AN: Thank you to all who have been patient with me as I overcame the worst cast of writer's block, your reviews really helped! So what would you guys like to see happen next?! Adia's first steps or some love drama with Mommy and Daddy. R & R!
Disclaimer : Sadly, I only own the plot and Adia. 3
In the weeks following, Austin begun his quest of proving to me he was fit to be in our family again and funny enough it all started with pancakes. After his disappearance, I had pushed everything that reminded me of him away with happened to include eating at my favourite all day breakfast diner "The Breakfast Club Diner". Austin and I would go there together, because the chef there made the best pickles and eggs anyone had ever tasted and it was a plus that I happened to love the movie too.
"Ally, please come with me to breakfast. Bring AD I've missed her giggles" he pleaded for the fifth time. I had once again ignored him as I straighten the violins in the display case, purposely making myself busy just so I have a bit more time to maul the idea over in my head. This would the first time Adia, Austin and I would be alone ever, since he promised to be there for me.
"How do I know that this won't be another heartbreak on my list Austin" I thought aloud.
"Alexandra, do you really think i would hurt my Trixie again" he pouted.
As I close the cash register and sweep the floors I think back to the first time Austin ever called me Trixie. It was my first Halloween being Austin Moon's girlfriend and we decided to take the obvious route and coordinate outfits. Austin had suggested being Speed Racer and Trixie from his favourite anime-turn movie, I agreed as i usually did back in those days. At the Halloween party even though i barely heard it and his voice was thick and slurred with alcohol, he had called me his Trixie. He didn't notice that my heart was literally pounding and I didn't mind, I was finally his.
"Austin, fine whatever, will you shut up so i can finish?" I spit as i furiously dust the violins down again.
"Ally, the store is cleaned and there is no one here anymore" He states and my blood boils.
"Alright, do you want to see my daughter tonight or does that intimidate you too much" teeth clenched.
For the first time all day, I looked into his eyes long enough to see the pained expression flash across his face and before I could apologize, instantly feel guilty for pushing him too far, his face is calm and smiling.
"Of course, I'd love to see my little love" he held his hand out for me, leading the way to my car.
He stunned me into silence. The words replaying in my head over and over again, but nothing was coming out of my mouth.
I've missed you
But I don't trust those gold eyes that tricked me once before. My first wall had already been broken down, he now has access to Adia. He can come over and have daddy-daughter time, the thought sickened me. He should have been having daddy-daughter time already, he should have never left in the first place.
I got into my car debating whether i should actually allow him to start seeing Adia regularly when a wave of sadness washes over me, as I notice that Austin is walking away from
I miss my Austin
"Are you coming or not, because I'm not waiting around for you all night" I urged, silently praying he'd say no just so I'd have something on him, anything really, anything to deem him unfit to be around my daughter.
But before I can even finish the though, he is already pulling me out of my seat and walking me around to the passenger side of my own car.
"Austin?"
"You never drove when we were together, I figure why should you drive now? Besides you're always tired after work and hungry, mostly hungry. I've got this covered" as he smirked
At this point, I'd like to point of that I am a mother, a rational thinking woman, educated and confident but all of my will power was currently dwindling. So I set my body on automatic and buckled my seat beat up and allow him to drive me to my house as my emotions tore me up on the inside.
Anger, frustration, confusion - why does it he have to show that he still remembers everything about me. It would make it so much easier to dislike him if he didn't do that.
Overwhelming happiness - he remembers, my Austin is still in there.
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I open the door and all my previous emotions are thrown out and one takes its place. Fear, not the kind of fear I experienced when faced with having to go on stage and sing in front of others, not the kind of fear that shocks your body at the top of the water slide. No that fear would be welcomed as my fear gripped my whole body - the kind of fear that made my shoulders slump over and my breaths shallow. Austin silently followed me and it finally dawned on me.
He would never be my Austin anymore, I'm no longer his Ally. We were love sick teenagers, experiencing the trials of adolescence together. We are no longer teenagers and I have yet to feel the gut-wrenching butterflies, maybe I don't love Austin anymore. Maybe I miss who he was and who I was when I was with him. But that care-free child is no more, I've replaced her with a mother and I've finally decided that it is time Austin show me who he has replaced my Austin with.
"Ally, baby I've got to go, Austin." My dad said curtly rushing the door.
"Ally, is that Adia?" as he stepped closer to the stairs.
After drowning out the sound of my own thoughts, I heard the faint cries.
Austin being closer to the steps was already well on his way to her room. He already had her cradled close to his chest gently lulling her to sleep with a sweet lullaby I didn't know. I examined the only man I have ever loved further. His chiselled feathered prominent under his silky olive skin, his lips seem so much smaller than I remember, maybe I just thought that way because I was kissing them so much. The blonde mop falling into his eyes, but those eyes … they were focussed on one thing. They one thing holding me this earth, not gravity but my daughter, my daughter with her father's golden eyes. I knew what he was so captured by, I'd had done it so many times before, he was lost in thought staring down at our future. I had been so stubborn before but I cannot deny that Adia is our future, I wouldn't let my girl grow up without both parents, it just didn't seem right.
"Ally, she's so perfect" he whispers and our daughter looks up at the sound.
Gold to Gold and I took in a sharp breath, "I know, she is"
"Look at her little face, her cheeks are so chubby! And her little curls, she like my little mini Ally. She's so beautiful," he puts Adia, who is still awake and watching
"I'm so sorry Ally, I didn't know, I know that's no excuse to run out on you. But there is no way you can deny me to chance to try to make it up to you. She's everything I never knew I wanted"
And I felt my heart break into a million pieces of the incomplete man in front of me, that was what had seemed so off. He was incomplete, his other half gone and happy. But we were no longer two pieces of the puzzle, we were three and without each other, it was trouble.
I launched myself at Austin, my being practically screaming for him. His strong arms already waiting trap me in an embrace.
tears falling freely from both of us now, mourning the time we spent apart and relieft for the time we have now.
"I will never live this down"
"You don't have to" I grabbed Adia in my arms, and beckoned him to follow me downstairs,
Silently as we wipe away the moment of saddness and focus on our daughter who is happy with all the eyes on her.
"Ou Austin, watch this!" giving him Adia and running to the stereo and put on some music on,
"Zumba Ally, you want to show me Zumba?" he asks, obviously questioning my sanity
"No watch your daughter dance" he tell him through giggles
Adia who has now wiggling along to the beats, is squiring out of his hands.
I put her on the floor and she holds onto my fingers and starts doing her little routine. She wiggles and giggles and tries to walk, I laugh but Austin is too amazed to laugh. Adia's chocolate curls are getting in her face and making her angry, I can tell she's pouting her little pink lips at me. Austin grabbing her up and tickling her.
"You are just too cute Adia" he said kissing her whole face
watching them, my heart feels as if it will burst from a happiness overload.
"austin?"
"hmm?" his eyes never leaving our girl
"yes, yes to breakfast"
