Annoyingly Smitten

By .x

HEY HEY PEEPS! I'm back with a short story that popped into my head during my lessons today when I did nothing but work (ahem... play tunes). Hope you likes it, ByaRen pairing, Yaoi which is boyxboy so don't like it then don't read it, ne? It is also OOC and I added in some shit that we all know ain't true so yeah.

Disclaimer: I do not own Bleach (T_T) nor any of the characters.

Four : Confession of a lie

"I love ya taichou and I wanna move cause you dun like me and it's too much to stay so imma be leavin ya. Ya can get a fukutaichou that suits how ya like things done insteada some Rukongai street rat"

"Abari, when did you begin to feel like that"

"Like what? In love or angry"
"Both"
"Afta the whole execution date when ya asked bout the traitors n me, I waz fallin fer ya around then. I started hatin ya bout 5 months afta when I found it was hard ta be me around ya"

"I see. I am turning down your request though"

"WHA!"

"Personal matters are not meant to be brought into work Abari"

"Wha if I loose control?"
"Well then, don't"

Byakuya began to move away and my mind went into over drive. Those last words, the same Tousen said to me before he left me that night and turned traitor the next. "You're just like 'im ya knows taichou, jus tha damn same. I hate yas both"

Tensing I closed my eyes as my taichou turned around, I expected to be hit but I wasn't.

"Who?"

"Tousen is who"
"So you lied?"
"Wha's it matta"

"It matters because that night I came to you not as your taichou but as your friend. I could tell you were hurting because of the betrayal but it seemed deeper than that."

"So wha?"

"Did anybody else know?"

"Naaah but ya dun wanna hear bout it all. I learnt ta live with it anyways"

Byakuya reached out and grabbed my wrist, my heart tightened as I felt him pull me to the sofa and sit me down before sitting next to me.

"Explain" his voice was sympathetic in it's own monotone way and I couldn't help but comply.

"Tousen and me was going out for about a decade when he betrayed us all. Tha nigh before everything wen mental he broke up wiv me sayin tha he couldn't risk bein caught with me, I said I would still love 'im an I always would. His reply was 'Well then, don't' before he disappeared, tha nigh I drunk meself ta sleep.

When ya then came ta me afta tha whole incident I was shocked cause I felt tha same way I had wiv Tousen when ya spoke ta me. It was strange an I didn't like it but I wasn't goin to admit I was gay so I left. I kept lookin for Tosen for days on end, I still do even now despite I know tha he's dead, I still hope.

I know ya won't like me loving ya, so I hope tha Tousen will come back an take me wiv him. Unohana-taichou's been givin me antidepressants of late, she foun out about ma depression even thoug she dunno wha caused it."

"What did you attempt?"

"I attempted ta overdose on sleeping pills in squad 4 last month an she caught me. I didn wan ta come inta work an'more. I was scared of ya an she knew it but she knew tha I wanned ma ex ta take me ta tha other side wiv him, it was all I kept sayin as she calmed me down."
"Do I hurt you so?"

"Not intentionally but yeah, ya do and I can't take it taichou. I hate you"

"Gomen Abari"