A/N this chapter was inspired by "Inside Out" Yellow Card. Warning, it contains self harm and generally unhappy themes. Jasper's POV
It was too much not knowing anything about her, and I'd seen Edward talking to Alice's sister at lunch, so I had to ask him. I just hoped he wouldn't make too much out of it. I didn't know what it was yet. But I knew that I felt like I was in love with her. But surely that's impossible after just one day?
Before football practice that afternoon, I asked Edward to talk to him.
"Hey man, so I saw you talking to Bella this afternoon… She's Alice's sister right?"
"Yeah, Jazz. Adopted sister. Why? You got the hots for the pixie? Admittedly she's not bad to look at."
I don't know why but that comment made me want to hit him. She was more than not bad to look at. She was beautiful
"Um, yeah. So I was wondering if you knew anything about her? She seems strange."
Edward seemed to hesitate, as though he was editing his words. Maybe there was something more than her not liking me. "Uhhh…Jazz… I don't know what to say. Bella said that she's really reserved. Keeps to herself a lot you know? Apparently she's been hurt before. Bell didn't say how but basically Alice hasn't had friends for years, not because people don't like her. She doesn't like them. If you ask me I think she just doesn't trust anyone. If you want her to talk to you, you gotta make her trust you first. And good luck with that! We gotta get to training man, you coming?"
I had to go visit her, I'd say I needed help with homework or something. I needed to see her. Talk to her. "Uh, actually, I think I have something I have to do. You know, homework and stuff. Can you tell coach I'm really sorry and I'll make it up to him by doing extra training?"
"Sure dude. Although I don't know why you'd wanna do homework rather than train but, to each his own."
Running to my car I started it up before I realised I only vaguely knew where she lived through people talking. Apparently they lived near the diner. I guess I'll just keep a look out for her car.
Alice's POV
I drove home that afternoon, thinking about our little exchange in Chemistry, trying to figure out exactly what he thought of me. A part of me thought, and hoped, that he liked me. Of course that part was always overruled by the part that remembers Lauren hanging off his arm, and then both of those parts were overruled by my dread of getting hurt again.
Bella was sitting in out room reading one of her thousands of books when I got home. Looking up from her book she jumped up, running around the room cleaning things and talking so fast that I couldn't catch a word that she said. Bella tended to fidget and ramble when she got nervous. Honestly it was quiet entertaining to watch but I was interested in what she was trying to say so I stopped her before she could do too much damage with her clumsiness.
"Whoa, Bells, slow down!"
She stopped for a moment catching her breathe before simply saying "School was fantastic. I had so much fun"
Ok…that's strange, Bella never refers to school as fun…
"Fun? Bella does this have something to do with that tall handsome brooding guy who was staring at you across the lunchroom today?" I wanted to tease her, but I knew that it would probably backfire. She could see threw me so she had probably already figured that I couldn't stop thinking about Jasper.
She just blushed at my question and asked if I'd made any friends, to which I sent her an incredulous look. Jasper didn't count as a friend, and I really hoped she didn't ask anything more.
My hopes were shattered as she said "Oh really? That's funny because Jasper Whitlock said he talked to a short, pixie like girl before school, and that he found her intriguing. Then again at the end of lunch he said he thinks he may have offended you after he went chasing you out of the cafeteria. I think he really likes you Al…he seemed really upset when he came back. What happened anyway? I know you don't like talking to people, but you don't normally make them upset."
"I don't know why he's upset. I just didn't want to talk to anyone. It's nothing different and you know that so why didn't you just tell him so he'd leave me alone?!" I didn't mean to snap but her spiel about Jasper being upset had gotten to me. I ran to my study, locked the door, and crouched on the floor trying to figure out what I was thinking.
Alice Brandon doesn't like people, and she most certainly doesn't like guys she only just met. So why am I so upset because I upset some stupid freshy guy, who probably plays football and has all the cheerleaders hanging off him??
I didn't understand what was going on with me. Getting up and walking over to my desk. I put on a CD.
Listening to the lyrics, I felt myself start to tear up.
Here, a little sympathy,
For you to waste on me.
I know you're faking it,
But that's ok.
I opened a draw, I pulled out a blade and placed it over my wrist. I couldn't do this. I couldn't handle it any more. I found myself, after less than 24 hours, head over heels in love with him. I couldn't bring him into my life of pain and suffering. I couldn't burden him with what has, and will happen to me.
And I,
Don't wanna drag it out.
Don't wanna bring you down.
I never wanted it to end this way.
Pressing down, I pulled, and I felt the stinging I'd felt so many times before from this blade. Only this time I kept pressing deeper, until blood poured from my wrist onto the floor like a crimson river.
Even if I wanted to,
I don't think that I'd get to you,
There's nothing I can say to you,
To make you feel alive again.
I started to think of everything my father had said and done. He had taken away the chance I had at a happy life. And I really hope that he suffered when he hears of what I've done.
Here, a little jealously.
I hope you think of me at night.
Cos I, feel like I'm inside out,
You got me upside down.
I watched, until I became too light headed. Slowly placing my head on the floor I fell into a sleep I hoped I'd never wake from…
Maybe I was holding on too tight…
A/N I hope that's a good cliff-hanger! Will she be ok?? Oooh I dunno! What do you think? Also, I've been writing like crazy, so 2 more chapters are ready and rearing to go, but won't be uploaded until I get AT LEAST 7 more reviews. hehe. blackmail is my friend.:D
