Chapter 4: The Pain of Loving Someone
Hey guys, im back! I'm trying to work with my schedule, but everyone messaging me with 'update more,' and then saying how I have many grammatical errors just doesn't make sense, im not perfect, so deal with some errors or don't read… Also, probably the shortest chapter I've ever written but that's because of the holidays, so the next chapter in 2-19 will be back to it's long glory
Hope your having an amazing Holiday Break and happy holidays I'll try to squeeze in one more chapter before 2019! Todays song is…
Lovely; Billie Elish & Khalid
Oh, I hope one day I'll make it out of here. Even if it takes all night or a hundred years. Need a place to hide, but I can't find one near. Wanna feel alive, outside I can't fight my fear.
Isn't it lovely, all alone. Heart made of glass, my mind of stone. Tear me to pieces, skin to bone. Hello, welcome home.
RPOV:
"Ugh, god it hurts, please make it stop" I'm practically screaming with the pain shooting off in my head. It hurts. Not even bond hurts, it's as if everything is coming back.
When the bond "Disappeared" so did my shadow-kissed abilities. But now that it's been restored (I don't know what else to call it) It's all hitting me at once. Every ghost attacking, everything I've learned how to control bond-wise is gone. I kept getting pulled into her head and every time I came back out, everything started again.
"Rose, you have to calm down" Sydney was trying to soothe me. I had called her since the pain started and she came and helped me sneak out unnoticed. Where we were going now, beyond me.
"Ugh" I screamed again, ramming my fingers into my head. This was so much worse. Worse than the feeling on the plan to and back from Court, worse than when words were open. I couldn't feel my head. It was as if it just something connected to my body.
The feelings, images, and emotions shooting through my body and intertwined with my own was so unbearable. It was a familiar feeling, yes. But one with much pain.
But of course, with the bond back, so was my shadow-kissed "abilities". I felt ghosts blurring my vision and invading my mind. It was too hard to put my boundaries up, one because of the pain I was in, and because I didn't remember how. As if my muscle memory disappeared.
I kept slipping in and out of Lissa's head. …
"Rose!" Lissa exclaimed pacing around the room. I could feel her devastation, sadness, relief, but Stay calm' and then let out more shaky breaths.
"Why? Please just go-"
'Rose!?' (A/N: Bond Talk , when Rose is talking, hers will be surround with " and when Lissa is talking it will be surrounded with ' I know, confusing, but the best I got)
"Hello?"
'Omg, it is you, rose-'
"Rose?" I heard someone calling me from my body but I couldn't leave, I needed to-
"Ow!" I screamed jumping out of my seat and lissa's, someone just smacked me across my face. I turned to my right to see Sydney kneeling by the car door trying to get out.
"Thanks, was a shove just a little to subtle?" I asked practically growling as I can feel the tingling of where she had slapped me.
"Sorry"
" Yup, like I wasn't in enough pain already"
"Yeah, what was happening with you?" Sydney asked, curious.
"I- to be honest I don't know. All I know was I was in Lissa's head and talking to her"
Sydney nodded her head, taking everything in. "Rose, I know you never really told me everything of what happened but, why can't you go back? Just say hello and let them know you're ok?" Sydney rambled
"Sydney, I- for one I have problems I left unsolved but now this is a Queen case, they want the mystery of Strigoi gone. Sure, them missing is a good thing but it could be a Strigoi trap so they wont stop. And they can't know I'm here or else something worse may happen" I finished, out of breath.
She just nodded and got back into the car, "Well, I found your next mission." Sydney continued…
"Yeah? What's that?"
"Well, we got a report, from actually Dimitri Belikov" I internally groaned, of course "and at night there was Strigoi sightings by that mall more and more, and there's believed to be tunnels under, like that one year with the massacres" Sydney finished.
"Well, then it looks like I'm on my way to the tunnels" I sighed, closing my eyes.
When I opened my eyes, I saw a big sign that said 'Sunny-Smiles Motel' oh yes, because you typically go to Motels for good reasons.
When looking around the car I could see Sydney getting ready to get out and head in, sometimesI wondered why she even deals with me. I put her through so much but over time, we were there for each other. Besides, I'm fighting monsters for humans now too, I'm helping her just as much as she's helping me.
Looking at the GPS I could see we were about 5 or so minutes from the Mall which meant we were close to everyone. Lissa, Christian, Dimitri, and… Tasha.
"Hey, you ready?" Sydney asked, and I nodded.
We both jumped out of the car and walked in, we signed in with he clerk and got ready to go to our rooms. Sydney got a conjoining room, so she just stepped into my room.
"I'm going to get going" I told Sydney, putting my stake in my boots and pulling my hair down to hide my face, she nodded and said "Good Luck"
"I don't need luck" I smirked before slipping out of the door.
I left the Motel and started walking down the Familiar streets. I knew this area very well, I've killed hundreds of Strigoi here. They wait for Humans to leave the Motel then they attack. I shook the thought out of my head and focused on walking to the mall to check everything out. Sunrise would begin soon, so this was the perfect time.
While walking, I passed my recent Motel, the one with everyone in it. Reluctantly I couldn't fight my body while I walked to the window of the first room. There, I saw them.
I saw lissa, her hands in her golden locks and Christian trying to comfort. She was probably in pain as well, from the way I looked, I could still hear her reaching out to me but the more I focused on other things, the less I slipped in. Easy right? Well not really when the last living Drgaomir who is your best friend is in a place lurking with Strigoi. Then, not easy.
But looking at everyone, seeing Dimitri, his hair disheveled, looking tired, I couldn't help but think he was the most handsome man I'd ever seen. And he was, I felt my heart flutter at the thought of our days at the Academy, then the darkness attacks…
I closed my eyes, getting rid of the thoughts, but when I opened them back up, getting ready to leave my family behind, a scar-faced woman with blazing blue eyes stared at me through the window. Tasha.
"Oh, ****"
