Never Let Go...

Thoughts

-Dream-

(FLASHBACKS)

Summary: What if Edmund really believed in Lucy when she stumbled out of the wardrobe? Would Edmund still go to the White Witch? Would it change the prophecy?

Disclaimer: Sadly I don't own Narnia though it would be a nice Christmas gift. . .

This chapter is dedicated to helikesitheymikey, who gave me the best idea ever! Thank you so much. . .


Chapter 4: Back again. . .

Edmund gasped as he sat up with sweat covering all over his body. Despite the fact that it was still freezing outside. Over the past five years he had so many nightmares that he was now use to them, but it still doesn't change the unease feeling that something bad is going to happen soon was crawling in his stomach. Edmund sighed and got off his make shift bed and had a quick bath before putting on his Narnian clothes and started to walk to his sister's tent.

Edmund was now fifteen and was quite handsome for his age. He now was around five foot nine and grew some muscle thanks to the training with Oreius. He also was very smart, cunning and now has a calm nature instead of his once bitter and hostile temper.

Edmund pulled the flap back and saw Lucy sitting at a table with a dryad braiding her and was wearing a beautiful light blue dress and long sleeves. Lucy, now at the age of thirteen, turned into a beautiful woman with long golden brown hair and grew to about Edmund's shoulders. She became very hot headed and believed in hope and faith when all of the Narnians that are on Aslan's side started to lose it.

Lucy smiled as she turned around as she saw Edmund, but frowned when she saw his ghostly paled face. She knew what this meant. The nightmares. She sighed as she walked over to the dining table in her tent and motioned her brother to follow.

Edmund sat down next to her and the two of them ate breakfast in silence. Lucy however broke the silence again.

"Alright what was the nightmare about this time?" She asked.

Edmund tensed. "What makes you think it was a nightmare?"

Lucy rolled her eyes, annoyed that after five years he still won't open up to her. "Don't give me that Edmund Michael Pevensie!" She said. Edmund froze. Oh great, he's done for. "I know you better than anyone when you have a nightmare, so what is it!" She yelled.

Edmund was just about to answer when someone cleared their throat and both siblings turned their heads to see a fawn at the entrance of the tent. "Pardon me your majesties." The fawn said, bowing its head to them. "Aslan wants to talk to you when you are both finished with breakfast."

Edmund nodded. "Thank you Dru." He replied.

The fawn nodded and left the tent and Edmund turned back to Lucy.

"I think that something is going to happen soon. Something bad. Like really bad." He said to Lucy.

Lucy narrowed her eyebrows in concern. "What do you mean?" She asked.

Edmund sighed. "I don't know exactly, but I think that when we come back here, we will be in a war, fighting for Narnia and me killing. . ." He trailed off.

Lucy nodded. "Your mother." She finished off.

Edmund nodded back sadly and sighed. He told Lucy everything about who his and Peter's birth mother was and Lucy took it to heart and being the valiant that she was, she still thought of them as her brothers and would do anything to help them.

Lucy sighed sadly and went back to finishing her breakfast. After they finished their breakfast, they went to Aslan's tent and kneeled down when they saw him. Aslan nodded to them and they both sat down in front of him.

"Edmund, Lucy, the time has come for you to retrieve your brother and sister." He said.

Edmund gasped. "But Aslan, how are we going to explain to Peter and Susan about our uh sudden 'growth'?" He asked.

Aslan chuckled. "In your world, the time will appear as if you have not entered here."

Lucy nodded and started to cry. She ran over to Aslan and wrapped her little arms around his mane and Edmund sighed sadly as he heard Lucy's muffled sobs. A minute later, Lucy removed her head away from the thick mane and wiped her tears and stood beside Edmund.

Aslan sighed. "It is time for you two to go. Phillip and Cora will take you both back to where you entered." He said before turning around and exiting the tent, leaving Edmund and Lucy behind.

Edmund smiled sadly and looked at Lucy. "We knew it would happen Lu." He said.

Lucy nodded and sniffed. "I just didn't expect it to be so soon." She whispered.

Edmund sighed and wrapped his arms around her shoulders, bringing her closer to him. He then chuckled. "We had five years here Lu." He joked.

Lucy smiled in his chest. "I guess." She murmured.

Edmund took Lucy's hand and both of them walked out of the tent and looked around the winter wonderland that they both considered as their real home. They both parted ways to grab their coats from the wardrobe and walked over to Phillip and Cora. Cora was a chestnut colour horse, like Phillip, but had blue eyes instead of brown. Edmund thought of Cora as another Lucy.

"Well?" Phillip asked.

Edmund sighed. "We have to retrieve our brother and sister." He replied.

Lucy nodded. "Even though we have no idea on what to say to them." She added.

Lucy hopped on Cora and Edmund hopped on Phillip and they walked or trotted on in silence. The White Witch was still very powerful and started to grow more forces when she learned that two humans entered 'her lands'. A few minutes later, Phillip and Cora had reached Spare Oom, and Lucy and Edmund got off. Lucy wrapped her arms around Cora's neck and started to cry again. Cora whined sadly. Edmund patted Phillip's nose.

"Take care of yourself. You hear me?" Edmund asked.

Phillip rolled his eyes. "Speak for yourself." He snorted. "But I will." He added.

Edmund chuckled. "Thank you, and take care of Cora as well. If we come back and Lucy finds Cora injured, Lucy will yell at you until she can't speak at all."

Phillip snorted loudly. "We all know of her famous 'valiant' temper, don't we?" Phillip asked sarcastically.

"Oi!" Lucy exclaimed.

Edmund chuckled and took Lucy's hand. "Be careful." Lucy warned.

Cora and Phillip snorted. "We will." They both whined.

Edmund and Lucy smiled sadly and both turned to the opening of the forest where the wardrobe still should be. Edmund tugged Lucy through the thick snow and towards the wardrobe and didn't look back at their once considered family. When they reached to the wardrobe they both turned back and saw Phillip and Cora weren't there. Edmund and Lucy both sighed sadly and shrugged out of their coats and hung them up on the coat hangers. They both walked out of the wardrobe to find it was still night and that they were both ten and eight years old again and still in their pyjamas.

Lucy looked at Edmund shocked and his face mirrored hers. Edmund suddenly chuckled and Lucy thought he was nuts again.

"Aslan did warn us about this remember?" He asked.

Lucy's eyes widened as she remembered Aslan telling them that no time will disappear. Edmund helped Lucy off the floor and both of them tip-toed towards Lucy's room. Edmund kissed Lucy's cheek.

"Night Lu." He whispered.

Lucy smiled and kissed Edmund's forehead. "Night Ed. Sweet dreams." She said and then she disappeared into her room that she shared with Susan.

Edmund sighed and walked to his and Peter's room. He opened the door and saw Peter lying on his stomach and an arm hanging off the bed.

Lucky idiot he thought bitterly. Edmund climbed into bed and rolled over to face the wall.

Edmund closed his eyes and was prepared to see some nasty images that will come his way.


The next morning Edmund was woken up by a pair of strong hands shaking him violently. He snapped his eyes open and saw Peter leaning over him looking at him with concern clear in his eyes.

"Edmund?" He asked.

Edmund looked around the room and sighed. It wasn't a dream. He was really back in England. He looked at Peter.

"I'm fine Peter. I just had a bad dream." He lied. Well it wasn't a total lie. He did have a bad. He just thought it wasn't real.

Peter nodded slowly and got off Edmund's bed and got ready for the day. Edmund shook his head sadly. It was still hard to believe that he and Peter were related to the Witch. He walked over to his drawers and took out a pair of shorts, shirt and a jumper. Oh how he would miss his Narnian clothing. When Peter came out of the bathroom, Edmund walked in the bathroom and closed the door. He dumped his clothing on the floor and ran a bath.

After he had a bath and got changed into his uncomfortable clothing, he walked to the kitchen to see Peter, Susan and Lucy already having breakfast.

He smirked and decided to have fun with them. "So you started breakfast without me? Thanks." He said with sarcasm.

All three heads turned to him and Lucy smiled when she remembered the first time they had breakfast in Narnia.

"Of course not Edmund. There is plenty more food for you." Susan said.

Edmund smirked. "I'm just yanking you Su." He replied.

Peter and Susan froze. Edmund hadn't called Susan 'Su' since their father left to go to war. Edmund sat down next to Lucy and grinned and whispered something in her ear.

Peter leaned over towards Susan. "Edmund seems different this morning." Peter commented.

Susan nodded as she watched Lucy laughed over a joke that Edmund told her. "He looks more relaxed then he was before he arrived here." She observed.

Peter nodded. "Susan, he had a nightmare before he woke up. He hadn't had a nightmare since he was five years old." Peter said.

Susan frowned. "Did he tell you what it was about?" She asked.

Peter shook his head. "No he just said it was a bad dream. Nothing more."

Peter and Susan turned their attention back to Edmund and Lucy who were both whispering about something. Edmund nodded at Lucy's comment.


Edmund sighed and turned to Lucy as they were watched by Peter and Susan.

"It feels weird being back here." Lucy whispered.

Edmund nodded. "We have to find a way to lure Peter and Susan into Narnia. We can't fail Aslan." Edmund whispered back.

Lucy nodded. "But how?" She asked.

Edmund frowned and shrugged. "I don't know." He said.

Lucy looked at Edmund's face. "You had another nightmare." She commented.

Edmund nodded.


It was another raining day and the four siblings were sitting in the lounge room. Edmund and Lucy were doing a puzzle which looked like a winter's wonderland. Lucy's eyes started to fill up with tears. Edmund noticed it and took his sister's hand gently.

"We'll get back Lu." He whispered encouragingly, in her ear.

Lucy smiled and nodded. "I know." She whispered back.

Peter and Susan were drawing on a table while watching Edmund and Lucy. Edmund got up for a bit while letting Lucy finishing the few pieces of the puzzle and walked over to the window. Edmund sat down on the lounge and stared at the aimless forest.

Susan walked over to Lucy who finally completed the puzzle. "Well done Lu." She said. "How about we write a letter to mother and tell her of all the thing that we have done." She suggested and Lucy nodded and walked off with Susan.

Edmund watched Lucy go and was suddenly left alone with Peter. Peter frowned when he noticed Edmund's unusual behaviour and walked over to him.

"Are you okay Ed?" He asked.

Edmund nodded. Still staring at the window. "I'm fine Peter. . ." He trailed off. "Okay no I'm not fine." He said.

Peter sat down next to Edmund. "What is it?" He asked curiously.

Edmund frowned. Should he tell Peter? Yes it's best to tell him. They wouldn't want the White Witch turning none of the siblings against them.

Edmund sighed. "Remember when I was five and we had that argument?" He asked.

Peter nodded and was now more confused of what this has to do with anything. "Yeah I remember. I told you to go away." He said.

Edmund laughed bitterly. "Yeah, well I hid up in the attic. The first thing I thought so no one would come look for me." He said. He took a deep breath. "I hid behind a bunch of boxes and saw a brass box across from me and with my stupid curiosity, I opened it and two pieces of paper that caught my attention." He said slowly.

Peter nodded for him to continue. Edmund took another deep breath.

"It was adoption certificate with my name on it." He finally said. Peter gasped.

"Oh Ed." He replied sadly. Edmund sighed heavily.

"That's not all though." He said and Peter froze. What more is there? "The second paper was another adoption certificate that had. . ." Edmund suddenly found it difficult to tell Peter.

Peter wrapped one arm around Edmund's shoulders in a comfort gesture and waited patiently for Edmund to continue.

Edmund looked at Peter's deep blue eyes and said. "It had YOUR name on it with MY last name. My real last name."

Peter held his breath. "Are you sure?" He asked

Edmund nodded and snorted playfully. "Who else in our family starts with 'Peter' and has my last name?"

Peter chuckled. "Okay your right about that. For once" He said.

Edmund rolled his eyes. "Lucy said the same thing while we were in Narnia." He muttered under his breath.

Peter smiled sadly but didn't hear Edmund's comment. "So we're not really part of this family?" He asked.

Edmund shrugged. "Well we've been here since we were born, but we're not blood related. I told Lucy about it and she didn't care if we were her real brothers or not. She still loves us. Susan though. . ."

Peter laughed. "I'm sure that she will think the same thing as Lucy." He said.

Edmund snickered. "She'll hold a grudge though."

Peter and Edmund laughed. They were one side of the same coin. Nothing can get between them. They were brother's in arms. Too bad that someone will break them apart. . .

A/N: Yes finished! Sorry about the wait but I had a writer's block.

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