More Waiting

"Ness, Baby we have to go come on get up." Jacob said as he bent down to kiss me. I could wake up to his face everyday. "You ok?" He asked as I realized I was staring.

"Yeah fine sorry. Morning." I sat up and kissed his cheek. "I'll be down in a sec. ok?" He turned and walked out of the room and I hurried to get ready. It was sunny, just as Alice had predicted. We hadn't had much time alone since last week, so the nice day was a huge relief. We were the only ones who could go outside on these days. We drove even farther than last time, making sure we were well out of range from my father's extra hearing. We got out of the car and looked out onto a beautiful pond with a waterfall that reflected the sun. I ran and changed into my favorite bikini which was yellow with blue pokadots. When I emerged he was already in the water, floating on his back with the sun reflecting off of his perfect chest. My heart beat sped while I ran and cannon balled right next to him.

Not even a second after I came up for air he had me in a tight grip to his chest. "Gotcha." I couldn't help but giggle as he lifted me out of the water and kissed me, like something out of the movies, the way I had always wanted to be kissed-even thought it would've been better if it was raining. I couldn't understand how he knew exactly what would make my heart stop-I guess he just knows me too well. After swimming around for a while and making out under the waterfall, we decided to lie out on the grass in the sun.

I rested my head on his shoulder and inhaled his earthy scent. I couldn't get enough of him. He must've been thinking the same thing because all of a sudden he was on top of me, careful not to put any weight on me, and our mouths were stepping in time again. I was hit by a feeling that could only be called one thing. Lust. I had seen it all on TV before and it seemed natural for high school kids to be having sex. I pushed on Jake's shoulder to try and roll over, and he snapped back in an instant.

"What's wrong? Did I hurt you?" He had so much worry in his eyes it almost hurt.

"Jake I'm fine." I pulled my self closer to him so that our faces were inches apart. "I just wanted to be on top" I laughed as he suddenly realized how badly he was over reacting. He grabbed my waist and lifted me on top of him effortlessly and I pushed him back so that he was lying down again. I was straddling him now and I bent down and pressed a hard heavy kiss on his lips. He then responded by opening his mouth. When I did the same and out tongues were twisting around, my hormones started raging. I started thinking of all the things that I wanted to do with him and I let my mind wander…

In less than a second he had me off of him and 5 feet in between us.

"Nessie…" he started awkwardly, "I can't do that."

"Do what…?"

"Those things that you just showed me. I can't do that. I won't be able to keep control. Plus you realize your dad would kill me!"

"I understand." Crap. I really have to get control of that. And as much as I understood what he was saying, I was hurt none the less. I tried to hide it but my voice gave it away.

"Ness I'm sorry." He said moving closer. "We both just have to be patient ok? Maybe we went too far-"

"No!" I practically screamed. "Its fine I'm sorry. It's just my mind wandering. It'll be fine I promise. I'm fine."

"Alright if you say so…" His voice was unsure but I took it.

"Now will you please get back over here? I'm freezing!" He laughed at my ploy to get him closer. Actually it wasn't entirely a lie. The sun was setting and the wind was starting to pick up. He held me close for a little while but when he couldn't even keep me from shivering we decided to leave.

I am wrecked. I am overblown.
I am also fed up with the common cold.
But I just hate to say goodbye
to all the metaphors and lies
that have taken me years to come up with.

Say it's true. Say you like me.
(I like you.)
Just for the night.
For me, it's been eternity...

And as I gently sip this drink,
I think about my lack of future,
and all the places I could learn to fall in love.

I know I shouldn't waste my time,
Wishing I'd been better designed,
yet for some reason still think

I am wrecked. I am overblown.
I am also fed up with the fucking common cold!
When I just want to feel alive for the first time in my life,
I just want to feel attractive today.

Attractive Today, by Motion City Soundtrack blared from my stereo at 6:00. Time for school. The past week wasn't so bad. Jamie and I had become really good friends and I ended up learning a lot about her. She does have siblings so and it turns out that whole conversation on my first day was just an icebreaker. I also learned that she's crazy and does stuff like that to make people feel better-she's on of the nicest people I'd ever met. She also introduced me to a bunch of new people, so I had a pretty stable group of friends. Jake of course joined in. We hadn't been allowed to the party the other night. Alice saw the cops getting called and people getting arrested as soon as Jake was out of the picture. To save my friends I invited Jamie and Cara over and Jake had Jamie's older brother Jordan and his friend Kyle over and we had our own party.

"Morning!" I said to no one in particular as I ran down the stairs. The sun was out still so it would just be Jake and I today.

"If you're not out of the house in about 30 seconds you're going to be late!" Alice yelled. I grabbed a pop tart and booked it to the car.

"Nessie! Jake! Over here!" I could hear Jamie all the way across the parking lot even without my dad's hearing.

"Hey James! The Whole parking lot can hear you!" I yelled back, knowing full well that she hated when I called her James. It seemed like I had known her my whole life.

"What?!" She yelled, still on the other side of the parking lot. I laughed at her and waved her to come over. "Morning!" She chirped as she popped next to me.

"Why are you always so cheerful in the morning? Its 7 AM give me a break!" Jake laughed and we both play punched him in the stomach at the same time. "Great now it's two against one that's fair. Hey Jordan, get your ass over here! I need reinforcements!" He spotted Jordan locking up the car.

"Good morning everyone! Excited for a lovely day at school?!" Jordan said mocking his sister.

"Ha come on guys we're going to be late."

Jamie always liked to tease Jake and I when we were being all "mushy" as she put it, so when her and our friends saw us kissing in the hallway we knew we were in for it. Whats even worse is that she was always dead on.

"Oh I love you!" Jamie said as she dramatically grabbing Kyle by the shoulders.

"You are my life! I cannot live with out you!" He played along. He swung her down into a dip, placed his hand over her mouth, and kissed the back of his hand. When he pulled her up I saw in her eyes how confused she was. She and Kyle had a thing all summer, and then he went on to go out with Taylor out of the blue. She changed him for the worse and now he was toying with her emotions like crazy. I'd offered to slug her in the face, but lucky for her Jamie is nicer than me. We all sat down on the grass and I gave her a "it'll be ok" look and leaned against Jake. "Offers still good." I say knowing she would get it right away. Everyone else shrugged it off and kept talking.

"So are you guys excited for the dance Friday?" Cara asked. I completely forgot. The Halloween dance was coming up soon. Kyle's band was playing-as much as I love Jake, watching him play and sing can make any girl melt. "Nessie what are you going to be?" She asked.

"Not sure yet. Maybe a hot vampire." I joked. I heard Jacob holding back a laugh behind me.

"Oh my god Nessie we should do something together! You know like devil angel thing. Only not cause that idea sucks, but you get it." Wow she can talk. "Oh my god we'll all do something!" She was way too excited.

"Can't sorry. Adam and I are being Romeo and Juliet" Eryn said.

Unfortunately for us Taylor wanted in. But I had a plan around this. "Alright when can we go shopping? Taylor when are you free?"

"Um only Wed. I think."

"Oh bummer I can't go then. Can you Jamie?" I hinted. She finally caught on after a few seconds.

"Oh no! I can't! Too bad that'd be so much fun. Downer. What are you going to do Taylor?" She said, obviously not sorry at all.

"I guess I'll find something around my house…" She mumbled. Jamie winked at me when she wasn't looking.

Jake and I drove home immediately after the bell rang. I so wanted to get out of there. The plan was that Jamie, Cara, and I would go shopping tonight and we were going to be Charlie's Angels. Jacob especially liked Jamie's idea for leather pants. And he's the one with the restrictions… so no fair.

I ran inside and grabbed my things. "Momma, Daddy, I'm going to Portland with Jamie and Cara, k? Shopping for the dance. We'll be careful I promise."

"Alright have fun!" My mom said before daddy could object. She was always on my side.

"Love you!" I said as I pecked them on the cheek. Better kiss up incase I miss curfew.

Mind if I use your car? Going shopping with the girls.

~Nessie~

I quickly texted Rosalie. Only it wasn't her that responded, it was Emmett. Oh god, I thought as I opened the message, here we go.

Go right ahead! She won't be needing it tonight. If you catch my drift… ;)

Emmett was the only one in my family who didn't think it was awkward to talk about sex. He could always make me laugh. When I wasn't with Momma or Alice, I was usually hanging with him. I got a text from Rosalie as I was grabbing her keys.

Ignore him please. He'll be getting something for that later. Go ahead and take it. Have fun

~*Rose*~

I turned on the car and my phone buzzed again. Emmett this time

Oh I'll be getting something alright… ;D

I responded as quick as I could. I hated to text and drive but I wanted to go.

You better stop before she kills you Em! Have fun. (Don't do anything I wouldn't do ;D)

~Nessie~

Another thing I love about Emmett is that I can make Sex jokes back to him. He replied.

Too late

I couldn't help but laugh as I pulled out of the drive way to go get my friends.

I was going to end this a lot sooner but then i thought about the texting conversations and i thought it was funny so i wanted to put it in. Emmett is wicked fun to write about! This chapter isn't exactly what i wanted but i'm not sure when i'll get to post again and this was already kinda flowing out so i put it up. Thanks so much for the reviews! i'm also open to any suggestions you guys have so if you wanna see something in the future let me know! All this drama with the new friends i only really added because i am exactly in Jamie's shoes right now... and it sucks. I basically make these characters like people i know. Kyle and Taylor (Who's names i kept the same) will probably start some drama cuz thats what happens in life so ya. Jamie and Nessie are kinda both like me... Nessie the softer cuter side and Jamie the wicked crazy side. I actually did that whole yelling across the parking lot thing today.... but anyways i'm rambling. so ya hope you liked it please review!

~PeaceandLove~