Before I knew it, Friday had arrived. The two days past were no different for me. I added a little more to the talley marks growing on my arms, but tried so very hard to do as little damage as possible. It felt so good, but I knew it wasn't something I should do.
After getting through the whole day of classes, I met up with Hide briefly for him to tell me he was going to be at my place at 6 and for me to dress casually. When I asked him what we were doing, all he did was wink at me and said "It's a surprise!"
I went back to my apartment alone and searched through all my stuff for something wear. I decided to just go with my regular button down with a sweater over it and then dress pants.
Soon 6 o'clock rolled around and I heard a knock at the door signaling Hide was here. I opened the door greeting Hide. He seemed to have just worn his regular clothing as well, but for some reason tonight he look even more amazing. "Ready to go Kaneki?" Hide said gesturing out the door. I nodded in response. "Where are going?" I asked. "Nothing crazy," Hide said with a smirk, "We will be taking the train though." We walked along to the train station and waited for our train to arrive. I looked at where the train was heading and didn't recognize where we were stopping. We were going outside of Tokyo. We went onto the train and the whole ride there I talked with Hide. It felt so nice, getting out and doing something with him. But, as we talked all I could think about was how everything would go back to the dark depressing feeling when we weren't together.
Soon enough, we arrived at our stop and Hide grabbed my wrist and ran with me off the train. "H-hide! Slow down!" I had yelled to him. He stopped suddenly and turned to look at me, "I'm sorry. I'm just so excited to be going out with you." He smiled at me and I felt my face heat up. He is too ridiculous. Getting all excited over me. We ended up in front of a little family-like restaurant. It was a very nice place and the food was really good. After eating, I realized why Hide took us to this specific town. They had a small park with a beautiful path to walk around on and at night they had lights illuminating the path. We started walking and as we walked Hide slipped his hand into mine. As my response, I interlocked my fingers with his as we went down the path. "Thank you, Kaneki" Hide then stated breaking the comfortable silence. I looked at him with a confused expression, "Why thank you?" I asked, "I should be thanking you for this evening." "I know but, thank you. For going out with me." Hide said while turning to face right at me. he reached and held my other hand. "I know I say it a lot but I really want you to know that I love you." I could feel myself blush and averted my gaze away from Hide. Hide gave a small laugh. He took his hand and tilted my head back to face him. "It's true, Kaneki. I'm so in love with you." With that, Hide leaned over and kissed me deeply. It felt so nice and light yet with so much meaning. He moved his hands to wrap around my waist as I moved mine around the back of his neck. We stood there for what felt like forever and that time stopped to let us have this one moment. We only broke apart for the necessity of breathing. "I love you very much Hide" I said suddenly. I looked down at my shoes sheepishly. "W-would you want to stay over at my place tonight, Hide?" I asked suddenly. I heard Hide give out a small laugh again as he tilted my head up to see his. "I would love to, Kaneki."
Next thing I knew, we were back to my apartment and only stepped into it enough to let the door shut. Hide and I had already started to feverishly make out, with Hide pushing me against the wall. It felt so different from before on the path but it felt so nice. It made me forget everything I usually felt stepping into my home alone. Now I wasn't alone.
Hide had his hands up and down my back as I tangled my hands in his hair. Hide broke our kiss and nuzzled into my neck grazing his teeth over the soft skin that was there. "G-go to the bedroom." I panted still catching my breath. We got over to my bed which I realized I never made this morning. "Sorry," I said while I got up straddling Hide, "My rooms a little messy." Hide had been focused on the small patch of skin from my collar. "That's so unlike you." Hide said muffled with his breath brushing against my collar bone. He kept grazing his teeth against the one spot and giving little bites. After he was done with that little spot he tilted me over to have hisself over me while I was against the mattress. "Kaneki, can I?" He said breathlessly caressing the side of my face. I nodded in response as I unzipped his jacket followed by him throwing off the shirt under it. I stared up at Hide's body. It was so perfect and flawless. I envied him for that. In that moment I came to a sudden realization as Hide had moved to remove my sweater and started to unbutton my shirt under it. I had to hold onto his wrist to keep him from continuing. "Is everything alright Kaneki?" He asked with concern. "Just leave this shirt on" I said trying to not break the mood. I couldn't have Hide see my arms if he removed the shirt. Surely what he would see would make him leave. I didn't want to ruin this moment. I could've just hoped to hide the cuts from him, but they were so new and red it would've been hard to miss. He nodded in response and asked once if I was sure I was okay. I nodded and said yes as I pulled him down to kiss me again to reassure him that it was my fault, not anything he did.
We continued on and did it for most of the night. Hide was so gentle and easy, it felt amazing. We fell asleep soon after with Hide holding me close. I went to sleep for the first night in a while not feeling sad and alone.
