I finally found you

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Chapter 4

Clarke's POV

The last glance I've shared with Lexa was miserable, because it may be the last glance we'll shared this day. It's emotive thinking about that, but it's the truth. The loss of her presence left a pang in my chest. I don't know why, being in the wilderness for a month it made me numbed about my surroundings, but when Lexa came in the cave where I'm staying yesterday, everything changed. It changed everything when she came, like when she came in to my life. I still remembered our first meeting, Lexa sitting on her throne, hands frolicking with her dagger that looked on her face she's giving me I know since that day everything will changed.

It really changed everything after Finn. In her tent, I was still not ready, but I know for sure, someday I will be. I really missed having someone's company since I left Camp Jaha, which is Arkadia at this moment as they enlighten me. But this company made me longing to someone, that someone is the commander of the twelve clans. The person who left us in mount weather and I know that they are not the same. The person I'm with in the cave is the Lexa, the Lexa who is carefree and the one who she knew in the façade she's into.

I know Lexa has these feelings too, I can feel it radiate to her. The feelings she's not frightened to face off. That's why I adore her so much, she don't want anything but making sure that I am safe. The occurrence in mount weather is excluded, I discerned that it's a choice she made by making sure her people are safe. Maybe in other time, I will lastly accept it. It's still fresh in my mind, thus why I can't keep that grip of acceptance in my hands. Acceptance that will be built in this place, as Lexa promised me. I know giving her a second chance is a risked and I also know that she deserve it.

Knowing Lexa has these feelings towards me never made my self-esteem to get up. I know that Lexa has it for a long time; it just made me feel safe. I do feel something to her, a feeling that I need to avoid, but I can't. It is my heart who is deciding not my head. In this kind of matter, all matter is being loved by someone you adore. Life is about more than just surviving, I should take my own words in my mind. Lexa agreed with me with this thought and it happened. That time wasn't right, I was not ready, but I guess time passed. I definitely have a good feeling she'll do her best just to make it up to me. As I'm seeing towards her actions, she's really trying. I can feel that's she's sincere towards every move she made.

The sentries escorted me in this huge guest room, it has a bed, a nice view to Polis, a lots of candles around the room, breathe taking area just to be a guest room. Sitting on the edge of the bed, not knowing what will I do next. Lexa really made sure that I will be comfortable in this room; she even left two of her strongest sentries she have in Polis outside of my room. Knowing she cared about me is a real adoration to uphold. I have been in this room for the last couple of hours and its boredom. I stood up and pace in the middle of the room, until an idea took over my head.

At least I'll get my luck by this one and I'll save myself to this monotony. Maybe I'll get in a little trouble though.

I walk towards the door. "Sentries!" I called and the door opened. The two sentries outside of my room went in. They looked really dangerous and it made me a little edgy.

"What is your desire wanheda?" They bowed before me to show respect, but I don't think it's a great action towards me.

I gritted my teeth with the title, but I can't blame them. I've been a subject around the whole place. I straighten my features. "I would like to go to the commander's chamber."

The sentries stood up and the other sentry looked at me. "We cannot grant your request wanheda."

I'm confused, Lexa told them to grant my requests and now they are not exploiting it. I narrowed my brows at the sentry who spoke to me. "The commander told you grant my wishes."

The sentries nodded but spoke up. "Heda is taking a rest. The fleimkepa told us if the commander is resting, no one should disturb her slumber."

Titus is really getting into my nerves, but I won't let it. "It will be my responsibility if the fleimkepa be livid with you two. Can you now take me to the commander's chamber?"

The sentries nodded and went towards the door. I followed them, seeing the other rooms in this level of Polis made me wonder what is inside of them.

One of the sentries that are guarding my room spoke up. "Those are the chamber of some of the ambassadors, the ambassador do not actually stay in Polis, but Heda made sure that they will feel home when they are in Polis that is why they have a respective room. This level of Polis is for the high powered people on the ground. You're one of them wanheda that is why your chamber is in the opposite end of this level. Heda's room is in the opposite end of this level."

He certainly noticed the confusion in my features, which is why he told me that. "I don't understand why my room is in the opposite of the commander's?" I asked him.

The sentry kept his pace towards the commander's chamber and responded. "That chamber is for the people that Heda wants a full protection. Every chamber in this level does not have any sentries outside of their rooms. The sentries in this level are for the commander and the opposite of her room. Other sentries are assigned in respectable positions, which sometimes are at the entrance of this level."

I nodded in appreciation and realized that were already in Lexa's room. "Thank you for taking me in here. I will handle the fleimkepa myself. You two can guard this room, if someone of you two wants, it is your decision."

The sentries bowed, they exchange some different language conversation with the sentries that guarding Lexa's room. I think the sentries of mine, told them that I will go to the commander's room. I will certainly going to learn their language, if I want to understand them. I walk towards Lexa's room, the sentries of Lexa nodded in respect, I returned the nod. People in Polis are so reverential. They opened Lexa's chamber door, I didn't wait for anything and immediately went inside. They immediately closed it for privacy of the commander.

Astonishment took over, my eyes travel around Lexa's room. It is huge; as you walked in to the room you'll see a table and a sofa in the middle of the room. Paraphernalia around the room, a great view from Polis greater than my view in my own chamber, after all she's the commander. It felt so warm in Lexa's room, my body relaxed immediately as I see Lexa peacefully sleeping on her bed. Her bed can fit us together; I shook my head with the thought. I guess the candles really giving me the vibe of peaceful and thinking of some vision that needed to be remained in my head. I will certainly ask Lexa what's with the candles around her massive tower.

I stride towards Lexa's bed. I see her face being in a peaceful feature. A small glint of smile in the side of her mouth and it made me smile knowing that she's having a good slumber. It made me curious what she's dreaming, but that's not what I came for. I saw a chair in the side of her bed; I grabbed it and placed it in front of Lexa's sleeping body, a distance that I can watch her sleeping. I can admire her face for an entire day, maybe in my entire life too. She's just so beautiful even when she's sleeping, especially when she smiles. I chuckled to my thoughts.

Possibly half of an hour has past. I'm still here admiring the beauty in my front. I intertwined my hands and slowly lean on to her face. Small features of her face are so beautiful, her hair is not in her usual braid and it looks so soft. I smiled, everything in surroundings stopped and I didn't noticed as my hand tucks a lock behind her ear. Her face reacted to action I've made, it moves towards my hand and her mouth twitches a smile. I hoped she knows how incredible she is. An idea came into my mind and I leaned back to the chair I'm sitting on, a smile spread to my face.

I retrieved the small scroll on my back where I can draw anything I want. I always bring it in case I will finally have the courage to draw again. I never draw something since the incident in mount weather because of lacking in self inspiration. I miss to draw, I guess this time I saw someone who is suitable for my works. I keeped my stance on the chair, once I finally got a better angle; I started to draw a sleeping Lexa. The seriousness in me kicks in; the desire to make my art to become a successful product, because how can I not do my best if a goddess is in front of me. I know what will do, I need to focus.

No one's POV

Moments have passed and the time completely forgotten by the blonde, all she did is gave her full focus in making her subject looked satisfying. A face formed, arm, small features have captured by the blonde. Darkening the part in Lexa's hair, made her final looked until the brunette started to stir. Clarke been exasperated by the sudden movement, but she can't blame the brunette because after all she is sleeping. Clarke is never been the type to creeped in when someone is lost in their own slumber. Another movement caused by Lexa and it finally satisfied the blonde because she is done with her work. Looking at the work she had done, she smiled. Even though it is not the work she have done the best, still it looked like just like her.

"Clarke." The brunette started to mumble in her sleep and something that Clarke did not expected. Lexa accidentally said her name. Lexa's dreaming about me? A smile suddenly displayed in Clarke's feature. A curiosity immediately washed over the blonde's mind, about what is Lexa is dreaming about and why did she say Clarke's name. Maybe she's dreaming something bad about Clarke or maybe she's fantasizing some imagination in her mind. It really made Clarke, desperate, in some point. Clarke stood up from her sit and put the chair back where it was placed. She turned around and was about to leave.

Little did not she know the brunette was woken up by the small action that Clarke did. Small noise has made and by that small noise the commander had woken up.

Lexa sat up from her bed and noticed the blonde who was about to leave her room. "Clarke?"

Clarke's eyes widen. It is not her intention to wake Lexa up, but it was too late. Clarke turned around and begun to explain. "I was just checking you out and made sure you really had that rest." Clarke said innocently even she knew that the sentries had told her that Lexa was resting.

Lexa can see that the blonde is hiding something, but she did not press anymore. "Would you like to take a sit?" Lexa asked the blonde and gestured towards the sofa in the middle of her room.

"I think I'm good." Clarke responded knowingly that Lexa can feel her eagerness to leave the room. Clarke remembered about the art she draw and slowly put her hands behind her back.

That action didn't unnoticed by Lexa. Lexa eyes Clarke curiously and stood up. Her hair is beside her right shoulder, simple clothes that Clarke never saw, she so looks fine, Clarke thought. Lexa started walking towards Clarke. "What is that?" Gesturing to what is Clarke hiding behind her.

"Just a plain scroll, I always bring it to me." Clarke's eyes averted from Lexa's, she looked around the room just to avoid Lexa's glare. A thing that Clarke Griffin does when she's nervous or hiding something.

"It's like something draw in it. I did not really catch the sight from my bed, but I'm sure there is something in it." Lexa replied and can feel the nervousness by the blonde and spoke up again. "But I do not want to invade with your privacy, so I will let it slide."

Lexa still has that curiosity in her eyes but let the matter go. Clarke released a breath she's holding. "Someday I'll let you see it, I promise." Clarke smiled reassuring Lexa. The smile is returned by Lexa and she nodded to Clarke.

"Would you mind to stay a little longer?" Lexa asked hoping the blonde to grant her wishes.

"I think I stayed longer than I have expected." Clarke intake a nervous breath please let her not say anything else.

Lexa glared at Clarke questioningly, until the sentries outside of the room bellowed. "Fleimkepa, General Indra." Lexa straighten her body and looked at Clarke literally indicating we're not done yet. Clarke immediately went towards Lexa's behind, having the time to put the scroll to her back. Making sure her clothe is hiding it. Clarke is thanking the Gods above in her head from saving her to Lexa's intriguing questions.

The door opened revealing the flame keeper and Indra. It was immediately closed for privacy in the room. The two bowed before Lexa in show of respect and stood up. Indra spoke up first. "Heda, it is so good to finally have your presence back in Polis."

Lexa nodded in appreciation. "It is good to know that someone is appreciating my presence back in Polis." Lexa side glared at Titus by stating that, it was unseen by Indra.

"Of course Heda, the Polis is not the same without your presence." Indra told Lexa in a matter of fact.

"I sure know of that Indra. What can you tell me about the matters have happened while I left." Lexa asked the general.

"The ice nation keeps demanding for answers to why you have vanished in days Heda." Indra stated.

"The commander will talk about that matter in another time, Indra." Titus interjected Lexa nodded in agreement.

"Very well then, I wish you could have told us what really gotten in your mind Heda." Indra said towards Lexa.

Lexa's jaw clenched indicating her exasperation, but sighed because she can't be angry with the general; it was her fault after all. "I will, in a matter of time." Lexa assured Indra and the general nodded to the commander.

Titus looks behind Lexa and noticed the presence of Clarke. "What are you doing here?"

Clarke gritted her teeth by the tone of the flame keeper, but still responded. "I'm just checking the commander."

"No one is allowed to disturb the commander's slumber." Titus said irritated by Clarke.

"Obviously, but both of you went here to talk to the commander right?" Clarke said a little shocked to what she has said. Knowing that the flame keeper will hater her more than before.

"I do not appreciate your tone wanheda." Titus glared at Clarke. Clarke knew that Titus doesn't like him, but why he needed to be so irritating every time they both clashed.

Lexa lost in patience and interjected. "You will respect wanheda as you respect me." Titus just nodded but still gave Clarke a death glare.

Suddenly, Indra finally let her glare towards Clarke behind the commander. "Skaikru!" She screeched and unleashed her sword beside of her.

Clarke stiffed in her place and Lexa immediately stood near Clarke, in protection. "You will not harm wanheda." Lexa said to Indra, her full length in front of Clarke protecting the blonde to the general.

Indra didn't move an inch but still glaring at Clarke. "Why should I not Heda? She is a threat to you!"

"I already said that to the commander earlier, but she is certainly not listening." Titus countered giving a death glare towards Clarke, still not appreciating disturbing the commander.

Lexa's jaw tautens as she walked towards Titus and the fleimkepa froze in his place. "I do not appreciate you interjecting us in our own conversation Titus. I certainly do not want your presence in my room if you are disrespecting my commands!" Her inner demon just exploded.

Titus felt threaten by the tone of the commander; he swallowed the lump in his throat and looked down the floor. Indra noticed the frustration in Lexa's features that is why she stand down, putting back her sword where it belongs. It was seen by Clarke and it made her sighed in relief. Indra broke the silence. "Forgive me Heda." Specifying to what she is acting towards Clarke.

Clarke was about to walked towards the commander but Indra glares at her. "I know you don't like me but trust me, I should be in where I need to be." Indra just nodded and still held that glare to the blonde.

Clarke is finally beside Lexa and rubbed her shoulder. Lexa's shoulder slump in relaxation and it caused Indra to glare at Clarke in confusion. Heda never lessen her stress in a short time. It made the general wonder how Clarke done that. A sighed of relief was breath out by the flame keeper who is still frozen in his place. Lexa nodded towards Clarke appreciating to what she has done and straighten her posture. Clarke step back giving a distance towards the commander.

"If you may Titus, I do not want to see your presence in my room at this moment." Lexa said civilly, but still holding the frustration behind her façade.

The flame keeper nodded. "Of course Heda and I apologize to what I acted." Lexa nodded to the man and Titus bowed down on respect. When he stood up, he left the room immediately.

"Heda if you don't mind, what is wanheda doing here in Polis?" Indra asked the commander. Lexa nodded in understanding.

"Klark kom skaikru is our guest in Polis." Lexa looked at Clarke and nodded which was returned by the blonde.

"I respect that Heda." Indra told the commander in affirmation and she looked at Clarke. "If you ever try to harm the commander, you will meet your God." She threatened the blonde.

Lexa was about to say something, but interjected by Clarke. "I will never harm the commander, I assure you of that."

"Then we are clear in that matter." Indra stated and nodded towards the blonde.

Clarke returned the nod and moved towards Indra. She extended her arms towards the general and Indra looked at the gesture. She extended her arms and grasped Clarke's arm making sure not too tight because of the commander. "Welcome to Polis, wanheda."

Clarke retrieved her hand and responded. "Thank you Indra." Indra nodded towards Clarke.

She lands her attention to the commander. "Any wish you desire Heda?"

Lexa witnessing the gestures exchanged by the two women made her sigedh in relief. "I do not have any desire at the moment Indra, but I appreciate your concerns."

"Of course Heda that is all the reason why I came in here, to make sure the commander is doing well." Indra stated.

"Then you are dismissed at the moment, general." Lexa told Indra, the general bowed in respect and she was out in a moment.

"Why people in Polis want to kill me when they saw me in any of their sight?" Clarke asked Lexa.

Lexa turned towards Clarke and chuckled. "Do not worry about it Clarke, as I promised you. No one will dare to harm you as long as you are under in my protection."

"But I still think, I will count Indra as the second person who wants to kill me. Titus is still in first place, I'm sure he hates me after to what have happened." Clarke shook her head at the thought of the person wanting to kill her.

Lexa smirked towards Clarke and it made the blonde smile. "He just can't understand my point of view."

Clarke's relaxed her posture and words suddenly came out of her mouth. "I think your hair looks gorgeous." Clarke's eyes went wide.

Lexa laughed a little at the blonde. "You think so?"

Clarke just nodded because she can't deny the words she had told the commander. "Yeah, you should keep that hair style."

A glint of smile plastered Lexa's face. "I wish I could, but every commander wears a braid when they are in the public." Clarke sighed in defeat and Lexa spoke up again. "But I could make an exception to you, when we are alone. I mean when we are together in this room I guess?"

"Yeah! I would love that." Clarke said eagerly to Lexa.

"I have one question." Lexa said and that curiosity in her eyes strikes again.

Clarke inner soul just stopped moving. "What is it?" She asked innocently.

"I was wondering why you are in my room?" Lexa gave the blonde a questioning look.

"Uh, you know, I was really eager to see your room." Clarke was really not lying about the statement she said to Lexa, but it is also not the full story.

"Okay, but I do know there is something more in that story of yours." Clarke knew that Lexa can read her whether she's hiding something.

"I should go now?" Clarke said a question than a statement.

"Is that a question or a statement?" Lexa smirked at blonde knowing she wanted to get away immediately.

"Both, maybe." Clarke replied.

"By the way Clarke, you should take a good rest for tonight." Lexa told Clarke and the blonde gave her a questioning look.

"I should say the same to you." Clarke averted her eyes from Lexa.

"I will." Lexa reassured her. "I will give you a tour around Polis tomorrow." Lexa told Clarke.

Clarke looked at the commander directly. "Forgive me to what I will do." Clarke did not wait for Lexa's response, but immediately hugged the commander. Her hand around Lexa and Clarke face is buried in the crook of her neck. The blonde felt that Lexa froze in her place, but immediately relaxed by the gesture. The commander returned the hug. The duo both lost in the moment, just enjoying each other's presence. The longing is evidence in their actions.

After a while, a bore escapes Clarke's mouth and Lexa broke the hug, immediately missing the contact by each other. "You should go now Clarke." Lexa told the blonde.

Clarke just nodded, not trusting her voice. It was already known by Lexa that Clarke is really tired. "Sentries!" The commander called and straightened her posture.

The door opened revealing Clarke's guards. The sentries bowed before Lexa in show of respect. "What is your desire Heda?"

"I want both of you to escort wanheda back to her chamber and take full protection outside of her room." Lexa told the guards.

The sentries stood up and nodded. "Wanheda, if you may." The guard said, gesturing Clarke to lead the way.

Clarke looked at Lexa and gave the commander a small smile. "I'll see you tomorrow Heda."

Lexa returned the smile, even she knows that the guards watching their exchange. "You will."

Clarke was about to take a step, but stopped. Lexa looked at her confused. "At least knowing that your room is not a crescent shape, is a relief to me."

"You sky people are really odd sometimes." Lexa replied and shook her head.

Final glance to each other and Clarke left Lexa's room with the sentries in tow of her. When the door shut, Lexa breath out the air she's holding for a small time. I guess that end well. She thought about what had happened between Clarke and Indra. She went to her bed and continued her own slumber, knowing her sleep will be as great as she dream about a certain blonde earlier. She's the commander no one will dare to defy her, especially in her own home. Maybe Clarke is excluded. Lexa thought and as she let her body be exhausted.

Clarke however is in her room lying, looking at the ceiling and seeing a candle hanging. It made her relaxed, she forgot to ask Lexa about it, but she knew she will ask it in another time. Clarke slowly closed her eyes and put her hands on her stomach. Why Lexa did say my name in her sleep? A question that been rounding the head of the blonde, a question that Lexa is the only can answer it. Clarke sighed in defeat, as the tiredness took over her body. Last thought she think, tomorrow is going to be fun spending time with Lexa. A certain brunette took over her dream.


Don't mind the infos about the 'level' I made it up. Clarke is sneaky af. Indra, the badass general..

Polis in the next chapter.

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