I've decided to continue with the fanfic, but it'll take awhile since I found out my school schedule will have many honors classes and such. I'm sorry, this chapter was suppose to come sooner but I got held up in NY, and then I find out my interent is gone. By the time you get this it'll be fixed! XD I hope so at least...otherwise there is a miracle going around here! btw, I'm 16 now! I guess I'm still a bit shocked by it, but I feel the need to badger my dad for a new I Pod...my old one is the really old I Pod Suffle, it's so dumb! Doesn't work the way it use to...

Enjoy the ifc, sorry about the rant...and the complaining...XD love?

Title:Why the Pain Lasts

Rating:M for Mature

Summery:Kagome just wants to fullfill her duty as a lover to a demon lord. Only to have her heart broken so badly to land herself into a coma state. Losing her love at the same time too. AU

Disclaimer:I don't own any of the characters, Rumiko Takahashi does

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Kagome's Mind

" No more..please..no more..." Kagome begged as tears trickled down her cheeks. Her eyes brimmed with tears, each falling one after the other. Her body, she could not move. Her mind, her soul, her everything was in pain.

"One more, this will be the last, I promise." The little Kagome chanted until Kagome agreed.

Flashback

An elegantly dressed Taiyoukai waited for his court to come down from her room patiently. Soon foot steps were heard as an equally elegant and beautiful creature arrived, a young lady with flowing wavey black hair came into view. She wore the most beautiful and expensive midnight blue satan silk dress. Her eyes the color of the night sky looked away from the Taiyoukai. She was still shy about being with him, since he is a higher status then she, and back then, it mattered.

As she reached the bottom Sesshomaru gently took her hands in his and kissed each one of them before leading her to their limo. Kagome through out the whole ride would look out the window and she was worried that something might happen at this ball.

"You-" he started before decideding to not say anything at all.

"No go on, it's okay." she knew he had wanted to say something, but it worried her that he had that political look on at the moment.

"It's nothing, we have arrived." He slowly gotten out first before helping her out and lead her to the ball.

At the door you could see the many higher status Lords and Ladies, each more cold then the other. The way they stood up straighter as Kagome passed them told her that they were showing her that she should know her place. She could feel the tears coming, but she held them in for Sesshomaru. She had caused him enough trouble by being with him. To her surprise Sesshomaru let out a few warning glares and growls to certain Lords that he knew would even try to hurt Kagome once they walk on by them.

"It's okay, you don't have to do that." Kagome whispered to Sesshomaru. Her eyes betrayed what she felt. Her smile was fake, her eyes teared up even more as she soon realized she could not fool Sesshomaru with her fake smile.

"Don't let them get to you, once we mate you will be of a higher status then them," he explained, trying to comfort her in his way, "Then they will regret to have ever thought of you as a lower class.

The day passed faster for Kagome after that. She stood by Sesshomaru, if not then by his step-mother, Izayou. Izayou had actually told off quite a few demoness for Kagome in the pass. Already though, Kagome wished she could just disappear, she knew she was unwanted in this place. So, she told Sesshomaru she had to excuse herself to the bathroom. But she didn't come back to him. He soon realized she had ran. She couldn't take the limo, because they all had left after dropping them off. Sesshomaru ran out of the mansion and into their garden. He couldn't sniff her out, she wore perfume. Her scent covered, he started to panic. This was a dangerous place for Kagome to be alone for more then 2 minutes.

His eyes began to bleed red, all the demons near by could feel his rage. They cowered away, knowing if they got inbetween what he wanted they would suffer death worse then just deadly poison. Sesshomaru began to panic some more, then he heard her. He could hear her sniffling, as her foot steps shuffle into the woods. Not wasting anymore time he ran towards her, but he didn't expect to see her in that predicament.

Kagome's dress was torn, but not all of it was by tree branches. Her feet bare, the once beautifully gemed slippers were gone. Her jewlery made of silver and sapphires were all gone, except her earrings and a small ring. The engagement ring he gave her was still there. Her eyes were sprouting out rivers of tears, but she didn't look in pain. She sniffled again.

Sesshomaru walked to her carefully, but as soon as he caught a sight of her eyes he stopped. His rage came back. Kagome looked dead, her eyes showed no emotion. She didn't even try to wipe away her tears. He ran to her side, but because of this her arms flailed as she tried to scratch him. As she did this he noticed more wounds on her. Claw marks on her arms and back. But the worse were the bruises on her cheek and legs. She was still innocent, but barely.

"No more, go away..." she said in a quiet voice as she slowed down from being to tired to try and fight off Sesshomaru. Her mind wasn't in the right place. She didn't know why but she wanted to stop here. She wanted to disappear completely before anyone else tries to hurt her.

Sesshomaru quickly wrapped his arm around her and held her as close as possible without hurting her. "It's okay, it's me. Your okay now." He tried to force out the words as calmly as possible, but his body had already began to slowly transform into his real form. "Tell me who..." he whispered into her ears before his transformation was complete.

He never did get his answer, she tried to hide many things from him before. But none this bad. Why was she trying to protect the demon that had tried to rape her? He was angry at her, at the demon, at Izayou, at himself for not being there to protect her, for being fooled so easily by her. If he couldn't protect her now, how can he when they mate, what about the pups they were going to have? He was angry, the demon was strong, because there was no scent on Kagome to identify him.

End Flashback

"Why didn't you tell him the person who did this?"

"If you did we wouldn't have been born..."

"It doesn't matter though, we are born now. And we will protect you."

Kagome closed her eyes as her last tears were spent. Her sight was fuzzy, but there was darkness around her again. But not as dark as from before. She was back, she was concious again, but no one was next to her. She felt alone, she felt like she had forgotten something important.

Looking to the side table, she saw all her gifts. Flowers from Hojo and her many friends. Chocolates, cards, and balloons piled up along the table. A cat plushie that resembled Buyo laid in a basket with animal crackers arranged all around him. Smiling as she giggled at the image that it had sent her.

But what caught her attention was a penguin plush toy. It's blue silk material looked untouchable in the night. The eyes as black as the abyss, but glistened with light and happiness. The cute little yellow bow rested on the 'neck' of the penguin. Kagome could see no card, but a bouquet of lilies lay next to it.

She had cried, but she didn't know why.

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Done! Yay, really long flashback. I hope you like it. Let's just take a guess at who the almost rapest was. Naraku doesn't really exist in this fic, but he kinda does, only in the form of the youngest Kagome in the real Kagome's mind. More music helped me in this chapter. I'm so glad I have music to help bring out the creative soul in anybody like me. I've also been sleeping really late...I know bad. I have bags under my eyes, but yeah. All is well.

Love you for reading!

Please review, I like to hear what you think and any constructive help would be nice. Grammer is still bad, but I'm learning. X3