Fall for you

Aaron's Story

Instead of leaving her at the hotel, i decided to let her come to my place. She didn't have a problem with that. I helped her inside the house and sat her down on the couch. I put her bags in the room that used to be hers. I gave her a glass of water. My hand touched hers. I miss her touch, i miss the feel of her skin on mine. I knew that i still loved her. When we touched, she looked shyly away, almost like she felt something to but she didn't want to admit it. It was almost like she was afraid to. She was perfect. She was everything that Haley wasn't. There was a thick silence in the room for a few minutes until she broke it.

"Before when you were talking to Rossi. Were you telling the truth. Did you mean what you said?" she asked looking into her water as if there was a possibility that the answer might be hiding somewhere in the glass.

"To tell you the truth, no i didn't mean it. You are irreplaceable, no one will ever be able to come close to the kind of woman that you are. I love you. I always have and i always will. I know that you might not feel the same way as i do, but i just think that you should know how much that i cared, and how much i still care." i said as i moved to the couch beside her. She kinda sighed a little. She looked over at me.

"Why did you do it then Aaron, why did you try and single me out from everyone else?" she asked me, but i didn't have an answer for her. I really didn't know why i did that.

"I am not sure. But what i am sure of, is that i am not afraid to admit that i need you still, i cant live with out you. You were and are everything to me. You are my life and you always will be no matter what. I don't know how to tell you this but i will never be over you." i said. She just sat there and looked at me. I leaned in and she finished the thought that i was trying to convey. She kissed me. During that kiss. I remembered everything that my relationship was about with her. Her soft voice, when she would whisper i love you when we were sitting around and watching movies. Her light touch on my skin when we were in bed in the morning just waking up. Feeling the weight of her head on my chest when i would wake up in the middle of the night and hold her tightly. I missed everything about her. I wanted to go back to the way that we were. She pulled away from the kiss and looked at me. I put my hand on the side of her face.

"i love you" she said lightly.

"i have waited for ever to hear you say that. I needed to hear you say that. You don't know how much i want to be with you. To feel you next to me at night to feel the touch of your skin on mine." i said to her.

"Don't do this to me Aaron, don't make me feel this way. I shouldn't love you anymore. Aaron i cant love you anymore. I shouldn't but i do. I know that i should not be doing this." Ashley said to me. She started to lightly cry.

"Then don't love me. No one says that you have to love me if you don't want to." i said to her.

"But i want to love you. More then anything. I know that this would kill Spencer. That is something that i am not willing to do. I love Spencer." Ashley said to me.

"Like i said, don't love me. Love Spencer. But let me love you. Promise me that after all of this you will let me love you with out flaw. That you will will always love me even though you shouldnt."i said to her. She looked into my eyes and stared. She hesitated. I could see the way she was starting to think.

"Aaron, i promise that i will always love you, even though i might not admit it. I will love you, more then the world itself. You will always be my life."Ashley said now kind of shying away, she knew that what she had just said to me, was something that she should not have said at all. She knew that i would always love her. If she ever needed anyone to talk to i would be the first person there. I may have tried to push her away at first, but it was because i didn't want this relationship to end up like my last one. Going no where, hitting a dead end. I worked with her, she knew how obsessed that i could get with my job sometimes i did care about my job more then my love life. With Ashley it was different. She was always there reminding me that there was more to life then the BAU. There was a life that i was needing to live but i never did because my work always took the front seat to that. I was never concerned about having to explain to Haley because she knew that this job would make me have to travel a lot. I knew that if she was always there on the plane with me that, what happened in my last marriage wouldn't happen to this one. Somehow it did and now Ashley is the one paying for it. I never told her this, but if things would have turned out better. I would have asked her to marry me. I wanted to spend the rest of my life with her... hell i still do. I would marry her in a heart beat but now i know that wouldn't happen. She was with Spencer and i would just have to deal with that. She will always be in my life just not the way that i wish she would be. I went to bed thinking hard that night. After a little while i heard a light knock on the door.

"Come in" i said. I heard her make her way over to the side of the bed she sat down. I reached over to the side of the nightstand and turned on the lamp. I looked at her. "Whats wrong?" i asked her. She just kind of looked at me.