Disclaimer: Snk belongs to Hajime Isayama. This fic was written one year ago (in spanish) and now I am going to translate chapter by chapter into english. I hope you like my version of Hanji´s past (and also Erwin´s and Rivaille´s) before the fall of the wall.

English is not my first language, so I apologize for the possible mistakes.

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5 months. 5 months passed on that hospital. She had to remember every day that horrible place. On her chilhood she had been hospitalized as consecuence of some serious burns. On that occasion, cause of several fractures.

At the beginning, they had diagnosed 8-9 months hospitalized. However, a little help had helped her to recover. A little help she never expected.

During her hospitalize, Levi went to see her every day. Always carrying paperwork to resolve. Although she was off sick, in the army didn´t exist neither holidays, nor free days. She had to continue her researches although she was prostrated in a bed. Despite he was to see her by works reason, it made her happy having somebody who chat with. Even with that neat freak who talk so little. At least he heard her without complaining.

The new commander... saw her fewer each time. His promotion has spent his whole time. Commander´s task, used to say at her. Another types of responsabilities which keep him involved and away from her. Undoubtely, she yearned for him. His absence was only hidden by the company of her ally.

Her expected discharge came earlier. While her mate was with her, they tried to exercise her tired musculature for boosting her recovery. Staring at his serious and deep glae, she used to joke with him about he enjoyed torturing her for mocking about his height. Months passed, before than expected and she went out that hospital. Filled with sad memories.

She had rehearsed severals times what she´d said when she see her supeior. What to say, how show herself, what aspect she rather have. But, cause of being a so suddenly recovery, they didn´t warn the commander, who went out in a mission three days before she left the hospital. And wouldn´t back in some weeks.

"Buff... it´s so boring..." she yawned slightly leaned back.

Two days passed since the date of exit from that white and clean place. She was in the common room of captains lied over Mike´s legs, who lastly showed very harmless about her. In a corner, a little figure read the newspaper calmly.

"Undoubtely, you´ve been too long there enclosed, so coming back and there´s nothing to do must be tedious" he caressed his stubble with his finger pretending to sound interesting "I suposse they gave you a list of the new members as you can make your new squad"

"Yeah, I´ve read the data of some of them; and they are quite interesting. Although I barely doubt most of them are capable to join the team I want to form. I doubt they can hang in there my pace."

"My team is especialized on search and hunt. When I began, they assigned me some random boys and I made them to specialize on that. You can also do it"

"I know it Mike, but, I don´t think the new recruits are really interested into joining a squad who is destinated to researching. Even the superiors don´t like the idea of a investigation´s team. They think I am going to lose the time."

"And that boy? I remember one of the new recruits asking for be assigned in your team when it was formed. He seemed quite persistent. I got to think he was too much persistent"

"Ah, yes. That. I-dunno-what Banner. I´m going to name him vice captain of my team."

"Really? He could be a weirdo, Hanji. He seemed too strange."

"Of course, he seemed a boy very dedicated. And he has been one of the best from his promotion. I´m sure it will be really interesting having him in my team".

"I´m not sure if I feel more pity for you or for him cause of bearing you..." a cutting and sharp voice told since his seat.

"What about you, Levi? How is going to be your squad? What are they going to be specialized in?

"Attack"

"What? Just only strenght? That´s all? Anything more?

"Tch."

"And which novices are you going to admit in your team? Do you have doubts as me?"

"No"

"Really? Tell me. Who is going to be in your team?"

"Four brats"

"Only four?" she turned towards Mike who began to read again the list of new cadets "Wasn´t the limite 7 or 8 each squad? Isn´t it better if there´s more boys in your team? More offesinve strenght, biggest aggressiveness"

"I actually has also only four. It´s easier to control and train less boys and you can focalize more the work. It´s also more effective in the battle. More concentration, less distractions. When I worked under Erwin´s order we were also a few ones".

"Four... Maybe I´ll do the same. I´d like to have a girl in my team, as you have Mike. And you, Levi, what about you? Are you interested in any female recruit? I´m pretty sure there will be strong girls on this promotion."

"..."

"Why doesn´t he asnwer?" she turned to Mike who seemed laughing sideways.

"Levi has showed enough attention to four recruits with character and pretty aggressives. In fact, they are quite funny. Four dorks. When they move to our team, you´ll see them quite often. I´m sure you´ll like them."

"Aggressive, hahahaha. I´m sure he chosed them because they look like him. They´ll be a group of grumpies. When we went out, we´ll scared the rest of squads. I hope titans don´t run away, because it´ll be too boring"

"Well, one of his futures allies won´t scare so"

"Ah, not?"

"Come on, Levi. Talk her about your future squad" he told with sarcasm "Talke her about all them"

"What happen with your squad?" the girl stood up fastly facing the man.

"..."

Still motionless on his corner, he hid more behind those greyish pages matching his eyes and his character. He didn´t seem interested at all in keeping a conversation about those lucky four he had chosen.

She supossed that his judgement was focalized on their ability of reaction and attack as their ability of movement and strenght. Perphas, one of those who had the best qualifications. She could imagine who had been them. But, she only came to her mind the image of four boys really hefty and intimidating.

Or maybe, one of them had the same dilemma as him with his height and for that reason Mike was mocking about that fact. A soldier from his team who wouldn´t scare the rest of them. The more she tried to imagine, the less she could do it.

"How is the new cadet who is not frightening? Is he... you-know... as Levi?" she insinuated assuring herself that aforementioned directed one of his offensive gaze towards the insinuation of himself.

"Oh, yeah. Of course. It´s a cadet quite midget. But that´s not the problem. I suposse It´s normal this person be short"

"Then what?"

"Well, as you know... It´s odd finding women in the recon corps. In fact, we have actually the principals barracks occupied and only you were in the peripheral one."

"Yes, I know it. None of the girls who were already in the recon corps will be good enough for my team. And I´m not sure if between the new ones I´ll find a useful one" she frowned her brow thinking in herself. On Mike´s squad there was two women, who were a little older than her. Undoubtely, another veterans who she hadn´t had the pleasure of talking so much cause of living in different barracks.

"In fact, cause of the new joinings, there had been restructuring regarding the assigning of barracks"

"Ah, yeah. Erwin talked me about that. Maybe some new boys will also come to live to our barrack. I don´t mind. I´ve been living with you long time, a pair of men more won´t disturb me. What does it have to do with his squad?"

"Because women´s barracks are now so crammed that had been necessary request some of them to move. And one of them will be moved with us"

"Then she´ll be in danger cause of you" Hanji pointed out "Although... At least I won´t have to shower alone" she began to miss the another females on that scrawny and tiny derelict building "And you don´t mind that, Levi? I thought you thought it was tiresome I was there"

"I don´t give a fuck" he replied curtly.

"Of course you dont give a fuck. You were who offered the room adjacent Hanji´s room for moving her" he wrapped Hanji with his arm and moved her closer perceiving the impatience of the third on that room each time more obvious "She´s a gorgeus girl, with orange-coloured hair and big eyes"

"Wow, wow... So he asked for she moved here expressely" she noted while she stroked her chin with distrust. Women, something he didn´t show any interest, but something she always could mock about "That´s could be suspicious..."

"Of course he did. That girl is one of his future subordinates. When he delivered the report of her future move, he talked with a serious voice with no worryings and said he preferred the other soldiers didn´t fluster the members of his team".

"EHHHHHHHHHHHH?" she directed to the man hidden behind the press "Levi, why didn´t you tell me you are going to have a subordinate so cute?"

"It´s a soldier more" he replied seriously.

"Don´t lie, he looks like an angel. You know I am jealous for that".

"I didn´t choose her for that. She´s good enough to be in my squad, that´s all. Leave me alone" his fingers paged the newspaper trying to evade that tedious conversation.

"That´s mean he wants her for him alone. That´s why he had hidden her in our barrack, for that any other man dare touch her more than him. Not even he leaves me getting closer to her room" Mike yawned with fake tears on his eyes "What a pity, we are going to have a cute girl so near and we can´t talk to her withouth his autorization".

"I have not hidden her" his habitual apathetic tone of voice. Nothing surprising "But if she is going to be part of my team I don´t want she get distracted. Although... maybe put her next to Hanji will be the worst distraction she is going to have".

"So... Distract her, eh? Come on Mike, go to see our future new little prey. I feel like seeing if she´s so brave and strong as for be part of the absolutely unique and bidimensional Levi´s squad" the corner of her mouth hoisted in a spooky face while she planned her next job.

"... If I had known it was so fun for you two, I´d have chosen any other brat"

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They were seen serenely from the corner to the exterior patio. The new recruits were training. They glazed fastly and promptly could sight the little figure. They didn´t know if it was cause of the optic effect of sunrays reflecting over the meadow or cause of the fatigue. Or maybe it was due to the shine on her hair. But the girl seemed be surrounded by a light halo.

"I told you she was a cutie, Hanji" he looked around trying to find his partner "Hanji? Hanji?"

He turned the sight forward and saw the woman running towards the tiny girl, who, when saw Hanji, scared and left motionless. Hanji received her with a big hug hoisting her from the ground. She seemed to be in a panic attack without being able to react. A strange and arrogant woman was caressing her on a strange and embarrasing way.

"You are really cute, come to my squad and abandon Levi, please. I´ll treat you fine and we´ll sleep together talking about researches and new discoveries. I asked a lot for women, but they didn´t show me any woman profile which fitted in what I needed. But If you want I can ask for transfer you and-" she talked in a rush barely breathing.

"Ah, ah, I... You must be captain Zoe. Nice to meet you, my name is Petra Ral. The captain has talked a lot about you"

"About me?" the impressed girl began to take down the tiny woman.

"Yes, when he did the introduction with the rest of my mates mentioned about the rest of the captains and talked us a lot about you. I think you are a great leader, miss Zoe. Despite he express himself in a rude, ill-mannered and impolite way, I think you get on well with him. It seems he esteems you"

"Woah, so Levi talks about me when I´m not near... Tell me more"

That was strange. She never expected he could appreciate her. And... Why was she so happy for that fact? She couldn´t know why she was so pleased for he talking about her. And, again, that pain in her chest. Wounds? Wasn´t she completely recovered? She decided to forgive those strange feelings. Only wounds, they are only wounds, she forced herself to think.

That same night, Petra, settled in the room next Hanji as it was predetermined, for her own safety. Sincerely, she made glad having another woman between those walls, so the schedules of shower wasn´t only for her. And she wouldn´t have to feel alone in those moments.

Undoubtely the young girl was very cheerful and likeable, so they got along fastly. The hour of the shower became almost a ritual for both. First Petra knocked shyly the door, and Hanji went out covered in a towel with any type of shyness. Sometimes, her subordinate wondered if before she arrived there, she showed the same lack of shame.

Although those doubts dissipated when she saw her future captain restraining mister Zakarius and urging him to leave the building during some hours joining the rest of captains and leaders who were there.

They got undressed and Hanji gazed at the smooth and spotless skin of the girl. Without any type of flaw, even some zones were covered with tiny freckles which make her body still more alluring and irresistible. All that was embellished with elegant ways and her measured way of talking. It was evident she was a girl well-behaved.

Despite of being short, she have a beautiful curves. Her hair was smooth and straight. A little longer than Hanji used to have, tied back in a little braid on her back. But when she let it loose, it didn´t show any tangle, in contrast to hers.

It caused her a deepest envy. Even, being so young, she could notice that the pass of the years and the intense fight hadn´t still destroyed her body. Her smooth skin, white and without defects, no marks of combat. No scars.

How long could she keep that? Maybe she could, in contrast to her, she hadn´t pass long part of her life with wounds already acquired for her whole life

"You are very attractive, no doubt. You have a beautiful body and a nice face. Somebody was generous with you when made you"

"Th-thanks miss Zoe. B-but don´t say those things, y-you also are beautiful".

Hanji looked herself on the old mirror of the bathroom. Cause of the cares of Levi, her aspect didn´t have so many scars, she also gained weight. Her breasts, cause of being so many time resting without her habitual tight had taken advantage of it for growing a little more. She barely could regconize the woman in front of her. She didn´t see herself still more feminine, not even saw herlsef different. But, when comparing to another woman so evidently remarkable couldn´t avoid feeling a little blurry with herself. In any way her physique seemed a little sweetier than she remembered. Or maybe it was only a illusion cause of her last months of boredom. And again those strange feelings on her chest. Why do I feel different? Maybe, that´s thanks to Levi´s cares. And again the pain on her chest. Why I feel so strange those last days? Fucking midget, you are the worst doctor I´ve never know. You didn´t healed me well...Whatever, I don´t want to give it importance. She soaped up her hair and entered on the closer shower to the little girl.

"Petra, being so pretty you must have had lots of boyfriends" she let out without prioring warning.

"Ah, no" her cheeks red-coloured instanly "M-my parents wouldn´t leave me it"

"Suitors, maybe?"

"My father doesn´t like so much those things, so never... I´ve never have so much relation with the boys of the distric where I lived. Not until I joined the army. There, I suposse... with my army-mates. A-although that´s not mean I... have done... anything..."

"So, you never kissed anybody?"

"N-no..." she answered with her cheeks still more and more coloured "A-and you, captain? I s-suposse that for being older..."

"Me..." she stayed thoughtful "I could say yes, although..." she remembered the touch of the lips from his old friend over hers with longing. Only cpr, that wasn´t any kiss. This was his words "It´s better don´t think to much on that"

"I see..."

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Mornings intensified and passed unhurried. As the rest of them she have lived there before, she proceeded to wake up and directed to personnel´s room. She didn´t last so much in finding her little, blushing and shy new mate carrying a tray with her breakfast. She didn´t hesitate and sat next her, she was better company than the other sullen and curt cadets.

The breakfast, as the same as all the meals they served on that dining room were bland, tasteless. Food prepared beforehand and with no originality. It included boiled eggs, juice, milk and coffee. No toasts, no cereals. She missed her meals on the hospital. Heating milk, accompanied with fresh fruit and all type of feast you only could taste if your life was in danger. An authentic honor dealing with it was destinated to dying people. She laughed at that thought. Petra cleared her throat, interrupting her feelings.

"Miss Zoe... Do we can cook here?"

"Yes, a bit. Why? What do you want to do? I don´t know if they leave us entering in the kitchens of personnel, but if you are proposing breaking the rules and cook something more decent from what they serve us, I´ll support you and defend if they caught us"

"No! I-I don´t want to get into problems when I´ve just arrived. I-I just wonder if... If we buy the ingredients... If they let us cooking something different in our free time... A pie... maybe, something sweet... Like this..."

"I see...Do you want to make a cake heart-shappered for Levi?" she hummed with happiness.

"Ah, I, not, no, no, no!" showing herself so nervous only intensified more her charmings. Hanji noticed the glazes she directed to him, and also her way of talking about him. "I-I just thought... we could make a welcome retinue for the back of the team left days ago. I thought it was a good idea that after the hard battles they have to bear..."

"Petra, you are so sweet and generous that I´m pretty sure all the people in that room (even myself) would marry you without doubting"

"M-miss Zoe, don´t say so embarrasing things"

"What could we do..." she thought on Erwin and the time she hadn´t seen him. A little moan on her chest. Again reticence from her old wounds? "Hummmm, it maybe a good idea. I´ll try they give us a disuse zone, alright?"

"T-thanks"

Collecting the ingredients for the elaboration of the caked wasn´t too dificult. But too expensive. The city dealers used to abuse about the prices. Not even her condition on the army could suposse an incentive for them to low their exorbitant prices. Too many time without being near of the stoves with the intention of cooking and began to doubt about her skills.

It would be a hard task. Hanji haven´t been without cooking since she lived alone on her barrack. More o less 3 years ago. Maybe 4. Really, she couldn´t remember for certain when was the last time she has cooked on that quarters. Petra seemed so coordinated and get used to those task that she tried not showing so absentminded in front of her subordinate.

Even that, her clumsy was demonstrated 20 minutes later. Ashamed, she passed Petra the whipping ribs for whisking the whites ones. She took a look to the kitchen... It was incredibily messy and dirty.

"Levi is gonna kill me" she thought.

"Miss Zoe..." Petra began to talk again. "Do you know if...if Lev-...if the captain has a fiancée?"

"Oh, not. He has nor girlfriend nor lover"

"Ah..." again thoughtful. "B-but... he... likes someone else?"

"Well, that... I think so." she knew about the feelings of the little girl about his friend, but she didn´t considerate correct lying her. "But promise me you won´t say anything about that".

In a certain way, she remembered herself with the commander, she didn´t wanted to damaged her nor making illusions innecesarily. And, in other way it was his friend and mate, so quiet and siently she couldn´t image what class of reaction he´d have if she tell him about her feels. She didn´t think he would reject her violently, but Petra seemed so fragile and delicate that doubted that the strange and curt ability of Levi of expressing himself was the most right for treating her.

Again that fucking pain when she thought on him. Was she afraid about Petra´s feelings? Why was she wondered about how would he rejecting somebody? Maybe in the same way he rejects me, you are filthy shitty-glasses, go to get a fucking shower. She laughed in a low voice.

"D-do you know who is her?"

Her. That misterious woman he talked about long time ago. Hanji pondered the question one moment, she haven´t come back to talk about that fact since they left that cave. But she had wondered about who could she be, but didn´t dare to ask him again. Not because the curiosity didn´t overwhelmed her, only becase she doubted he answer.

"The truth... I´ve never asked him about that. It´s his private life, I don´t think it be a good idea interfere on that. Although I think it would be funny knowing which type of woman he likes. I meet him since long time ago, but he never seemed to me as somebody interested in women. He is pretty odd"

"Y-you are right... I ´m sorry. And you?"

"My types of men?"

"No, no,... I mean... If you are married or have..."

"No, I´m not. It´s forbidden. Captains can´t get married"

"That´s sad. Can´t have somebody to love"

"I didn´t say we can´t like anybody? We can do as we want without being catched. Being lovers or sleep with somebody. I shouldn´t tell you that, but that´s the truth. If you want to have an affair, don´t shout about it. Be discreet and don´t allow it interferes on your work"

"Oh, then, you..."

"If I like somebody? That´s a bit complicated to explain, Petra. As your superior, you rather should understand I cannot tell you about that"

"N-no. I-I apologize for that... I mean that..." she pondered before to continue. "What do you think about the captain? I mean, you get on so well..."

"Well,... he´s a grumpy dwarf, antisocial, violent, churl... Although... when he wants he can be very kind. But he´s an idiot who shows her friendliness on a incoherent ways" the large mop moistened with the liquid that was over the shelf she was ordering. "I told you before, he´s weirdo".

"Kind?" she surprised at her comment. She´ve never seen that man who would be her future captain showing no shred of friendliness. Just an actitude strict and severe to all his allies. Perphas that friendliness is only showed at certain persons, she thought. That with he had developed a bond of trust in the battlefield. Something she was still unconnected.

A little figure heared the conversation backed on the door. He left going away from that while he gather the last words he could remember.

"Kind, what a silliness" he mumbled.

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The awaited return, it was pouring. Hanji took the result of her hard work on those days and served it on the dining room. All the soldiers were very happy and triying to make passes at the little Petra. They seemed more interested in her than the improvised-welcome feast. Hanji looked everywhere, the soldier she was more interested here wasn´t there. Maybe on his office, as always. A commander doesn´t have time for spare time. That were the words he used to say lastly. She cut a little piece and arranged to carry him it. Perphas it wasn´t too sweet or tasty. But she would obly him to swallow it before he gave an excuse. This wasn´t to be a busy day for him. And less after having waited his return for so long.

While she left, a deep grey eyes followed her towards the door. She, external to this gaze, continued serenely revising the rehearsed words since weeks ago.

She walked eager but with care. The floor was quite wet cause of the rain. Maybe even a bit slippery. The gummed sole of her boots barely let her walk coherently. She could already sight the coarse crystal with arrived to his new office. A bit opaque and maybe rickety.

As far as she approached, she reviewed the words she want to say for welcoming. Maybe ask about his wounds, or what they got. Achievements. Fall. Loss...

Then, she discerned it, another person apart of him was on that office. That person wasn´t wearing an uniform, but a lovely pinky long dress. The fabric didn´t seem excessively good expensive, but undoubtely was something more attractive than a cadet would wear on her day off. Different from was she wore of course. On that moments, Hanji only wore a black tight suit with a white shirt she considerated quite comfortable. Even Petra wore a long skirt with a colour not so attractive.

Somebody wearing in a pastel tone with light detals of cherry soot wasn´t known for her. A precious and slight blonde brad fell until her waist. A woman with a voluptuous figure and unknown for her. She wasn´t a soldier, the figure of that woman didn´t belong to any of the members of the army she could regconize. And her commander was hugging now this figure.

Driven by the panic, she turned round and began to run in opposite direction, not being aware she stepped on, bumped into Petra, staining the clothes with the glazed.

"M-miss Zoe, are you fine?" she tried to remove diligently the chocolate´s stains with a handkerchief, but barely she anything. Hanji didn´t stop as if she needed to go out from there no matter what.

"Ah, yeah, don´t worry. I should go getting changed right now" she forced a smile without daring look at her. "Petra, make me a favor, could you pick up all this and carry a new piece to the commander?"

"O-of course".

Her long legs began to move at full speed. As if they weren´t fixed to her body. Only joint with a only thought: flee from there. Before she noticed, she had gone out. The rain fell vigorously over her face, erasing the tears which leaked from her eyes as she left.

She moved away from the building heading for a woodland zone. She seated and buried her face on her knees. Despite have forced her phisical condition after that unceasing jaunt, what hurts her wasn´t the wounds not healed. She knew it. She knew that pain. I wasn´t any blow.

That lack of blood flow only indicated one thing. Her heart.

She already knew it. But didn´t wanted to regconize. Her mind have made forget that fact instead of accepting. Erwin would never see her as a woman, because he already had his eyes set in anyone else. The worst, was that she couldn´t hate that woman with long and silky blonde mane. Not even knew her, it was unfair for her own part not doing it. Then, what was all that? Why did she feel so many sadness?

She wasn´t like that, jealous never became part of her character. Maybe that pain was only cause of her own mental insanity. Why did she never consider this option? Her commander was a good man, wisely, gentil, honest; why shouldn´t he had found any other woman yet?

A beautiful lady, possibly from the city, with good manners. No wounds, no scars. And she had never hear talking about her. Again that bitterness to him, towards his misterious presence and his constant disability of telling her anything about his life. Was that pain because after so long time next him he´d never trusted in her?

"I´m a idiot"

"Yes, you are" a gap voice resounded behind her. So deep that neither the constant tapping of the rain over the wet asphalt could fell silent.

She turned inmediately and saw a grey eyes staring at her and bearing the downpour which soaked his hair. On that moment, it seemed her an image so sad of herself being there, stained of the ground that her arrogance was stronger than her humility and proceeded cleaning her chicks stained by her own tears.

"It´s cold, come back inside, Levi"

"I know it, but I needed going out"

"Are so noisy the boys that you don´t dare hearing them trying to pull with your subordinate?"

"I don´t matter that"

"And why has you came here?"

"You passed running in front of the dining room. You went on this direction"

"I just need a minute. Just this. You can leave now"

"..." He continued standing up not proceeding to obey her order.

"Levi, you...have you came after me?"

"..." no answer.

"It´s not necessary you worry. I just... need to vent a little and... and I´ll be the same as always" her body trembling. She didn´t know if it was cause of the sadness, the cold she felt on that moments. O simply the impotent which have generated in all her being.

"If you need to cry, cry" he cleared his throat while sitting next her.

She noticed how muddy was the land, but he didn´t seem matter it. It seems that in some occasion his neat sense of the cleanliness was forgotten by other reason. On that moment she made glad that accompany her on that hard moment was the reason why he abandoned that obsession of him.

"Thanks. You are a great friend" she nestled on his shoulder leaving the tears flow with no rest. The drops which fell from the sky continued hidding her tears. Despite that, she was comfortably. She didn´t mind the humidity or the cold. He was a man of few words, although he didn´t need so many. She was happy for relying on him as backing her, but it hurts her treat him on this way.

Few times she had thought on him in other way. He always had seemed a strange man, possibly marked by a traumatic past, similar to hers. But so excesively painfull that he denied talking about that. Maybe he haven´t so lick as her as finding somebody who cares so well of him as Erwin did with her. On that moment, she wished have know him before, maybe her relation wouldn´t be so restrictive as was now. Maybe... Stranges feelings crossed her mind: What if we...? No, he liked another girl, reminded.

"Levi... how is everything about that girl you talked me about?"

"... I dunno" he answer curtly.

"How can you don´t know?"

"Nothing happened"

"Anything?"

"Nothing"

"Then, your relation is as always, not?"

"Yes."

"But you like her, not?" what was all this pain when asked that? I rather go again to the hospital, I think my old wounds are open again. She lied to herself.

"I don´t know...She is...a crazy woman, eccentric, bizarre, nuts, too talkative, incongruent, foul-mouted, rude... and she is obsessed with another guy..."

"But I can´t take her out of my mind, not?"

"..."

"Sometimes, we want to resist our own feelings, trying to see only the negative facets of somebody to contrarrest them. It´s a way of lying us for not regconizing what we really think" then, why I never did it with Erwin? For me, he was always great and amazing. But Levi...why am I thinking on him now? Focus, Hanji, he likes another girl, don´t dare. Lied herself again.

"Maybe" it fell and fell with no rest. No stopping, drop after drop. A torrential came from the east that would last lot in abandoning them. At least, that night wouldn´t do. Enough for them in that moment. "...When did you noticed of yours about Erwin?..."

"I think... I was 13. When I decided joining his group. I wanted to be next him. Until them, for me he had been a brother. But, then, I think, I joined the survey corps for protecting him as he did with me all those years. As if I have a debt with him. When I noticed, I waited longing to arrive his day-off to pass it with him"

"..."

"Altough...I began to think that my whim was like a little girl who took out his toy. As if my father didn´t pay me so much attention. Because...I can´t neither hate her nor feeling jealous... I suposse I am stupid."

"You are"

"And you?"

"Me what?"

"When …...did you noticed that girl was in your interests?"

"..."

The girl waited patiently. She knew that his mate was too close at telling those things. In fact, she didn´t know if he has shared those feelings with any other person who wasn´t herself. She stroke him that Levi who only appear in front of her, quite cozy.

"You´ll continue keeping going until I answer, right?" he said finally.

"You know me. You know how I am. Come on, tell me" she persevered. "We are friends, not?"

"I really don´t know" he sighed with deference. "First time I talked with her, she seemed a weirdo, on a single subject. A pain in the ass. Obsessed with her work. Hearing her talking only gave me headaches and I wanted to hit her fucking ass every day to shut her up. And I don´t know how I haven´t still done it. She didn´t seem to any other woman I´ve known before. Maybe it was for this reason" an expression of gloom emerged on his face.

"By the way you talk about her, it seems you are falling in love with her" she began to laugh. And feeling jabs on her heart. She didn´t know why it hurt so much hearing those words. Again the olds wounds? Come back to the rehabilitation between those spotless and white walls scard her. It was better to hung in there that strange pain that bothered her. Perphas, next morning it would dissapear join all the regrets she felt on this moments.

"That... would be a problem" he lowered his head thinking.

"A problem?What nonsense. Are you afraid of being human and fall in love with other person? It happens to the harder of us. Once you fall you can regret. Or maybe you don´t want to cry on my shoulder as I do now? You know I wouldn´t laugh of you for that" I don´t want nobody damage you, Levi. Thought without be able to say.

"I didn´t say that. I said that would be a problem for who she is"

That makes Hanji reacts. Undoubtely she didn´t know who was that woman who trashed his feelings. But didn´t understand, who was her as for suposse a risk falling in love with her? A high position girl? A girl from the city? An old lover?

Round her head only passed images of hundreds of woman who she´d kill undoubtely for making him suffer so. The woman who had got putting nervous that man of impenetrable gaze had to be incredible. She was unable to surmise a face for that misterious girl.

For years, she had seen loads of women incredibily beauty getting closer to him, but he rejected all them. She began to feel a big curiosity for knowing who was that woman, but not only for knowing which type of woman drew that sourpuss.

She had other reasons, but she ignored the groan of her heart linking them to a relapse of her old wounds. Dazzle, unable to see what originated on her interior.

"Why it has to be a problem you fall in love with her? Who is her?" she answered without noticing she raised the voice. Completely nervous and irate.

"You"

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