Chapter 4: One day at a time
Spencers POV
It's been a few days since I was at Ashley's house. It felt like longer. I've been acknowledging her in school. It feels nice. But we still have a lot to work on. I just can't help but think that this is all my fault. Maybe if I just paid more attention to what she was feeling. Just notice certain things that were different. But I didn't. I thought she was just being Ashley.
I arrive at school. It's Friday thank God. I need to do something tonight to release some of this pent up energy I have. I walk to my first period class and there's the girl I'm still in loved with sitting in the middle row. I smile a little to myself. I walk over to her and I sit by her, to her surprise.
"Hey.." I open my notebook and take my Alegebra text book out. She looks at me and she gives me this smile that just brightened my whole day.
"Hey Spencer..How are you?" I notice she looks at my arms. I sigh and look at my notebook.
"I' am good. I'm just trying to survive. You?"
"Yeah. I mean other than my throwing up every so often." Right. I almost forgot about that. How could I? She's up the spout. It's Aidans fault.
"Yeah..erm..About that. What are you gonna do?" I can't even imagine what her answer will be.
"I haven't talked with Aidan yet about it. I'm meeting him today at lunch. But at first I wanted to get rid of it. But..I don't know." She seems in thought about it. Of course she would be. Hell, I would be. Why does it matter what she do with it. I'm not with her anymore.
"Right. Okay. Well good luck with that. If you need..you know..Anyone to talk to about it, you can call me. If you want.." Why am I nervous?
"Thank you. It means alot. I know this is sudden since we haven't really talked since that day at my house. But I was wondering if you wanted to come over and maybe watch a movie or something?" She was nervous as well. Cute.
"Actually I was hoping to do something a little more extreme. Like go to Grey's and dance a little. But since you are sick lately. We can do the movie thing tomorrow night if that's ok?" She seemed a little sad. It's not that I didn't want to hang with her at home but my body needs to let go.
"It's okay. Cool. Saturday we can definetely do it." She smiles and returns her eyes to her notebook. She seemed like she wanted to say more. But I won't push her.
Ashely's POV
She wanted to go to Grey's tonight and my body just doesn't feel up to it. It's not her fault I'm this way. It's Aidan and my doing. It takes two to tango. I want to go to Grey's but I don't know. We'll see. First class period ended. Spencer gives a small smile and walks by me and out the door. I pack my things and I wait patiently until lunchtime. Last time I told him that I was pregnant he took it fairly well. I just hope he doesn't get any ideas about us being together since I'm carrying his child. Ugh. How did this get so screwed up? The last couple classes went by way too quick and now I'm waiting in the quad for Aidan. I see Spencer and Kyla talking at a table. They seem to be getting close. Spencer seems to carry a small smile on her face throughout her and Kyla's conversation. I wonder what they are talking about.
"Hey Ash. You wanted to talk?" Aidan knockes me out of my thoughts. I look up at him and motion for him to sit down. I should have told him outside of school but I couldn't deal with his reaction.
"Yeah..Erm. You remember the last time we had sex?" I see his face expression. He's fucking grinning from ear to ear. Eww.
"Yeah. How could I forget?" Hmph. Of course you wouldn't. I wish I had forgotten it.
"Well I'm pregnant." I blurted out. Oh well got to get it out on the open anyways. Why beat around the bush?
"What? But- I thought we used protection?" Hmm. I thought so too. But then I remember we didn't.
Flashback
"God, I want to take you right here and now" Aidan heavily breathed into my ear. His breathing was turning me on. But I tried to push him away.
"No. No. Spencer will be here in an hour. We can't. I can't. This has to stop." Then I felt his hands up my shirt pinching and pulling at my hard nipples. That feels so good. But it's soooo wrong, Davies!
"Mmm. You sure you want me to stop? You know I'm good with quickies as well as long hot passionate sex." The memories of us having sex for almost three hours flooded back to me and I let out a soft moan as he put his mouth on my hard nipples. Shit. I'm so sensitive right now.
"Aidan..Please.." I beg him. But I'm not sure what I'm begging him to do. Stop or fuck me.
"I can't." I felt his hardness against my leg. Oh my...That's another thing about Aidan he is very well endowed in that area. He lifts my shirt off me and then I heard him zipper down his jeans and pull his jeans and boxers down. I looked down and yes he is VERY well endowed. Maybe I can just jerk him off.
"I'll just jerk you off.." I say between kisses.
"No..I need to be inside of you, Ash." And with that my skirt rode up and my panties were down at my ankels. He lifted me up and that's when I knew he was inside of me.
End of Flashback
"We didn't. It's yours." I tried to keep myself from being angry at him and mostly at myself for being so careless and stupid.
"Wow..I..Wow. I dont even know what to say.." As usual.
"I was going to go to the clinic and get rid of it..."
"Wait. What? No. You can't. You better not. I want to help raise it with you. We didn't get the chance last time. Maybe this time we can do that. Maybe we're meant.."
Oh hell no. I know where this is going.
"No, Aidan. We're not meant to be together. I'm meant to be with Spencer. And if that's the only reason you want me to keep it just to be with you well you need a reality check." I stood up. I was getting pissed by the second. I knew he'd pull some stupid shit.
"I'm tired of hearing about Spencer this..Spencer that. You sure as hell wasn't thinking about her when I was fucking you." That's when my hand connected to his face. I slapped him. I never thought I would ever have to do that with Aidan. But lately he's been changing to an asshole. Shit. Spencer is walking over.
"Ashley are you okay?" I look at her and I tried to hold back my tears.
"We're fine Spencer. Do you mind? Ash and I have things to work out." He grabs my arm tightly and pulls me over by the lockers. I yank away from him What has gotten into him lately?
"What do you think you're doing?" I hate how he is acting right now.
"If you're not with me then I don't want the baby. Simple as that." Excuse me? This mother fu-...Ugh. I want to ram his head into that locker.
"Get away from me Aidan. I will decide. And you will never know until its too late to do anything about it." He glared at me and moved closer to me.
"I'm sorry, Ash. I shouldn't have said that. Can we work something out?"
"Like what?"
"Go out together. Hang out. Be the way we used to be before Spencer came into the picture." He really needs his head examined.
"You don't get it do you? I don't want to be with you anymore. I never have. Yes you were there for me before and then I realized I don't love you like that. I love Spencer and only Spencer. Can't you get it through your thick head? I...DONT...WANT...YOU..!" I storm off towards my car and get in and sit there. I'm shaking right now. My hormones are going crazy. Five minutes later I hear a knock on the car window..
Spencer's POV
I noticed Ashly looked a little upset. I couldn't help but walk over to her and see what's going on. I hope Aidan isn't being an asshole.
"Ashely you okay?" Aidan turns to me and glares at me. Bastard.
"We're fine Spencer. Do you mind? Ash and I have things to work out." Before I could respond he drags Ashley towards the lockers and they began to talk again. I can't hear everything. I stood there watching the whole thing. I can't imagine what's she going through right now. But she made her bed now she has to lay in it. Then a few minutes pass and Ash screams at him and storms off. I walk over to Aidan.
"What do you want Spencer?" I grit my teeth and attempt to talk to this fool.
"Why are you doing this, Aidan? You know she's not feeling well right now. Especially in her condition." He looks at me as if he was going to strangle me.
"This is none of your business. Every since you came into the picture you've ruined any chance I have with Ashley." He is out of his mind, I tell you.
"No. It was never me. And you know that. She stopped loving you like that before I even came into the picture."
"Then why was she coming to me all the time. And not you? Hmm?" I balled my fists up trying to hold back my anger. He can really hit some shitty buttons right now.
"I hate to admit this but she still felt connected to you. And she probably always will. She realized too late what she has done. Why can't you get over it?"
"Because she's now having my kid. I can't and I won't. So you better not stand in my way" He pushes past me and walks off. I sigh. Before I could follow Ashley Madison stops me. This just keeps getting better and better.
"Did I hear right? Ash is knocked up? Again? Damn she can't keep her legs closed if it killed her" That's it. This fucking slut has pissed me the hell off. She turns around and laughs with her little cheer sluts.
"Hey Madison.." She turns around and I punch her right dead in her face. All I hear was 'crack' and blood squirted everywhere on her uniform. She fell to the ground.
"You...BITCH. You broke my nose!" That I did, Go Carlin it's your birthday!
"I'm sure your daddy can steal from some charity and buy you a new one."
"Fuck you. You're going to regret this, puta"
"Stay away from me and definetely stay away from Ashely. If you don't you'll have to get your dad to rob a bank to get you a new face"
"Psycho.." Sherry said as I walked passed her. I don't give a fuck. Those bitches need someone to teach them a lesson. I'm tired of playing the nice guy. Fuck them. I walk over to Ashely's car and knock on the window. She jumps a little and she seems surprised to see me.
Ashley's POV
I unlock the passenger's door and Spencer opens up and gets in. She looks sympathetically at me. I'm still shaking and she notices it. She gently grabs my hand and holds it. I began to relax a little.
"I'm sorry.." I don't know why I said it. But that's all I could say.
"You have no reason to be sorry for what happened today, Ash. Aidan is asshole. Who only cares about what he wants."
"No. I am sorry for doing those things with him and not coming to you like I should have. I thought I could handle it and I couldn't. I'm just so sorry."
"Shh.. It's alright. I'm still not going to forget about all of this. We both have our lives to live. We both need to work on things separetely and...together." She said 'together'. I feel butterflies forming in the pit of my stomach. I just want to pull her into a hug.
"You're right. One day at a time." I look down at her right hand and its smeared blood on them. Now I'm worried. "What happened to your hand?" She looks down as if she was shocked to see blood on them
"Oh right..Madison. Her nose connected with my fist." What? No way. I should have been there. Spencer has changed. I need to get used to this new Spencer. It's a little weird but interesting.
"Heh. She deserved it. She always deserve an ass whooping every now and again." I laugh a little. Spencer laughs as well. It's nice to hear her laugh. It's like music to my ears. We both connect eyes with one another, her deep azure eyes threw me into a trance. I tried to look away but I couldn't my eyes wanted to stay like this forever and forever. Two minutes later she breaks the contact and I come back to reality, unfortunately.
"Sorry but lunch is almost over. And I can't afford to miss any classes. Senior year is almost over. Did you apply to any colleges yet?"
"Yeah..a few. UCLA. NYU..."I trailed off. She looked at me stunned. I was going to tell her about that but I never got around to it.
"NYU?..Whoa..wow. When did you apply?" There's the question I didn't want to answer.
"A few months ago. I was going to tell you but I never got a chance. I'm sorry" I look away afraid to see her face expression.
"Ash..It's great! I can't believe it. I hope you get it in. I heard it's a great school. Besides you can persue your music career out there." She seemed way too happy about it. I mean I'm glad she is..But a apart of me wanted to her to feel a little angry by it.
"Thank you. What about you?"
"I'll probably stay close by. I like it out here." I understood that.
"Cool. Well I guess we should get back." We both began to get out of the car and we walked towards our classes before we went our separate ways she stopped. I turned around and came up to her.
"I'm glad we talked Ash. It feels really nice. I can't wait to see you Saturday." She smiled. I smiled back happily. I so can't wait either.
"Me too. See you on Sat. Oh and have fun tonight." She smiled and walked off to her classroom. I shook my head and smiled to myself. I can't believe this is happening. I don't want this to end.
Spencer's POV
After I got into my classroom I kept thinking of what she said. NYU. I mean..that's 3,000 miles away. I never expected her to move that drastic..at least not right away. I had to play it off as if I were happy for her. Which I was but I was really sad. I am sad. I'm so going to miss her. Maybe tonight will take my mind off of few things. Someone knocked me out of my thoughts..
"Hey Spence. I can't wait for tonight. What time you want to pick me up?"
"Around 8? That good?"
"Yep. I'll be ready." She smiles. She has such a cute smile.
"Okay." I smiled back and began to pay attention to class. Not realizing what I'm agreeing to would probably have a consequence.
