Chapter 4: Chapter 4

Please remember i don't own any rights to sailor moon or to the introduction of the new characters in this new chapter.......

So this is an updated version of this chapter… as of March 28th 2010… I hope that you enjoy all of it and please feel free to leave REVIEWS… YES MANY OF THEM…

OH and to help clear up the dialog… Darien's thoughts are always in BLACK italics

And Serena's are in plain Italics

Chapter four:

The light was piercing my eyes and it was on purpose.... I opened one eye to a blurry figure standing over me.

"Wake up sleepy head!...This is a big day and I have your favorite!"...

mmmm.... I could smell the aroma of the caramel frappachino... funny thing is I never thought I would ever like coffee, Darien always drank it but I thought it was so bittier... till I discovered flavored creamers and thank god it was part of the reason I was able to get up for classes

"Aaron ten more minutes...Please!!!"

"Alright then I guess we can't go to the hospital and visit Darien."

"Okay! I'm up"… I drug myself to the closet before snagging my coffee to pull out clothes for the day

"Wear the white slacks and black camisole with the knitted pearls on it and those heels!"

"Aaron? Are you trying to be my personal image consultant??"

"Well, Rena!" (his pet name for me)..... "Your image is a critical point when people see you again!!"

"Hmmmm" ( I pondered the statement).. "Point well taken" "and why are "WE" going to the hospital"... "Meaning I don't need a babysitter!"

"No! but you will need someone to answer the media questions."

"WHAT!!!!"

"looks like your stunt to the hospital last night has just jumped started our mission"..

He throws the paper at me giving me an evil eye

"Aaron I promise I wasn't seen by anyone other than the scouts, Darien, and Andrew, and Luna, Gosh.. I guess I was seen by a little more people than I expected but no one from the hospital or security.."

"I guess the bright side is you're the new headline, not the attack"

He was starting to walk out of the room... "Meet you 1 hr down stairs in the lobby!"

"Thanks!"

I got in to the shower... Great who said something? I bet it was Raye.. she has to ruin everything, well it looks like it's about to begin, my re entry into the official life of future Queen, this time I'm prepared

I got dressed and Aaron was right, the outfit was professional and perfect for a casual outing. I did my hair in curls and I was ready

Aaron had a limo outside waiting for us and like he said, the media was all over the place, I went straight for the door of the car and Aaron was protecting me, shielding me from the questions, we got into the car, I held his hand, he knew I was nervous.

"It's going to be okay, Rena, just stay focused; they need to see what I see."

We arrived at the hospital to see flocks of media, we did the same rush in routine to get into the Hospital like at the hotel and once we were in we proceed straight to the room.

"I will wait here"

Aaron took a seat outside of the door, next to Andrew, who began to stare at him... Aaron was jotting notes and I could tell he was in his business mode, Andrew opened the door, I walked in..Darien was sitting up and the bandages were all gone, he had a shirt on, his hair was done, and he was overlooking papers.

"Good morning… You look a lot better than last night."

"Good morning Serena!Come take a seat."

I did as he asked and I was staring at him in the eyes. I sat in a chair across from him, crossed my legs, folded my hands and waiting for his words.

I starred at her, I had felt her walk into the room, and she spoke with a tension in her voice. I wanted to talk to her. I wasn't sure what I wanted to say but she looked so amazing, professional and fashionable, which was a change from the Serena I knew. Her hair was done sophisticated but I missed my meatballs. Her eyes were matching mine not deferred, without fear, there was worry but it was what I saw last night in her eyes that struck a chord. It was confidence, something that almost took me by surprise; she was waiting for me to talk.

"Serena, honestly I don't know where I should go from here. There are a lot of issues that need to be discussed. One is where you have been over two years, the other is, which is more important is this attack."

"Darien" ( I paused).... " I can't explain any details of the past two years."... "not like this"... "but as far as the attacks. I want to know, who we are dealing with, When this first happened, Aaron has plugged me in to the fact that this has been going on for a while, then we need to deal with the fact that I'm back and I am holding a press conference in 2 weeks, so we need to delegate over current peace talks and figure out who this nation is that is causing all of this commotion"......

I just kept looking at her, I was shocked, she was talking and I could not let myself take my gaze off of her beauty, her words, she knew what she was talking about. She was carrying herself in a different light; educated, posed, confident....and who was Aaron?"

"Darien?".. "Are you listening to me?"

"Yes! I am…why are we setting up a press conference?"

"Darien…The world needs to know I'm here and to re-establish confidence with the other nations."

"What's my birthday???"

"WHAT? Darien, are you okay? Maybe I should call a nurse?"

"NO! Answer my question....!!"

"It's August 8th "

"My favorite drink?"

"Coffee, black"

"Where did we meet?"

"It's more like what you met, which was my 30% test grade"... "What is this all about?"

"I had to make sure you were "you"... "This is way different than I have ever seen you".. "You walk through those doors after 2 years, you come in here with all your beauty, elegance, sophistication, and confidence".... "I am just drawn back".. "I don't know who this person is I am looking at"... "You are a stranger to me!"

I could feel the tears I was holding back.. I felt like I was being scolded for being me, I changed and he saw it and he was mad..isn't this what he wanted???. What did he want the klutz zoid child with no head knowledge of her own??. I needed to leave.. I stood up and he looked at me, I looked at him in his eyes... before I walked away all I could say is what I knew was in my heart.

"Darien, I know this is all different but it's who I am now and I'm here and in two weeks we need to mend the brokenness of the nations to bring peace again."

I wanted to say the brokenness between us but I felt the tears streaming down it was too late to hide them from him… it was the last thing that I wanted to do… cry in front of him

"I need to go I will come back later."....

I turned around and I walked out the door and Aaron followed after me... he stayed silent and I appreciated it.... I lead him back to the lobby of the hospital, away in private.. so i could think.

she left with tear in her eyes, I knew I had caused them, she looked at me with such sincerity, I knew that whatever reasons she had for leaving had to do with the person she was . I felt horrible, she gave me those eyes that told me she was hurt about my opinion of her.... what was I to do?... where was my Usako??

Knock.....

"Come in!"

"Darien?"... "Are you okay?"

"Not sure".... (I starred at my friend)...."Andrew, what do you notice about Serena?"

"Is that a trick question? because your my best friend and I like my eyes in my sockets."

"Please." "Tell me Andrew."..." I need to feel stupid right now!"

"Okay but you asked for it".... "She looks amazing"..... "I mean all of her, the way she stands, talks, and dresses"... "She looks like a complete package"... "I mean, if she were her, when Serena was 14, there would be no chance you would have got her, cause let's face it I have all the charm!!!" "but you know, I love her like a sister.".." She grew up Darien" "My question to you is…Can you handle that and know that you weren't there when it happened?" "The next question I would be asking is …who is this guy she is walking around with?"

"Thanks Andrew, you always know how to set me in perspective."... "She is still amazing, even more so, but there is something missing."...

oooOOOOoooo

"Aaron I need to do something.".. ( I looked at him anxiously)

"Those eyes are telling me whatever you want is for Darien ,so give…what is it?"

"When we were talking, he told me, I was a stranger.".." when he looks at me he can't see me because of all of this." ( I waved my hand over my head to my feet)

" I get it… You feel like he can't see past all the changes, that his looking for the resemblance, of the way you use to look…The old you??"

"Aaron when you say it like that you make me feel guilty…Apart of me feels the same way but I can face him, only because there is nothing shocking to look at, I can't image having to look at me and see not only a new domineer but a new image".... " I need to get a makeover or make- reverse!!!"

Aaron laughed at me and smiled which meant okay...

I was turned around to the mirror to see myself again and my blond was back, along with my bangs. I took the comb and parted my hair, I twisted my hair in to it's familiar meat balls. I continued till I starred at the familiar, comfortable, person starring back at me...

"There you are-!" I said out loud... I turned to see Aaron starring at me. He was always handsome to me and right now I was blushing because he gave me that, you are more beautiful to me look.

"Okay! So you have your hair back! It looks great Rena….you actually look more comfortable and more confident" ...(I was watching her style her hair, she was looking into her own eyes, she could see herself and she was at home and at peace and i felt it as she gracefully styled her hair.. it was a familiar movement to her... the twist and turns... She looked amazing)

"Thanks Aaron….I want to go back to the hospital and get more details from Darien."

"Sure, but I won't be going this time I need to stay at the hotel and get some things done".. "The President has faxed me some information and I need to work on some leads right now."

"What leads?"

"Don't worry about it but I will keep you up dated, please be careful."

With that we parted ways and i was only my way to the hospital again

Once I entered the hospital ....I walked into the room quietly because the nurse said that he was just given his medicine and was sleeping.

I took a seat on the couch, I just stared at him sleeping, he was peaceful that way, gorgeous to look at, I glanced around the room to a book that caught my attention.... I opened it ...to keep myself entertained while I waited till he woke up.. Being there in his presences was all I needed right now....

I opened my eyes and I thought that I was dreaming because my gazed caught two familiar shapes upon the head of the person in the room with me... I knew I wasn't dreaming because the creature I was starring at was wearing the same clothing as the women that sat across from me this morning... Her hair was blond now and I felt comfort fill my heart and I just continued to gaze at her... she was reading a book... a real book and not a comic, I never even knew she read anything else.... I was quiet not to make a sound because I didn't want to startle her... I just wanted to gaze at her..... But that didn't last long the door opened and in stepped the scouts with Luna

"Hi"…. I sat up straight and nervously waited for some responseI starred at them, not sure of their feelings

"SERENA!"

I was suddenly being hugged by 3 of the four scouts the other kept walking and went to Darien's side

"We have missed you Serena!"... " We are sorry about yesterday but we didn't know how to react and we have much catching up to do."

I continued to chat with the scouts who seemed to welcome me back although they let me know that this was still a new relationship that needed to be rebuilt and I was okay with that

"So Serena how long have you been here?"

I looked over to Raye ,who had been talking to Darien in whispers, to answer her question

"Well if you mean in Town, Today is my second day here but if you mean at the hospital I've been here only a few hours" I looked at my watch…"wow…its already 9"

"What are you late for something???"

I went to stand to walk over to Darien but I tripped over a ball of fur... I heard a great meow...I scrambled to my feet and I heard a loud crash.. it was the planter that sat on the table

"Oh my God…I'm so sorry Luna!I had no clue you were there, sorry!"

"Let us help you Serena."

"No, I have it… I'll go get something to clean this mess up"

I was about to exit, when I was gripped, it was Lita offering to get the broom but I stumbled backwards and I was starting to feel an overwhelming surge of frustration, I pinched the bridge of my nose and took in a deep breath, while straighten myself out

"PLEASE!" "LET ME CLEAN THIS MESS I'M CAPABLE OF IT"..." THANK YOU FOR YOUR CONCERN" I turned and left the room

I guess she still is my Usako, but she was trying to do it for herself and no one would let her, she was trying and they were only making it harder for her, I could see the frustration in her, Was this new or had I never noticed it before? My thoughts were interrupted by a rude comment from Raye, which isn't out of the norm but I felt I needed to protect Serena

" Guess she hasn't changed much, still a klutz." Raye mumbled,

She turned to find a glaze look of anger in Darien's Eyes

"Great job! No wonder she's a klutz, she was doing it for herself. Do you want to push her away? I lost her once; I don't need your help pushing her away again."

Serena entered into the room cleaned the mess and starred at me

"I can't stay much Longer I need to return to my hotel room but I did come to ask about the attacks and any information that would help in trying to resolve this matter."

Darien looked at me with concerned eyes but I didn't understand why

"It's been about a year but I don't feel that it was a nation. The media is putting in there two sense but we know better."

"The negaverse?"… I looked at Darien but got an agitated response from Raye

" Look! There not the Negavese, their more like evil spirits but we fight them when they show up and we have been handling ourselves fine. The last attack was in daylight, which is the only change for them. so there, you are wasting your time asking pointless questions!"

"Raye, you may find this hard to believe but your cooperation in answering my question will help this go a lot faster, including me leaving, so explain to me why Darien is hurt an no one else?"

I starred heartlessly into Rayes blazing eyes, she was pissed and I saw Darien give her a glare that told her to behave herself, she was still talking to the future Queen, whether she like it or not was another issue but Lita stepped in to help calm the rising tension in the room and I looked away to the direction of the room which her voice floated from

"He was attacked at the park when he was with the guards we were close by but it happened so fast…they fight hard and with great skill."

I nodded not really satisfied with the situation, if they were not the negaverse, where are they coming from and who is sending them here to attack the scouts

"Well, I am glad to know that everyone is alright, a friend who had recent connections to the white house let me know about what was happening, it was the first time I knew about this. The most important issue right now is containment and safety, the good news is this attack never made it into the paper because someone leaked information about my recent re appearance, which wasn't such a bad idea."

I eyed Raye who rolled at eyes and I could see Darien looking at me... amazement, confusion, and interest held his eyes to me but I continued to address the room with the information that Intend to bring

"So, we're at square one. In two weeks we hold a press conference, so we have two weeks to find out, who they are? What they want? And if we need to dispose of them or work with them? The nurse let me know Darien will be released tomorrow, we will have an official meeting at the palace in the conference room, and then we will organize the plan. Till then I'm exhausted so I am going back to my room at the Tokyo tower.

I was gathering my things when I heard Darien's Voice

"Serena please stay I need to talk to you"

I looked up to see him starring at everyone else with a stare that said leave us in peace and the girls exited the room

He turned to look at me. I was on the other side of the room starring at him. He was bringing himself to stand so I rushed over to help him; my hands fell on his waist to stabilize him

"Darien what are you doing??? You know you aren't supposed to be walking around!"

I looked at him in his eyes and realized I was holding him and my body went stiff

"Serena"

He whispered my name so softly and I felt myself melting and his gaze fell upon my lips

"I need you...."

Those words that came out of his mouth, they were words I so desperately wanted to hear and he drew me closer till his lips touched mine, as soft as I remembered them being, his tongue entered my mouth as I felt his hands grip hold of my face and my hands had travel from his waist to his mid back... My mouth found sensations with his contact that It made me suddenly light headed.. but he pulled away

"Serena, I want to just hold you in my arms and never let you go, I've dreamed of this moment for nights... I want you but more than that, I want to know who this creature is that has found her way to me. You look like my Serena, you kiss like her but you're not the same... your eyes hold something I didn't think I could even see in them"...

He backed away to sit on the bed again with a glazed look that I could tell were unshed tears he was holding back

"Darien I'm not the same person I was before. I told you that I would tell you but this is still not the right time.... I can't bear to look at you in the eyes and see your pain...... why are you looking at me with such a deep sadness?""

"Because"..............

There was a deep pause and his tears were falling

"I didn't see you bloom. You're a full bloomed rose...a women..Beautiful!.... Your eyes hold confidence and security and ......I didn't put that there... I didn't put that comfort in your eyes ... I am even more saddened because I can't let 2 yrs go... you hurt me.. You made me believe you were dead.... I don't trust you!"

I was caught off guard… I'm supposed to be somewhat mad here, I mean I ran away because he wanted me to grow up and I DID and he is sad because he didn't get to be a part of it happening and HE can't trust ME ... wow! I don't know what he wants from me; I am never good enough, or is it I am to good! I was more confused.

"Darien, I don't regret the last two and half years and to be honest they have been the happiest years of my life... I'm sorry you couldn't be a part of it but it was for me NOT YOU, even if in the beginning it was and you may not trust me because I've been gone but you lost my trust before I left so we are in the same boat. I think I should go now I will see you tomorrow."...

As I left there was silence in the room his composer said please stay but his eyes said betrayal I needed to get way.......I Left

AHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!how can she torment me like this........I long to take her in my embrace....but I can't trust her......

AHHHHHH stupid you messed it up again...... you kissed her and you told her you didn't trust her.....STUPID! STUPID ! STUPID.......

Why is this so painful..... she is my being and I know just how to screw it up and I do it very well....... I could have kissed her gotten over my emotions and moved on and she would still be here... instead I just let her walk away ...AGAIN.... I need mental help......I need to rediscover her.... this enchanting creature that I find myself even more entrapped by......

Go to sleep Darien you will see her tomorrow

I came into the suit to find Aaron typing away on the computer.. His face full of intrigue and he was working so hard

"Hi"......( he looked at me)

"Rough day huh?"

"How did you guess?"

"Well, I have some great news! but I can't say until we meet with the palace officials… I mean, excuse me, your friends and Darien."

"HA..HA..HA.. you are so funny… well then that means I'm finding out tomorrow because I already scheduled it."

"WHAT!!!"

"Well…. I was at the hospital and everything happened so fast so I called the shots, I was in my political mind frame.. I had to have the upper hand of the conversation... SO kill me, Okay!"

"Well, I guess it's better sooner than later but I have tons of notes to write a little more digging to do and a plane arrival I need to schedule."

"A plane arrival...? Who is coming?"

"That is for me to know and for you to find out tomorrow MISS. I HAVE THE UPPER HAND!"

Before I knew it, I lunged myself on him and tackled him to the ground, he tickled me till I begged him to stop... he knew I needed to laugh... he kissed my forehead and picked me up and walked toward the door

"Good night.. RENA, or MEATBALL HEAD??? HMMM, I wonder which is more irritating???...."

I threw the couch pillow at him …"see you tomorrow Aaron" ….he left but I had this odd feeling that I didn't want him to leave, we always fought like brother and sister but lately I was strangely drawn into his comforting presences

I went to my room where I pulled off my clothes and went to the shower I stood there and let the water fall over my body.... thinking about the day and thinking about Darien once again..

I hate how I can't out run my thoughts about him..... that kiss sent my body into overdrive... maybe I needed a cold shower.... I got out and walked over to the computer in the office... the search engine was still up and it was goggling..Xavier.

Hm mm, that's a funny name... I clicked on it and it gave me a Bio on a man who had a school for special need children.. MAYBE Reni should go there! hahahah... I closed the icon because I found sleep catching up to me and I went to the bed and collapsed in it

::::::::::::: Then I heard a voice again different from the first::::::::::::::: but I was dreaming

I could see me standing there gazing at a beautiful creature that was consumed by flames but did not burn. It starred at me with compassion and I could feel its energy, sad but reassured....Then the voice screeched at me

"Protect my love's... they need you"

Who were they??? I asked myself…Then there was a great flash and I saw the creature remove from its heart an object, a crystal of some sort, not like mine or any other that I had seen before.

"Come to me"

I walked towards the burning creature and the energy of the crystal filled me and I couldn't breathe or move but I felt the energy of Good and evil, restoration and destruction... It burned in my soul and I was one with its knowledge and power, then the energy escaped my body and returned to the brilliant flamed creature.

In that instant, in the creature's energy, I knew that she had come to warn me. Warn me of a great presence of evil, one which the creature fought with on a daily level, this creature was a women consumed in darkness, reaching out to prevent me from the same pain

"Lead her into the light it is the only way to consumer the dark crystal"

Her voice as she spoke, struck a chord in my heart, I still felt a connection to the creature from her energy that filled me and I suddenly realized that this creature was in some sort of bondage, she was a slave, a creature with such power that was a slave and I felt her fear, an enormous amount of fear

"Please let me help you." I cried out to the creature that was distancing itself from me and I ran after her but suddenly the light of the room grew dark and I could not see

Then there was a loud piercing noise that slammed me to the ground and I was unable to move, then a women's figure above me held me in restraint, it was not the women who lived as one with the creature but the she held the same evil presence that the creature came to warn me about

"She led me to you… you can't help a creature that will suffer the same fate as you my dear beloved."

She leaned down to my cheek and kissed me and I felt pain like never before and it filled every pore of my body and then it stopped and she was gone...but I was extreme agony by the pain in my head....

I was screaming and the pain throbbed in my head and I heard her voice, the creature called phoneix, in my pain....

"I'm sorry......"

And I felt her sorrow in her apology, this creature of power was powerless….

I jumped up out of my sleep and i could feel the sweat coming off of my body and it felt like it was over 100 degrees in the room, i went to the balcony and let the fresh air in... i looked over the night of Tokyo... What was that? it felt so real... The creature was warning me of something, but what? who was she and who was the other women, she seemed so evil... it was just a dream... i felt sleep claiming me again and i gave in and went to the bed...

My thoughts disappeared... Tomorrow was another day

TO BE CONTINUED............