Zexion's Memorandum

Segment IV: Emotions of Order

I've written this Segment after a serious Q&A session with myself. So, let's start with what I've been asking and what solutions I've come to.

What makes us happy? Friends, family, laughing, accomplishing things.

Which is the most powerful? Laughter, because of a direct chemical reaction.

Why do we laugh? To relieve stress.

Why do we stress? Because we're compelled to be on top of things.

Why do we need to be on top of things? Because things need to be kept in order.

And why is that? Because without order, we would descend into chaos.

What's so bad about chaos? It leads to quicker deaths.

If you fire a bullet in a room full of people, it would probably take out a line of people. After all, firing a bullet is a structured process: the bullet follows a trail and takes down anything it can before it stops. It does not do this willingly, but is simply made to do so. That is its purpose. However, chaos corrupts the purpose when we put the gun, the bullet and the people in a metal room and fire off our fast-killing weapon. Now the bullet will ricochet until its velocity slows down, or it gets caught within one of the people. How many living beings will it take out?

For another example of chaos affecting lives, think of a matador facing a bull. If the bull is trained to not hurt anyone, or in other words, built to not hurt anyone, the matador would win. Put a regular bull in there, and it will put up a fight, disorder fueling its aggression.

You may be wondering where I'm going with all of this. It's fairly simple: our modern society is in the same exact situation. Humans (and complex Nobodies, such as I) are animal-instinctive. Naturally, we want to kill and eat other beings, and we do. Naturally, we want to reproduce a lot, and we do. However, we're more complex emotion-wise than the noble lion or the prowling panther. We, more than anything else, do not want to die. We do not want to fight to the death for our mates. Instinctively, we see death as a serious matter, when it occurs in nature everyday. It is with these emotions that come the order of things. Chaos leads to death; if we do not like death as a species, we will try and do anything to temporarily defend ourselves from death. The only solution, the only flipside to chaos is order. With order comes civilization, with civilization comes society, and soon we have so many distractions from death so that it's no longer a serious topic anymore…unless it happens to us or loved ones. We, as a species, have built ourselves into order, much like a gunsmith builds a pistol that fires off a straight bullet, and a cattle rancher that raises a polite bull.

This thought may seem rather morbid, but chew on this. On an actual day in the future, real as text you're reading is real, you and I are going to die. The day exists and it is coming at each of us non-stop. On a real day, a day with a date and a sequence of events, you will cease to exist. You will be drenched in the inconceivable on that day, because you cannot conceive death. Either you die and you're forever within eternal nothingness, which you cannot imagine because of your existence, or you will go to an afterlife, in which case you cannot conceive that either, because this life is the only life you know. On an actual day in the future you will be a pioneer of death, and you will never come back to tell us your findings. As will I. As will we all.

Why don't people think about this? Because it leads to panic. Panic leads to chaos. Chaos leads to quicker deaths. And, deep down, we loathe death, can't stand it in the slightest.