Chapter Four:
Hey, sorry for the delay guys. I know I should have said that in the previous chapter but better late than never right? Anyways hope you guys enjoy reading this. =)
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'Finally, finally my shift is over, yet I don't want to go home yet. Or more so, I don't want to have to walk home through that same alley where Usui would wait for me. I'm scared. No, I'm not scared. Rather I feel empty as though there's a void inside me that I can't fill up. Yes, I don't feel scared it's more like I can't feel anything anymore (I know there is more to life than him, yet I can't bring myself to stop thinking about). I just feel broken somehow. How did Usui become such a big part of my life? Why did I allow him to come so close to me? Why?' Without even realizing my eyes had become moist and tears had begun welling up in my eyes. I can't cry not here at least. But that never stopped the tears from flowing. No matter how much I tried to avoid the water works, it was impossible. If I think about him the tears would just follow as though the most normal thing in the world. I'm breaking down, but I still have to walk forward. Why did you come into my life Usui Takumi? I was fine before you came. I was content with what I had, but now look at me. I can't allow others to see me in this state. As if on cue she heard footsteps and began wiping the tears off from her face and forced herself to change and then smile. After all, she didn't want to cause any further pain for those whom she cared for.
"Misaki san, are you done changing? We're coming in." yelled out Satsuki san
"Yes, manager san. You're welcome to come in." Misaki yelled back fawning happiness. "Oh, I didn't know everybody was going to come. You guys should have just called me and I would have come. Is there something important to say because you all came together? I hope everything's alright." Misaki said in a clam yet concerned voice.
Hearing Misaki worry over them made everyone present in the room sad. She has so much to worry about already and yet she still worries about us. You're just like an innocent child Misaki, thought all the maids and the manager in unison.
"No, nothing's wrong Misaki, We all just came in together because we got you a gift and we all wanted to give it to you together." Subaru stated.
"But it's not even my birthday or anything. I really can't accept anything from you. Please I hope you understand." Misaki replied.
"Eh, crazy lady didn't your mom teach you saying no to a gift is disrespectful. We all know you're depressed so just take it instead of saying no." Aoi said in an irritated tone leaving Misaki red in the face due to embarrassment and speechless.
"Aoi, when did you come back? Also that is no way to be talking to Misaki chan. Do you understand?" Satsuki san questioned. Upon getting no reply she continued "well anyways because you are here you should also come here and give the gift with us. After all you did contribute in buying this gift." Satsuki san continued to say to her nephew.
"Misaki, we know that you don't like taking gifts but we all would really like it if just this once you would accept our gift." Erica stated in the sweetest tone she could speak in.
Misaki hesitated in taking the gift from the others. However, she knew if she didn't they would feel bad and she didn't want that. Mentally choosing between her options she ended up taking the gift, but not before thanking them.
"Well, aren't you going to open your gift?" Aoi asked, as he was very eager to see how Misaki would react to the gift although he didn't show it on his face.
"Of course, I was just getting to that." Misaki replied sheepishly.
Slowly but steadily Misaki began to unwrap her gift making sure that the golden ribbon didn't rip. After the ribbon was taken off she proceeded on taking off the golden and silver gift wrap. She didn't know what to expect but she knew that everybody had tried very hard with the gift wrapping and she didn't want to ruin it at all.
After what seemed like eons to the staff members present Misaki had finished opening her gift and was now looking at it in a puzzled manner. They should've realized Misaki wouldn't know what to do with what they had given her.
"Misaki, how do you like your present? It's a diary. You can write whatever you want in it." Subaru explained.
"We know that there's something bothering you. We also understand that you don't want to share your problem with us right now. However, we wanted to help you. So we all chipped in and bought you a diary." Subaru further explained.
"I bet you haven't ever had a diary before so allow me to explain what you do with it. IN this diary you will write about whatever you want, may it be how your day was or just your feelings. A diary really helps in lessoning a person's stress. Although we don't know why you've been upset, you can write down the reason in this diary and feel a bit better. Oh, and don't worry this diary has a key which only you will have. Thus, nobody can read what you've written without your permission." Erica continued.
"Thank you. Just thank you so much and I'm sorry…sorry for worrying all of you." Misaki whispered to everyone present in the change rooms. Tears were once again welling up in her eyes. Nevertheless, this time they weren't because of Usui but because of all the love she felt vibrating towards her from the others.
"Misaki, we have to leave because we still have some customers left but we'll see you soon…" Erica left saying that.
"Yo, crazy lady I hear after a break up people should eat ice cream. It helps with dealing with the sorrow." Aoi also left saying that, leaving behind a bewildered Misaki.
"Don't mind what he says. He just says whatever he wants. You know him right? Anyways I better go back as well. Feel better soon Misaki san." Satsuki san left saying that, but not before giving Misaki one of the sweetest smiles she had ever seen in her life so far.
"Misaki, we're going to leave to. You should go home and rest as well. We know you don't like worrying others but sometimes it's fine to confide in others what your upset about. Hope our gift helps you. Good night Misaki." Both Subaru and Honoka left together after saying that last bit.
Misaki was left in the change room all alone with her gift. She was in awe at how much everyone cared about. She also realized that by being the way she was now, she was hurting everyone around. In her mind mentally, Misaki said something to Usui. 'I know I suck at acting but just this once I will make you proud with me acting skills. I know I can't act but I have to act so that I don't hurt those around me anymore. My feelings for you will no longer be my weakness but rather my strength now. Usui, I love you and I'll wait for you forever and this diary will help me.'
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