Ok so here is chapter 4. I am so sorry it took so long for me to update this story. Life got really bad all at once and I had to abandon this story for a little bit. I'm back and I'm hoping I can update on a regular basis. I have also started another story post 5x22 about Damon and Bonnie returning from the other dimension. It'll go up soon but I want to get a little further into it before I post it. Thank you to everyone for being patient with me and I hope you like this new chapter. So sorry again!

Chapter 4

I felt him tense up as if he was holding his breath. At first he said nothing…just continued to stare at me. I had almost given up on receiving an answer when he finally spoke.

"Why do you think I did it?"

"Damon no one else will know about this. Just tell me the truth…please."

He waited a few seconds and then said, "The idea of you not being in this world really bothered me…so I fixed it."

"Why?"

"Because Elena needed you." I nodded my head and was about to accept the obvious answer when I heard him whisper, "Because I needed you."

"You needed me?"

"Yes."

I nodded my head enthusiastically. "Ok."

"That's all you're going to say?"

"What am I supposed to say?"

"Aren't you wondering why?"

"Yes but I know you aren't really ready to tell me….."

He went silent but I could still feel his eyes on me. Then in a low voice he said, "Do you still love Jeremy?"

"Do you still love Elena?"

"I don't think that really matters…we aren't together anymore. Now…do you still love Baby Gilbert?"

"He's all I've ever known. He was my first love and he was there for me through my months of being a ghost. And he's there for me now….."

"So…no."

"I didn't say that."

"You basically did."

I exhaled slowly before I admitted the truth. For some reason the veil of darkness convinced me that my secrets would remain safe and trapped in this room. "No…I don't still love him but the idea of having no one love me terrifies me. I don't have anyone left that loves me, Damon. He's all I've got so I've decided to live in feigned bliss."

"You have me…"

We both went still. It was a big thing to admit and neither of us wanted to examine what it meant. Both of us simultaneously turned on our sides, our backs touching, and decided to let sleep save us from a conversation that had been begging to be had for years.

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I woke to my phone vibrating on the nightstand beside me. It was clearly morning and it was clear that I was the only person in the room. I finally reached over and grabbed my phone. I looked at the display and was met with Caroline's name.

"Hello"

"Finally you answer the phone! Where have you been?"

"What do you mean where have I been?"

"Elena and I came by yesterday to cheer you up and you weren't there but your car still was. Today…same thing! So, where are you?"

"I'm, um…well I'm…" I knew avoiding the truth was a waste of time. Somehow everyone would eventually find out so I grew a pair and told her what was going on. "I'm out of town with Damon."

The other end was silent. "Hello? Care, are you still there?"

"Yeah…I'm just not understanding what you just said to me. Why are you with Satan's spawn?"

"I'm having some troubles with the whole anchor thing and he's taking me to someone that can fix it."

"Why him? Why not Stefan?"

"I didn't ask Stefan. I asked Damon."

As if on cue Damon entered the hotel room carrying coffee and donuts for me assumed. I gave him a tense smile letting him know that the conversation I was in was less than desired. He mouthed at me Who? and I rolled my eyes before mouthing back Caroline. I expected him to leave then but instead he set the donuts in front of me, the coffee on the nightstand, and pulled up a chair to the bed to enjoy the rest of the show.

"You asked him?!" She shrilled in my ear.

"Yes Care I asked him."

"Why?" I could tell she was impatient and getting madder at me by the minute.

I wracked my brain for an answer but finally settled for the truth. "I knew that he would fix it."

I waited for a reprimand but instead I got, "Elena's gonna be pissed, you know that Bonnie."

"I do but I've been suffering and I refuse to do it any longer. She'll just have to understand."

"Suffering? What do you mean?"

I made eye contact with Damon whose face remained expressionless. "Look Care I have to go. I'll talk to you later." Before she could say anything I hung up.

Damon continued to study me. I decided to address the elephant in the room. "I'm sorry Elena's going to find out about this. She'll see it as a betrayal and I don't know how that will affect her taking you back. I can call Care back and ask her not to say anything."

I expected a lot of different reactions but mostly him confessing that he needed Elena to not be mad at him about this and for me to please convince Care to keep quiet but instead all he said was, "I don't care if Vampire Barbie tells her. Get up and get dressed, we have big plans today!" With that he walked out to give me some privacy. He wasn't upset…he seemed to be in an almost pleasant mood. It made me uncomfortable and weary but I did as he said and made my way downstairs to meet him at the car.

I got in the car, put on my seatbelt, and waited for him to pull off but he continued to sit there in his black jeans, black boots, black v-neck and aviators staring out of the windshield at nothing.

"Damon? Are we leaving sometime soon?"

He continued to look out at the highway like it held all the answers of the world then after a few seconds, like he had just realized I said something, he slowly turned towards me. He removed his glasses and made eye contact with me.

"Bonnie…I need you to trust that I have your best interests at heart."

"Ok…"

"I mean it. I need you to believe me that everything that happens is for you and that you can trust me completely."

"What's going on Damon?"

"You just might not like what you have to do to fix your anchor problem….."

"What do I have to do, Damon?" I could hear the panic in my voice but I couldn't calm down.

"You'll find out when we get there." He slid his glasses back on and put the car in gear before adding, "Just please wait till we get there."

I didn't fight though every instinct was telling me to. For some reason I knew it was for the best and that I could trust him. I let out a huff and settled back in my seat for the long drive ahead.

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We had been driving for at least forty five minutes when I realized that I knew nothing about Damon. I was more than a little curious of who he was sans Elena.

"Damon?"

He turned his head quickly like I had startled him. Any other person would have been uncomfortable but I didn't even flinch. He took off his sunglasses and slid them onto his shirt.

"Yeah?"

"Who did you want to be…you know before you met Katherine?"

He looked stunned. It was obvious that he never expected that type of question from me.

"Why are you asking me this?"

"I'm just curious…."

"Hmmm. Well um I wanted to be anyone but my father."

"I'm being serious, Damon."

"I know you are. And I meant what I said." He shrugged like it was no big deal but I could tell that this subject was important and that I had to watch my reaction or he would never let me in again. I kept quiet and waited him out. "Look, Stef, was the favorite. I was, for a lack of a better word, a disappointment. I didn't want to be some businessman trying to lead the wealthy of the world into more wealth. I just wanted to be worthy…" He went quiet and still like he couldn't believe he had admitted that to me.

"I understand that," I said under my breath.

"You do?"

"Of course. All of my friends had family and boyfriends and I had no one. And I guess all I ever wanted really was to be worthy of someone."

"Yeah." He nodded his head slowly. "Bon?"

"Yeah?"

"Do you think you ever will be…worthy?"

"I sincerely hope so.

He nodded his head and stared out at the approaching road. He was obviously in deep thought and I didn't want to disturb him. Before I knew it we were turning down a long drive way lined in magnolia trees. We pulled up to an old but beautiful white Victorian house. After putting the car in gear and shutting it off he turned to me.

"So I'm guessing you're wondering where we are?"

"Yeah…" I turned and looked around for any sign of life but saw none.

"This house belongs to a very old witch named Eleanor. She's older than me…probably around Katherine's age. She's extremely powerful and willing to help you."

"Why?"

"According to her, Bennett magic belongs in the world and your body can carry it."

"Um…ok."

"So just be open to what she has to say and don't be shocked when you see her."

With that he jumped out of the car. I sat there contemplating what would shock me about her appearance, except for her obviously being very old, but he already had my door open, motioning for me to step out. As we approached the front door the magic coming from the house became almost suffocating. Damon locked eyes with me to reassure me that everything would be fine before he lifted his hand and gently knocked on the door. I lifted an eyebrow and reasoned that this witch must be really powerful if Damon was watching how he was acting. The door opened to reveal a petite girl with medium colored brown skin, straight black hair down her back and with eyes so dark and big they resembled shark eyes. She was gorgeous but also disconcerting in a way. She looked no older than 22 and completely innocent in a white cotton knee length dress with a dark blue belt and no shoes. A sweet smile graced her lips.

"Hello. Can I help you?"

Damon tilted his head to the side and studied the young woman. "Hello Eleanor."

The smile dropped from her face and she lifted an expressive eyebrow. "Damon Salvatore. It's about time you showed up. Please come in."

She moved back to let us in. I tried to contain my expression but my face showed the shock that I felt. Eleanor just chuckled, closed the front door, and ushered us into the kitchen. We took our seats at the island and Eleanor sat two cups of lemonade in front of us. She smiled at me before extending her arm to me.

"Hello Bonnie. It's nice to meet you."

I immediately took her hand and felt a huge jolt of power work its way up my arm. I looked at her in shock and blurted out what I had been thinking. I couldn't contain my curiosity anymore.

"How old are you?"

Eleanor threw her head back and laughed. "I like you Bonnie. I am in fact about 480 give or take a year."

"How do you look so young?"

"Reincarnation. It's a long story and not the reason you're here. Correct?"

Damon responded before I could ask any more questions. "Correct."

"Cool. So how about we go in the living room and get started."

She proceeded to exit the kitchen, expecting us to follow. She already had the floor set up with candles and a weird symbol on the floor. "Both of you sit down and join hands."

"I don't understand how this is going to help me…"

"Well I'm actually performing two spells. I'm going to return your powers. You deserve to have them. I have seen the greatness you can do with those powers. Though I do not appreciate what you have done with them in the past, I am confident that now you will only do what is best with them. I'm also going to link you to death. If you are constantly linked to death then the pain of supernatural deaths will not affect you. Your pain will be no more." By that point she had finished pouring a pink powder around Damon and me and had lit the candles surrounding us.

"I'm sorry. I don't mean to be too noisy but how are you going to do this."

She chuckled at me like a child who asked questions every five minutes. "It's ok to be noisy. I am about to perform spells on you." She stood as closely to the circles as she could get and lifted her arms making the flames rise higher. "I'm going to call out to your magic. It lingers and all it truly wants to do is return to your body. Magic is attached to the soul so it does not matter that your body died. It is out in the universe…all it needs is to be called. It is an easy spell and should take no time at all. The second spell is a little more involved. You and Damon will have to share blood. I will form a bond that will last as long as you both exist. You will then literally be bonded to death. Do you understand?"

My mouth had fallen open and I was sure I had stopped breathing. I looked at Damon and he looked slightly ashamed that he had kept it from me. "This is how you are going to help me, Damon?" I was pissed and it showed.

"This is the only way, Bonnie. I searched for two weeks for anything else and this is all I could find. You have to trust me."

"Damon we have always hated each other. We don't have good history…I can't be tied to you for eternity."

"I don't hate you. I have saved you and gone to the ends of the earth for you and now I just want to be there for you and help you again. You can trust me…I promise."

I dropped my eyes from his face and thought through everything. Damon was my best option and he had never let me down. I slowly nodded my head. I looked up to Eleanor. "Ok. I'm ready."

"Good. Join hands and hold on." Her smile lifted on side in a cocky smile and she began to chant and I began to feel the power sweep through my body before the world around me went black.