Hurts and Insecureties

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AN: Here is the new chapter, I hope you like it and noone is OOC or at least to much OOC. Again, thanks for the reviews, alerts and addings to their favourite story, I really appreciate it. I try to make the next chapter a bit longer, for those who mentioned that in their reviews.

Yes, this really was going to be an interesting time.

They were walking through the Streets of Las Vegas after they had eaten in this quiet little restaurant her blond, bossy friend had told her about.
He had his arm around her shoulder, it almost was an habit already.
Trying to think about something else than her body next to his, he was startled as she suddenly looked up to him with a serious look in her eyes.

"Can I ask you something?"

"Sure."

"Why did you agree to marry me?"

Jeez, what a question. How should he answer that one? He decided to take the joking way out.

"Well, obviously, I was drunk."
Oops, suddenly that didn't sound that good anymore.

Yep, he could see the hurt in her eyes and felt her stiffen.

Just as he was about to start some damage containment she said:
"OK" in the most indifferent tone.

He was surprised that she could sound indifferent at all.
Normally she always had an opinion or feeling for everything.
Great, now he had to apologize. He didn't do that often, simply because he seldom felt the need to. She was another topic, of course.

"Who could say no to those eyes?"
It was true, but she didn't need to know that and although he could something like a small smile lighting up her face for a second, he knew he needed to tell her more to repair this damage.

"It felt like the right thing to do, I can't explain it any better, but it did."

He could see her nod and felt her lean into his embrace again. He was forgiven, but somehow he wanted to give her something more.

"Also you reminded me of someone."

Now she was smiling.

"Ooh, who?"

It seemed as if she was seconds from jumping up and down excitedly.

"That person I once saw, who had broken out the insane asylum."

This time she just swatted his arm and continued telling him stories about her home and her life like she had done all day. He had told her bits about his life too, but even though she knew more than most people, she still didn't knew half of it. Not that he wanted to talk about it.


She was welcomed by her mother and a tight hug, as she arrived at the entrance hall of the airport.

"Ooh, my baby is back, in one piece. You're still in one piece right? So, now let Mommy see the ring. Wow, that's a nice one. So when am I going to see that new husband of yours? I need to give him the "hurt my baby and die" speech I prepared for this moment. You look kind of pale. You need coffee. Let's drive home so we can go to Luke and you can talk. I missed you honey."

"I missed you too, Mom. And coffee sounds great. How is everyone in Stars Hollow?"

Being back to Stars Hollow was great. She loved her hometown and all the crazy people in it.
Though she had to admit that somehow she also missed Las Vegas or more, the company she had had there. Now that Jess wasn't there anymore she came back to thinking.
The reason she had been there was an vacation sponsored by the Gilmores to forget about Logan and their nasty break up.
And though she wouldn't want to miss a moment spent with Jess, now she began to doubt her decision.
She was also sorry for not spending the time with Lane and Paris, who had flown out there that weekend for her.
The Gilmores had offered them the whole vacation also, but Lane couldn't leave the band, Zach and the twins behind for that long and Paris didn't trust Doyle alone.
They both told her to sort things out with Jess and if you could believe what Lane told her they managed to have some fun on their own.

"Rory, doll. Welcome back! Is it true, that you got married? Oh, look at the ring, Patty. It's true. Well, if what Lane told us is only half of the truth, I for sure can't blame ya doll. Come on Patty, we've got to spread the good news before east-side Tilly hears about this."

Before she could digest half of Babette's speech, Taylor decided to tell her about his disappointment in her because the town couldn't participate in her wedding and started pestering her about an possible reenactment or a second ceremony in the town.
She was never so happy about Luke's dislike of Taylor and felt very grateful as he threw him and the other gossiping town inhabitants out of his diner.

It was in the evening as she started her list about things she would need in Philadelphia, that she thought about her doubts again.

"Mom, do you think I am doing the right thing?"

"Oh, honey. I can't tell you what's right, but if you don't want to do this or it feels wrong to you, you should tell him that. I'm sure your grandparents know some great lawyers."

"No Mom, that's not it. I just have the feeling I'm forgetting about Logan. Like I'm acting as if he didn't have any influence on my life."

"Well, everyone has their own speed, but what would you say if we would wallow tonight with lot's of chocolate of course?"

"That sounds great Mom. Can you get the movies and everything, while I finish the list?"

"OK honey, that way I can say good-night to Luke."

"Ugh, Mom! What movies do you have in mind?"

"Willy Wonka of course and the rest you will see, my child."

"OK, have fun with Luke!"
And with that she was back to her list, this time more excited of going there.

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