It was already the New Year Day. Abby was sitting, comfortably on the livingroom's couch. The TV was on. She was watching cartoons. She didn't work today... and without Luka, this day would seem to be very long. Suddenly, she jumped when the phone rang. She picked up it.
"Yes?"
"It's me. Everything is okay?"
"Luka... Will you call me all 5 minutes to ask me that?"
"Yes, because I miss you."
Abby giggled and nodded.
"You too, can't you ask someone to take your schedule?"
"Everybody is busy or not here. Morris is leaving with Albright, Neela is very busy and I don't want to ask her, Ray doesn't here..."
"Okay, okay. If you can't. Me, I can. I'm borin' in front of the tv. I will come."
Abby felt that Luka didn't listen to her.
"Luka? Are you here?"
"Sorry, baby, I must go."
"Okay. See you later."
"Yes. I love you."
"Me too."
Abby put the phone and went to the bedroom. The bed wasn't made. She opened her closet and took a shirt and black pants. Suddenly she wasn't feeling good. Everything around her moved. She helped herself holding to the wall. She began to run to the bathroom and she brought up. She leant back against the wall. She rubed her eyes and wipped her mouth. She sighed, believing that it was finished but, she vommited again.

What's wrong with me? I wouldn't say if I felt myself better or not... I was still on the floor in the bathroom. I managed to stand up in spite of my trembling hands. I made a stepd behin when I saw my face in the mirror. I had the impression to see a ghost. I began to panic. I threw myself above the sink and made wet my face. I tried to take my breathe again. Now, it was my whole body which trembled. I stayed in front of the mirror until my skin begin its original appearence.
What happened? Oh God!... I knew what it was!... The chinese food that Luka bought last night.
I kept this answer until I arrived in front of the hospital. Luka was going to me. And at this moment, I realised that this answer wasn't the only... I remembered all nights...all wild nights that Luka and I spent since two months.
"Hey!" He exclamed. "You're pale. Are you okay?"
What would I answer? Hey Luka! I think I'm pregnant! No! I couldn't be! We made attention...
"I'm not really fine."
Cheers Abby! Like that he would ask you a lot of questions and as usual he would be worry for you.
"You should stay at home."
"I know...but I wanted to see you."
His interrogative glance appeared on his face.
Oh! Luka! Don't look at me like that...! I will break down and I'll reveal my thoughts... Please...
He smiled.
Thanks! I nodded. He kissed me and caressed my cheek with his nose, then he whispered :
"I finished in two hours, finally. I called Ray."
"Really?"
"Yes..."
He looked at me with his particular glance : sexy, provocative, nice, disturbing, and which could say that he had a lot of ideas...
I smiled as to answer him to his request and I felt he was satisfacted.
"See you at home in two hours, so..." I said.
"See you."
He went away after kissed me.

I went to the druggstore and I went home. The first thing that I did, it was this. The famous pregancy test. I didn't really know if it was a good idea...this pregnancy...for a lot of reasons... I was old... and... I don't want to think about him... I can't.. I would wait three minutes. When it was the time to look. I heard the key in the lock.
Oh God! No! Already! I heard his voice.
"Abby? Are you here?"
The most important, it was that my voice sounded...normal.
"Yeah. I'm in the bathroom. I'll arrive."
"Okay..."
I heard that he switched on the tv. I shook my head to not think about the sound and I put my eyes on the pregnancy test.

I was freezing. I couldn't move. It was... My eyes stinged me on account of my tears which don't want to go out. My lips trembled. I felt I was falling. Everything around me turned, turned and turned again. I try to hold me with the sink, but the impression was too hard... His voice called me in the reality.
"Abby? What do you want to eat?"
I couldn't answer. My mouth was paralyzed, any sound could go out of it. My heart bounced very hard in my chest.
"Abby? are you okay?"
Please Abby say something...Say something..
"Yeah. I don't know, make what you want."
"Okay. Will you go out of this bathroom? I returned at home for you, baby..."
"I'll arrive."
He didn't answer another question. I looked at me in the mirror. I was the impression to see a unknown. I was already pregnant... Luka wanted another child... We wanted another child... we needed more... we needed to buil our family... But why do i react like that? A million of questions came through my mind and they settled. I couldn't erased them. They made too noise in my head. I felt like shots of hammer. I took a deep breathe and I went out. When I arrived I saw Luka on the couch. He was asleeping. I smiled and nodded. I was lying down next to him, against him, to felt him close to me.
"I love you, Luka..."
He moved a little and kissed me on my hair.
"I love you too."

I was lying down on the beach. There was a sunset and I could hear the birds' song. I just turned my hand to see next to me. Luka appeared, stretched out close to me. He took my hand and sighed gently. I was happy and quiet. The wind blew slowly on our face and we could smell flowers' scent. I had the impression to be in heaven. Luka put a kiss on my lips which began to burn at his contact. I closed my eyes to take advantage of this wonderful moment. He whispered in my ear :"I'm so happy..."
He kissed me again...

"Abby? Abby?"
I opened my eyes, all a sudden, Luka appeared knelt in front of me. I was on the couch.
"Abby, are you hungry?"
I tried to take my mind again.
"Yeah...why not..."
"Sorry to wake up you but it's already 9pm..."
"Oh god, it's late. How many time we slept?"
"5 hours. (He leant on me.) And I never slept like that..."
He kissed me, he slid his hands under my shirt, I shivered at his contact. He caressed my belly. I made my lips parted his.
"Luka...I'm hungry..."
He glanced to me.
"Okay... I prepared Croatian's speciality food."
"Great."
He went away in the kitchen. I felt that he was a little bit disappointed. I felt myself guilty. But suddenly, I reminded me about the pregnancy test. Oh god... I stood up violently and I ran to the bathroom. It was on the sink.
"I'm totally senseless..." I whispered. I thought that I whispered too loud because Luka said :
"What happen?"
I rolled my eyes.
"Nothing..."
"Right?"
"Right."
I took the pregnancy test and threw it in the garbage can. I hid it with some tissue.
"Abby? It's ready."
"I'm coming."
I went out and I saw Luka who was waiting for me in front of a wonderful dressed table.
"Wow."
"Madam..."He helped to sit me. He sat too. When I wanted to take my napkin, I saw a diamond ring. Oh... my... god... ! Crap!
I couldn't prounonce a word. Luka didn't dare to talk. I looked up to his eyes. Unconciously my fingers took the ring.
"Luka..."
Oh my god... I say something!
He smiled and came to me, he knelt in front of me and took my hand slowly. He didn't stop to smile.
"Abby... I love you so much...We overcame a lot of situations, a lot of troubles together... I let you to leave one time, five years ago. I don't want begin again. Will you marry me?"
I was sure that he would ask me this... but... I couldn't think... it was impossible... I remembered when Richard proposed me. But Luka and him were very different. Luka was the man that every women desire in their life. I felt a wave went up in my body, I felt a electric shock in my back, in my stomack, in my heart, in my head... I was losing the control of my mind... A word went out of my mouth :
"Yes."
I took my breathe again.
"Yes, i will."
I knew a smile was on my face. I nodded and leant to his face to kiss him.
"Oh...god..Luka..."
Luka smiled. He took me by the waist and squeezed me against his strong body.
"I love you, I love you so much."
I smiled. He put on the ring on my finger and kissed me again.

Abby was lying down on the couch in the gynecologist's office. The doctor was next to her and turned on the ultrasound.
"Did you make a pregnancy test?" She asked.
"Yeah."
"When?"
"Three days ago."
"Right..."
She was looking attentively the screen. She turned it for Abby looked at it.
"You're pregnant since 4 weeks. Congraluations."
"Thanks."
"What do the daddy think?"
"I don't know it yet."
"Oh..."
She nodded.
"What do you want to do? Keep it or not keep it?"
"I want this baby... but i'm affraid of the future...if it will happen the same thing... that with Joe... I will not be able to overcome it again."
"Keep hope."
Abby smiled then she looked up.

Abby arrived in the rest room. Luka was watching tv.
"Hey."
"Hey."
"You're taking your break?"
"Yes. Where were you? I looked for you."
"Luka... I was in ..." All of a sudden, Abby winced. She put her hand violently on her stomach.
"Abby? Are you okay?"
"Yeah... I'll return..."
She went out and went to the toilets. She bolted the toilet's door. She looked her hand... it was bloody... Abby trembled. She sat and began to cry. Ten minutes later, she heard Luka ho entered in ladie's room.
"Abby? What happen?"
"Go away!."
"No, went out!"
Abby opened the door. Luka saw her hand. Abby washed her hands. Her eyes were wet because of tears.
"What..."Luka began.
"I was pregnant... I had a miscarriage."
Luka moved close to her and took her in his arms. He squeezed her more and more and soothed her slowly.
"Ssshh... calm down... I'm here..."
"I swear you Luka... I wanted to say it to you..."
"I believe you... I believe you, Abby."
Abby cried more and more. Luka bit his lip to not break down.
"We lost one again..."
Luka obliged her to glance to him in eyes, cupping her head.
"Abby... We'll have a baby... soon... let time... We lost our child, we began to overcome the situation and we'll marry together soon. We'll have a baby, the only thing which miss to our happiness."
"Will we try?"
"Everyday."
He nodded and grinned.
"Every night."
Abby sobbed, smiling and her lips were trembling.