I still do not own Twilight
AN: So this is some of Jasper's POV starting from before classes begin to where we left off last chapter and continuing on from there. I know I am posting a lot more than I said but I am excited with the follows. This chapter is longer 2k+ words! So I'm hoping to get some more reviews from it :) Enjoy
Chapter 3
JPOV
Uhg how many times have I tried to read this paragraph? Who would think that a vampire could get so distracted by their thoughts?
I looked around my room from the leather sofa I was currently laying on in my study. I didn't really have a bedroom in the house, just my study. Since I didn't need to sleep I was content with my sofa and my much smaller closet than the one I had back in Forks. I looked at the books that covered almost all of my walls and thought about how much she would like the copious amount I had. I would give them all to her just to see her again.
It has been 120 years since I last saw her but thankfully we connected again. I was a bit sad she did not get to have the normal life we left her to have but I was still happy all the same that I could still talk to her. My mind wandered to her last email, which was over a week ago, the longest we have gone between corresponding. She seemed sad and lonely
Jasper,
My holidays were fine. Didn't do much.
Exchanged a few gifts and had a lovely feast.
Any resolutions? Lol
Happy New Years
I had responded but I didn't really know what to say.
We never got a chance to spend time together back in Forks I missed Bella…. Isabella as she reminds me often, greatly, and with the amount of time I have spent alone since we left her and since I have reconnected with her I got the feeling she wasn't who we thought she was when she had been part of our family, she has definitely had a drastic change in her life since we left.
It seemed, as though some days from what I could read in the subtext was that she was happy and other days completely miserable. She mentioned having a couple of really close friends but never any names.
I wonder if she feels as lonely as I do, even surrounded by friends or family? I mused to myself. And then it hit me again.
That sensation where my heart felt like it was being squeezed and then it was gone. I have felt it several time in the last 100 years but the first time was at Bella's… sigh Isabella's disastrous 18th birthday party, when Edward, moron, shoved her back onto the table glass table that shattered beneath her.
A knock at my door brought me out of my memories before I could get to more painful parts of it.
"Come in" I said softly putting the book on the floor, finally giving up. Rose slipped in and sat by me on the adjacent arm chair and gave me a soft smile.
"We are about to leave for campus if you want to ride with Emmett and myself," Rose offered
I gave her an appreciative smile as she and her mate Emmett welcomed me back to the family with little scolding for staying away for so long. After all our time together I really felt as though Rose was my actual twin sister sometimes. She never pushed me to talk but would join me in my study just to keep me company.
We never felt the need to fill the silence with conversation and she would always send me waves of happiness. Even after the party, Rose was there helping calming me down, she wasn't mad or disappointed she just was worried for me as a sibling worries for the other when they are hurt or upset.
Then when Alice came to me with the divorce papers shortly after leaving Forks, Rose was there to support me and be there for me when I was kicked down again.
"Thank you. I think I will take your offer." After a beat I decided to finally as someone that is mated about the sensation I felt. I decided Rose would best as she is honest and won't push me too much to find out why.
"Rose… what was it like when you realized Emmett was your mate? What did you feel?"
She thought for a minute. "Its hard to explain. As soon as I saw him, I knew I had to protect him. I felt... a pull, I guess, towards him. And when we were apart at first it was almost painful. Like something was wrapped around my chest, squeezing it tighter and tighter. Why do you ask? Have you met someone? You never leave the house!"
"No dear sister, I have not met anyone. I was just thinking, while trying to block out certain feelings and noises from…" I stopped mid sentence as Rose knew who I spoke of. She could hear them together too. "Since I thought I had met my mate but I guess I never felt anything like what you just described, and apparently Alice never did either."
I was now sitting up on the couch resting my elbows on my knees. I put my face in my hands and rubbed my hands up and through my hair. Rose came to sit next to me and put a hand on my shoulder.
"You will know when you see her that she is you mate. You will find her when you least expect it and I hope you find her sooner rather than later. You deserve to have your true mate and be happy." She was sending waves of love and hope and I hugged her, sending her my gratitude.
"Well…" I said with fake enthusiasm breaking our hug, "Lets go to class!"
As Emmett drove I looked over my schedule… great year 1…. Again.
9:00-General Bio Level 100
10:00- Works of Shakespeare Level 350
3:00- Colonial History Level 200
5:00- US History Civil War-Present Level 100
As one of the last to enter Bio I took a seat in the back right corner there were only two other students in the back row. A pretty blonde and one I couldn't see but she had red hair. I knew instantly they were vampires but what really bothered me was that I couldn't feel their emotions and couldn't really pick up their scents.
Throughout class I could tell the one that I couldn't see was already annoyed by the course. I heard the blonde whisper to her something about rattling something loose. That is when my eyes made contact with the red haired girl, but her eyes were green.
How can that be if she is a vampire?
I didn't recognize her but apparently she recognized me because I was hit with a wave of panic. A panic I felt a long time ago in a dance studio in Phoenix. I quirked my eyebrow trying to figure out why I felt her panic. Then I realized and barely whispered, "Bella" at the same time I saw her mouth "shit".
Then I saw her, really saw her. Her mahogany hair, heart shaped face, beautiful full lips that always had a slight pout to them then her eyes… her beautiful….red eyes? Wait what? Her doe eyes were no longer chocolate brown which of course would be strange since she is a vampire. But why?
As soon as it was there it was gone back to the green eyes and red hair. Her face now void of emotions and no emotions emitted from her either
We stared at each other the rest of class
What is she doing here? Did she want to get caught? I thought to myself. I finally got a good look at her neighbor and I assumed friend. Heidi. Crap why is a Volturri guard member here with Bella?
The bell rang and Bella dashed out. I followed her scent to an empty stairwell, trapping her two landings below. My hand wrapped around her upper arm and I sent her a wave of calm and willingness to get her to come with me without making a scene.
As soon as I locked the door she lashed out at me
"What the fuck? Who the hell do you think you are? What do you think you are doing? Get the hell out of my way and let me go!"
"Bella?" I asked with a glimmer of hope, unsure of if that hope was that I was wrong or hope that I finally get to see her. But she keeps throwing off waves of anger and fighting my grasp.
"I don't know what or who the hell you are talking about"
I grabbed her by her shoulders and shake her hard, and almost yell,
"Isabella Marie Swan" she quietly scoffed when I call her by her full name, "I know that its you what the hell happened?"
She finally looks up at up at me taking deep short unnecessary breaths. I feel her resolve and she finally gives up on pretending, and addresses me with pleading eyes,
"Jasper please let me go. Heidi is waiting for me and is probably already searching the building for me. Besides like I said in a much earlier conversation I am not the Bella you remember. Though letters do say a lot, they can only say so much on how a person has changed" She looked down and I could feel the waves of disappointment coming off her.
I sighed, "Isabella… I told you we were coming here. Why did you come here too?"
BPOV
"You knew we were coming here from my last email, yet here you are risking the chance of running into one of the others. What were you thinking?" He shook my shoulders again trying to get me to look at him, waiting for my answer. But I didn't have one. Not one I could give him now.
But he was right. I did know that the Cullen's would be here from Jasper's last response. We have been writing to each other for the last 100 years, ever since Jasper realized I was still alive… and still 18. I was sloppy, and I did not have complete understanding of my powers.
Heidi, Demetri and I were in NYC and I was doing some freelance writing for several magazines and some small newspapers doing reviews for cultural exhibits, shows, concerts, etc. I used a pen name Charilee (pronounced like Carly) Dwyer, but some of the magazines posted a picture of the author next to the article. I changed some of my features but I was still pretty recognizable if someone really looked. Apparently I was very recognizable to a certain vampire.
Jasper saw one of my articles on an exhibit of civil war artwork. He knew it was me the minute he saw my picture. He contacted my editor and got my email address.
We left New York as soon as my editor told me someone called looking for me or any of my contact information. I proceeded to live in Volterra for 30 years not doing anything, but I will always remember that first email…
Bella,
I read your review on eh exhibit at the Met. It was wonderful.
I will have to make a special trip up to NYC to see
It myself. I just have to wonder Bella, how do you look so
similar to how you did 20 years ago at your 18th birthday? I
know this isn't an old picture of you or that it has been photo-
shopped, but something is different. So the only answer is that
you were turned. Who and when were you turned? I promise
I promise not to tell the family and you don't have to worry
about Edward hearing it in my thoughts, as I am not currently with
the family nor have I been for the last 20 years. Please respond back.
Jasper Whitlock
PS. I'm sorry
I was curious about the fact that he wasn't with the family. Why did he leave them? Was he at least with Alice? Why the last name change? I could read in the subtext so much sadness and loneliness, but I did not want to answer. What made me was his PS. I had to let him know I never blamed him nor was I ever mad at him. It was their nature… it was my nature, fresh blood is hard to resist.
So I responded...
Jasper
I was not sure if I was going to respond back until I read you PS.
You have nothing to be sorry for. I never blamed you and I was
never mad at you. All I wanted to do after it happened was to
tell you I was not mad and comfort you, as I am sure you felt
terrible about what happened. I have felt it myself. But Edward
and Alice… they would not let me near you of course…
"Too dangerous" are the words I remember most.
As for when I was changed… about 9 months after you all left.
It was right after graduation when I left Forks. As for who
turned me, I cannot tell you. It is not that I do not know who
my sire is, I certainly do but I cannot tell you in this email.
And I do not wish for you to know, as knowing your
disappointment in what has happened to me would make me
sad.
I will tell you someday but this is not it. But I have a question
for you, why are you no longer with the family?
Isabella
I left no last name; Jasper did not need to know it was that of Aro's and his brothers. But we continued to correspond like that for the next 100 years. About 12 years ago he told me he was rejoining the family but was not sure how he felt about it.
I told him I was happy for him, as he had seemed lonely since I would never tell him my actual location. I always felt as though he may try to find me.
His last email just after Christmas he told me the Cullen's were heading back to Massachusetts to attend Amherst. I told Aro about the update on the Cullens and he requested that Heidi and I go to Massachusetts and to fulfill my job. I was happy to get out of Volterra but I wasn't thrilled about having to actually do my part as a guard member. I am already regretting my decision to tell him.
Maybe I felt as though it was time for Jasper and I to actually see each other. There were times I would read his email or just be laying in my bed when a strange sensation would hit me. It felt as though something was squeezing my frozen heart. It would pass and then it would be sometime until the next time I felt it. But after all of our corresponding I laughed once in a while thinking about how the situation between Jasper and I was like the old movie with Meg Ryan "You've Got Mail"
"Jasper please, let me go." I barely whispered. "I will be late for class"
He let go of my shoulders to ask, "What class?"
I pulled out my schedule because for once I really could not remember what my next class was. "Works of Shakespeare" I told him
He grinned, "Well I am glad there will be another freshman in class with me then. But I am not surprised you are taking this. You did love the classics and Shakespeare. Why don't we walk and talk."
"Did you get a hold of my schedule Mr. Whitlock? Maybe it is you who is following me!" I teased him. "Yes lets walk but I am in no mood to really talk. I do not think I am ready to answer your questions."
"Okay, how about just one for now. Heidi… is she the Heidi from the Volturri guard?" He asked quietly already knowing the answer but looking for confirmation.
I took my time just to say the one word to confirm,
"Yes"
AN: So I have up to chapter 15 typed and ready to go. So I may be able to post more often if I keep getting the incentive :P
