Sorry for the wait, I was trying to get IPBNE a little further so I left this one alone for a few days. Hope you guys enjoy and please don't kill me! Thank you so much for the feedback, it still does and will always make my day, to see what you think, feel...

Chapter Four

"Jason?" Elizabeth whispered.

"I…you…" Taking a deep breath, Jason tried again. "I know I said that it was our time but even though I was trying to keep your spirits up, along with my own, I guess I always thought that…Elizabeth did this happen because of me, because of my job, who I am?"

Finding it hard to voice her thoughts, Elizabeth crumpled into his arms, holding on for dear life. Her emotions were taking a huge toll, it felt like her entire world had shifted on its axis and she didn't know what to think or how to answer but one thing she knew, she couldn't let him take on this burden, to blame himself, when there was really no blame. "Rapists have families; murders have children…bad things happen to good people. There is no logic, there is no reason…" She tried to say but her throat clogged with too many emotions.

As they sat on the hard ground, trying to come to terms with everything, they found the what ifs and should haves and could haves were practically drowning them. Lost in their own thoughts and recriminations, they didn't notice that someone had approached until they heard her voice.

"You can question every move you made, every choice you made but in the end, you will never really have an answer. Things happen…what you are feeling in this moment, is probably the worst pain you will ever feel. Burying your children, whether they are young or old, will never be something you can accept. Love is infinite, you don't love someone for a moment, when it's true and honest, it lasts forever. You try to do the best you can and…When your father and I lost our child, it almost tore us a part. We were so hell bent on blaming each other that we couldn't see what was right in front of us. We found our way back to each other but it took so very long, there were affairs on both sides…I think it was when you showed up Jason that we finally started to see, see what we lost, see what we could have…" Monica said as she gently rubbed her son's shoulder.

"This was supposed to be a happy day mom…not what if's…I don't know how to get past this…"

Knowing that nothing she said in this moment would change their minds or lessen their burden, Monica simply wrapped them both in her arms. She whispered her love to them, praying that somehow, some way, they would be stronger than her and Alan, that they wouldn't let the losses and anger tear them apart.

Love was a powerful thing but when you loved as completely as these two did, it had its drawbacks. You can't love with all of your heart and not feel the acute ache of pain when what you plan for so long, ceases to be. Love was a double edged sword, it could bring you to the highest of peaks but also take you lower than you could ever imagine. She often wondered if her and Alan had turned to each other, if things wouldn't have been so bad when Jason had his accident…when they lost their son…

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*Flashback*

"Honey, I love you but you are way too close to my lady bits at this moment…" Trying for levity but pretty much failing as another contraction hit and the urge to push, Elizabeth finally just snapped, "Catcher's mitt ready…"

Not understanding what she was say; Jason popped his head up a little further, trying to catch her eye. "Huh?"

Before she had the chance to explain, she heard Jason shout, "Holy shit, that's a head…"

Rolling her eyes, wondering why her at that moment, Elizabeth simply took another deep breath and pushed. Thankfully, it seemed, her husband had finally clued in and quickly but gently began helping their child into the world.

"My God! It's a girl…she's beautiful…and loud." Jason said in awe.

Hearing a commotion on the stairs, Jason turned and almost fainted, so grateful to see 'the professionals'.

"Mr. Morgan can you get up by your wife and I'll take over from here." Said Kelly Lee.

Feeling better about the situation, Jason practically tackled his panting wife. "Sorry baby but I think in this instance, the professional are much better equipped, I thought she was going to slide right out of my hands…"

It the throes of labor, she still managed to laugh, trust her husband to lighten the moment.

Kelly quickly dealt with the umbilical cord before passing the baby to one of the paramedics. "Okay Liz, it looks like you are ready to go again, we've got a head crowning. This is probably going to be fast…" She no sooner said that than another little girl slipped into her hands. "Baby girl two…"

"We're so fucked…" Jason said with his eyes so wide…

"Jason!" Elizabeth screamed at him. Even though, she herself was a little afraid of raising girls, she was a girl…

"As soon as you and the…" Jason began but stopped as Elizabeth squeezed his hand with brutal force as once again, as Liz began to push.

"Another girl…" Kelly said as she quickly untethered the baby and passed her back to the last paramedic.

Elizabeth collapsed back against Jason, completely exhausted. "All girls Jason…we are so fucked!"

Overcome with too many emotions, Jason simply laughed. Long and loud, his laughter mixed with his girls crying. "I'll start researching dog breeds, we are going to need an army…we need 10-15 guards…"

Wondering if her patient and spouse were suffering from shock, Kelly said, "Let's get you all to the hospital and make sure everything is good." The birth was so quick that after cleaning up the after birth, Kelly stitched Elizabeth up. "There was some tearing but not as much as one would expect, you did wonderfully Liz."

*End Flashback*

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Jason gently traced the headstone, making a silent vow, "You were loved, so loved. Until it is our time, you will be forever in our hearts and mind."

Elizabeth took Jason's hand, her tears hadn't stopped but she figured she now might be able to get out what she wanted to say. Jason was her strength, even if she had forgotten than for a little bit. Together they were strong. Placing a watery kiss on his lips, she turned to the graves. "We didn't get to meet you but I know when our time comes, you'll be waiting for us. I'll love you forever and ever…I want you to know…your sisters are amazing. They will never replace what we lost; they are just helping make our family more complete. Eva Grace, Kya Haven and Mya Heaven…I promise we will love them, my little lost darlings…"

It was the first time Monica had heard their names, "Jason, Elizabeth, those are beautiful names. With them being identical, how do you think to tell them apart?"

"I don't know if I can explain this properly but as soon as they were brought to us in the hospital, after the tests, we just knew…I look at them and I see them, not the things that make them the same but the things that make them different. Although, as my wonderful wife has pointed out, that is probably parental instincts and friends and family probably won't have that, so we are taking the girls to get their ears pierced. Eva is getting ekanite, Kya is getting kunzite and Mya is getting morganite."

"Oh Jason, that is just…you are such a good man." Monica said with a watery smile.

Jason ducked his head, a rosy tint staining his cheeks.

The three said their goodbyes, feeling a little lighter, a little more ready to move on. The weight of their loss would always be with them but it was time to heal. Life was for the living and as of three days ago, they had a lot to live for.

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?The End? (What do you think?)