So I know I have neglected to say this so here it goes, and please remember this because I will not remember to continue putting this up on each chapter.
I do not own any of these characters besides Alex, and any others that I happen to throw in there. Dan Schneider owns ICarly, I do not. This story is mine though. If I did own ICarly, Carly and Freddie would already be dating.
That day changed everything, and somehow nothing. Alex and I have been dating for about three weeks now, and we see each other all day everyday. We couldn't be more happy together. He is truly a great guy. Freddie and Sam are closer than ever, too. But somehow, somewhere deep inside of me, lies the love I have for Freddie Benson, and it's just waiting for the right time to express its self. And that's not good. Because I have been trying so hard to suppress that feeling I get when I see Freddie, because I really like Alex.
So what is a girl to do?
I figured Im staying with Alex. Freddie is happy with Sam, and I deserve happiness too.
Don't I?
Besides, Sam and Freddie aren't going to break up anytime soon, and even if they did, I couldn't go out with Freddie even if he wanted to go out with me. It just simply wouldn't be fair to Sam.
And Alex is a good guy. A really good guy who really likes me and I really like him. He is sweet, and protective but not pushy, smart, super cute, funny guy that I am lucky to have. And I see sparks when we kiss.
So that's good.
Right?
Freddie's POV
Sam and I were standing in the middle of Spencer and Carly's living room, helping Spencer paint a model of Gibby that Gibby, for some reason, paid Spencer to make.
"So Spencer, why does Gibby want this again?" Sam asked, dipping her paint into the skin colored palate of paint.
"Well you see" Spencer started, carefully spreading brown paint over Gibby's head for his hair. "I have know idea what goes through Gibby's head. I mean, he IS the guy that used to take his shirt off for know reason. So how on cheese doodles am I supposed to know?" He chuckled.
"Wait. Cheese Doodles?" I questioned, raising an eyebrow.
"Yes Cheese Doodles. They are delicious fun in the shape of doodles that taste like cheese. Hence the name Cheese Doodles"
I laughed. Who understood Spencer, is the better question. Gibby, is just…. Gibby. But Spencer, well, he is special.
Just then, Carly and her new boyfriend, Alex, walked in holding hands and laughing. She looked up at me and smiled, before saying 'hey' to everyone.
"Hey" we all said in unison, showing the couple our Gibby head.
"Oh! That really looks like Gibby!" Carly said amazed.
"I know right!" Spencer said excitedly, throwing back his paint brush quickly. Brown paint splattered on my face, and laughter erupted in the room. Sam stepped up, and carefully spread the paint all over my face, making me grimace.
"Stop!" I whined. Everyone laughed again, and Sam pressed her lips against mine, giving me a quick peck, which made me blush.
"Here" Carly said, throwing me a wet towel so I could clean the paint off of my face.
"Thanks"
After wiping my face, Spencer announced that he was going to go shopping and would be back in a couple hours.
After a few moments of awkward silence, Carly suggested that we watch a movie because it was raining outside.
After the four of us bickered for about ten minutes, we finally all agreed to watch 30 Days of Night.
"Hey Freddie, fix the popcorn will you?" Carly asked while getting the movie started.
I walked into the kitchen and found the popcorn, popping it into the microwave and watching the bag slowly air up with the popped kernels. After pouring the popcorn into two big bowels, I walked back into the living room where Sam, Carly, and Alex were already sitting.
Sam had a gazillion and one fat cakes sitting on her lap, and she was already chomping away at one. You gotta love her and her eating patterns. I took my place between Sam and Carly, and Sam immediately snuggled close to me, and Carly kept her distance, only our arms touched.
This is something I have had to get used to ever since Sam and I and Carly and Alex started dating. Sam isn't one of the touchy feely mushy cuddly people, and Sam and I started dating and Carly and Alex, when Sam, Carly and I had movie night it was way different.
Ok, yeah. I still sat between the two girls, it was just normal that way. But Sam always made sure to keep her distance, and hit me through out the movie or call me names at the boring parts.
Carly, however, is one of the touchy feely cuddly people. She used to snuggle up against my side, and rest her head on my shoulder. That's how it was. That's how it always was.
But everything has changed drastically since our single days.
I don't know If I particularly like that.
I love Sam to death, and don't want our relationship to end, but I miss having Carly snuggled up to me during movies. Hiding her face in my arm at the scary parts. Us having sleep over's sometimes, and falling asleep in her bed, my head on one end and hers on the other.
I miss staying up late in the ICarly studio sitting on the bean bags and just talking for hours. I miss everything that we used to do together. I miss her.
In a way I guess you could say I never stopped being in love with her.
And that's bad.
Because I'm with Sam now. And she is with Alex.
Carly was the first girl I ever loved, and she will always be the first girl I ever loved.
I don't know if I want to give that up.
Even though it is my responsibility to give it up.
It just wouldn't be fair to Sam.
And Sam, she was the first girl I ever kissed. Granted it was just because we wanted to get our first kiss over with but still, that counts.
Doesn't it?
Because really, I have know idea anymore.
Ok, ok. Nothing really happened in this chapter, Im sorry about that. And Im super sorry times a million that I haven't updated in a while. Our internet got switched off and it just came on yesterday, and I was hoping to have more than one chapter finished but my brother's birthday is coming up and I have been planning stuff and getting ready. Please forgive me. I know nothing good happened in this chapter and it was kind of boring but it needed to be done as to set the emotion for the rest of the story. And some emotion did spill out of Carly and Freddie's mind, didn't it? Please review, review, review, as always, even though I don't deserve it. It would really make me happy and cheer me up though. I stepped on a needle today. My foot is aching as I write this. I am such a wimp. : ) Please forgive me. I love all of my readers and fans.
As always,
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