BELLA'S POV
I rolled over in my bed, staring at the window. It was raining, as usual, and the raindrops splattering across the pane blurred and distorted my view of the outside. All I could see was a general dark green and black. I shivered and curled up under my quilt. It was odd how I knew that I would be so much warmer with the equivalent of a block of ice lying next to me. I missed Edward. He'd looked so hurt and bewildered when I had last seen him.
Why did I have to be like this? This curse had destroyed my life. Why couldn't I be human? And really, it wasn't as if I was completely inhuman. I was simply inhumanly strong and fast. I sighed. The truth was, I was a vampire, minus the blood-sucking, colored eyes, good looks, and immortality. It sounded pathetic. I was a vampire without all the perks.
I knew where I came from, and it wasn't Krypton. I came from exactly where I was, truthfully, but it wasn't where I belonged. I belonged in the sun, in a friendly suburban house near the neighborhood pool, a place where it hardly ever rained. Or was that where I wanted to be? Was I lying to myself? How could I belong in the sun? It was merely desire, just a lie I had told myself, a mask I'd hid behind. I knew, deep down, that I belonged in the shadows, hidden, where no one could find me. I belonged in dark corners, under a veil, somewhere where I could be invisible. Where Edward was.
It was good that Edward knew the truth. I had to keep telling myself that. Now maybe he wouldn't feel the need to be so overprotective. I laughed, and then felt sick. I wished that Edward would come. Suddenly, I blinked. I sat up and stared hard out the window. A face was staring back at me.
I jumped out of bed and hurried to the window, unlatching it and jerking it up. He hopped over the sill and hugged me. I smiled into his chest. I looked up to see him grinning. "I thought you might need some comforting. You usually sleep with your window open," said Jacob. I pulled back.
"You spy on my house?" I asked, raising an eyebrow.
"I don't spy on it," he contradicted, "I just check on you. I want to make sure you're safe."
"Edward can make sure that I'm safe," I reminded him.
"Yeah, but your bloodsucker isn't here right now, is he?" he reminded me, gesturing to the empty room. I sighed.
"No."
