It had been a week, since Jamie kissed me. Now every time I go near him my heart beats really fast. I don't know, its so hard to talk to him... I choke whenever I try.
I sat on the swing on the playground, tracing my foot in the snow covered ground. Hopefully, Jamie wouldn't find me here... Cold wind hits my face, stinging my cheek. "Ignoring him won't help." I hear a voice, I look over to see Pippa. She is also one of my friends, not as close as me and Jamie though. "Well, I can't get anywhere by talking to him." I sighed.
"Gemini, He thinks you hate him." She crossed her arms, and gave me one of those cold glares. "Truthfully, I have no idea how I feel.."
"He told me about it...The kiss..." Pippa seemed to have a hard time talking about it as well. "Really? Did he tell anyone else?" I looked at my boots, Pippa sat on the other swing next to me. "Why are you acting like its a big deal? You take everything to extremes sometimes..." She crossed her arms over her chest.
"I don't know..." I replied, closing my eyes.
"Gem?" I heard Jamie's voice as I looked up. He was running in our direction, his face was red. He looked like he was crying... Pippa stood up, from the swing, as Jamie got closer. "I'll see you later Gemini..." Pippa walked away.
Jamie sat on the swing next to me. "Why have you been avoiding me?" his voice was rasped. "I don't know, I guess I just... I don't know..." I shrugged, unable to find words to explain how I felt. He sighed. "I've been thinking Gem... And I think I can finally say it...". I looked at him with a serious face, what was he getting to? "Say what?" I asked, somewhat scared.
"I love you..." He looked at me, was he joking?
"Wait...What?" My voice was shaky, and that knot in my stomach got tighter.
He took a deep breath. "I said.. I love you." Did I hear it right? Maybe the cold is just getting to me. I mean, we are only ten. Were kids, no way he could seriously mean love... Maybe like best friend love, but love love? My head started to spin, with every reason leading to the same answer. I always thought of Jamie being my best friend, he'd always help me with homework and be there for me when I'm upset... But I never thought of him being anything more than a friend...
He just stared at me, searching my face for something that wasn't there. He eventually looked at the ground, a few tears fell from his eyes. "Jamie..." I put my hand on his shoulder. He looked back up at me, and I kissed his forehead. "Please don't cry..." I said, and I felt my heart race again when he smiled at me. Maybe I did have feelings for him, they were in there. I just didn't want to believe they were in there.
