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I refused to leave my bed. It wasn't just that I was mentally weak from not getting much sleep over the past 2 days, but life in general was tiring. It was like my sleep deprivation was causing me to consider what the hell I was doing, still living in my mother's house.

"Leah?" Mom knocked softly on my open bedroom door. She came in, a tray full of soup and crackers. "How are you feeling?"

Shitty. "I'm fine," I said.

Mom gave me a knowing look, before she placed the tray on my desk. "You aren't sleeping are you?"

"I'm not tired," I lied, the dark bags under my eyes probably giving me away.

"Lee... I warned you they wouldn't stop."

I clenched my jaw, and twisted the fabric from sheets. "You have to make them," I whispered, looking down. I sounded like a child, begging her mother for candy.

"Honey, I can't make them stop. You have to do that..." she gave me a pitiful smile and sat down on my bed. "Have you talked to Jacob?"

"No," I shook my head.

"He's probably having the same issue you are. Maybe if you two spent some time together-"

"Mom!" I shouted, blinking rapidly. "Jake and I are never going to be more than what we are now. I don't even think we can even say we're friends. He has an imprint, And you once told me you can't break that bond."

"He can if he wants to. Look sweetie, all I'm asking is for you to sit down and talk with him. I mean did you even ask him why he merged the packs together?"

I shrugged. "I just assumed it's because he's busy. I mean he spends so much time with the Cullens. He's busy with half and half."

"You know what they say when you assume something," Mom said, rising off of my bed and heading towards the door. "You make an ass out of you and me."

She winked at me and I smirked, never remembering hearing my mother curse. I sighed, wishing with all my might that A) Vampires never came to town and B) That I never phased. Who knows where I would be.

Hi, I'm reporter Leah Clearwater on the scene of an accident... no... I hate the news. And first you must put the cinnamon in the flour and stir until they are perfectly blended... nope. I can't cook whatsoever.

Wherever I would have been, I sure as hell would have been a lot happier than I was now. And hell, I might have even gotten married.

I chuckled at the thought of me in a white dress as I flung my sheets off of me and headed towards the bathroom.

"What are you laughing about?" Seth asked, coming up the stairs.

"Your chest hair," I quipped.

"But I don't have any-" He stopped himself before reaching up to his chest and glaring at me.

"Exactly," I winked, opening the bathroom door and going in. I turned on the shower water as hot as it could go before stripping and getting in.

The water was hot and most likely could have scolded a normal persons 98 degree skin. I however, was enjoying the heat. It felt like every bad dream and worry I carried over the past few days, went down the drain with the soap, shampoo and water. My mind drifted away as the water ran down my head. As I closed my eyes, flashes of images ran through my mind. Lavender rain, vampires, blood, the little girl, Seth killing me.

I snapped my eyes opened, the rest of the shampoo falling from the strands of my hair and into my wide open eyes. I hissed out in pain, rinsing it out quickly and shutting the water off.

I was going crazy. I literally lost it. My lack of sleep has made me into a basket case.

I reached for my towel and wrapped it around my body, trying to get out of the bathroom quickly. I made sure to grab my dirty clothes and ran into my bedroom. I tossed the clothes in the hamper and sat on my bed.

"What is wrong with me?" I asked aloud, running a hand through my wet hair. I glanced up at the large dream catcher on my wall above my bed and glared at it uncomfortably. "And why wont you work!"

I pinched the bridge of my nose and sighed, trying to think of anything that would make these dreams and images stop from invading my mind. It was taking a toll on me and I wasn't sure I could take it much longer. There was no way in hell I was having Jake's baby, but there was no way I was dealing with these dreams anymore.


What am I doing? Why am I here? What could I possibly benefit from knocking at this kid's door?

I reached up, my hand in a fist, ready to knock on Jake's door but I found my self frozen still.

"What am I doing?" I whispered aloud.

"Leah?" Jake asked, walking around the side of the house. Damn it! Why cant I sense him coming anymore? "Hey?"

"Hey," I droned out. "What's up?"

"Nothing much. What are you doing here?"

"I was uh... I was wondering if you wanted to hang out," I said, the words sounding awkward coming out of my mouth.

"Hang out? With you?" Jake asked, one of his eyebrows raised.

"Yeah... um... I have nothing better to do and Seth is hanging out with Quil pen and Embryo so..."

"Uhh... sure..." Jake said, warily.

"I mean unless you're busy," I said quickly. "I mean if you were going to go see the spawn-"

"No!" he almost shouted. "No. I haven't seen Nessie in days. I just.. I can't get that dream out of my head, ya know?"

"Have you had anymore?" I asked, taking a step forward.

"I wish I could say no. I can't sleep anymore. I try but every time I close my eyes, they're there. Waiting for me. I've resorted to running at night."

"Why didn't I think of that?" I said.

Jake shoved his hands in his jeans pockets and sighed. "So... what do you wanna do?"

"Umm..." I had no idea. I just came over her on a whim. I didn't actually have anything planned. Was I supposed to plan something? Is that how these arrangements went? I didn't have friends to hang out with so I had no idea how these type of things go. "How about a race?" Ahh, my old standby. Nothing does a wolf's heart good like a race.

Jake smiled a half-smile, looking at me. "Okay..."

"First one to the cliff wins?" I asked.

"You're on," he smiled. Before I could react he took off, barely brushing past me. As I looked out to where he had gone, a russet colored bushy tail stared back at me. I quickly peeled out of my shirt and shorts, tied them around my ankle, phased and took off.

Cheater, I thought.

You didn't say when we'd start, Jake quipped.

I was about to say go. Some just have to cheat to be the best, don't they? I thought sarcastically.

Says the girl who's behind me, Jake laughed.

I ran faster, my large gray paws digging into the dirt. I finally saw him and pushed harder until I was side by side with him. He looked over at me.

You wanna say that again?

I sped past him, smelling the water of First Beach. I stopped a few feet away from the edge of the cliff and waited for Jake to catch up. The woods were silent, as I glanced around, waiting to hear the pound of paws against ground.

Where are you Jake Wakey? I teased. I waited a few seconds before a loud growl came from my left side.

Here I am! Jake shouted, pouncing on me. We rolled around in the dirt, before I used my hind legs to kick him off of me.

I won! I thought loudly.

By default, Jake thought.

What default? I scoffed.

You... um... you're smaller than me and therefore automatically faster.

Well aren't we the scientist, I joked. Don't be a sore loser. Just admit that I won.

Never

Admit it!

Nope. You try weighing as much as me and still run fast.

Fine, don't admit it! I'll just tell everyone you got your ass kicked by a girl, I laughed.

I walked around in a semi-circle, before sitting down, my tail wagging back and forth. I looked out into the water.

You ever wonder what would happen if we jumped off into the water in wolf form? Jake asked.

Imminent death, I joked.

I'm serious. I mean can we even swim?

I think so. I mean if dogs and wolves can swim, so can we. But I really would rather not test it.

We sat in silence for a few minutes, just looking out at the clear blue sky.

Can I ask you something Leah?

Sure.

Do you ever wonder what it would be like if we hadn't phased?

Yeah, I nodded my large head. All the time. I wonder if I would still be here in La Push or Washington for that fact or if Sam and I still would have been together. Because if there was no wolf gene, then there would be no imprinting.

Is that what you want? He asked

Sam? Marriage? No, I don't want Sam and marriage seems odd to me. I mean can you see me getting married in a white dress? I began to laugh just as I did earlier this morning.

Actually, I can, Jake thought.

What?

I can see you getting married. I mean the white dress, the bouquet, the whole nine yards. And, don't take this the wrong way, but even though you might be one of the most bad ass chicks I know, you're very beautiful. Especially after you phase back. You kinda have this glow. I mean, the rest of us have it too but I mean yours is just... radiant.

I felt Jake recoil, as if he wished he hadn't said that much.

Thanks Jake.

Silence spread between us before Jake spoke.

We should probably head back.

We ran back to Jake's house, taking the short way, and I went behind a bush in his back yard and phased, before slipping my shirt and shorts back on.

My eyes grew heavy and I knew what would happen if I went home. I'd sleep, have a nightmare, and end up staying up for days at a time, only surviving off of caffeine. If neither of us were sleeping, we had to figure something out. I couldn't function like this anymore. I walked from behind the bush and opened my mouth to speak but found the words caught in my throat at the sight of a shirtless Jacob, his pecks twitching slightly as he pulled, a t-shirt over his head. Well this is weird. I've seen all the guys naked before, as they've seen me, so why am I reacting this way. My face and neck felt hot, my mouth felt dry, and my palms were moist. I locked eyes with Jake, praying he didn't notice my change in demeanor.

"Leah, what are you-" he stopped, singling in on me. His eyes almost seemed like they'd switched from innocent, kid Jake to a more dominant, intense, glare. I felt frozen, unable to speak or move away from his stare. I barely breathed as my heart beat faster. My entire body tingled as if fresh blood had just rushed into an non-circulated area. What was this, and why was I so hypnotized by the synchronization of our heartbeats? Almost as soon as the glare appeared in Jake's eyes, it was gone. He shook his head, furrowing his eyebrows in confusion.

"Um... I have to go," he said pointing to his house.

"Yeah," I said in an unusually small voice.

"Uh, See ya."

"See ya," I waved, watching him, go into his house and shut the door behind him.


I sat on my couch, trying to figure out what had just happened between Jake and I. The more I thought. The more I grew tired. As my eyes began to shut, I drifted into a much-needed sleep.


I looked around at the snow-covered field where we fought the newborns the summer before. Wasn't I just here a few months ago, fighting to protect Jake's imprint? I looked around as the packs stood side by side with vampires as the huge dark cloud ahead of us moved faster and faster. It wasn't a cloud, no, it was the Volturi, back for more. Didn't they learn their lesson? Hadn't we already proved that Loch Ness Monster was human enough? Why comeback.

"Carlisle, my friend," the pale one with the weird smile and long black hair said. "There have been some interesting accusations against you and your family."

Okay, what type of Deja Vu was this? Carlisle stepped ahead, his face serious. "Aro, I know the rule against Immortal children and Renesmee isn't one of them. She grows. And we have witnesses

"Is that so?" Aro said, an evil smirk on her face. "So am I to believe that this army you've accumulated is only here to stick up for you and not to fight?

"We mean you no harm," Carlisle said.

Speak for yourself, I thought.

"May I see for myself?" Aro asked.

Bella looked over at Renesmee who was firmly placed between her and Edward. They moved ahead, closer to Aro, Jacob following them.

"They keep the company of werewolves," the blonde one said, cringing in disgust. I felt a growl form in my throat.

"Easy Leah," Sam thought. I really wanted to tell him to fuck off but decided against it.

"These are not children of the moon," Edward explained. "They're shape-shifters.

Wait, what! Mind-rapist, you knew this all along and didn't tell us? And here we were claiming were-brotherhood...

Aro extending his hand towards Renesmee and the freaky mini Bella touched Aro, showing him whatever 'pretty picture' she wanted. He jumped, releasing Renesmee's hand and giving a loud ungodly shriek.

What in the actual fuck was that? Was that a laugh? A scream? A cry for help? The side effects of LSD?

"Remarkable," he said, looking between the weird family. Edward, Bella, Jacob, and Renesmee, backed up, coming back in line with us.

"So you see," Carlisle said, "Renesmee is no immortal child. We did nothing wrong."

I was honestly rooting for Carlisle. He was the only Cullen I could tolerate since he helped Seth. Not to mention, he didn't irritate the hell out of me as much as the others.

"How do we not know that was not an illusion?" The old unemotional vampire said.

"I see Edward and his blushing bride but where is Alice?" Aro asked, clasping his hands together and ignoring his brother. "Perhaps she could shed a little more light on these events."

"I'm here!" The short pixie girl appeared from the side of the field along with her drug pushing hubby. They took their sweet time, making it to Aro before standing in front of him. "I've seen her grow."

"Have you now?" A wicked smirk on Aro's face.

Alice revealed her hand and put it in Aro's. He took it, taking in a deep breath and closing his eyes. We all stared ahead at the vampire dressed in a shower robe before he opened his eyes. Alice snatched her hand away and took a step back. She shook her head quickly, an amazed look on her face.

"You don't care if it's true or not. You're going to destroy us anyways?" she said.

Aro didn't respond, but instead quickly blinked to his left. In a flash, 2 of the other cloaked men, grabbed Jasper, restraining him. He growled, trying to get to his wife. Alice lunged at Aro, only to be knocked down and grabbed by other cloaked men.

"Jacob, go," Bella said, looking at Jake with Renesmee on his back. "Go!"

Jake nodded and began to run off into the woods.

"Take her," Aro mumbled.

"Let her go!" Carlisle screamed, running towards Aro.

"Carlisle!" Esmé shouted, reaching out to her husband.

It was like everything moved in slow motion as Carlisle ran to Aro, jumping in the air at the same time. Aro's lip twitched before he leapt into the air also. As both vampires collided, a snap was heard, and I felt my stomach drop. The tension was thick in the air as my heart pounded in my ear drums. Aro and Carlisle hit the ground, Aro landing on his feet and Carlisle, landing face down in the snow. A wicked grin spread across Aro's face as he looked up, at the Cullens, Carlisle's lifeless head, hanging from his hands.

"No!" Esmé cried out.

That was when all hell broke loose.

I don't know who was the first to charge, but I knew that I was probably the first wolf to begin running. Seth was probably the second. My paws dug into the snow as I ran ahead, ready to kick some serious vampire ass.

As the two groups of supernatural creatures collided, I ran into one of the cloaked vampires, ripping his head off. Who said it took more than one wolf to take down a vampire?

I moved onto the next, concentrating solely on killing as many of these cloaked leeches as possibly. I felt a bit of a tingle and turned to the short blonde vampire with ruby-red eyes, glaring at me.

Yeah, bitch, your little power doesn't work now, does it!

She looked frightened. I knew she couldn't fight, I knew she couldn't fight and she knew we knew she couldn't fight.

I glanced at Bella, thankful for her for the first time in my life, ever.

For a split second, I felt Bella's shield weaken and I noticed her put all her energy on Edward.

That's when I felt it. The tear. I'd heard stories about the tear a wolf feels when one of their pack members die. I felt it. Like someone had literally taken my heart out and tore a piece of it off. But it was worse. Because as I looked over to which of my pack brothers was being taken out of this world, I saw Seth, on the ground, crying out in pain.

"Leah!" he called to me.

"Seth!" I screamed, running over to him. A vampire jumped on Seth's back, snapping his neck in one move.

I felt my entire body break down, my literal will to live stop. My body felt slower as I stared at my brother's limp body, in the snow.

"Leah! Watch out!" A voice shouted out.

I turned around slowly as a vampire tried to get me from behind. And I was gonna let him take me out. What was the point? Jake jumped onto the vampire, ripping it's head off.

"Jake? What are you doing here? Where's Renesmee?" I asked.

Before he could answer, the ground shook and a massive cracked formed in the middle of the field. Molten lava could be heard bubbling in the bottom of it.

"Leah, you have to get up," he ordered.

I looked down at Seth and cried out. "I cant. Look at him Jake. Seth."

"I know," he said. "But you have to get up."

I slowly stood up on my 4 legs and tried to find the stamina to go on. "Where's Renesmee?" I asked again.

"She's safe," he said. "Now let's go."

We began running in opposite directions, taking out whoever we could find. I spotted the vampire who had taken out Seth, a growl forming in my throat.

Jake read my thoughts on what I planned to do. "Leah, no!"

I ignored him and charged the vampire, just as he was about to kill Esmé, tackling him, taking him into the lava filled hole in the ground with me. My life flashed before my eyes as I fell down slowly. What had I done with my life? Nothing? I hadn't gone to college, I never got married, I had no real friends, I've never even left the town I grew up in. And I never had children. That last one stung a bit more than I expected. Did having kids mean that much to me? I never got the chance to answer my question as I hit the lava, feeling the last tear in my heart. The tear of when you, yourself die.


I popped up on the couch, my forehead sweating, and my body shaking violently. That was too real. All too real. I felt my throat tighten, and tears sting my eyes. I ran upstairs, pounding on Seth's door.

He opened it, quickly, a video game controller in his hand.

"Lee, what is it-" I cut him off by pulling him into a deep hug.

"I love you Seth," I whispered. Seth tensed at my confession and close proximity.

"Umm... I love you too Leah," He pulled away.

"Dude," Quil said from Seth's floor. "What's up with your sister?"

I wiped my eyes, smiling at them before running down the stairs and out of the house. Sure, I was being irrational, and I might regret this tomorrow but that dream got me thinking. If I died today, what would they say I did with my life besides fight vampires?

I finally made it to my destination, knocking on the door heavily.

"Leah?" Billy said, opening it slowly. "Are you okay?"

"I'll do it." I blurted out.

"What?"

"I said I'll do it. I'll have the baby."


A/N: Kind of a cliffy. So these dreams got Leah thinking a bit irrationally right? Next chapter she gets more sense but not in the extreme way she was in the beginning of the story.

*WARNING BREAKING DAWN PT.2 SPOILER AHEAD*

Yes, for those of you who saw Breaking Dawn Pt. 2, that dream was from the movie. I literally screamed and threw random shit at the screen and that was just when they killed Carlisle and Seth. When Leah died, that's when my entire life shattered. like no lie, tears. I was crying. My friends were laughing and kept telling me it wasnt that serious but I asked them, how would you feel if the writers changed stuff around so that your favorite character gets killed in a vision that Alice isnt even supposed to be having because wolves are around her? Let's just say, I walked out of the theatre alone that night. Intense.

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