Heyy Again, so sorry I haven't updated in a whileee. Please read and check. I think there might be some spelling mistakes in this but im pretty sure I took them all out. Im really sorry Again :( Read and Review:)
Cato POV
Im woken up by a rapid knocking on my door, I moan and pull the pillow over my head. Im not going outside, I don't think I will be able to face Clove. I was upset with her but I could never replace her but what she said really hurt, Would she be able to just forget about me if I died? No we have been friends for years. She wont forget me that easily especially after yesterday. Yesterday if I could take everything back I would she still has the watch but it doesn't matter its rightfully hers anyway.
"Cato, Get up! The train arrives at the capitol in an hour"
"Go away"
"but you need to get ready!"
"Leave me alone!"
I don't want to be disturbed, I just want to rewind time, back to last night freeze the moment of when our lips touched and put it in a golden frame. I could live in it for all eternity, nobody telling me to get ready or telling me where to go. I could rip the Clover off of her shoulder, Replace it with the watch. Change the look of confusion into a look of pure happiness. Nobody telling us to die, or making us live in misery. Nobody telling me how to live my life. I could escape from my family, from the constant looks of disappointment that they shoot at their only child. I could run away with clove, jump off the train and live in harmony but she hates me now, there's no going back to how we used to be, the capitol are already controlling us. I never would have shouted at her like that before but the capitol have a way of controlling the mind, erasing all the hope and happy memories that made us ourselves. They turn us into slaves of the capitol before we have even stepped inside. Someday Someone will one day stand up to them but I know it wont be me. It could never be me, I'm not strong enough, im just as afraid as everyone else. I'm a coward and it's how I will die too.
Suddenly there's a soft knock at the door, I don't even realise im crying until I lift my head off the damp pillow, I grab a tissue from the box placed on the bedside table and quickly rub my eyes. I check my appearance in the mirror as another knock comes this one a little louder, My eyes are red and puffy. Great!. A third knock comes this one sounds like it will knock the door down. I sigh and flop back down on my bed, pretending to be asleep.
"Cato"
I sat up like a bolt, Cloves voice. One I never thought I would hear again.
"Cato! Get out of bed you lazy pig"
I sigh and get off the bed, rubbing my eyes and stretching, trying to make it look like she had just woken me up.
"Get up, the train arrives soon and if you don't get up I will throw that glass at your head" she growls at me, pointing to the half full glass on the bedside table." Your eyes are red, you should really get someone to check on that, people would think you've actually got feelings". I held my breath as she glared at me, dreading her next words but the silence unnerved me even more.
"Clove-" I started but she stormed out of the room and slammed before I could finish. "I'm sorry" I whispered, hating myself for not being able to say it to her face, like a real man, I was never going to survive this arena if I couldn't even say sorry to my best friend. Not that the word sorry could even begin to make up for how I acted.
I walked into the shower, and let the tears fall again. I watched them fall down the plughole, like my friendship with clove, and I was letting them drop, letting them fall, letting them disappear forever.
Clove POV
I hear Esmeralda before I see her, the annoying Click of her ridiculously high heels making a steady rhythm as they tap the floor. Click click click click She turns the corner muttering to herself about how rude Cato is and almost bumps into me, she looks down at where im sitting on the floor and gives me a disapproving look.
"Clove a true lady does not slump on the floor", She sighs. I roll my eyes and let out a groan only making her shake her head at me.
"Esmeralda a true lady does not talk to herself", I reply mimicking her horrible capitol accent. She gasps at me and narrows her eyes, She grabs the hem of her dress and steps over me, almost falling over as she twists her heels to try and get through my legs.
"If you want to be more helpful then just sitting there then you can" She pauses and pretends to think " then you can Go and wake cato"
"To scared to do it yourself" I snarl at her, wishing she had asked me to do anything besides that. "You cant order me around anyway, I don't want to be a slave before I go into that arena just for you sick entertainment purposes" I say raising my voice, I don't know why im getting so worked up about this, I erased all of my feeling towards that Pig yesterday.
Esmeralda looks around at the ceiling, Panic clear in her eyes.
"Clove" She hisses, "Just do as I say, I mean it"
I sigh and walk down the hall towards Cato's room, cursing Esmeralda under my breath. I will get her for this, I hop the cameras thought it was her saying that, nobody messes with me. I sigh, I guess the capitol already has though. They wont get away with it though.
I reach Cato's door and raise my hand, Just knock. I stand there with my hand raised for about 20 seconds before I bring my fist down gently on the door. Its so soft that I doubt he even heard it. I hear rustling on the other side and wait. 5, 10, 30, Seconds go by and he doesn't answer. I knock again more sure of myself this time. The rustling stops and I sigh, I knew he was ignoring me. great there goes the chance of forgiveness. I wait another 30 seconds before I give up on my patience, I bring my fist down hard on the door and don't wait for the answer and swing the door open. It whacks the wall and leaves a black mark.
Cato lies in his bed, facing away from me
"Cato", I Say, Annoyance clear in my voice.
He sits up quickly and sees me standing, I fold my arms across my chest.
"Cato! get out of bed you lazy pig", he sighs and gets off of the bed, He rubs his eyes and stretches, Trying to fool me. A hint of a smile threatens over take me, Only I know him well enough to read him.
"Get up, the train arrives soon and if you don't get up I will throw that glass at your head" I growl at him, I wish I hadn't, his eyes are watery. I see him staring at me, trying to figure out if I am actually mad at him. I snatch my eyes back away from his, If I look into them to long I will show something, I try to think of something to say that wont make me seem weak. His eyes are red, hes obviously been crying. Sympathy tugs at my heart, I would love nothing more than to just wrap him in my arms and tell him im sorry but im to proud to do that, to stubborn to make myself seem weak.
" Your eyes are red, you should really get someone to check on that, people would think you've actually got feelings" I regret it as soon as the words leave my mouth, the look on his face is to hard to describe, one I have never seen, one I have no idea to read.
Endless seconds pass as both of us are at a loss for words, what did I just do? Why do I always have to make myself look strong by making others weak?
"Clove-" he finally speaks up, Without looking at his eyes I storm out of the room before he can finish, slamming the door so I don't hear another word that leaves his mouth.
I lean against the door and slide down it, I hear him mumble something on the other side of the door. I close my eyes and hold my breath. The tears that fall will only make me realise how much pain im actually in and I don't think I can deal with it, Im just to scared to tell myself how much I need him and I know I wont be able to get through this without him.
Thanks for reading, Tomorrow its going to be where they arrive. Im holding off the training and parade for a bit because I have no idea what to do with it. If anyone has any ideas I would really appreciate it :) Read and Review
