Your goodbyes.
Your soft sighs.
Do you really not care at all?
When in your eyes
I see your lies
And your world starting to fall.
-Chapter 4-
You're really pathetic.. you know that? The voice in Reno's head chided. "Shut up." He told himself out loud, burrying his face into the pillows to shed unwanted tears. Litterally crying himself to sleep.
Hours passed.
The answering machine sounded with a message from June telling Reno he found another businessman on his way home and would be out the rest of the night. It awoke the sleeping redhead back into the nightmare of his life. He went to the bathroom miserably and took a long shower to clear his head of a sleep plauged by memories of his ex. Once out he started to drink. With the amber mistress of whisky at his side Reno ignored everything around him. It didn't take long before he was smashed and prowling the streets.
Visiting bars, flirting for drinks, giving head in a bathroom stall, wondering around some more for something else to do. Reno was in his second element. His brain hummed with the buzz of the liquids he fed his stomach. Not giving a damn about where his feet led him. Vaugely he remembered checking his watch. Nearly 2 am in the morning after seeing Rufus the day before and having a blast! Yeah... he could get used to this... it wasn't so bad. No one nagging him. Just people moaning his name into the night. It wasn't so bad..
He climbed stairs for what seemed like forever. "Where's you leadin' me feet? To the top of some buildin' to jump off? Huh? Heh heh... I feel like I'm flying already!" Reno laughed at his own stupid behaviour, swaggering from side to side as he climbed. He yelled a curse to the air after tripping over the nightcrews mop bucket. "FUCKEN GODDAMN THING!" He kicked it then continued on feeling like he won a random battle and the victory fanfair should be playing at any second.
"Yahoo! Watashi-wa katazei!" He sung the words that he had sung when he was a rookie. Everytime he had beaten Rude at something those words escaped his mouth in a celebratory cheer. "Heh... Watashi-wa... no wonder why Rude thought I wuzza chick the firs...firsss... time 'e met me..." The thought apparently struck him as outragously funny. He doubled over in laughter nearly falling over onto the marble flooring.
"Oooooooohhh shiney! Hey! Who's that handsome devil?" He smiled at his reflection and stuck out his tongue at it before moving on. He quickly got lost and began pounding on doors for some help. People were out for the evening. No one answered. He pounded harder screaming curses in Japanese getting more lost until finally just falling and laughing his ass off about it. "I'M KING OF THE FUCKING WORLD!" He laughed from being overtired and the alcohol.
The door he was leaning against suddenly swung open behind him. The turk stealth and swiftness failed to catch him before he hit his head on the floor. Standing over him was a rather unimpressed Rufus Shinra with a questioning stare.
"Reno... what are you doing on the floor?" The president asked in his usual no-nonsence tone.
Reno took one look at the president and burst out laughing again. "Where's the stairs?! My feet wanna fly!"
"What? Reno..? Are you dr--"
"MORE DRUNK THAN CID FLYING THE HIGHWIND!!!! WOO!!! Can I borrow the chopper yo?!" He yelled, flailing in an attempt to stand up.
Rufus sighed and shook his head. "How the hell did you get in here?"
Reno waved a security access key with a stupid grin on his face that said 'Na na na na naa naaaaa!' "The building loves me!"
Rufus snatched the key away from him trying to slam the door on Reno before he could recover. However this just accomplished catching him off gaurd and making him lose balance. Falling on top of Rufus, who unwillingly caught him, Reno laughed and made a long whistle with the sound effect of a bomb blowing up at the end. He got up and crawled over Rufus to the mini fridge he knew was behind the filing cabnet. Rufus got up quickly dusting himself off and striding to stand infront of Reno. The former turk stopped when the top of his head softly bumped into his former charge's legs.
"Noooo! The white wall of doom!" He giggled groping up until he on his knees staring straight at the blonde's crotch. "I know how to bring it down!" His brilliant idea was that of grabbing Rufus's ass and pushing it towards his open mouth. Rufus blushed and stepped back, sending the drunk face-planting into the floor.
"What are you here for Reno?" Rufus asked in defeat.
"That's a grood question... And I'll tell you the anss-were.. in... a pigs fly momen' assooon as I think of it..." He pointed up from the floor as if it would help prove his point.
Rufus shook his head again walking away. "Get out before I call security."
"GOT IT!" Reno grabbed Rufus's ankle scrambling to get up. "The bathroom! I needs the bathroom yo!"
"Fine. It's over in the corner. After you're finished I never want to see you again." Rufus was serious and cold but he doubted Reno noticed.
"HAI!" He saluted and nearly tripped on his own feet trying to run there.
Rufus heard giggles, a short-lived drunken ballad to Reno's shoes, and a pause before a mad scramble to vomit. "Dear god I hope he got it in the toilet..." He murmured rubbing his forehead. "Reno?" He called from the door. "Reno are you ok in there?" With no reply Rufus sighed and opened the door expecting to see the man passed out in his own puddle of puke.
The former turk looked paler than Rufus had remembered seeing him in the dim lighting of the office. His hair slid over his shoulder and he clung to the toilet for dear life. Rufus winced at the sounds coming from the redhead who tried desperately to keep his hair back. Pity sank in and Rufus let his body move ahead of his mind. He gently stroaked Reno's hair holding it back as the man gave praise to the porclean goddess once more. He busied himself with retreaving a few tissues and dampening a cloth.
"S-ssorrie..." Reno slurred wiping his eyes and blowing his nose on the tissues. He wasn't going to last if Rufus turned him away now. Another part of Rufus's mind told him to let Reno leave and live through his own misery. Whatever made the man decide to haul his ex-lover's ass to the personal appartment that resided on the 80th floor of ShinRa Tower certainly cared enough to still have a fraction of hope that Reno would change his mind.
"I know this place!" Reno sounded astonished at this realization as he hung off of Rufus's left shoulder.
"Yes. You'll be staying here for tonight. You're in no shape to go looking for your way home." Rufus heaved Reno onto the couch.
"Heh heh.. You make it sound like I'm a lost puppy yo!"
"Sometimes I wonder.." Rufus collapsed on the couch beside Reno. "You're heavy."
"Nope! 132 pounds!" His stupid grin was contagious. Rufus let out a small chuckle before getting up to raid his fridge for bread suppliments. "You're sexy when you do that.. the way your eyes just kinda light up likes chrissmus trees.." He watched the blonde from his perch.
"Don't start. I remember how you get when you're drunk." Rufus brought him crackers and a tall glass of water. "Here."
"I juss figured since itsa dream an' all you'd wanna.. you know..." Reno wriggled his eyebrows suggestively.
"It's not a dream Reno. And if that's all you came here to do, you can forget it." Rufus refused to sit in case Reno hadn't changed.
"See.. I'm totally passed out in a gutter somewhere.. or in some sleazy hotel.. hell maybe I was lucky enough to make it home.. But I'm totally dreamin' yo." He nodded seriously. "You're just too damn hot to be real.. plus.. I.. I promised myself no matter how drunk I got I wouldn't come see you."
"Then you're completely sober." The president folded his arms and leaned against the wall.
"No I'm deffffinately drunk out of my skull. It's gonna hurt gettin' up tomorrow.." He took a swig of the water and pulled a face. "SHIT! THAT'S NOT VODKA!"
"No it's water. Drink it." Rufus ordered. Reno out of a fuzzy-mind or Turk habit did as he was told.
"But it's sooooo gross!" He whined.
"Drink." Rufus gave a slow blink ready to fall into the bed that awaited him in the next room.
Once more Reno drank. "See what I mean yo? If this wasn't a dream you wouldn't be so nice... You'd turn me out on my drunken ass... I'd be shit out of luck."
"Why do you say that?" Rufus was trying to keep him awake so he could sober up.
" 'Cause it always made me think... why'd you'd... choose a guy like me over someone like Tseng.. or... or... i dunno some chick or sumthin'. You always seemed too grood for me. Like you deserved better. I mean damn I was a down right asshole to you near the end there. I guess I thought you'd dump me firs'. Make it easy on yourself..."
Rufus stayed quiet watching Reno munch on crackers and drink water like it was his first meal in a month. His heart told him not to believe anything the drunk said but something reminded Shinra's leader that it's fastest Turk was an honest drunk. Reno suddenly stumbled around the coffee table to Rufus, hugging him.
"I'm happy this is a dream.. 'cause... 'cause it means I can tell you I lied. I still love you Rufus.."
Forgive and forget.
Live without regret.
Because love's not worth the fight.
Shut up and kiss me!
Fucking just miss me!
And hold me close tonight.
