*Chapter 4*

*Kendall's POV*

The guys and I were almost finished with the final recording of 'Music Sounds Better with U' when Camille and Gustavo run out of the studio. We take our headsets off and look at each other. Then James speaks

"What's going on?" He asked us looking around.

"No idea dude." I answer looking around, and then we hear sirens.

"Okay, now I am scared. What the hell is going on?" Carlos says.

Then Logan starts looking around "Wait, where is Brittany?"

Suddenly realization sets in and we all bolt towards where the gurney was going and see Gustavo standing to the side and Kelly holding Camille as the EMT's begin taking care of Brittany.

"Camille!" Logan yells, gaining her attention. She sees him and runs to him and throws her arms around his neck and continues crying. We all run over to her and try to sooth her so she can tell us what's going on.

The gurney gets rolled out and then Kelly comes rushing towards us from the café. "Guys, they are taking her to St. Mercy's. You guys get the rest of the day off, just be back her tomorrow morning at 10am." Then she heads off towards the booth and Gustavo follows.

We run towards our BTR mobile and Logan starts speeding to the hospital. We park and run in and Logan runs up to the front desk "Hello, Brittany Johnson was just brought here."

"Oh yes, she is being taken care of right now. Please take a seat in the waiting room and her doctor will be with you when she can." She politely says, pointing towards the waiting room.

"Camille, what is going on?" James asked Camille, she is still holding onto Logan's waist but she has calmed down sorta.

"Brittany is sick."

"Um babe, more please." Logan says to her.

"I should have told someone, not have kept that promise. This is my entire fault. I could have gotten her help!"

"Camille! What are you talking about?" Carlos asks her, impatiently.

"Brittany is sick. She makes herself sick for ballet."

I speak for the first time since we arrived "What do you mean she makes herself sick?"

"If she eats at all, it's just a show. She throws up anything she eats afraid that if she eats, it will make her gain so much weight that she won't be able to dance anymore." Camille looks down in shame, crossing her arms.

"She has an eating disorder. Baby that's not your fault." Logan says, trying to comfort her and convince her it's not her fault.

"But I knew! I knew and I should have told you guys! But she made me promise I wouldn't!" Camille starts crying again and sits down putting her head on her knees.

"Brittany is going to be okay, she is sick but she is going to get better with our help. We will help her believe she can eat without putting on so much weight. I knew she was too skinny…" Logan said, putting a hand on Camille's back, rubbing it trying to calm her down again.

A few hours pass and it is now 1pm and we still haven't heard anything back about Brittany.

"Um Brittany Johnson?" James, Carlos, Logan, Camille and I all stand up and rush over to the doctor.

"That's us!" Logan says, waiting.

"Are you guy's family?" He asked.

"No disrespect sir, but we are the only family she has up here." Camille speaks up.

"Okay well, Brittany was suffering with a very high risk eating disorder. What we consider high risk is the fact she had 2 different types. Anorexia and Bulimia, the most dangerous ones out of the category. But luckily we weren't too late. We managed to get enough nutrients into her system before it her organs completely crashed."

"Is she alright though?" I ask, worried.

"Right now she is sleeping, but we are going to keep her overnight for observation then she can go home tomorrow if everything works out well. She is hooked up to an IV that is feeding her the nutrients that her body has been deprived of for so long. Come on I will take you to her." We start following the man down the bright white hallway until he stops in front of a door. "She is right in there; you may go in when ready. Oh and beware, she is very pale and looks extremely unhealthy." He walks away to tend to another patient.

We slowly open the door and carefully walk in. Camille gasp at the sight in front of her and the tears start silently flowing again. We all take a seat randomly around the room, patiently waiting for her to wake up.

As we all sat there, we would occasionally look at her and then quickly look away. Camille, who was sitting on Logan's lap over near the window, would whimper when she looked in Brittany's direction. It was scary having one of your new good friends in the hospital looking so pale and lifeless.

We sat with her for about 2 and half hours, waiting patiently for her to make any sudden movements or for her to wake up. Around 3:30pm the guys and Camille decide to go and get cleaned up and they'd come back before visiting hours were up with things for me. When they left I just sat and stared at her until James came back around 4:30pm.

"Hey man, I brought you some clothes and other nessecaties. I also brought you you're guitar, so you have something to do. We'll be back tomorrow morning before we go to the studio to check on her and get you." James tells me, handing me the bag and the guitar.

I take the stuff and smile at my best friend "Alright, thanks man."

"No problem dude, see you in the morning." James walks over to Brittany and kisses her forehead before coming back to me. We do our handshake and then leaves.

I grab my guitar and just start plucking at random notes while glancing up at Brittany, with some hope it would wake her up. I look at her once though and then get a sudden idea. When her nurse comes back in to check on her I ask for paper and a pen. She smiles then gives me what I ask her then leaves to return to her job.

I write and play until I have the first verse of a song done.

*Brittany's POV*

I start to open my eyes and when I do I am in a white room surrounded by monitors and an IV in my arm. I look around and sit myself up until I am unable to move the blanket anymore. I look down and see the back on a head, and the person has dirty blonde hair. His head in lying on a piece of paper and his guitar in leaning against the end of the bed. I grab the paper sneakily without waking Kendall. I smile as I read it, when I finish reading what he has down so far I put it back down. I start running my fingers through his hair until I feel him jump and turn quickly to face me. He smiles when he sees me.

"Hey, you're awake…" He whispers, sitting up in his chair.

"Yeah, why are you here? Not that I mind at all." I ask him.

"I've been here since they brought you in." I smile at him and run my fingers across his jaw.

"You didn't have to do that."

"I know I didn't, but I felt I had to so you weren't alone when you woke up." He says. "The guys and Camille left about an hour ago, they'll be back tomorrow before we have to go to the studio again." I blush and smile and grab his hand softly.

The conversation took a turn though; it went from joking to serious. "Why didn't you say anything Brittany…? We would have helped you."

I look down, knowing it was coming. "I had to do it." I whisper.

"No you don't, why do you think that?"

"Because Kendall, being a ballet dancer demands absolute perfection."

"And you can stay in shape without making yourself sick or not eating at all."

"I don't think so, because everything you eat has calories." I argue.

"And when you dance, you work everything off that you ate." Kendall protest back.

I look out the window, knowing that he was right "But sometimes dancing doesn't always take off everything you need."

"Brittany, you can't do this anymore…" Kendall begged me, with a look in his green orbs, which looked like pain and love.

"I'll try Kendall… I will try my best, I promise." I tell him and when I saw him smile, I smiled too knowing I just made him happy.

He leaned over to me and kissed me softly on the cheek, but when he went to pull away I grabbed him cheek lightly and brought his lips to mine. We softly kissed for a few moments until we heard the door open and close.

"Oh hi," I say, taking notice of the doctor standing in the doorway. She smiles at us then looks down at the clip board she has in her hands.

"Okay well, your vitals look good and the nutrients we are giving you through your IV seem to be working. If you continue to improve at this rate, then you should be out of here by tomorrow night." The doctor informs us and smiles when she looks back up. I start smiling brightly and I hug Kendall really tight as she walks out of the room. He hugs me back and leans into the chair he is seated in. He smiles at me and I grab the paper and hand it to him.

"Play it for me…?" I ask him. He smiles and shakes his head no. "Why not?"

"Because I will play it for you next time you come to the studio, hopefully the day after tomorrow when we get out of school." He says, I pout and cross my arms. "Adorable, but not going to work." I laugh and that's how we spent the rest of the night, joking around and laughing.

The next day I wake up to see the usual seat Kendall sat in empty and his stuff gone. The smile on my face turned into a frown and as I got up and went to the bathroom and when I came out I saw a piece of paper on the floor. It was a note from Kendall that must have fallen when he left.

Brittany,

Sorry I didn't wake you to tell you I was leaving, but you looked to cute to bother.

I smiled at that comment and continued reading.

I have to get to the studio with the guys for a while and we will be back when were finished. I promise. Feel better and we will bring some lunch when we return. Just text me and let me know what you want =]

Love,

Kendall.

I smile and grab my phone off the nightstand that was next to the bed. I hit the button and see it is 11:30am. I open my contacts and scroll down to his name. I hit send new text message and text him, hoping he wasn't busy.

B: Hey ;]

K: Hey, you're awake :]

B: Yeah, I just got up and saw you were gone :[ but then I found you're not and I was okay lol. You're not busy are you? :O

K: Aw I'm sorry, but the guys and I will be there when we get out, what do you want to eat by the way. And no were taking our 5 minute break right now :]

B: Okay good :] and Hm I don't know, surprise me ;]

K: Okay, how about Wendy's then baby?

I smile at him calling me baby. We haven't mentioned either of the kisses since they happened or declared where our relationship stands, but I don't know if I can have a boyfriend with my strict schedule and theirs too.

B: That sounds yummy ;] See you when you get here! 3

K: Yes you will;*

I smile and close out of the text messages set my phone down. About 2 hours later the guys come walking through the door with 5 bags from Wendy's. I start laughing "I hope you guys don't expect me to eat all of that" I say jokingly.

"Oh come on, it's not a lot!" Carlos says, returning the sarcastic tone causing us all to laugh. Kendall then walks over to me and sets a bag in my lap.

"So we got you a hamburger with some small fries and bottled water, and for desert, a frosty!" I smile and take the bag and water from him.

"Thank you Kendall, and thank you guys too for being here for me… I know it's disappointing." I say frowning as I undo the wrapping around the hamburger.

"Brittany, you can't think like that. We were so scared for you when we saw you being carried out by the gurney. If we were even the slighted disappointed, we would have told you." Logan explains with a smile as the others smile at me with support.

As we are eating, my phone rings from the stand next to Kendall. He grabs the phone and hands it to me with a smile. I return the smile and take the phone, it wasn't a number I knew but I answered anyway. "Hello?"

"Hello, is the Brittany Johnson?" A mysterious woman says.

"Yes?"

"Hello Mrs. Johnson, this is Mrs. Smith from the Los Angeles School of Dance and I heard you were in a hospital stay?"

"Yes ma'ma, but I am being released today."

"Okay that's good, because I have some news for you."

"Okay…"

"Well the last few classes, you noticed how there has been a woman watching and observing…"

"Yes I have."

"Well, she wants you to have a part in the world known ballet of Swan Lake!"

I was speechless, I felt like my heart just stopped. I put the food on the table to the side. The guys all look up at me worried, as I got up and stepped into the hallway. "Are you serious?"

"Yes, congratulations! Will you be in class tomorrow?"

"Yes ma'ma." I managed to breathe out again.

"Okay, well she will be in and she will use that class as your audition."

"Okay, thank you so much!"

"No problem, good luck with your release and we will see you tomorrow. Goodbye and once again, congratulations."

"Okay, goodbye."

I hang up the phone and walk back into my room with my face frozen in shock. When I close the door, the guys look up at me once again worried as they all stand up, but stay where they are. "You okay Brittany?" Carlos asks.

"Yeah, just got some news…"

"Is it good or bad?" Logan asks.

"Neither… It's amazing news. The most amazing news ever." I say my face still not changing.

"What is it?" James and Kendall ask.

"That was the director of the School of Dance here in LA and she wanted to let me know that a scout has been sitting in my class and watching me and has chosen me…" I start getting choked up with happy tears. They run over to me and huddle around me.

"What is it Brittany? Chosen for what?" Logan asked.

"Swan Lake!" I yell jumping up and crying the happy tears.

The guys look shocked and I jump over to Kendall and jump into his arms. He catches me and then puts me down so the others can hug me.

"You got a part in Swan Lake!" Carlos and James yell and attack me with hugs also. I cry and laugh at the same time.

"Yeah, I audition in my class tomorrow and she will let me know sometime tomorrow after class." I stop crying and sit down in bed again, wiping my tears.

"That is amazing Brittany! Wait til Camille hears, she is going to freak out." Logan smiles at me.

About an hour later the doctors come in and we are still laughing and talking about Swan Lake.

"Hey Brittany, how are you doing?" She asks me, smiling.

"I'm doing great!" I tell her, my excitement shining through.

"That's good, well here are your discharge papers and when you sign them and are ready, you may bring them up to the front desk then you can leave." She explains, handing me the paper.

"Thank you!"

"No problem sweetie. Good luck with everything and eat." She tells me with a stern but joking tone.

I laugh and say okay as I start getting ready to leave. The guys give me the clothes they brought me and I go change in the bathroom. A half hour later, we are ready to leave. I bring the papers up to the desk and head out to the hospital to the BTR mobile.

We walk into the Palm Woods and I am immediately attacked with hugs by Camille "Hey your okay!"

"Yeah and I have some really big news for you." I tell her with a huge smile. Smiles then break out on the guys' face also as Logan wraps an arm around her waist.

"Okay… What is it?" She asks all of us confused.

"I got a part in Swan Lake!" I yell at her with a huge smile on mine and the others' faces.

One breaks out on Camille's face too "Are you serious?"

"Yes! I got the call a few hours ago!"

"Oh my god!" She breaks away from Logan and hugs me again, tighter this time.

The rest of the day we all spent my first day back hanging out together by the pool. We split around 8 and Kendall walked me back to my apartment.

"So I'll see you tomorrow morning for class?" I ask him, leaning against my door. He nods at me and sticks his hands in his pockets. I push myself off of my door and suddenly our lips are attached. Only this time, it was more than just a gentle kiss like at the hospital. There was more to it – intensity, emotion, feeling, and lust. He pushed me against my door, which was unlocked, but closed, and his arms wrapped around my small waist. My hands found his blonde locks and I grabbed a few locks between my fingers. He desperately tried to pull my closer, almost impossibly close. His tongue traced a line on my full bottom lip and I opened my mouth to accept. Our tongues battled for dominance in such a heated kiss, almost as if weneeded this. We pull away and we kiss on last time, but a quick peck "I'll see you tomorrow Kendall"

"Yes you will Brittany…" He whispers, separating himself from me and walking to his apartment. I open my door and close it behind me and smile hugely then walk into my room and go to sleep. This day couldn't have gotten better.

The next day I had gotten showered and dressed (http: / www. polyvore. com/ untitled_49 /set? id= 42109361) early so I ate some toast and waited for the guys to show. When I was throwing my paper towel away, I heard the guys at the door. I go over and open the door with a huge smile on my face.

"Hey Brit, big day today?" Carlos asks me with a smile, matching mine.

"Yes! I'm so excited!" I yell and clap my hands together. I grab my bag and start heading out until Kendall stops me "Wait, did you eat anything?"

I smile at how he cares about me "Yes, I had some toast. Don't worry, I told you I would try." I smile at him and grab his hand as we start walking to the elevator.

After school I grab my books and start bolting to the door, but stop so I can talk to the boys and Camille before I head off to the class/ audition.

"Hey Brit, you nervous?" Camille asks as we walk out of the room.

"A little bit…" I say looking at the floor and letting out a deep breath.

"Will the let you know if you got it before the class is over?" James asks after Camille.

"No not right after. I should be getting the call tonight if anything."

"Well that's good then right? At least you'll know." Logan follows.

"I know, but I should get going. I'll call you after and let you know I'm on my way back, or should I just head to 2J?"

"Just go to 2J, if we're not there yet my mom will let you in so just wait for us and we'll hang out until you get the call." Kendall says.

"Okay will do." They all give me huge, tight hugs and give me good lucks until I walk out of the lobby waving to them. They give me thumbs up until I am out of sight.

About 3 hours later, I am heading back to the Palm Woods. After class I had stayed after I work on what I missed while I was in the hospital. As I was walking back I texted Kendall letting him know.

B: Hey, just got out of class, heading to your apartment now. You home?

K: Yeah, we got home about an hour ago. See you when you get here :]

I smile and put my phone in my pocket. When I get to 2J, I am bombarded by questions.

"Okay guys stop, let's just watch some TV until the call comes." We all sit on the couch, but before the phone rings Mrs. Knight announces dinners done so we all pile up at the table and star eating. It was all pleasant conversation until my phone starts to ring on the living room coffee table. I slowly look over and the guys follow my gaze. I get up and slowly approach the phone with Kendall in tow. I pick it up and it was dead silent in the apartment so I put it on speaker phone. "Hel- Hello?" I nervously answer.

"Hello, is this Brittany Johnson?"

"This is she…"

"Hello Brittany, my name is Monica Stows from the production of Swan Lake; I was at your class today."

I look up at Kendall and the guys "Hello Ma'ma, how are you?"

"I'm great, now I am calling you on behave of the part of one of the swans in a dance scene.

"Yes ma'ma, my director had informed me of your appearance and interest.

"Okay good, now I heard you were in the hospital, are you doing alright now?"

"Yes I am doing very well, completely better."

"Well that's good, because we can't have someone who is sick dancing in the performance of Swan Lake now can we?" I look up at the guys again and smiles break out on all of our faces as the tears start steaming down my face. "Brittany Johnson, on behave of the National Society of the Performing Arts I extend congratulations to you in your part of Swan Lake." (Don't freak, I will put what she is doing up when it comes to the part)

"Thank you so much Mrs. Stows. I couldn't be any more grateful." I tell her still crying. The boys are sitting down with huge smiles on their faces.

"You're very welcome. You are extremely talented and we are very happy to have you in our performance. Now I will have your director give you our rehearsal schedule tomorrow after class and I will see you soon."

"Yes ma'ma you will, thank you again so much!"

"You're very welcome. Goodbye and congratulations again."

"Thank you and goodbye!" I hang up and throw my arms around Kendall's neck and begin crying even more.

The guys soon run over to us and immediately attack me with hugs from the guys.

"We are so happy for you Brittany!" They all yell.

I am crying too hard to answer, but they know I appreciate it.

I stayed the night at 2J because Mrs. Knight thought I would be nice for us to all celebrate together. The next day we all got ready and walked down to class where we met up with Camille. "So! What happened?" She asks as we all approach her.

"You're looking at the dancer with a role in SWAN LAKE!" She throws her arms around me and squeezes me with everything in her.

"Oh my god I am so happy for you!"

"Thank you!"

The next few months flew by because of my busy schedule of classes, rehearsals, and Palm Woods School. Kendall and mine's relationship was still undefined, but we continued to kiss and hold hands whenever we could. I barely found time to hang out with them, but I am tonight since we finished rehearsals yesterday and the show was tomorrow. I met up with the guys in the lobby when I came back from classes and we all walked up to 2J. When we walked in, Mama Knight or Katie was in sight, so I was confused. The guys sat me down at the table and Kendall put his hands over my eyes. He removed them 2 minutes later and there was a cake in front of me that read 'Congratulations Brittany!'

I started to cry and I hugged all of them "Thank you guys so much" I say, letting go of the hug with Camille and hugged Kendall but secretly kissed him too. I turned back to the cake and then set my bag on the counter. "Now before we all start eating that, I have something for all of you." I start digging through my bag until I find the envelope. "These are for all of you." I had it to Mama Knight as she opens it and pulls out 7 tickets and backstage passes.

"What are these for sweetie?" she asks me politely.

"Since you all have been there for me and stuck by my side through all of this then I thought you would want to see the show and come see me before hand… So those are balcony seats so no one will bother you guys and full permission to come see ME before the show."

They all hug me and say thank you, so we all start digging in and talking about the show.

The next day I am looking out the curtain and getting nervous seeing all the people "Kendall… I am freaking out…" I turn to face him. The others headed up to the balcony seats to wait and left me and Kendall alone for a few minutes.

He put his hands on the sides of my face "You are going to be great Brittany. You're an amazing dancer and have worked your ass off to be able to do this at only 16!" He kisses me and taps my hip lightly. "Now go put that Tutu on and get out there and impress us." He walks out the backstage area and to the balcony seat as I got dressed and warmed up.

(She is the blonde one on the far left hand side, the only blonde on and the stage is a LOT bigger than the video, but it was the best I could find ;] [http: / www. youtube .com/watch? v= 6nyfq_d18_ o&feature= related] remember no spaces or parenthese)

~*Kendall's POV*~

The guys and I are seated and patiently waiting for Brittany's part to come up, and when it does she has all of our full attention.

When they finished we all stood up and clapped for her loudly so she could hear us. When she gently made her way backstage, the guys and I all high-five and cheer. She did so well and we couldn't be happier for her

** I really hope you like this chapter. I took forever to write and it is 16 pages so I really hope you all like it!**