Chapter 4

"We have to take him to the medical bay. The voice is back." Han told Leia.

She nodded and held their weakened son. He helped Ben who looked exhausted.

"He's only slept four hours and he needs to eat. It is happening like before. He cannot hold food." They walked to the doctors as soon as they walked to the bay.

Leia looked worried. "We need Luke."

His son shook his head as they walked, "no Skywalker."

Han remained quiet. He did not know whether bringing Luke would be the best idea now. "Let's have Ben sorted out first." The man said.

They reached the medical bay. Ben spoke up, "I need to sleep. I need energy and nutrients. Put me to sleep now." His son said while clutching his head painfully.

"Do as he says now." Han said to a doctor in a forceful way.

"What happened?" Leia asked as the doctors injected Ben.

"I have sedated him to the time being." The doctor said. "I will run a battery of tests now."

"You two could wait outside." One of the nurses said.

Han sat by a bench and explained the past two days. "He's barely slept."

"Ben is under the impression that he will give away the resistance's location if he sees more than five minutes of it." Han continued.

"I will take him away as soon as he's fed and rested. Your map is in good hands." He finished.

Leia frowned. "He cannot leave. We have to find Luke. You and I cannot help him. He needs Luke."

"First we have to find Luke." Han did not want to fight with Leia.

He looked at Ben in that bed and felt terrible. "BB-8 has the missing piece of the map. All we have to do is have Artoo and BB-8 project the pieces together." Leia said absently.

She held Ben's hand. Han kissed her forehead, "you have to sleep too. You stayed awake with him did you not?" His wife asked him. He still called her his wife. They were still married. The fact that he had not seen her in fifteen years did not change that.

"I have to yes." Han was exhausted but did not want to leave Ben's side.

Leia looked up. "It's my turn. Go to bed." She said and gave him a card. "Ask for my quarters." She said absently.

Han nodded. "Who is second in command?" He asked he needed to have the map delivered.

"Ackbar." She said absently and kissed Ben's pale hand.

Han left the medical bay and smiled when he found Rey and Finn outside in the hallway. "We don't know where to go." Rey said quickly justifying their presence. Han grabbed a pilot, "they are resistance. Find them quarters. I assume BB-8 is with your friend." The man addressed Finn.

"Yes. We are waiting on orders." The boy said.

"Girl, find commander Ackbar and have him speak with Finn and Rey." Han said quickly.

Chewie was in the Falcon, he was never one to sleep inside unfamiliar quarters. Han found Leia's quarters and slept for a few hours.

He woke up to Leia by his side. "They are having him sleep for another day. Sleep now." Leia said and kissed his cheek.

Han obeyed. He was not as young as he used to be. He woke up to Leia's smell. He sighed and held her closer.

"My brave scoundrel." She said and kissed him gently. Her hands sought lower.

"Sweetheart, are you sure?" He had not done this in years. Leia kissed him more and more.

"You brought him back." She said and touched him through his black pants. Han helped her out of her clothes too. It was like coming home. They were older; she did not want to let him see her.

Han moaned, "Let me see you." When she would not let him undo her blouse.

"I'm saggy." She said. Han undid her blouse. "Don't care." He whispered and touched her breasts.

He rocked into her. It was not as animalistic as it had been when they were younger. They were both softer and older. Han was proud to say that he made her come. They were both exhausted and sleeping after finishing.

Han woke up later. Leia kissed his lips gently. "Wake up. You have to eat. We have to see Ben soon." She said.

Han stood up and washed. "I have your clothes. Chewie brought them earlier." Leia said as she put on some light make up.

Han washed his face. "What happened with Rey and Finn?"

Leia smiled and put on light lipstick. "Finn is in quarters with Poe. Chewie and Rey took the Falcon to get Luke."

Han stepped out of the shower and dressed. "How do I look?" Leia asked.

"Gorgeous." Han said and kissed her neck.

"The doctor said that he would be awake in an hour. I want to be there when he does." Leia said happily.

He held her hand and they walked to the medical bay. Ben was soundly asleep. They had put him on a white hospital shift.

The doctor smiled at them, "he's gained nutrients and is rested. Whatever is going on, we cannot keep him sedated any longer without him becoming dependent on the drugs." Han nodded.

"I will leave you now." The woman said.

"Where are his clothes?" Han asked. Ben would like to change as soon as he had the chance.

The doctor motioned to a nearby chair. "Thank you." Leia said.

Ben stirred a little bit. He was still groggy when he opened his eyes. He looked panicked, disoriented. He then looked at him and Leia. Ben closed his eyes.

"How are you feeling Ben?" Leia asked gently.

"I have a headache." Ben replied after a few seconds.

Leia grabbed their son's hand. "I'm very happy you've come back to us."

Ben kept still. "When am I to be tried for my crimes?" He asked quickly.

Leia frowned, "no one knows about you and Kylo Ren."

Han breathed a sigh of relief. "Kylo Ren is dead." Han said. "He died in Starkiller Base."

His wife nodded and kissed Ben's hand. "Look at me Ben." She said softly.

Ben slowly looked at his mother. Leia caressed his cheek. "I want you to stay here. Train and help us win this war. It is not too late. You have taken the biggest step."

Han rubbed his face. If it were up to him. He would take Ben and Leia to the Falcon and leave all this mess behind. Han knew Leia would never consent to that. It was up to Ben now.

"Is not safe. He has a link to me." Ben said with finality. "I have to leave. You and dad are not safe as long as I am near. Snoke will find you and end this."

Leia kissed his forehead. "Let me help. Luke will be here soon."

Ben frowned, "No." He said and looked at him.

"Dad, we have to leave now." Ben stood up and began to dress.

Han was not so surprised at his son's reaction to Luke. "Let's calm down."

Leia frowned, "your uncle will help."

Ben frowned back, "I am the Jedi Killer. Need I remind you what happened last time I saw Skywalker?"

Han looked at Leia and their son. "He could help you. Your father and I cannot."

"Dad helped me. I just have to be as far away from here when the headaches start." Ben said as he quickly put on his vest.

Han's heart jumped every time he called him dad. "Leia, Ben may be correct. Let's do things his way for now."

Leia shook her head. "You'll need a place to meditate. There is an empty convoy you could use for the time being. The Falcon will not come back before a few days. Rey and Chewie have it. They went to get Luke."

Ben frowned, "I will leave tomorrow afternoon." He said and walked out the room.

"That went as expected." Han said tiredly.

Leia cried into her hands. "Oh princess, don't please." He said and hugged her.

"I do not want him to leave." She said brokenly.

"We will figure this out. I better look for him." Han followed his son.

Han found him in the convoy. Ben meditated quietly. "I need music and a staff." He said clearly.

"I'll see what I can find." He said and hoped that Chewie had the foresight to leave the music back. His friend did; there with his clothes were the tapes. Han found a sound system fairly quickly.

Han dropped the sound system sat by a corner.

"Are you feeling pain?" He asked Ben.

"No, but I will." His son sounded very convinced.

He stood up and put the loud music. Han sighed. "I will stay then."

It was four or five hours until Ben looked at him once more. "Why are you still here?"

Han smiled, "I said I would not leave you."

Ben looked away, "I cannot stay here when Skywalker arrives."

Han nodded. "Your mother thinks that Luke could help you with the pain."

Ben shook his head, "he will not. I am managing on my own. I just need to practice and sever this hold he has over me." He looked determined. He had that Skywalker look that Leia and Luke had. Han had always been more flexible but not them.

"Fine, then we'll take the Falcon and leave." Han did not want to leave Leia behind but Ben needed him now.

His son nodded and went back to meditating. The music played softly and Ben sang along. He practiced with the staff too.

"I need a lightsaber." Ben muttered.

Han ate some food an alien brought him. Ben ate most of his food too. The pain did not start until very late that night.

"You have to leave now." Ben ground out.

The music continued and the walls vibrated. "DAD, Leave." He yelled.

Han did. The room began to vibrate. The music inside became even louder if that were possible. The system should have broken by then. This was something else. It was Ben harnessing the force through the sound system.

Leia ran to him. "Where is Ben?" She asked frantically. The room vibrated with the strength of the music. Ben's strength had tapped into the sound systems in the base.

"She's got a smile it seems to me
Reminds me of childhood memories
Where everything
Was as fresh as the bright blue sky
Now and then when I see her face
She takes me away to that special place
And if I'd stare too long
I'd probably break down and cry

Oh, oh, oh
Sweet child o' mine
Oh, oh, oh, oh
Sweet love of mine

She's got eyes of the bluest skies
As if they thought of rain
I hate to look into those eyes
And see an ounce of pain
Her hair reminds me of a warm safe place
Where as a child I'd hide
And pray for the thunder
And the rain
To quietly pass me by

Oh, oh, oh
Sweet child o' mine
Oh, oh, oh, oh
Sweet love of mine

Oh, oh, oh, oh
Sweet child o' mine
Oh, oh, oh, oh
Sweet love of mine

Oh, oh, oh, oh
Sweet child o' mine
Oh,
Sweet love of mine

Where do we go?
Where do we go now?
Where do we go?
Oh, oh
Where do we go?
Oh,
Where do we go now?
Where do we go?
Oh, (sweet child)
Where do we go now?
Oh,
Where do we go now?
Oh,
Where do we go?
Oh,
Where do we go now?
Oh,
Where do we go?
Where do we go now?
Where do we go?
Oh,
Where do we go now?
No, no, no, no, no, no
Sweet child,
Sweet child of mine"

It was very loud but not completely unpleasant. "We have to get him out of there." Leia said.

Han shook his head. "He has to work it out. I think he's close." It was a feeling he had. Ben would work it out. He just needed time.

The songs kept playing for another three hours. The people around the base were strangely comforted by some of them. Leia stayed with him until a sweaty Ben came out.