Part 4
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"I need to find him I need to.." I let go of Alex and ran in the direction where Jack had gone,
"JACK" I shouted. He turned I ran up to him,
"I cant get my head around this Jill! How..WHY" He shouted at me,
"Why! I saw you kiss her" I shouted,
"Sarah" He yelled back,
"YES! IT BROKE MY HEART JACK! IT BROKE IT! Do you know how much that hurt" I cried,
"ARE YOU FUCKING ME" Jack shouted,
"NO I'm obviously the only one whose NOT" I yelled.
"Oh and you arent the master of deception" He shouted at me,
"WHY DID YOU KISS HER" I cried,
"She kissed me! I kissed back" He said..he realized what he had infact just told me,
"Jack I loved you with all my heart! You! And you told me you loved me" I yelled,
"I do love you" He shouted,
"LIKE HELL! You dont fucking LOVE me you great asshole! Maybe you did but you dont now Jack you sure fucking dont now" I yelled.
"Well then why dont you just go back and fuck Kid Blink again HUH! Cause you seem to have had a perfectly FUN TIME WITH THAT ONE" He yelled at me,
"HE DIDNT MEAN ANYTHING" I shouted,
"Is this what Fate fucking gives us to deal with? IS THIS IT! I, I dont understand Jill" He yelled I dont know if it was directed at me, or life in general"I dont understand how we were so perfect! Everything! We had it all, we had everything that mattered! How, how I, you, WHY! WHY DID YOU! What this FUCK IS THIS" He yelled getting tears in his hazel eyes.
"I DONT KNOW! JACK IM SORRY" I cried sobbing. He was choking on his tears,
"NO! NO I CANT! I cant let Sorry fucking take care of it! Theres no way Jillian! Nothin', I guess were broken, an I guess we cant be fixed! Jesus I loved you" He yelled,
"I LOVED YOU TO! SARAH JACOBS FIXED THAT" I screamed,
"That was ONE KISS ONE KISS! I didn't screw around with her! I told her to fucking STOP! Did you tell Kid Blink to HUH" He shouted,
"STOP" I cried trying to make him quit, I didnt want to talk about this, I didn't want this feeling, but a coolness swept over me ever minute he kept yelling I felt like all the blood was slowly being drained from me. I guess thats what a broken heart feels like, I had never experienced it before then, it felt like getting dumped into a pool of ice water, like on the coldest december day you jumped into the river off the peir on a dare, only there was no laughing after this,
"STOP! Okay I'll stop, I'll stop loving you" He shouted, he was surprised at his own words as was I, I didn't want that, no, I couldnt let him go. Tears fell I ran up to him I wanted to hug him I wanted him to hug me, I wanted to forget everything but I couldn't. I tried to fall onto his chest like I had done so many times before. But he put up his hands, he pushed me off. He just looked at me, I noticed so much more detail in his face now, in his eyes I could almost count the flakes of gold.
He turned,
"Cowboy" I cried trying to get him,
"...No, I don't have a Cowgirl anymore." He walked away, he walked out and he took my heart with him.
