I sat there nervously biting my lip waiting for Phil's response to why he had been ignoring me. I knew there would be some truth to what Scott had told me last night, he wouldn't have said it if it wasn't somewhat true. The longer he took the more time I had to wait for his response and that gave me time to think about how I felt. I now sort of knew how Phil felt but I wasn't sure how I felt about him having feelings for me.
I love him to bits, he's my best friend but I'm not sure if I'd ever be able to be in love with him. Sure he attractive, we get along - most of the time and he's just all around amazing. But he was engaged to getting married to my best female friend AJ and although we've talked about the rumours regarding Phil's feelings and the 'real' reason that Phil broke up with her, I'm not completely sure how she would feel if I was to magically get with her ex fiancé.
"I don't know." He finally says.
After all that waiting all I got out of him was 'I don't know'. I shouldn't expect too much from Phil he's never been great with feelings. "You don't know?" I manage to repeat anyway. I'm pretty sure that I sound disappointed or something. Confused is how I feel but my tone is completely different.
"I'm confused Indie, I know I like you. You're great, you've been my friend for over five years now. I think I called off my wedding because I have feelings for you, but I'm not sure. I'm so fucking confused and I ignored you because I was scared that I was going to hurt you like I hurt AJ even though I never meant to. You've known me for a long time now, you know what I'm like. I screw up relationships without even trying." He sighs and leans his head back on the couch and sighs again.
"Well don't fucking ignore me you rude prick! Do you know how stressed I was because I thought I did something wrong? Why couldn't you have just said that in the first place? This is me we're talking about, you don't have to ignore me. You tell me everything, including disturbing things about your sex life with my friends. This is nothing compared to you telling me about your sex life. I'll love you no matter what you decide." I say without even thinking how that might sound. I haven't even decided if I have feelings for him yet, and now I'm pretty much telling him that I'll wait for him.
"How do you feel about me?" He lifts his head back up from the back of the couch and looks at me curiously. He looks more confused than ever now.
"I don't know, before last night I had no idea that you even felt that way…" I mumble stupidly. I sort of wish I had more time to think about things before we started talking about this. Now i'm just confused, Punk has feelings for me and I don't know if I have feelings for me.
"So you've never had a crush on me?" He asks and cocks an eyebrow at me curiously and I have to laugh.
"I had a crush on you back in 2007 when you were a baby face and I didn't even know how to wrestle Phil. That's completely different!" I giggle.
"Um no, ok yeah it is completely different." Chuckles and hugs me a little tighter. "I'm sorry I ignored you, I was just hoping that maybe it was a little crush and that it would go away if we didn't talk for a while. And just so you know, it didn't fucking work!" He mutters.
"Ok so you broke up with AJ because you thought you had feelings for me but you thought they would go away? How do you feel about AJ then?" I'm a little more confused then I was before. I feel like he's telling me he wants his feelings for me to go away. Which would sort of mean that he broke up with AJ for no reason and that makes me sad, because she was a fucking mess after he did it.
"I care about her but I'm not in love with her. If what I feel for you is feelings, they're definitely stronger for you then they ever were for AJ." He mumbles and his cheeks go red.
"I have an idea, it might be because I have a concussion but let's try the kiss test." I suggest with a stupid grin. It's definitely not the stupidest thing I've suggested that we do. One night Phil was my chaperone when the guys and gals at work went out drinking and on the way home I made him pull over so I could go from a swim in a random lake.
"I'm sorry, what?" I giggle at his reaction. He narrows his eyes at me and his cheeks go even redder then they were before.
Because I'm sore I slowly move around and tuck my knees under my butt so I'm kneeling beside him and I reach up and graze his cheek with my hand. His scruffy cheek tickles the palm of my hand but it doesn't stop me. I think Phil finally get's the gist of what I'm talking about and sits up a little straighter and leans forward and presses his lips to mine. To be honest, even though I love him dearly I was expecting nothing, no spark nothing. I WAS FUCKING WRONG! There was a spark and a fucking half! All the butterflies I was saving for the right guy broke out of their cocoons and started dancing, my heart beat speed up and just wow.
Phil moved his hands, he tangled one in my hair being careful of my neck and the other one he dragged one my spine and placed it on my hip while he moved around so he could get closer. I silently wish he still had his lip ring so I could pull on it but I bite his lip instead and before I know it he's darted his tongue in my mouth and we're having a full on make-out session on his couch. Finally we pull away for air and he looks me right in the eye. "So I'm not that confused anymore…" He murmurs with a smirk. I smile softly at him because I am definitely not confused and I'm pretty sure I know how I feel.
"Me neither." I breath. He still has his hand in my hair and one on my hip and I've latched one hand on to his neck and the other is still on his cheek. I'm rather comfortable just sitting here staring at him.
"So remember when I said that I'd never ever come back to the WWE?" He asks and my eyes go wide and he chuckles. "I might make an exception if I get to spend more time with you making out on couches." He continues and I laugh and lean in and peck him on the lips again and then let go of him and slowly move around so I can curl up in a ball beside him.
So my day was spent with Phil, on his couch watching movies. Or rather attempting to watch movies because making out was a lot more interesting then actually watching the movies. I couldn't keep the grin off my face all day and when Cabana came to pick me up I didn't want to leave. But of course Phil did have things to do but he said that he'd come visit me at Cabana's house tonight and he'd come with me in the morning to meet with Paul and Vince to debrief or whatever about the incident last night. If they were lucky maybe I wouldn't sue Randy Orton for almost killing me!
The minute we were out of Phil's driveway Cabana turned to me with a smirk, "So how'd it go?" I could have slapped the dirty rotten smirk off his face if I could have kept the stupid grin off my face. I was happy, I wasn't really sure what was going on but I was happy. "Indie you can't keep the grin off your face! You have to tell me what happened!" He whined when I stayed silent.
"Nothing, absolutely nothing happened." I giggled.
"And you're giggling like a school girl! Something happened and I want to know right now or I won't let Punk in to my house tonight." He narrows his eyes at me when we get to traffic lights.
"Alright fine! We spent most of the time making out on the couch." I admit with a giant grin. Who would've thought that I secretly had feelings for Phil?
