4th chapter then!! EEEEEEEEEEEEEE. soz....lil excited. lol. sorry its late again. i did manage to finish my ict coursework though! woohoo. but yeah. i go back to school next week so its probably gonna take even longer for me to update. what with school work and boyfriend etc. but i will try my hardest kay? dont lose faith! lol. enjoy x


"Jamie?" I heard a voice call my name. Jared snapped round.

"I'm guessing you don't want Mel to know, right?" he said, low and quiet.

I nodded then realized he couldn't see me coz his back was to me, "I don't want her to know."

"Go then," he whispered. I was too frozen to move. He looked behind me then shoved me the other way, "Go!"

I started running towards my room, blindly, I couldn't see from all the tears. I managed to find it, so I ran in, slammed the door and threw myself on the bed. It just so wasn't fair. Why couldn't there be like a new girl who I could fall in love with? Why was it Wanda? Trust it, to have the suckiest life in the world.

A few hours later, I managed to cry myself out. I was grateful nobody had come to look for me. Jared was probably keeping them all away. I was still annoyed at him but he knew now and I couldn't take it back. I sat up against a wall, strumming at my guitar. That was the only thing that used to be able to make me calm. I shut my eyes, imagining walking out of this room, turning left, and left again and then into the room which Wanda resided in, with Ian. The thought of that snapped me back. Wait what if she had already… I couldn't bring myself to finish that sentence. But what if Ian had forced her? I would kill him. I stood up, fists clenched. How dare he touch her? But then again, what if she wanted it? I slid back down the wall. All of this was making my head hurt. I returned to strumming chords and thinking about mistakes I kept making. I started singing along softly, with words I was just making up in my head,

"Pick up all my tears
Throw 'em in the backseat
Leave without a second glance
Somehow I'm to blame
For this never-ending racetrack you call life

So, Turn right
Into my arms
Turn right
You won't be alone
I might
Fall off this track sometimes
Hope to see you on the finish line

Driving all my friends
At a speed they cannot follow
Soon I will be on your own
Somehow I'm to blame
For this never-ending racetrack you call life

So, Turn right
Into my arms
Turn right
You won't be alone
I might
Fall off this track sometimes
Hope to see you at the finish line

I doing all I can
And I give
Everything
But you had to go your way
And that road was not for me"

I paused, tears threatening to overwhelm me. I swallowed, nervously.

"Turn right
into my arms
Turn right
you won't be alone
I might
Fall off this track sometimes
Hope to see you at the finish line"

My eyes brimmed up. There was a soft knock at the door. I quickly wiped away my tears. The door opened and my heart literally stopped.

"Wanda? Hey, what are you doing here?" I said, shakily.

"Am I not allowed to come see you any more?" she asked, hurt clouding her voice. I realized then that I had been pretty mean to her. I'd been ignoring her.

"No!" I realized what my startled outburst might've meant. I took her hands gently, "You can come see me anytime you want, even at midnight, I'll be awake."

She frowned, "you'd be awake at midnight?"

"For you, yes," I muttered, releasing her hands.

"What did you say?" she asked.

"Nothing," I said quickly looking away. She came and sat down next to me. I leant over, my arms leaning on my knees.

"Jamie, are you okay?" she put one hand on my back, rubbing it gently. I jumped.

I nodded, my breathing becoming uneven.

She gave me a weird look, and then froze. She moved away from me, as if trying to work out a really hard maths puzzle.

"Y…Am i…huh?!" She stuttered, staring at me.

"Jamie?" she said, shocked. I snuck a look at her.

"Jamie, who was that song about?" She whispered.

I looked at her, "I think you know."

"When?" she asked, still in shock.

"I think, vaguely always. Except not properly until you woke up in the new body, if that makes any sense," I said, I'd even confused myself.

She nodded.

"Jamie, I jus…" I put my finger to her lips.

"I don't expect you to do anything. It's alright. I'll g…get over it. You love Ian. I know. Don't worry. I'll be fine," I said quickly.

"I think I should go," she whispered.

"Sure," I agreed. She needed time to think, I think. So did I. I needed time to get over her really.

I stood up, took her hand and lifted her to her feet. She walked to the door, and then turned round. Those eyes were just so mesmerizing. She walked up to me and hugged me, "Sorry," she whispered.

I pulled back, "Why are you saying sorry to me?"

"Coz I can see this is hurting you and it's my fault," she whispered looking down.

"Wanda, this is not your fault!" I insisted. I lifted her chin so she was looking at me, "No way is this your fault. It's entirely mine."

She shook her head. On impulse, I leant forward and gently brushed my lips against hers. At that point, my mind caught up with my actions and I pulled away from her, moving back.

She was looking at me, eyes wide.

"Omg. Wanda. I'm so sorry. I don't know what came over me. I shouldn't have done that. Can you just forget it? No. of course not. I kissed you. Massive deal. You're never gonna forgive me. Omg. You hate me. I've screwed up big time, I'm so…" I was trailed off. She'd walked up to me through my entire babbling and pulled my head down so she could reach my lips.

"Shh…" She whispered then pressed her lips against mine again. And then my mind just switched off. One hand went to her face, cupping her to me and the other slid down her back pressing her petite body against me. Her tongue snaked out to gently lick my lip and I jumped in surprise. She raised her arms so they were around my shoulders. I could feel her teasing the soft skin under my shaggy hair. I shivered and my mouth opened with hers. She slipped her tongue into my mouth and a low growl escaped from my throat. I pushed her against the wall without breaking the kiss and managed to get her closer to me if that was even possible, unable to control what I was feeling. Every inch of my skin was electrified, on fire. I was burning up. There was almost a spark between our lips. She pulled on my lower lip gently but I didn't want gently any more. I pulled her off the wall, and pushed her down on the bed, going down with her. I hovered over her, looking into her shimmering eyes. How did she have the power to make me feel like this? She reached up and kissed me again, this time, deepening it. She found the hand that was still cupping her face and twined her fingers with mine. This simple move had the power to make me so hard.

"Ahem," A throat was cleared behind us. I literally jumped a foot in the air off Wanda, falling onto the hard floor. I stared up at the person framing the door.


has everyone heard about Wayne rooneys kid? sooo cute...its called Kai and its a baby boy. very cute. Sooo anyway...sorry to leave it on a cliffhanger but i couldnt think of a good way to end the chapter and i wanted you guys to have something to read. oh by the way thank you for all the great comments you guys have left me. i honestly can think of nothing better. you guys a great. thanks so much. you guys probably dont read this bit but if you do...THANKS! there. that should catch your attention.

Guess where David's taking me on my first date....his house. but his parents'll be out...and he wants to show me his bedroom...nervous attack! but no hes not like that. hes not gonna pressure me for sex or whatever...i hope not at least. umm anyway guess what we're gonna watch though! A) Jonas brother concert and B) many scary films.... i think he did that on purpose so i could get scared and cuddle up to him. p.s. i get scared very easy. hes gonna have a good time. im not.

Q: What'd be your dream concert? Who would be there?

My answer: Well, first for starters, david archuleta and then something harder, like Friday night boys and Hey Monday and then...Westlife, have a nice calming thing and then bon jovi of course to get us back up on our feet and then maybe mia rose- shes only got one song though and then of course jonas brothers and honor society x

Peace out x