Chapter 4 is here y'all! Thank you for the reviews. This chapter is partly Maddison and Addek. You all will hear my thoughts about this chapter after you've read it. So enjoy! And for those who asked for some fluff. Enjoy more! I own nothing.
When Addison woke up a few hours later, Mark was still holding her tight. She got up, went to the bathroom and looked into the mirror. She had puffy red eyes, she was still a little wet on her cheeks from the crying. She felt like taking a hot warm bath. She took off all of her clothes and jumped in the bath tub. She just wanted to be alone and think about what she should do. Derek obviously had changed his mind about their relationship they had together. But why the hell did he tell her to leave when he actually wanted to be with her? Addison was interrupted by Mark who sneaked in.
-Can I join you?" Mark said with a grin, while he started to take off all of his clothes.
-Mark… I just want to be alone right now" Addison said in a small voice.
-Oh c'mon it'll be fun" he said while he jumped in to the tub.
It was a big bath tub. Addison had said to Naomi that she wanted a house with a huge bath tub in it. That was one of the wishes Addison had about her new house. Her bathroom was all white almost. Except the towels that were a light pink color. It was a big bathroom. She had a bathroom downstairs too but this one was bigger. The bathroom had a shower too but she preferred the tub more. Addison had her both legs to her right and Mark had his on his right too. Mark was on the other side of the tub, and he looked at here with a small smile.
-So what are your plans for today?" he asked.
-Well, work of course, you?" she asked.
-I was thinking maybe that we could have dinner tonight, here or out. If you want to?"
Was he serious? He really did want a relationship with me. Does this mean I can choose now, Between Mark and Derek? God… I did not sign up for this. How can I choose? Derek is a jerk and Mark a man whore. Maybe I don't need them. At all. I'll find someone else. Someone who doesn't screw me over whenever they want to. But I really do like both of them… and I miss Derek, a lot. But he'll probably go back to Meredith, and I can't get hurt again. She thought.
-Yeah, I'd like that." She said with a small smile.
'What have I done? I can't go out with him so soon.'
-Really? Good, I'll make reservations at 8. When will you be finished at work? I can pick you up."
-You can pick me up 7.30 at my house. I'm done at work around seven so." Addison said.
-Will do." Mark said with a smile.
Mark got closer to her, he sat next to her. Addison felt a little uncomfortable. She really didn't want to have sex right now. Mark took his arm around her and just held her close to him. He had one arm around her shoulder and one rested on her stomach. She felt safe. She snuggled closer to him and rested her head on his chest. They stayed in that position for a while, and then they got up. Addison stood in front of the mirror with a towel around her. She was getting her make up done. When she was done in there she walked to her closet. Put on matching underwear's, black ones. Mark sat on the bed and watched her. She hadn't noticed him. And she tried to pick an outfit out while she was standing there in her closet only in her underwear's.
-Take the blue dress." Mark said.
Addison jumped a little, she was not aware of that he was watching her.
-God Mark, you scared me." She said.
Mark just smiled at her, and started walking to her. He stood in front of her and looked down at her, he looked in her eyes. She was looking up at him. They were only inches apart. He closed the gap between them and kissed her, softly. It was a gentle soft kiss. No tongue, just a simple kiss.
-You should wear the blue dress Addison" he said while looking at her.
Addison couldn't get a word out. She just kept her eyes on him. She turned around and took the dress out of the wardrobe. When she was done and ready to go she went down and saw Mark sitting at the kitchen table with a cup of coffee in his hand.
-I'm going now, are you staying or…?" Addison said.
-I'm going too." He said.
He grabbed his stuff and started walking to his car. The same thing Addison did. He grabbed her arm in a rational move and pulled her to him. He kissed her on the lips.
-Have a great day at work, and I'll see you tonight" he said with a soft smile.
-Ehm… yeah. I'll see you tonight." She said.
They both drove away. When Addison arrived to the practice she quickly went straight to Naomi's office. Naomi was sitting at her desk, looking at files.
-Naomi, I need your help. You can't believe what've just happened!" Addison said with a high voice.
-Okay, first of all, good morning to you too. And second, you need to calm down." Naomi said.
-Naomi, this is serious. I can't calm down! Not now anyway." Addison snapped at her.
-Okay, sit. Talk to me." Naomi demanded.
-I slept with Mark. "
-You did what?" Naomi yelled.
-I'm so not done yet…" Addison confessed.
-Oh god, you didn't use protection. Addie, are you pregnant?
-Naomi! No! Derek showed up. After we slept together, and he wants me back." Addison lowered her voice.
-Wait, Derek wants you back? Like in a relationship?"
-Yes, that's what he said. "
-But what do you want? I mean do you have feelings for Mark? Since you slept with him.¨" Naomi said.
-I don't know, I mean, Derek's my ex-husband, and he was a jerk to me in Seattle, but he's Derek. But I still can't forgive him for telling me to leave Seattle like that, and for choosing Meredith over me." Addison said a little hurt. "and Mark… I don't know…" she said.
-Yeah… I understand that. But you guys are Addison and Derek. You belong together. Right?"
Addison knew she still had feelings for Derek. She did. But she couldn't get hurt again. Not from him anyway, and she didn't actually know what she really felt about Mark, and being in a relationship with him. Addison just stared at Naomi, she quickly got up and went to her office without saying a word. Addison didn't have any surgery's today, so she just sat in her office all day doing some paper work. At around 3pm she heard a knock on her office door. It was Derek.
-Hey" he said almost a whisper. "can I come in?
-No" Addison said harsh.
-Addie c'mon, would you at least hear me out?" he begged.
-I don't want to hear it Derek, so just save it." She said angry.
Derek walked to her desk, she was sitting in her chair and he stood in front of her.
-I beg you Addison, please let me explain."
Addison stood up and opened her office door
-Get out" she said.
Derek went to the couch and sat down.
-What are you doing?" she said.
-Sit." He said demanding.
-No. I don't want to talk to you. So just get your butt out of here." She said angry.
-Derek stood up and gripped her hand and walked to the couch again. He sat both of them down in the couch and he started talking.
-I was afraid, in Seattle. I'm with Meredith now, when I really want you Addison. I still love you, I will always love you. But I'm also in love with you. You're the one I want to be with, no one else, and it just took me so damn long to realize that and I'm sorry. I never wanted to hurt you. And if you'll let me I will prove it to you, I can spend my entire life making it up to you." Derek said softly.
-Uh… I don't know what to say Derek…" she said low. I have feelings for you too, I do, I just can't get hurt again. Because what you did to me in Seattle…"
-I know, I know. And I'm truly sorry about that. I am. Please forgive me?" he said.
-Derek… I…"
She got interrupted of his lips crashing on hers. He took his hand around her waist and pushed her closer to him. She didn't respond so he pulled her even closer and kept the kiss slow and soft so she knew the kiss was about his love for her. After a while she started to respond and she took his hands around his neck and started playing with his hair. Derek started licking on her bottom lip, begging for entrance. She parted her lips and their tongues met. Her hands went lower, to his chest. And his started to go up higher to her hair. He felt her red locks in his hands. He pulled her down so she was laying on the couch now, he was on top of her but tried not to lay his weight on her since she's tiny and he was not. They didn't break the kiss. Addison had his hands around his neck now, tried to push him even closer to her, she wanted to feel his body pressed against hers. Derek's right hands were all over. He started slow. He had his hands on her thighs, they were soft. Her dress were by now up so high so she flashed her bare legs. He went higher with his hands, over her stomach and then he softly cupped her breast.
-Derek, wait." Addison said and sat up.
-What's wrong? Did I do something I shouldn't have done?" he said confused.
-No, it's just. I have to tell you something." She said serious.
-Okay… spill." Derek said.
-Well… you obviously know that I slept with Mark."
Derek felt the jealousy building, and so the anger inside of him. Addison continued.
-And he has feelings for me. He wants a relationship with me." Addison said.
-So? What does that mean? What's your point?" Derek said.
-My point is that I sort of have too…" she said in a whisper.
-You have what?" Derek said raising his voice to her.
-Don't raise your voice to me! You're the one who told me to leave, remember? So you don't get to be mad at me!" Addison said angry.
-Okay, you're right. Fair enough." Derek said.
It tortured him that she had feelings for Mark. Damn. I should've never let her go. God I'm so stupid.
-Good. Well actually, I'm not so sure if I do have feeling for him. But there is something going on between us. That I know. I just can't trust you Derek… not the way I did before." Addison said with a hurting voice that was killing Derek.
-Okay, understandable. But let me prove to you that I'll never going to hurt you again Addie. I promise. Just let me take you out? For dinner, tonight?" Derek said hopefully. He took her hand in his, and started to play a little with her fingers.
-You can take me out sometime, but I have plans tonight"
-What plans? "Derek said.
-I'm going out with Mark" she said, her voice was small.
Derek felt like his entire world was crashing. Just the thought of Mark and Addison made him feel sick to his stomach. He let go of her hand. And looked down. Addison could see he was hurt by this. So she took his hands again, and kissed them quickly.
-Derek, just because I'm going out with Mark doesn't mean we cant." She said with a smile.
-Yeah… okay." Derek said with hurt in his voice.
Addison took her hands around his neck and kissed him, one soft sweet kiss.
-Tomorrow okay? Pick me up at 8pm." She said with a smile.
Derek just nodded and smiled at her.
-Good, but no kissing! Or touching for that matter!" She said.
-Wait, what? Why not?" Derek said.
-I want to wait, until I'm sure who I want." She said serious.
This felt like some of these stupid tv shows there you choose which you want to spend your life with. It was stupid. Both felt like this, but since Addison wasn't sure, this is how it's going to be.
-Okay, I understand. Well I should get going to my hotel now, uhm… have fun with Mark tonight, or something." He said cold.
-Yeah, thanks" she said.
-Or wait, forget that I ever said that. Don't have fun with him" he said with a grin.
-Haha! Just wait until tomorrow" she said.
Derek who was standing now, looked down at Addison and tried to kiss her. When he was just a few inches from her lips she put two fingers on them and said
-uh uh! No kissing!" she said while she was laughing at him.
-Urgh… fine! " he said and then kissed her forehead quickly. "I'll see you tomorrow" he said with a grin.
-Yes! Don't be late mister" she said to him.
He just had his prince charming look on his face and said.
-I promise babe.
So ideas for chapter 5 perhaps? I'm not gonna lie people but I do like the Maddison in this story. Like one of the readers reviewed "Let Derek suffer" and I'm actually gonna make him suffer a bit. He deserves it for a little while I think. But this is an Addek fic, so it'll be Addison and Derek eventually. Please review and I'll update more. Peace and Love /Addison
