESE FALSE ACCUSATIONS?

What have I told you before...Kira? Whatever you feel, I say. Your uncertainty is mine as well. So why not end it? Why not prove that you care about her, and that you'll honestly risk your life to save her. You want her don't you?

I don't just want her...I need her.

Will you do it?

I'm going out.

To?

You already know where.

Oh, but say it. It sounds much better when you say it.

I'm going to go out and save Lacus EVEN if it means putting my life on the line. Don't you ever say that I don't care about her again.

Ah, yes. Now don't you feel better? You must be crazy to do all this for one girl though.

Yeah well, sanity is overrated.


OH. :O Will the next chapter be about Kira going to save Lacus? Or maybe a chapter about how Lacus is doing? Or maybe even Shinn's researching:) Your guesses are as good as mine. Also, sorry it's kinda short. it's like 11 30ish pm at the moment, and that means my bro will be home soon. So rather than wait another day to write more, I just posted this now. D: I promised the next chapter will be longer. :) Much longer.

At the moment, I'm thinking up things for two other stories so it may take me a longer time to update now. x.X I'll try to update as soon as possible though. :) And remember, Reviews make me OH. SO. HAPPY. Flames heat up my freezing house, and criticism well, I thankies yoos for those. : )

If I've wasted your time. My bad. D: That's what happens when you read a 14 year olds experimental story. :) Till Next Time.